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In Which Affairs Of The Heart Are Exceptionally Difficult.

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  1. 00:57 soulHooks joined the side memo
  2. 00:57 stanzicApparati has joined the side-memo!
  3. 00:57 stanzicApparati SO...tHings...
  4. 00:57 stanzicApparati I aM oN mY tHird sEsson nOw. STill pRe-eNtry, tHough.
  5. 00:58 stanzicApparati BUt ZOG aNd NOah aRe hEre.
  6. 00:58 soulHooks noah's the fluffy kid, right?
  7. 00:59 stanzicApparati extravagantGesture, yeah
  8. 00:59 stanzicApparati He's...hell, it's gonna hurt when we have to go through the door.
  9. 00:59 stanzicApparati And he woke me up early, too.
  10. 01:00 soulHooks nice of him.
  11. 01:00 stanzicApparati Yeah.
  12. 01:00 stanzicApparati Friggin' gogsend, too.
  13. 01:00 stanzicApparati I've got no sopor here.
  14. 01:00 stanzicApparati Been sleeping dry since I got here.
  15. 01:01 soulHooks oh, i forget you're a troll.
  16. 01:01 stanzicApparati And ZOG got tossed in a pond when she went through the door to end up here.
  17. 01:01 soulHooks must be because you're so much more charming than most of them. ;3
  18. 01:01 stanzicApparati ...mostly troll, yeah.
  19. 01:01 stanzicApparati Aww, sweet of you.
  20. 01:01 soulHooks haha.
  21. 01:02 soulHooks i don't think i know zog.
  22. 01:02 stanzicApparati She's a VUX.
  23. 01:02 soulHooks ... a what now?
  24. 01:02 stanzicApparati Originally....I think Knight? Of Rhyme.
  25. 01:02 stanzicApparati One-eyed tentacled alien, more or less.
  26. 01:03 stanzicApparati Most VUX are...well
  27. 01:03 soulHooks oh. well.
  28. 01:03 soulHooks that's a thing, then.
  29. 01:03 stanzicApparati They're a little xenophobic
  30. 01:03 stanzicApparati in the way that, y'know
  31. 01:03 stanzicApparati Prospit's a little bright.
  32. 01:03 stanzicApparati ZOG isn't, though.
  33. 01:04 soulHooks that's cool.
  34. 01:05 soulHooks glad you've got a nice weird tentacle alien, at least.
  35. 01:05 stanzicApparati Heh.
  36. 01:05 stanzicApparati She's....really excitable.
  37. 01:05 stanzicApparati Really happy to be in a session with someone who likes her, too.
  38. 01:06 soulHooks that's always a good thing, yeah.
  39. 01:06 soulHooks did people not like her in her last one?
  40. 01:06 stanzicApparati She's on her second session right now.
  41. 01:07 stanzicApparati Her coplayers started shunning her once they realized that the chat's full of aliens and ZOG really didn't have a problem with talking to aliens.
  42. 01:07 stanzicApparati Irony is, she's probably the only one of them who's best equipped to survive the damned game.
  43. 01:07 soulHooks her coplayers being other as-xenophobic-as-prospit's-bright vux?
  44. 01:07 stanzicApparati Yep.
  45. 01:08 stanzicApparati Dunno what's happened to the others.
  46. 01:08 stanzicApparati Wouldn't surprise me if they aren't surviving well, but...I kinda hope they're okay? More or less, anyways.
  47. 01:08 stanzicApparati I'd rather not have to tell ZOG that she's the last VUX standing, y'know?
  48. 01:09 soulHooks yeah...
  49. 01:09 soulHooks i don't know how eleria handles it.
  50. 01:09 stanzicApparati I dunno.
  51. 01:09 soulHooks i think the rest of her first session was humans.
  52. 01:09 stanzicApparati Probably.
  53. 01:09 stanzicApparati Mine was...well. Half troll, half human.
  54. 01:09 soulHooks so she's the only giant in any universe.
  55. 01:10 stanzicApparati Sucks.
  56. 01:11 stanzicApparati Dunno if it sucks more or less than my situation, but it definitely sucks.
  57. 01:12 stanzicApparati And augh, I am not doing the misery bulge contest thing.
  58. 01:12 stanzicApparati That is not what is happening here.
  59. 01:12 stanzicApparati New topic.
  60. 01:12 soulHooks hahaha.
  61. 01:12 soulHooks third session, right?
  62. 01:12 stanzicApparati Yeah.
  63. 01:12 soulHooks weren't you just on your first?
  64. 01:13 stanzicApparati From everyone else's perspective, yes.
  65. 01:13 stanzicApparati From mine...
  66. 01:13 stanzicApparati Linearly, it'd been eight months since I talked to anyone on the chat or the forums.
  67. 01:13 stanzicApparati Experientially, more like two and a half sweeps.
  68.  
  69. (12:18:59 AM) soulHooks: holy shit.
  70. (12:19:14 AM) stanzicApparati: Mmh.
  71. (12:19:38 AM) stanzicApparati: And I rolled Knight.
  72. (12:19:45 AM) stanzicApparati: Y'know. For that extra level of kids and fun.
  73. (12:20:04 AM) soulHooks: shiiiit.
