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- Okay. Happy birthday, Mom.
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- - Oh, is that for me?
- - You don't look 40, much less 50.
- 3
- 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:35,280
- Charlie, please.
- But thank you. I appreciate it.
- 4
- 00:00:35,480 --> 00:00:37,528
- - Can I open this now?
- - Yes, open it.
- 5
- 00:00:37,760 --> 00:00:39,762
- Oh, my goodness.
- 6
- 00:00:42,440 --> 00:00:44,807
- - Oh, I love it.
- - Do you like it? Oh, good.
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- 00:00:45,000 --> 00:00:46,331
- It's so beautiful.
- 8
- 00:00:46,560 --> 00:00:48,642
- - You can exchange it.
- - I'm not going to.
- 9
- 00:00:48,840 --> 00:00:51,081
- - You always get me things I love.
- - Good.
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- 00:00:51,320 --> 00:00:54,449
- - Sorry I'm late.
- - Oh, hey. Hey, isn't Lisa coming?
- 11
- 00:00:54,640 --> 00:00:56,051
- No. We split up.
- 12
- 00:00:56,280 --> 00:00:59,443
- Yes, I did notice your status
- popped up to single, yet again.
- 13
- 00:01:01,560 --> 00:01:03,927
- I forgot your present.
- I left it in my locker.
- 14
- 00:01:04,160 --> 00:01:06,970
- That's okay.
- I hope you didn't spend too much.
- 15
- 00:01:07,160 --> 00:01:09,970
- - No, don't worry. He didn't.
- - Where have you been?
- 16
- 00:01:10,160 --> 00:01:13,323
- The ER was like a madhouse.
- One guy came in, six stab wounds.
- 17
- 00:01:13,520 --> 00:01:17,081
- - One missed his heart by an inch.
- - No. Tom, it's dinnertime. Please.
- 18
- 00:01:17,280 --> 00:01:19,169
- - Not yet it isn't.
- - Nearly.
- 19
- 00:01:19,360 --> 00:01:23,160
- - So, what kind of antibiotic do you...?
- - Mom, have you spoken to Lydia?
- 20
- 00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:27,168
- She wanted to be here,
- but she had a really important audition.
- 21
- 00:01:27,360 --> 00:01:30,921
- - What for?
- - A guest spot on some TV thing.
- 22
- 00:01:31,120 --> 00:01:33,726
- - Something Enemy.
- - Maybe this'll be her big break.
- 23
- 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:37,723
- - Yeah, maybe.
- - Don't hold your breath.
- 24
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- Stop it.
- 25
- 00:01:40,160 --> 00:01:44,131
- You guys must have been something
- growing up. Dolls with heads cut off.
- 26
- 00:01:44,320 --> 00:01:46,402
- No, my sister and I were very close.
- 27
- 00:01:46,600 --> 00:01:49,490
- Oh, no. I'm sorry,
- I was talking about Anna and Lydia.
- 28
- 00:01:50,160 --> 00:01:52,481
- My goodness.
- I don't know why I said that.
- 29
- 00:01:52,680 --> 00:01:55,763
- We're here to celebrate you, Mom.
- Dad, what about a toast?
- 30
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- Dad!
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- Toast.
- 32
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- Yes, yes, yes.
- 33
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- To the most beautiful
- and the most intelligent woman...
- 34
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- - ...I have known in my entire life.
- - Thank you.
- 35
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- - Happy birthday.
- - Cheers! Happy birthday!
- 36
- 00:02:12,160 --> 00:02:13,525
- - We love you.
- - I love you.
- 37
- 00:02:13,720 --> 00:02:15,165
- - Cheers.
- - Cheers, darling.
- 38
- 00:02:24,440 --> 00:02:25,930
- My name is Frederick Johnson.
- 39
- 00:02:26,160 --> 00:02:29,164
- I'm associate professor
- of cognitive science here at UCLA.
- 40
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- I'm here to welcome our speaker
- who just flew in from New York.
- 41
- 00:02:32,880 --> 00:02:36,362
- Now, in my dissertation,
- I spent about a chapter and a half...
- 42
- 00:02:36,560 --> 00:02:40,565
- vituperatively citing today's guest
- and saying why she was wrong.
- 43
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- For the record, every time that Alice
- and I have argued, she was right.
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- 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:50,243
- Alice Howland is the Lillian Young
- Professor of Linguistics...
