Roomu's Cancer

There's a large growth in my lungs that the doctors found through a CT scan. They're not sure whether it's lymphoma (cancer) or an infection (tuberculosis), so they're gonna do some surgery on me and get a sample from my lungs to see what exactly the growth is.

At the time of making this entry, I have no symptoms, but the growth is undeniably still there.

It's alarming, yes, and I am genuinely afraid of what the results may be, but I'd like to stay positive.

I'll update here as things develop. Surgery is on mid April.

-Roomu (April 5, 2024)

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I didn't really want to post until there were results, but I feel like I should update.

Interventional, CT Scan biopsy was a success. Results were inconclusive. They need to perform another lab test, so I need to stall for another week or so.

It's quite frustrating but we're getting somewhere.

Doctor has narrowed it down to cancer or.... nothing. Just a benign tumor, apparently.

Either way, surgery/therapy is still needed, but hopefully it's benign.

-Roomu (April 26, 2024)

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I have cancer, specifically Classical Hodgkin's lymphoma.

Will continue making content until chemotherapy no longer allows it.

-Roomu (May 05, 2024)

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Two sessions of chemotherapy down. Starting to lose hair. Content is still going.

-Roomu (June 29, 2024)

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Nerves on my left arm keep getting fucked up. Hurts like hell to move, but I was able to draw again with some efficascent oil and bandage wraps. Downed some Paracetamol too upon the Doctor's recommendation. Finally able to publish some content.

-Roomu (August 01, 2024)

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Chemotherapy is finally over. Need some time to recover physically, but mentally, I don't think I'm ever gonna get better. Just the sight of IV Drips makes me vomit now. Doctor says there may be some tumors left, but radiotherapy will take care of that. I hope I don't need it, but I still have to mentally prepare myself for the worst.

The only safe thing to assume is that most of the tumors are gone. Side effects of the drugs are still ahold of me, but not for long.

The nightmare is over for now. Hopefully my next few logs will be the last.

I just want to be a normal person again.

-Roomu (November 28, 2024)

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It's been... 3 months since recovery. Back in February, I had Deauville 2 as a result for my PET CT scan. Still couldn't believe it myself so I kinda just... hung around, as if my life didn't have a clear direction. Went back to the rut of going back and forth to work afraid of the relapse that could come in at any second.

I was terrified to say the least, thinking that every simple bad feeling would eventually lead to me being plugged back into hell, my bloodstream flowing with poison that's *just* enough to kill the part of me that needs to die...

Got my results today though. They found a few things... but it's like the difference between knowing your house is a mess versus knowing that parasites have taken nest and are infecting everyone.

It's all clear. Hopefully for good.

I'm a normal person again.

-Roomu (May 8, 2025)