  74. (12:20:09 AM) soulHooks: sympathies.
  75. (12:20:28 AM) soulHooks: i'm glad you're back on the system.
  76. (12:20:34 AM) stanzicApparati: So am I.
  77. (12:20:45 AM) stanzicApparati: Glad I can hear again, too.
  78. (12:21:35 AM) stanzicApparati: I'd forgotten how good music could sound, y'know?
  79. (12:23:33 AM) stanzicApparati: And of course, I come back in time to find out that Brahim's rolled Sand.
  80. (12:24:04 AM) stanzicApparati: I dunno why I ever hoped to have neat quadrants, honestly.
  81. (12:24:53 AM) soulHooks: idk
  82. (12:25:00 AM) soulHooks: you and toni seemed to be doing ok
  83. (12:25:06 AM) soulHooks: where is she anyway?
  84. (12:25:15 AM) soulHooks: i haven't seen her in weeks, feels like
  85. (12:25:46 AM) stanzicApparati: Same session as Brahim.
  86. (12:25:48 AM) stanzicApparati: She rolled Ward of Law.
  87. (12:26:03 AM) stanzicApparati: I've been having trouble getting hold of her too.
  88. (12:26:48 AM) stanzicApparati: And...we're working on some things. Trying to spend more time together when we're both online at the same time.
  89. (12:27:15 AM) stanzicApparati: I think it has been weeks since you talked to her, though.
  90. (12:28:36 AM) stanzicApparati: Also, I would like to note that I'm still gonna break your foot or something if you hurt her.
  91. (12:28:47 AM) stanzicApparati: That's never really stopped being a thing that'll happen.
  92. (12:30:48 AM) stanzicApparati: But, y'know.
  93. (12:31:04 AM) stanzicApparati: My eight's gonna be Vengeful Timewolf for Reasons. So.
  94. (12:31:36 AM) soulHooks: i'd have to have talked to her, like, at all since you first threatened me to hurt her
  95. (12:31:45 AM) soulHooks: about hurting her
  96. (12:31:46 AM) soulHooks: sorry
  97. (12:31:59 AM) stanzicApparati: You seriously haven't talked to her at /all/ since then?
  98. (12:32:01 AM) stanzicApparati: Dude.
  99. (12:32:02 AM) soulHooks: i can't do words, apparently
  100. (12:32:08 AM) stanzicApparati: That was, like, back in my first session.
  101. (12:32:11 AM) soulHooks: yeah
  102. (12:32:13 AM) soulHooks: i know
  103. (12:32:27 AM) soulHooks: by "weeks" i mean like
  104. (12:32:33 AM) soulHooks: maybe 10
  105. (12:32:37 AM) soulHooks: or more
  106. (12:32:45 AM) soulHooks: basically by weeks i mean months
  107. (12:33:14 AM) stanzicApparati: Noted.
  108. (12:33:39 AM) stanzicApparati: Avoidance may or may not be better than the mess I'm probably making of my flush quadrants, though.
  109. (12:33:44 AM) stanzicApparati: I honestly don't know any more.
  110. (12:34:32 AM) stanzicApparati: Generally both my concupiscent quadrants, really.
  111. (12:35:13 AM) soulHooks: well
  112. (12:35:19 AM) soulHooks: sometimes a little space is nice
  113. (12:35:50 AM) soulHooks: at this point sometimes it feels like eleria and i pretty much share our skin with each other
  114. (12:35:57 AM) soulHooks: it's driving me a little nuts
  115. (12:36:02 AM) stanzicApparati: Mm.
  116. (12:36:19 AM) soulHooks: especially when she's in a bad mood
  117. (12:36:28 AM) stanzicApparati: I shared a hive with Toni since I was about five sweeps old.
  118. (12:36:29 AM) soulHooks: like she basically has been since the last time she talked to tens
  119. (12:36:41 AM) stanzicApparati: It feels weird to /not/ have someone with me.
  120. (12:36:48 AM) stanzicApparati: Sorta.
  121. (12:37:34 AM) stanzicApparati: ...hnn.
  122. (12:37:45 AM) stanzicApparati: Did the whatever-the-hell-you-did make her Otherwise?
  123. (12:37:51 AM) stanzicApparati: Would this be a safe assumption to make?
  124. (12:38:32 AM) soulHooks: i think so. a little.
  125. (12:38:37 AM) stanzicApparati: ...yeah.
  126. (12:38:38 AM) stanzicApparati: Uh
  127. (12:38:39 AM) soulHooks: but it's buried deep.
  128. (12:38:47 AM) stanzicApparati: You're aware that Tens is a leetle bit Angelic?
  129. (12:38:51 AM) stanzicApparati: Like, not willingly, but.
  130. (12:39:03 AM) stanzicApparati: Enough so that he starts singing if he gets stressed.
  131. (12:39:12 AM) stanzicApparati: Knows angeltongue.
  132. (12:39:13 AM) soulHooks: uhhh
  133. (12:39:14 AM) stanzicApparati: That kinda thing.
  134. (12:39:22 AM) soulHooks: i think it's more that he's being an asshole to her
  135. (12:39:32 AM) stanzicApparati: Well, it's tenthe.