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- 00:02:50,480 --> 00:02:54,087
- at Columbia University. She famously
- wrote her seminal textbook...
- 46
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- From Neurons to Nouns,
- while raising three children.
- 47
- 00:02:57,080 --> 00:02:59,811
- I'm sure getting more than
- a few "A-ha" moments from them.
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- 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:03,163
- And it is now considered
- one of the cornerstones...
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- of linguistics education
- all over the world.
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- Please welcome Dr. Alice Howland.
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- Thank you so much.
- 52
- 00:03:17,840 --> 00:03:21,765
- Most children speak
- and understand their mother tongue...
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- before the age of 4,
- without lessons, homework...
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- or much in the way of feedback.
- 55
- 00:03:27,560 --> 00:03:29,369
- How do they accomplish this feat?
- 56
- 00:03:29,920 --> 00:03:34,323
- This is a question that has interested
- scientists at least since Charles Darwin...
- 57
- 00:03:34,560 --> 00:03:37,848
- kept a diary of the early language
- of his infant son.
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- 00:03:38,040 --> 00:03:41,283
- He observed, "Man has
- an instinctive tendency to speak...
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- as we see in the babble
- of young children."
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- 00:03:44,720 --> 00:03:46,529
- Much has been learned since then.
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- But today I'd like to focus
- on some recent studies from my lab...
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- on the acquisition of past-tense
- irregular verb forms in children...
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- between the ages of 18 months
- and two and a half years.
- 64
- 00:03:58,080 --> 00:04:00,162
- Now, you may say that this falls...
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- into the academic tradition
- of knowing more and more...
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- 00:04:03,560 --> 00:04:07,087
- about less and less
- until we know everything about nothing.
- 67
- 00:04:07,280 --> 00:04:10,648
- But I hope to convince you
- that by observing these baby steps...
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- into the...
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- Into...
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- I... I knew I shouldn't have had
- that champagne.
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- 00:04:25,920 --> 00:04:30,482
- Into the word stock
- of a given language...
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- 00:04:30,680 --> 00:04:32,808
- we will learn crucial information...
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- about the relationship
- between memory and computation...
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- that is the very essence
- of communication.
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- Lexicon.
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- 00:05:23,840 --> 00:05:25,922
- I have that same thought. Makes sense.
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- - I saw it.
- - Yeah, I thought about that.
- 78
- 00:05:34,360 --> 00:05:37,364
- Okay. I'm gonna go down
- and get Shel. I'll be right back.
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- - Hey.
- - Hi.
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- Hey, no, I'm sorry.
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- You just caught me by surprise.
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- Come on in. It's...
- 83
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- It's messy, but, you know,
- I was in the process of cleaning.
- 84
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- It's fine, honey. Don't worry.
- 85
- 00:05:52,280 --> 00:05:55,841
- The boys are total slobs.
- The kitchen is the main battleground...
- 86
- 00:05:56,080 --> 00:05:59,448
- but I've got them in training,
- so we'll see how that goes.
- 87
- 00:06:00,080 --> 00:06:02,924
- - So where are they?
- - Working.
- 88
- 00:06:03,400 --> 00:06:06,006
- Doug's at Starbucks,
- Malcolm does some catering.
- 89
- 00:06:06,200 --> 00:06:08,965
- I guess that's what they mean
- by working actor, huh?
- 90
- 00:06:10,840 --> 00:06:14,561
- - You involved with either one of them?
- - Doug's gay.
- 91
- 00:06:14,760 --> 00:06:18,731
- And Malcolm and I did have a thing,
- but it's over.
- 92
- 00:06:20,560 --> 00:06:22,164
- He got me in with Open Space.
- 93
- 00:06:22,400 --> 00:06:25,324
- - It's, like, the best theater company.
- - Yes, I heard.
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- Oh, thank you. Yeah, I'm done.
- 95
- 00:06:31,640 --> 00:06:34,928
- It would have been awesome
- if you saw No Exit.
- 96
- 00:06:35,280 --> 00:06:39,001
- - Daddy said you were good.
- - I was all right. It wasn't my best night...
- 97
- 00:06:39,200 --> 00:06:42,363
- but at least he could get,
- you know, like, a sense of it.
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- Figure out why he's doing...
- 99
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- you know, me a solid with the company.
- 100
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- What do you mean?
