I'm sorry I truly am and I truly mean it when I say I miss you. All those fights we had all the nights you went home because you where mad all the nights we sat on the phone arguing and yelling at each other was my fault and it was the
worst way I could have handled any and every situation. I'm sorry I put you through all of that and hurt you so much. If i could turn the clocks back and go back to those months when we were together I would change everything
I wish I could make everything better but this is the best that I can do for right now unless your willing to let us try again and let me prove that I mean everything that I say.
. All those stupid fights we had on Instagram and the days me and you sat in my old room pissed on two separate ends of the room not talking to each other where almost always my fault. I was always mad about something going on
with my parents or something at home and just anything I was mad at in general would always come back up when me and you fought and I'd let it out on you saying rude and hurtful shit. I wish you'd give me the chance to prove
myself and to prove to you that I've really changed. I know we could make it work finally I've used all this time apart to try and fix myself and find my own inner happiness so that I may project other emotions rather than just anger
constantly. I would genuinely love to see you in my life for the rest of it. I wasn't even able to hold a relationship for more than a few weeks for the hopes that one day I could try with you again. On top of me also not caring to be
around other people. I feel lost in life sometimes without you. Sometimes I'll be in Alyssa's car or my Mom car and I'll look next to me in hopes that one day you'd just magically appear back in the seat next to me like old times.
Magic is not possible but this is the next best thing i could do to try and talk to you. I used to over react to every small thing it would all just anger me so quickly but now at this point in my life if something goes wrong or
somebody does something I don't like ill just move on and not let it bother me. I've learned to not always be angry. I was always looking for something to be mad at because the world was unfair. sounds edgy I know but what else could I say
Danae was telling me you said you want somebody to show you off and I told her I said I would show you off everyday like a god damn trophy. I don't get embarrassed to have you around in public. I loved going out for small walks or you watching
at the skatepark while I attempted to land some trick that I never could do. Some of this might not explain anything to you or help you even reconsider but I'm just bad with words I have a million thoughts going through my head right now
about you and I wish I could but them into words. I miss you and I truly do mean that I'm ready to do whatever it takes to have you back or to get you back. I miss all of the little cute stuff you used to do all the time. We used to be
cuddling and listening to music and you'd sit there shaking back and forth and humming a long to the music we had playing. I miss going to your house and seeing chewy seeing how much he's grown since the last time I saw him makes me sad.
I miss that little shit head cat you had Dante? I think his name is? I miss your mom and your sisters no matter how much they most likely hate me. I miss every aspect of what we used to have and I really hope we can get that back sometime.
I don't see anybody else being in my future if not you. finding somebody new is terrible having to learn everything about another person is terrible. I genuinely don't care to be with anybody that isn't you.