  136. (12:39:36 AM) stanzicApparati: He does that sometimes.
  137. (12:39:38 AM) stanzicApparati: But
  138. (12:39:41 AM) stanzicApparati: alternate option
  139. (12:39:49 AM) soulHooks: usually not to people he told that he's in love with them
  140. (12:39:53 AM) soulHooks: afaik
  141. (12:39:56 AM) stanzicApparati: they're now carrying two opposing types of corruption
  142. (12:39:59 AM) stanzicApparati: and no--wait what?
  143. (12:40:00 AM) stanzicApparati: what
  144. (12:40:04 AM) stanzicApparati: he said what now
  145. (12:40:05 AM) soulHooks: i mean he's never told me he's in love with me but
  146. (12:40:08 AM) soulHooks: oh
  147. (12:40:11 AM) soulHooks: you didn't know?
  148. (12:40:13 AM) soulHooks: he like
  149. (12:40:15 AM) stanzicApparati: uh
  150. (12:40:16 AM) stanzicApparati: no
  151. (12:40:16 AM) soulHooks: confessed to eleria
  152. (12:40:23 AM) soulHooks: a couple months ago now
  153. (12:40:26 AM) stanzicApparati: it's not exactly something he's gone and told the whole damned chat, y'know?
  154. (12:40:27 AM) tenaciousTheseus: ((Adam: Going to /strangle/ Hooks))
  155. (12:40:42 AM) stanzicApparati: Okay.
  156. (12:40:43 AM) stanzicApparati: So.
  157. (12:40:55 AM) stanzicApparati: He confessed, I'm...guessing she didn't exactly return the feeling...
  158. (12:41:04 AM) soulHooks: hahaha no shit
  159. (12:41:08 AM) stanzicApparati: ...and now they're /also/ carrying two opposing types of corruption
  160. (12:41:14 AM) soulHooks: yeah
  161. (12:41:26 AM) stanzicApparati: so even if she /did/ return the feeling, the idea of being anywhere near him would probably give her the screaming heebie-jeebies
  162. (12:41:36 AM) stanzicApparati: ..oh yeah
  163. (12:41:39 AM) stanzicApparati: this is gonna end well
  164. (12:41:44 AM) soulHooks: dude, eleria was avoiding him even before this
  165. (12:41:55 AM) stanzicApparati: Since he confessed?
  166. (12:42:06 AM) soulHooks: since after he confessed, pretty much
  167. (12:42:13 AM) stanzicApparati: Well, if she doesn't return the feeling, that's not surprising.
  168. (12:42:26 AM) stanzicApparati: Or if she wasn't even sure how she felt.
  169. (12:42:36 AM) soulHooks: she doesn't return the feeling.
  170. (12:42:41 AM) stanzicApparati: K
  171. (12:42:57 AM) soulHooks: he's apparently been kind of framing it like she owes him something for it, you know?
  172. (12:43:03 AM) stanzicApparati: I still say the whole "she is now Otherwise, he's gonna always be a bit Angelic despite -- wait what?
  173. (12:43:04 AM) stanzicApparati: what
  174. (12:43:09 AM) stanzicApparati: I cAll bUllshit
  175. (12:43:18 AM) soulHooks: i dunno
  176. (12:43:26 AM) soulHooks: eleria doesn't save logs
  177. (12:43:32 AM) stanzicApparati: FIne
  178. (12:43:39 AM) stanzicApparati: THen lEt's gEt hIs sIde
  179. (12:43:43 AM) soulHooks: but she's thrown a few computers at the wall after talking to him
  180. (12:43:51 AM) stanzicApparati: BEcause tHis rEeks oF bUllshit
  181. (12:44:09 AM) stanzicApparati: OR aT tHe vEry lEast, sOmething iS oFf hEre
  182. (12:44:17 AM) stanzicApparati: 'cAuse tHat dOes /nOt/ sOund lIke TEnthe
  183. (12:44:40 AM) stanzicApparati: YOu cOol wIth mE iNviting hIm iN hEre?
  184. (12:45:04 AM) soulHooks: not really
  185. (12:45:25 AM) soulHooks: but go for it
  186. (12:45:43 AM) soulHooks: i think i've already burned bridges with him over this shit
  187. (12:45:54 AM) stanzicApparati: ...yEah, pRobably
  188. (12:45:58 AM) soulHooks: "how dare you do exactly what eleria asked you to do!"
  189. (12:46:04 AM) soulHooks: fuck 'im, i say
  190. (12:46:04 AM) stanzicApparati: ...
  191. (12:46:54 AM) musicalDecay is now known as SleepingMoose
  192. (12:47:06 AM) stanzicApparati: ...y'kNow wHat?
  193. (12:47:14 AM) stanzicApparati: nOt gEtting iNto tHis aRgument
  194. (12:47:29 AM) ***stanzicApparati PMs "Tenthe" : (HEy, yOu gOt a mInute oR fIve?)
  195. (12:47:51 AM) ***tenaciousTheseus PMs "Staapp" (Sure, what's up?)
  196. (12:48:22 AM) ***stanzicApparati PMs "Tenthe" : (BEen tAlking tO HOoks, hEard sOme iNteresting tHings.)