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- 00:06:50,440 --> 00:06:54,365
- - It's really nice of him to help out.
- - How is he helping with the company?
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- 00:06:54,600 --> 00:06:57,331
- It's our responsibility
- as members to raise equity...
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- 00:06:57,560 --> 00:07:00,689
- for the productions we put on.
- Eventually we get a cut...
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- 00:07:00,880 --> 00:07:03,531
- of the box office.
- We're sort of shareholders.
- 105
- 00:07:03,720 --> 00:07:05,802
- So basically you have to pay to act?
- 106
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- No.
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- It's a theater group.
- It's just the reality of the situation.
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- 00:07:12,760 --> 00:07:14,728
- That's how it is. It's Los Angeles.
- 109
- 00:07:14,920 --> 00:07:17,526
- Don't you think it's time
- you reconsidered things?
- 110
- 00:07:17,720 --> 00:07:21,441
- You're so smart. There's much more
- you could be doing with your life.
- 111
- 00:07:21,640 --> 00:07:24,371
- - Like going to college?
- - Yes. Yes. Like college.
- 112
- 00:07:24,560 --> 00:07:28,690
- Like we've never talked about that before.
- Every single day of my life.
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- 00:07:29,680 --> 00:07:33,446
- I figured out what I wanted to do,
- and I'm doing it. It's a good thing.
- 114
- 00:07:33,680 --> 00:07:36,650
- - But on whose dime?
- - You're helping Tom with med school.
- 115
- 00:07:36,840 --> 00:07:41,368
- - You helped Anna with law school.
- - Sweetheart, those are real careers.
- 116
- 00:07:41,600 --> 00:07:43,887
- I just don't want you
- to limit your choices.
- 117
- 00:07:44,840 --> 00:07:47,605
- - You want to make my choices.
- - No, I don't.
- 118
- 00:07:50,000 --> 00:07:52,731
- I'm really happy.
- 119
- 00:07:54,160 --> 00:07:56,242
- I'm sorry. I don't...
- 120
- 00:07:57,280 --> 00:07:59,487
- I don't wanna argue about this.
- 121
- 00:07:59,720 --> 00:08:02,963
- - Just forget I said anything, okay?
- - It's forgotten.
- 122
- 00:08:04,600 --> 00:08:06,841
- - Gonna check your phone?
- - It's just a game.
- 123
- 00:08:07,040 --> 00:08:10,089
- Your sister and I have an obsession
- with "Words with Friends."
- 124
- 00:08:10,280 --> 00:08:12,760
- - That's cute.
- - You don't wanna play with her...
- 125
- 00:08:12,960 --> 00:08:15,645
- - ...she's a demon.
- - I'm not surprised.
- 126
- 00:08:37,360 --> 00:08:39,203
- John?
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- Hi.
- 128
- 00:08:49,760 --> 00:08:51,444
- John?
- 129
- 00:09:45,680 --> 00:09:48,570
- Want one? Here you go.
- 130
- 00:09:49,000 --> 00:09:51,606
- Two for one at the Shoe Warehouse.
- 131
- 00:09:51,800 --> 00:09:54,565
- Two for one, Shoe Warehouse.
- 132
- 00:09:55,480 --> 00:09:57,960
- Two for one at the Shoe Warehouse.
- 133
- 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:49,602
- So... I don't know. That's all he said.
- 134
- 00:10:51,640 --> 00:10:54,564
- Two for one at the Shoe Warehouse.
- Here you go.
- 135
- 00:10:59,960 --> 00:11:03,123
- - One?
- - No, thanks.
- 136
- 00:11:03,920 --> 00:11:05,604
- Ali?
- 137
- 00:11:07,720 --> 00:11:10,803
- - I was wondering where you were.
- - Don't. I'm really sweaty.
- 138
- 00:11:11,600 --> 00:11:13,602
- - How did it go?
- - What?
- 139
- 00:11:13,800 --> 00:11:16,531
- - UCLA.
- - Oh, it was good.
- 140
- 00:11:16,720 --> 00:11:17,846
- They were...
- 141
- 00:11:18,040 --> 00:11:21,328
- - They were really receptive.
- - I'm sure they were.
- 142
- 00:11:21,520 --> 00:11:23,682
- How was Lydia?
- 143
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- Good. You know.
- 144
- 00:11:27,480 --> 00:11:29,448
- You guys argue?