  197. (12:48:46 AM) ***tenaciousTheseus PMs "Staapp" (Oh?)
  198. (12:49:28 AM) ***stanzicApparati PMs "Tenthe" : (LOng sTory sHort, yOu wAnna cOme oVer tO #rAndomchatter?)
  199. (12:49:47 AM) ***tenaciousTheseus began responding to the memo!
  200. (12:49:47 AM) stanzicApparati: (( *#randomchatter ? ) ))
  201. (12:49:50 AM) stanzicApparati: HEy.
  202. (12:49:51 AM) stanzicApparati: SO.
  203. (12:50:03 AM) stanzicApparati: SLightly lEss sHortened sTory.
  204. (12:51:22 AM) stanzicApparati: YOu cOnfessed tO ELeria tHat yOu're fLush fOr hEr, sHe...dIdn't eXactly rEturn tHe fEeling, aNd sHe's nOw aCcusing yOu oF fRaming iT lIke sHe oWes yOu fOr hOw yOu fEel.
  205. (12:51:24 AM) stanzicApparati: OR sOmething.
  206. (12:51:34 AM) stanzicApparati: THe lAst bIt rEeks oF bUllshit, bY tHe wAy.
  207. (12:51:37 AM) tenaciousTheseus: What
  208. (12:51:38 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I
  209. (12:51:41 AM) tenaciousTheseus: /What/
  210. (12:51:42 AM) tenaciousTheseus: ᴡʜᴀᴛ
  211. (12:51:54 AM) stanzicApparati: yEah, tHat...fUck, gO hUg sOmeone pLease
  212. (12:52:09 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I have a bloodshake
  213. (12:52:16 AM) stanzicApparati: OKay
  214. (12:52:22 AM) tenaciousTheseus: That's not how I meant it at /all/
  215. (12:52:27 AM) stanzicApparati: pRobably a gOod iDea tO gEt a hUg tOo, tHough
  216. (12:53:00 AM) soulHooks: ok so like
  217. (12:53:04 AM) soulHooks: i just wanna know
  218. (12:53:12 AM) soulHooks: did you think any part of this through at all ever
  219. (12:53:28 AM) stanzicApparati: ANd lIke I sAid, iT rEeks oF bUllshit - I rEally cAn't sEe yOu tRying tO dO tHe wHole "I aM fLush fOr yOu, yOu mUst rEturn mY fEels" tHing.
  220. (12:53:44 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Apparently not enough
  221. (12:53:56 AM) tenaciousTheseus: It took me forever to just get up the nerve
  222. (12:54:45 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Argh
  223. (12:55:59 AM) soulHooks: it took you forever to work up the nerve to tell the girl who thinks humans are better than her and that will 95% of the time reflexively try to avoid disappointing or angering someone that you like her
  224. (12:56:36 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Funny how logic never seems to come into situations like these
  225. (12:56:46 AM) soulHooks: and then you tell her right before she's gonna try and find some kind of peace and meaning
  226. (12:56:54 AM) stanzicApparati: ...
  227. (12:56:56 AM) soulHooks: gosh
  228. (12:57:01 AM) tenaciousTheseus: ...
  229. (12:57:20 AM) soulHooks: i sure don't know how she could feel pressured by your affection!!!!!!!
  230. (12:57:24 AM) stanzicApparati: IF yOu aTtempt tO sPin tHis aS bEnevolent, I wIll hElp hIm fInd a wAy tO bReak yOur kNeecaps cRoss-sEssion, 'kAy?
  231. (12:57:38 AM) stanzicApparati: YOu SHinyfucked hEr.
  232. (12:57:45 AM) tenaciousTheseus: You /sold/ /her/ to the /Others/
  233. (12:58:08 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Remind me how this is supposed to be a good thing?
  234. (12:58:15 AM) soulHooks: it's not
  235. (12:58:18 AM) soulHooks: but she's alive
  236. (12:58:22 AM) soulHooks: and so will silent be
  237. (12:58:37 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Silent's /already/ not going to do what you said for her to do
  238. (12:58:38 AM) soulHooks: and that's pretty much the best thing that's happened to eleria
  239. (12:58:44 AM) stanzicApparati: REally.
  240. (12:58:54 AM) soulHooks: in like
  241. (12:59:10 AM) soulHooks: god fucking DAMMIT do you even KNOW anything about the girl you're ~in love with~
  242. (12:59:15 AM) stanzicApparati: YOu're aWare tHat bRoken kNeecaps aRe eXtremely pAinful, yEs?
  243. (12:59:18 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Yes, I know
  244. (12:59:29 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I know that she's a Nephilim, and that she was ostracized \
  245. (12:59:54 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I know that she was treated as different and shunned because of the innate Angelic charge
  246. (1:00:05 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I know she felt /unloved/ and /useless/
  247. (1:00:33 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I thought she was going to disappear forever, and I didn't want her to go to that thinking that
  248. (1:01:22 AM) soulHooks: do
  249. (1:01:26 AM) soulHooks: do you know
  250. (1:01:32 AM) soulHooks: fucking hell
  251. (1:01:51 AM) soulHooks: do you know. what happened. the last time she saw someone fall in love with an angel.
  252. (1:01:58 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I can imagine
  253. (1:02:10 AM) soulHooks: no. tell me what you think happened.
  254. (1:02:16 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Fine
  255. (1:02:17 AM) tenaciousTheseus: It was her mother
  256. (1:02:24 AM) tenaciousTheseus: She died, burnt out
  257. (1:02:29 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Eleria blames herself
  258. (1:02:33 AM) tenaciousTheseus: That about right?
  259. (1:02:39 AM) soulHooks: yes.
  260. (1:03:07 AM) soulHooks: because angels don't care about things like that.
  261. (1:03:14 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Hooks
  262. (1:03:24 AM) soulHooks: eleria watched her mother slowly starve to death
  263. (1:03:32 AM) soulHooks: because she couldn't have the man she loved
  264. (1:03:35 AM) soulHooks: and YOU,
  265. (1:03:35 AM) bombasticGrasshopper left the room (quit: Quit: http://www.mibbit.com ajax IRC Client).
  266. (1:03:42 AM) soulHooks: you think telling eleria you love HER
  267. (1:03:56 AM) soulHooks: is any kind of comfort?
  268. (1:04:03 AM) soulHooks: is any kind of kindness?
  269. (1:04:12 AM) soulHooks: when she knows she doesn't love you?
  270. (1:04:21 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Then I'll move on
  271. (1:04:27 AM) soulHooks: when she knows that she's a step away from leaving?
  272. (1:04:30 AM) tenaciousTheseus: That's what I'm planning on doing
  273. (1:04:35 AM) tenaciousTheseus: It'll hurt
  274. (1:04:37 AM) tenaciousTheseus: It does hurt
  275. (1:04:44 AM) tenaciousTheseus: But I'm not about to kill myself over it
  276. (1:04:48 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Feel free to tell her that
  277. (1:05:05 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I don't want her to die because I was here and she didn't get the help she needed
  278. (1:05:51 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Is there anything else?
  279. (1:06:01 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Any more justification for selling her up the river?
  280. (1:06:09 AM) stanzicApparati: BOth oF yOu aRe bEing sTupid aNd I wAnt tO hIt yOu oVer tHe hEad wIth a sHoe.
  281. (1:06:24 AM) stanzicApparati: I fEel tHis nEeds sAying.
  282. (1:06:30 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Duly noted
  283. (1:06:50 AM) soulHooks: [>Hooks: do not reply, because you are curled up and rubbing your face with both hands.]
  284. (1:08:33 AM) soulHooks: ... stanzic.
  285. (1:08:40 AM) soulHooks: what's this look like from where you're sitting.
  286. (1:08:53 AM) stanzicApparati: WHat sPecific "tHis"?
  287. (1:09:03 AM) soulHooks: i don't know.
  288. (1:09:04 AM) soulHooks: all this.
  289. (1:09:05 AM) stanzicApparati: THere's aT lEast tHree tHat I cAn tHink yOu're rEferring tO.
  290. (1:10:18 AM) stanzicApparati: BUt
  291. (1:13:03 AM) stanzicApparati: I tHink wHat yOu dId tO ELeria iS uNjustifiable. I tHink tHat yOu /tRying/ tO jUstify iT iS kInd oF sIck.
  292. (1:13:30 AM) stanzicApparati: AT tHe sAme tIme I cAn /uNderstand/ yOur rEasons fOr dOing iT, wHich dOesn't rEally cHange tHe fAct tHat I tHink iT's sIck aNd wRong.
  293. (1:14:18 AM) stanzicApparati: I aLso tHink tHat TEnthe's bEing oVerdramatic wIth tHe wHole "I aM gOing tO lEave tHe cHat" tHing.
  294. (1:14:33 AM) stanzicApparati: ANd I wIll fInd a wAy tO sLap hIm wIth a fLounder iF hE tRies iT.
  295. (1:15:05 AM) stanzicApparati: ANd I tHink tHat ELeria sHouldn't lEave eIther.
  296. (1:15:19 AM) stanzicApparati: EVen iF I cAn't eXactly sLap hEr wIth rIdiculously lArge fIsh iF sHe tRies.
  297. (1:15:26 AM) soulHooks: she's not going to come back when-- wow, the fuck
  298. (1:15:49 AM) soulHooks: "when people will call me Adam's Eleria and he doesn't correct them" she says
  299. (1:15:51 AM) SleepingMoose left the room (quit: Quit: http://www.mibbit.com ajax IRC Client).
  300. (1:16:02 AM) stanzicApparati: dUde wHat?
  301. (1:16:06 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Fucking
  302. (1:16:10 AM) soulHooks: idek
  303. (1:16:16 AM) ***tenaciousTheseus sighs
  304. (1:16:17 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Yes
  305. (1:16:20 AM) tenaciousTheseus: That was my fault
  306. (1:16:30 AM) tenaciousTheseus: arthou called her that
  307. (1:16:45 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I didn't correct her because I was busy realizing that she wasn't completely mindless
  308. (1:16:55 AM) tenaciousTheseus: And my brain had sort of taken a lurch
  309. (1:17:24 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Tell her I'm sorry for that
  310. (1:19:23 AM) soulHooks: ... uh, yeah, i'll do that.