- 145
- 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:34,767
- Well, we spent the whole evening
- trying not to.
- 146
- 00:11:36,200 --> 00:11:40,922
- The news that you're bankrolling
- her theater company didn't help.
- 147
- 00:11:41,120 --> 00:11:43,088
- I told you about that.
- 148
- 00:11:43,280 --> 00:11:45,521
- - You didn't.
- - I thought I did.
- 149
- 00:11:45,960 --> 00:11:48,566
- - You didn't.
- - You're not gonna like this either...
- 150
- 00:11:48,760 --> 00:11:50,762
- but I have things to do at the lab.
- 151
- 00:11:50,960 --> 00:11:54,931
- - Maybe walk me over there right now?
- - No, I don't wanna go back to campus.
- 152
- 00:11:55,120 --> 00:11:58,681
- I just went for a run.
- I really need to be home right now.
- 153
- 00:12:00,440 --> 00:12:03,444
- - Are you okay?
- - Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. I just...
- 154
- 00:12:03,640 --> 00:12:05,927
- You said we were gonna
- spend the evening in.
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- 00:12:06,160 --> 00:12:09,289
- I did. We will. The sooner I go,
- the sooner I'll be back...
- 156
- 00:12:09,480 --> 00:12:12,051
- and we can watch a movie.
- 157
- 00:12:12,560 --> 00:12:15,325
- I'm sorry. I'm just exhausted.
- 158
- 00:12:16,920 --> 00:12:18,843
- Get some rest.
- 159
- 00:12:19,200 --> 00:12:20,964
- Relax.
- 160
- 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:33,964
- I've started forgetting things,
- little annoying things...
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- 00:12:34,160 --> 00:12:35,605
- like words and names.
- 162
- 00:12:35,800 --> 00:12:38,406
- And I got lost, completely lost...
- 163
- 00:12:38,600 --> 00:12:39,726
- running on campus.
- 164
- 00:12:39,920 --> 00:12:42,526
- I talked to my doctor,
- she said it could be menopause.
- 165
- 00:12:42,720 --> 00:12:44,768
- Last time I'd had a period was February.
- 166
- 00:12:44,960 --> 00:12:47,804
- But I had one again, in September,
- before my birthday.
- 167
- 00:12:48,000 --> 00:12:51,163
- Are you taking any pills,
- medication, supplements?
- 168
- 00:12:51,360 --> 00:12:55,445
- I take a multivitamin, flaxseed oil,
- calcium, iron.
- 169
- 00:12:55,640 --> 00:12:58,246
- I occasionally take a sleeping pill
- when I travel.
- 170
- 00:12:58,440 --> 00:13:01,284
- - Have you had any head injuries?
- - No.
- 171
- 00:13:02,080 --> 00:13:06,130
- Would you consider yourself depressed
- or under undue stress at the moment?
- 172
- 00:13:06,320 --> 00:13:08,607
- No. I work a lot, but I thrive on it.
- 173
- 00:13:08,800 --> 00:13:12,122
- - How's your sleeping?
- - It's fine. Like, seven hours a night.
- 174
- 00:13:12,320 --> 00:13:15,324
- Now, I'm gonna ask you to remember
- a name and an address.
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- 00:13:15,560 --> 00:13:17,881
- - I'm gonna ask you for it again later.
- - Okay.
- 176
- 00:13:18,080 --> 00:13:21,971
- John Black,
- 42 Washington Street, Hoboken.
- 177
- 00:13:22,160 --> 00:13:24,401
- - Can you repeat that for me?
- - John Black...
- 178
- 00:13:24,600 --> 00:13:26,887
- 42 Washington Street, Hoboken.
- 179
- 00:13:27,080 --> 00:13:29,606
- - Good. How old are you?
- - I'm 50.
- 180
- 00:13:29,800 --> 00:13:31,882
- - What's today's date?
- - November 26.
- 181
- 00:13:32,120 --> 00:13:34,282
- - Where are we?
- - We are on the third floor...
- 182
- 00:13:34,480 --> 00:13:36,005
- of New York-Presbyterian.
- 183
- 00:13:36,200 --> 00:13:37,770
- Can you spell "water" for me?
- 184
- 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:39,764
- W-A-T-E-R.
- 185
- 00:13:40,000 --> 00:13:43,766
- - Now can you spell it for me backwards?