  311. (1:19:31 AM) ***soulHooks is now AFK
  312. (1:19:46 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I didn't mean right this second, but whatever
  313. (1:20:11 AM) stanzicApparati: I sUspect sHe's rEading oVer hIs sHoulder.
  314. (1:20:25 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Mmm
  315. (1:20:45 AM) stanzicApparati: I aM sErious aBout sLapping yOu wIth a fIsh, bTw.
  316. (1:21:01 AM) tenaciousTheseus: That's not what I meant to say
  317. (1:21:06 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Man, I seem to be doing that a lot
  318. (1:21:22 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I didn't mean that I was going to leave forever
  319. (1:21:28 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Just when she showed up
  320. (1:21:44 AM) stanzicApparati: OKay, bEtter.
  321. (1:22:56 AM) ***soulHooks is no longer afk
  322. (1:23:03 AM) ***soulHooks turned on voice to text
  323. (1:24:06 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Hello
  324. (1:24:23 AM) soulHooks: "Guess that was me just me deluding myself again".
  325. (1:24:24 AM) stanzicApparati: HEy.
  326. (1:24:30 AM) soulHooks: I can't read what you're saying.
  327. (1:24:46 AM) soulHooks: "Whatever."
  328. (1:25:01 AM) soulHooks: When I say I am not yours, you say /whatever/.
  329. (1:25:23 AM) soulHooks: When I say I am not doing a thing for you, you say /whatever/.
  330. (1:26:05 AM) soulHooks: Do you know what?
  331. (1:26:09 AM) soulHooks: I can say that to.
  332. (1:26:15 AM) soulHooks: You say that you are sorry?
  333. (1:26:28 AM) soulHooks: I say to thee, oh singer:
  334. (1:26:38 AM) soulHooks: Whatever.
  335. (1:27:16 AM) ***soulHooks shut the computer!
  336. (1:28:10 AM) ***tenaciousTheseus sighs
  337. (1:28:19 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Fuck
  338. (1:28:32 AM) stanzicApparati: WEll tHen.
  339. (1:29:01 AM) ***soulHooks opened the computer
  340. (1:29:30 AM) soulHooks: ... i think i'm gone now. sorry, guys.
  341. (1:29:35 AM) soulHooks: well.
  342. (1:29:40 AM) soulHooks: sorry, stanzic.
  343. (1:29:46 AM) soulHooks: not sorry to you, tens.
  344. (1:29:57 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Yeah, I don't think I care
  345. (1:30:02 AM) stanzicApparati: GOnna bEat yOu /bOth/ wIth fIsh, I sWear
  346. (1:30:06 AM) ***soulHooks left the side-memo!
  347. (1:32:56 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Welp
  348. (1:33:03 AM) tenaciousTheseus: This has been a thing
  349. (1:33:14 AM) tenaciousTheseus: No idea what to do now
  350. (1:33:14 AM) stanzicApparati: IT
  351. (1:33:18 AM) stanzicApparati: cErtainly hAs, yEah
  352. (1:33:27 AM) tenaciousTheseus: You think I should do anything besides just
  353. (1:33:35 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Not have anything to do with them?
  354. (1:33:47 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I don't see any way they're going to forgive me
  355. (1:34:29 AM) stanzicApparati: HOnestly, mY fEeling rIght nOw iS "aLl oF yOu aRe bEing sTupid aNd yOu sHould kNock iT oFf oR I wIll mAke yOu kNock iT oFf"
  356. (1:34:44 AM) stanzicApparati: THus tHe tHreat tO bEat yOu wIth fIsh.
  357. (1:35:37 AM) stanzicApparati: ANd nO, ELeria pRobably iSn't gOing tO fOrgive yOu aNy tIme sOon.
  358. (1:35:54 AM) stanzicApparati: FIrst sTep wOuld bE yOu sHowing tHat yOu're sErious aBout bEing sOrry.
  359. (1:36:24 AM) stanzicApparati: SEcond sTep iS sOmeone wHo's nOt HOoks tAking a lOok aT hEr SHiny aNd fIguring oUt wHat tHe hEll hE dId aNd iF iT cAn bE uNdone.
  360. (1:36:57 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Oh yeah, that's going to go over well
  361. (1:37:02 AM) stanzicApparati: YEah.
  362. (1:37:27 AM) stanzicApparati: AT tHe /vEry/ lEast, iT's gOnna hAve tO wAit 'tIll sHe's nOt iN sEssion wIth hIm aNy mOre.
  363. (1:38:51 AM) stanzicApparati: ANd iT's pRobably gOnna bE tRicky, sInce I dOn't sEe hEr bEing wIlling tO lEt sOmeone uNdo iT.
  364. (1:39:48 AM) tenaciousTheseus: No, she isn't
  365. (1:40:09 AM) stanzicApparati: ...yEp
  366. (1:40:33 AM) stanzicApparati: tHis iS gOnna bE mOre fUn tHan fIguring oUt hOw tO dEal wIth HEries.