- - R-E-T-A-W.
- 186
- 00:13:43,960 --> 00:13:46,770
- Can you tell me what you see
- on these cards?
- 187
- 00:13:46,960 --> 00:13:48,291
- Pliers.
- 188
- 00:13:48,480 --> 00:13:50,323
- A ladder.
- 189
- 00:13:50,600 --> 00:13:52,443
- A sea horse.
- 190
- 00:13:52,680 --> 00:13:54,603
- A screwdriver.
- 191
- 00:13:54,880 --> 00:13:56,723
- An elephant.
- 192
- 00:13:57,480 --> 00:14:01,007
- - Tell me about your parents.
- - Well, they're both dead.
- 193
- 00:14:01,200 --> 00:14:04,966
- My mother and my sister died
- in a car crash when I was 18...
- 194
- 00:14:05,160 --> 00:14:08,289
- and my father died in 1999
- of liver failure.
- 195
- 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:10,528
- - Hepatitis?
- - Cirrhosis.
- 196
- 00:14:10,720 --> 00:14:12,131
- He was an alcoholic.
- 197
- 00:14:12,320 --> 00:14:15,051
- And what was he like towards the end?
- 198
- 00:14:15,240 --> 00:14:18,323
- Incoherent. Incontinent.
- 199
- 00:14:18,520 --> 00:14:21,000
- We didn't really see
- a lot of each other.
- 200
- 00:14:21,200 --> 00:14:25,171
- He lived in New Hampshire,
- and we weren't that close.
- 201
- 00:14:25,360 --> 00:14:26,930
- Sorry.
- 202
- 00:14:27,160 --> 00:14:31,563
- - Do you have any other siblings?
- - No. I only had the one.
- 203
- 00:14:31,800 --> 00:14:35,805
- Now, can you tell me that name and address
- that I asked you to remember?
- 204
- 00:14:36,920 --> 00:14:38,285
- John Black.
- 205
- 00:14:38,520 --> 00:14:40,568
- And the address?
- 206
- 00:14:43,720 --> 00:14:45,484
- Damn it, I forgot.
- 207
- 00:14:45,680 --> 00:14:47,569
- Was it 42 Argyle Street...
- 208
- 00:14:47,760 --> 00:14:51,890
- Cole Street, Washington Street,
- or South Street?
- 209
- 00:14:53,920 --> 00:14:57,288
- I was distracted talking about my parents.
- Can we do that again?
- 210
- 00:14:57,480 --> 00:14:59,960
- - There's no need to at this time.
- - Okay.
- 211
- 00:15:00,560 --> 00:15:03,643
- So I'd like to do an MRI,
- just to rule some things out.
- 212
- 00:15:03,880 --> 00:15:05,120
- Like what?
- 213
- 00:15:05,320 --> 00:15:07,800
- Because I think I have a brain tumor.
- 214
- 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:11,607
- A precaution. But it will allow us
- to see if there are any lesions...
- 215
- 00:15:11,840 --> 00:15:15,970
- or any signs of a stroke.
- Just find out what is going on in there.
- 216
- 00:15:17,600 --> 00:15:20,763
- Okay. What should I do in the meantime?
- 217
- 00:15:21,000 --> 00:15:24,482
- Get plenty of exercise. It's always
- good to get the blood pumping.
- 218
- 00:15:24,680 --> 00:15:25,806
- Drink lots of water.
- 219
- 00:15:26,000 --> 00:15:28,207
- Good hydration
- is excellent for the memory.
- 220
- 00:15:28,440 --> 00:15:32,161
- Next time you come and see me,
- bring in someone who knows you well?
- 221
- 00:15:32,360 --> 00:15:35,523
- Your husband or a close relative?
- 222
- 00:15:36,320 --> 00:15:37,765
- Sure.
- 223
- 00:16:14,600 --> 00:16:16,204
- Stethoscope...
- 224
- 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:17,765
- millennium...
- 225
- 00:16:17,960 --> 00:16:19,724
- hedgehog.
- 226
- 00:16:22,360 --> 00:16:23,771
- Okay.
- 227
- 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:25,570
- Okay.
- 228
- 00:16:27,840 --> 00:16:29,649
- Cathode.
- 229
- 00:16:32,560 --> 00:16:36,645
- Pomegranate.
- 230
- 00:16:37,800 --> 00:16:39,643
- Trellis.
- 231
- 00:16:40,840 --> 00:16:42,365
- Okay.
- 232
- 00:16:49,040 --> 00:16:50,804
- Hello.
- 233
- 00:16:51,000 --> 00:16:52,161
- Hi. Come on in.
- 234
- 00:16:52,400 --> 00:16:54,004
- - Hey, Mom. Hi.
- - Hey, hi.
- 235
- 00:16:54,240 --> 00:16:55,446
- Good to see you.
- 236
- 00:16:55,640 --> 00:16:57,642
- - This is Jenny.
- - Hello. I'm Alice.
- 237
- 00:16:57,840 --> 00:16:59,968
- - I'm happy you could join us.
- - Thank you.
- 238
- 00:17:00,200 --> 00:17:02,487
- Of course.
- Sweetheart, why don't you guys...
- 239
- 00:17:02,680 --> 00:17:05,206
- go in there and get a drink,
- and grab the...?
- 240
- 00:17:05,400 --> 00:17:07,607
- The cheese thing and...
- 241
- 00:17:07,800 --> 00:17:08,881
- - All right.
- - Yeah.
- 242
- 00:17:09,080 --> 00:17:10,844
- I'm so happy you could join us.
- 243
- 00:17:11,040 --> 00:17:12,963
- - I really am, Jenny.
- - Thank you.
- 244
- 00:17:13,160 --> 00:17:15,242
- - It smells so good in here.
- - Beautiful.
- 245
- 00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:18,046
- - Yeah.
- - That's how we do it.
- 246
- 00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:22,204
- Okay.
- 247
- 00:17:27,000 --> 00:17:29,082
- How many goddamn eggs?
- 248
- 00:17:31,560 --> 00:17:34,370
- Cathode, pomegranate...
- 249
- 00:17:34,560 --> 00:17:36,608
- trellis?
- 250
- 00:17:37,000 --> 00:17:39,002
- - Hey, Mom.
- - Hi.
- 251
- 00:17:39,240 --> 00:17:41,322
- - Merry Christmas.
- - Oh, merry Christmas.
- 252
- 00:17:41,520 --> 00:17:43,045
- How was your flight?
- 253
- 00:17:43,240 --> 00:17:46,642
- Actually, awful. This guy
- coughed all over me the entire time.
- 254
- 00:17:46,840 --> 00:17:48,888
- - I hope you don't get sick.
- - Me too.
- 255
- 00:17:49,080 --> 00:17:51,367
- - Does this mean what I think it means?
- - Yes.
- 256
- 00:17:51,560 --> 00:17:53,164
- - Bread pudding?
- - Your favorite.
- 257
- 00:17:53,360 --> 00:17:55,203
- - Yes.
- - Mom! Merry Christmas.
- 258
- 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:56,731
- - Hi.
- - Hello.
- 259
- 00:17:56,920 --> 00:18:00,049
- - Seen my latest "Words with Friends"?
- - I haven't had time.
- 260
- 00:18:00,240 --> 00:18:01,366
- - A real zinger.
- - Yeah?
- 261
- 00:18:01,600 --> 00:18:03,284
- - "Jealousy" on a triple.
- - Hey!
- 262
- 00:18:03,480 --> 00:18:05,926
- - Don't spoil it.
- - Already trending on Twitter.
- 263
- 00:18:06,120 --> 00:18:07,451
- How's California?
- 264
- 00:18:07,640 --> 00:18:08,687
- - Nice.
- - Yeah?
- 265
- 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:10,166
- Warmer than here?
- 266
- 00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:13,324
- Yes. Definitely warmer than here.
- 267
- 00:18:13,800 --> 00:18:17,122
- Hey, guys,
- why don't you get out of here...
- 268
- 00:18:17,360 --> 00:18:19,408
- so I can concentrate on making this.
- 269
- 00:18:20,040 --> 00:18:21,280
- Okay?
- 270
- 00:18:21,480 --> 00:18:23,687
- - Where's Dad?
- - He's upstairs.
- 271
- 00:18:23,880 --> 00:18:24,927
- Can I help you?
- 272
- 00:18:25,160 --> 00:18:27,322
- No, I'm fine.
- Go get a drink or something.
- 273
- 00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:30,729
- - It's gonna be delicious. Yum. It will be.
- - Oh, I hope so.