  367. (1:40:57 AM) tenaciousTheseus: [Adam: Remember last night. Smile]
  368. (1:41:45 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I'm finding it hard to come up with another option beyond throwing my hands up and not having anything to do with them
  369. (1:42:15 AM) stanzicApparati: [Cyma: Realize you should probably talk with Aunt P' and see what the cost of another deal would be.]
  370. (1:42:34 AM) stanzicApparati: [>Rub at your eyes and sigh.]
  371. (1:43:00 AM) stanzicApparati: IT's aN oPtion, yEah.
  372. (1:43:34 AM) stanzicApparati: MIght bE tHe bEst oNe rIght nOw.
  373. (1:44:39 AM) tenaciousTheseus: Yup
  374. (1:44:48 AM) tenaciousTheseus: If you want to try to save her, fine
  375. (1:44:53 AM) tenaciousTheseus: I am not having any part in it
  376. (1:45:04 AM) tenaciousTheseus: ...Fuck, I'm just
  377. (1:45:08 AM) tenaciousTheseus: See you later
  378. (1:45:17 AM) stanzicApparati: lAter
  379. (1:45:20 AM) ***tenaciousTheseus ceased responding to the memo
  380. (1:45:26 AM) stanzicApparati: ...fuck
  381. (1:45:33 AM) stanzicApparati: fuck fuck fuck fucking /fuck/
  382. (1:46:09 AM) ***soulHooks joined the side-memo
  383. (1:46:16 AM) stanzicApparati: ...hey
  384. (1:46:29 AM) soulHooks: hi.
  385. (1:47:42 AM) soulHooks: is adam gone?
  386. (1:47:56 AM) stanzicApparati: yeah
  387. (1:48:29 AM) stanzicApparati: I'm absolutely going to beat the both of you about the head with the largest fish I can lift.
  388. (1:48:58 AM) stanzicApparati: Because you and he are /both/ being stupid, and it's stupid and just - fuck it, I'm tired of people being stupid like this.
  389. (1:49:29 AM) soulHooks: Oh.
  390. (1:49:39 AM) soulHooks: How's Zephyr being stupid?
  391. (1:49:58 AM) stanzicApparati: ...hello, Eleria.
  392. (1:50:15 AM) soulHooks: Hi.
  393. (1:50:21 AM) stanzicApparati: He's being stupid in that he /shinyfucked/ you.
  394. (1:50:38 AM) soulHooks: ... Thought you only called it that when it wasn't wanted.
  395. (1:50:49 AM) stanzicApparati: And maybe you consented, yeah.
  396. (1:50:57 AM) soulHooks: Demanded.
  397. (1:51:57 AM) stanzicApparati: But the fact of the matter is, he did it for a deal with Them, he would've done it if you wanted him to or not, and he changed you enough that you probably ping as Otherwise now.
  398. (1:52:32 AM) soulHooks: no, he wasn't.
  399. (1:52:43 AM) soulHooks: He thought he could do it.
  400. (1:52:43 AM) stanzicApparati: Really.
  401. (1:52:46 AM) soulHooks: He couldn't.
  402. (1:52:53 AM) stanzicApparati: Mhm.
  403. (1:53:01 AM) stanzicApparati: And he wasn't at all desperate when he was thinking that.
  404. (1:53:30 AM) stanzicApparati: Someone gets desperate enough...
  405. (1:53:36 AM) soulHooks: Why do you think I'm lying?
  406. (1:54:34 AM) stanzicApparati: I just think all of this is deeply stupid.
  407. (1:54:45 AM) stanzicApparati: I can /understand/ why he'd do it. I can understand the desperation.
  408. (1:55:10 AM) soulHooks: ... I won't say it's not stupid.
  409. (1:55:16 AM) stanzicApparati: But that doesn't mean I think that selling you to Them is anything like being in the same /galaxy/ as 'okay'.
  410. (1:55:45 AM) soulHooks: I don't know that it's up to you to make that call.
  411. (1:56:20 AM) soulHooks: Anyway. Maybe this way I'll be able to go to the bubbles.
  412. (1:56:27 AM) stanzicApparati: Maybe.
  413. (1:56:44 AM) stanzicApparati: And maybe it's not up to me to make the call for this situation.
  414. (1:57:13 AM) soulHooks: But?
  415. (1:57:29 AM) stanzicApparati: But sooner or later...it'll probably be up to me to make a similar call.
  416. (1:57:35 AM) stanzicApparati: And
  417. (1:58:59 AM) stanzicApparati: And I hate the fact that I can't see any other option but to make the same one.
  418. (1:59:12 AM) stanzicApparati: I hate myself for it, because I should be able to /find/ another way.
  419. (1:59:26 AM) soulHooks: Oh.
  420. (1:59:39 AM) soulHooks: ... It's not bad.
  421. (1:59:49 AM) soulHooks: I feel... better, now. A little.
  422. (1:59:53 AM) stanzicApparati: ...no, what I'd have to do is worse.
  423. (1:59:59 AM) stanzicApparati: Because at least you're still you, more or less.
  424. (2:00:04 AM) stanzicApparati: As far as I can tell, anyways.
  425. (2:00:15 AM) soulHooks: I don't know how much I am.
  426. (2:00:25 AM) soulHooks: I'm not afraid to say things anymore.
  427. (2:00:45 AM) stanzicApparati: I dunno either.