- 274
- 00:18:30,960 --> 00:18:32,325
- I can't wait.
- 275
- 00:18:32,520 --> 00:18:33,885
- - Jenny.
- - Nice to meet you.
- 276
- 00:18:34,080 --> 00:18:36,082
- Nice to meet you too.
- 277
- 00:18:37,240 --> 00:18:38,810
- - Hi, Jenny.
- - How are you?
- 278
- 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:40,809
- I am fine.
- 279
- 00:18:41,000 --> 00:18:42,240
- Honestly.
- 280
- 00:18:42,440 --> 00:18:44,329
- - Hey.
- - Slider.
- 281
- 00:18:48,200 --> 00:18:50,521
- It's a very big decision. We're excited.
- 282
- 00:18:50,720 --> 00:18:52,882
- The place was recommended by friends...
- 283
- 00:18:53,080 --> 00:18:57,404
- who've been trying for years,
- and they just had their first child, so...
- 284
- 00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:58,806
- So we'll see.
- 285
- 00:18:59,000 --> 00:19:01,526
- - I've heard good things about Wellspring.
- - Good.
- 286
- 00:19:01,720 --> 00:19:04,485
- It's expensive,
- but we obviously want it to work.
- 287
- 00:19:04,680 --> 00:19:06,444
- You could be a mom already.
- 288
- 00:19:06,640 --> 00:19:07,846
- I know.
- 289
- 00:19:08,080 --> 00:19:09,411
- - Okay.
- - Are you kidding?
- 290
- 00:19:09,600 --> 00:19:12,729
- - What kind of soup, Mom?
- - Here we go. It's butternut squash.
- 291
- 00:19:12,960 --> 00:19:15,804
- Hi, I'm Alice.
- I'm so happy you could join us.
- 292
- 00:19:17,440 --> 00:19:20,250
- - I'm Jenny.
- - It's really nice to meet you.
- 293
- 00:19:20,440 --> 00:19:22,568
- - Yeah...
- - Well, I think...
- 294
- 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:25,485
- I deserve a glass of wine
- after that, don't you?
- 295
- 00:19:25,720 --> 00:19:27,768
- - You want white?
- - Yes. Thank you.
- 296
- 00:19:27,960 --> 00:19:30,088
- - Does everyone have a glass?
- - Yes, we do.
- 297
- 00:19:30,280 --> 00:19:34,285
- Let's have a toast. To Christmas.
- 298
- 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:36,329
- - Merry Christmas.
- - Merry Christmas.
- 299
- 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:39,171
- - Merry Christmas.
- - Merry Christmas.
- 300
- 00:19:39,400 --> 00:19:41,846
- Now, I don't see anything abnormal
- in your MRI.
- 301
- 00:19:42,040 --> 00:19:44,361
- No cerebral vascular disease...
- 302
- 00:19:44,560 --> 00:19:47,291
- - ...no evidence of strokes, no masses.
- - Thank God.
- 303
- 00:19:47,480 --> 00:19:50,211
- And your blood work came back
- completely clear...
- 304
- 00:19:50,400 --> 00:19:54,769
- but what worries me
- are the memory tests that I sent you for.
- 305
- 00:19:55,000 --> 00:19:59,244
- You have sporadic memory impairment
- totally out of proportion to your age.
- 306
- 00:19:59,440 --> 00:20:03,923
- And there is evidence of decline
- in your level of mental function.
- 307
- 00:20:04,120 --> 00:20:07,124
- I think we should do a PET scan.
- It's similar to an MRI...
- 308
- 00:20:07,320 --> 00:20:09,687
- but it can pick up things
- at the molecular level.
- 309
- 00:20:09,880 --> 00:20:14,010
- I know what a PET scan is, but what
- in particular would you be looking for?
- 310
- 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:19,408
- I wanna see if the results are consistent
- with Alzheimer's disease.
- 311
- 00:20:19,600 --> 00:20:22,922
- Now, it would be rare
- for someone as young as yourself...
- 312
- 00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:26,363
- but you do fit the criteria.
- 313
- 00:20:28,160 --> 00:20:30,686
- Last time, I asked you
- to bring a close relative.
- 314
- 00:20:30,880 --> 00:20:33,281
- I really didn't think
- that would be necessary.
- 315
- 00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:36,245
- Okay. But next time, for sure.