  428. (2:01:02 AM) stanzicApparati: I'd suggest getting someone to look at your Shiny who isn't Zepyhr, when you get the chance.
  429. (2:01:12 AM) stanzicApparati: But hell if I know you'd let anyone do that.
  430. (2:02:01 AM) soulHooks: Oh.
  431. (2:02:05 AM) soulHooks: I was going to...
  432. (2:02:14 AM) soulHooks: Pipes wanted to see.
  433. (2:02:22 AM) stanzicApparati: Okay.
  434. (2:02:24 AM) soulHooks: I promised to take a picture when we left this session.
  435. (2:02:24 AM) stanzicApparati: That's good, then.
  436. (2:03:12 AM) stanzicApparati: Okay.
  437. (2:03:37 AM) stanzicApparati: ...how much do you know about Heries Croton?
  438. (2:03:47 AM) soulHooks: Heries...
  439. (2:03:57 AM) soulHooks: I don't know.
  440. (2:04:00 AM) soulHooks: Not much, I don't think.
  441. (2:04:02 AM) soulHooks: Why?
  442. (2:04:15 AM) stanzicApparati: 'Cause the Circle wants her dead.
  443. (2:04:25 AM) stanzicApparati: Bad enough that they offered a deal.
  444. (2:05:31 AM) stanzicApparati: Someone kills her? We...the Replay Clan gets safe passage through the Ring. Indefinitely. Probably other things too, but it's been a long time since I heard the terms of the deal.
  445. (2:05:41 AM) stanzicApparati: I remember this bit, though. The exact phrasing for it?
  446. (2:05:51 AM) stanzicApparati: They want the /person/ Heries Croton dead.
  447. (2:06:31 AM) stanzicApparati: Problem is, by the time anyone actually found out...she was already Mike's moirail. She was already starting to try and reform.
  448. (2:06:37 AM) stanzicApparati: Or claiming as much, anyways.
  449. (2:06:47 AM) soulHooks: Oh.
  450. (2:06:51 AM) stanzicApparati: But they've got good reason to want her dead.
  451. (2:07:04 AM) stanzicApparati: And they /hate/ her.
  452. (2:07:10 AM) soulHooks: Can you kill one person to ensure the safety of uncounted masses?
  453. (2:07:32 AM) stanzicApparati: That's the question, isn't it?
  454. (2:07:35 AM) stanzicApparati: And it gets worse.
  455. (2:08:02 AM) stanzicApparati: See, the question then turns into "how do you kill the Person but still leave someone to be Mike's moirail".
  456. (2:09:00 AM) stanzicApparati: And one of the really obvious ways is...using Heart.
  457. (2:09:24 AM) stanzicApparati: Which is where we get to "I hate myself for knowing that I would probably make the same call".
  458. (2:10:23 AM) soulHooks: The game likes making you make choices you don't want to.
  459. (2:10:29 AM) stanzicApparati: Hah.
  460. (2:10:34 AM) stanzicApparati: This isn't /even/ the game.
  461. (2:10:39 AM) stanzicApparati: And the thing is
  462. (2:10:56 AM) stanzicApparati: I had the chance to confront her
  463. (2:12:07 AM) stanzicApparati: but I traded it so that someone else could be cleared of corruption. Given the chance to decide if she wanted to be Aunt P'shor's Speaker forever, without having the ichor messing with her head
  464. (2:12:50 AM) soulHooks: Maybe someone else will make the choice before you can.
  465. (2:12:55 AM) stanzicApparati: Maybe.
  466. (2:13:45 AM) stanzicApparati: But I can't stop thinking - y'know, I /had/ the chance. What if I can make another deal and get it back, get to confront her in a later session?
  467. (2:14:28 AM) stanzicApparati: But Pipes already yelled at me for making the first deal with P'shor.
  468. (2:14:40 AM) stanzicApparati: And...I don't even know what the price would /be/, to get that chance back.
  469. (2:16:24 AM) soulHooks: Mmm.
  470. (2:17:43 AM) soulHooks: ... can I ask you something?
  471. (2:18:20 AM) soulHooks: Do you think Adam really does love me? Or is he in love with some version of me he's put together in his head?
  472. (2:23:40 AM) stanzicApparati: I'm not a mind-reader, so I can't say for sure.
  473. (2:24:00 AM) Bookwyrm: ((I don't think Adam can answer that either))
  474. (2:25:32 AM) stanzicApparati: I mean, to start with, I'd have to know how much of the real you he knows, compared to what he thinks he knows and...yeah. I'd need to be able to read his mind.
  475. (2:25:48 AM) stanzicApparati: Or possibly look at his Shiny, but somehow I don't think that'd actually tell me anything terribly useful.
  476. (2:25:54 AM) stanzicApparati: Too easy, if it would.
  477. (2:25:59 AM) stanzicApparati: But
  478. (2:26:11 AM) stanzicApparati: I think he really does, yes.
  479. (2:26:55 AM) stanzicApparati: I also think he's willing to take what you said at face value. And I wouldn't be surprised if he does his best to try and avoid you, because you said you want nothing to do with him.
  480.  
  481. <<< And sorry, I don't have anything after here. >>
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