- 316
- 00:20:36,440 --> 00:20:37,885
- Okay?
- 317
- 00:20:39,200 --> 00:20:41,851
- "Enhancement of endogenous levels
- of endorphin...
- 318
- 00:20:42,040 --> 00:20:45,123
- has not been shown
- to reduce incidence of metastasis...
- 319
- 00:20:45,320 --> 00:20:47,084
- in the distant cell sites."
- 320
- 00:20:47,280 --> 00:20:49,681
- - That's not good.
- - Tell me about it.
- 321
- 00:20:49,880 --> 00:20:52,087
- We've been working on this for months.
- 322
- 00:20:52,280 --> 00:20:55,170
- It seems beta endorphin
- doesn't significantly impact...
- 323
- 00:20:55,360 --> 00:20:57,647
- the microphage activity.
- 324
- 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:00,042
- How about the cytokines?
- 325
- 00:21:00,240 --> 00:21:02,971
- Elevated. Slightly.
- 326
- 00:21:04,080 --> 00:21:06,560
- Oh, God. Back to square one.
- 327
- 00:21:10,440 --> 00:21:13,046
- Are we both here on the 17th?
- 328
- 00:21:13,880 --> 00:21:15,405
- I don't remember.
- 329
- 00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:19,685
- Phil and Diane were saying
- they might come to town for the weekend.
- 330
- 00:21:25,720 --> 00:21:28,291
- How long are you going
- to keep at that thing?
- 331
- 00:21:28,480 --> 00:21:30,528
- Till it's clean.
- 332
- 00:22:26,760 --> 00:22:28,330
- John?
- 333
- 00:22:30,640 --> 00:22:32,847
- John, sweetheart, wake up.
- 334
- 00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:40,328
- - What time is it?
- - I need to talk to you.
- 335
- 00:22:42,360 --> 00:22:43,930
- I've...
- 336
- 00:22:44,840 --> 00:22:47,446
- I've got something wrong with me.
- 337
- 00:22:49,800 --> 00:22:51,643
- What are you talking about?
- 338
- 00:22:51,840 --> 00:22:54,605
- I've been seeing a neurologist.
- 339
- 00:22:55,000 --> 00:22:57,606
- You've been seeing a neurologist? Why?
- 340
- 00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:01,850
- They think that it might be
- early onset Alzheimer's disease.
- 341
- 00:23:04,680 --> 00:23:07,650
- Ali, Ali, that doesn't make
- any sense at all.
- 342
- 00:23:07,840 --> 00:23:09,763
- They don't know anything for sure.
- 343
- 00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:12,964
- But I've been doing all these tests
- and I'm really scared.
- 344
- 00:23:13,200 --> 00:23:17,922
- - Ali, that is completely insane.
- - I got...
- 345
- 00:23:18,160 --> 00:23:21,687
- I got lost while I was running
- on campus a while ago. I can't...
- 346
- 00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:26,130
- I can't remember appointments, words.
- 347
- 00:23:26,320 --> 00:23:28,288
- Honey, we all have memory lapses.
- 348
- 00:23:28,480 --> 00:23:31,006
- That's a sign of getting older.
- The other day...
- 349
- 00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:34,283
- I couldn't remember the word "glucose."
- 350
- 00:23:34,480 --> 00:23:35,641
- It's not like that.
- 351
- 00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:38,923
- It's like something just drop...
- Drops out under me.
- 352
- 00:23:40,080 --> 00:23:42,208
- - But there is no diagnosis yet?
- - No.
- 353
- 00:23:42,440 --> 00:23:46,445
- Okay. Well, then I think that this
- is ridiculous. It's complete bullshit.
- 354
- 00:23:46,640 --> 00:23:49,883
- - You don't have Alzheimer's.
- - Why won't you take me seriously?
- 355
- 00:23:50,080 --> 00:23:51,525
- I know what I'm feeling.
- 356
- 00:23:51,720 --> 00:23:55,441
- I know what it's feeling, and it feels
- like my brain is fucking dying.
- 357
- 00:23:55,640 --> 00:23:59,361
- And everything I've worked for
- in my entire life is going.
- 358
- 00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:01,130
- It's all... All going.
- 359
- 00:24:01,320 --> 00:24:02,845
- No.
- 360
- 00:24:04,360 --> 00:24:05,521
- Come here.
- 361
- 00:24:07,400 --> 00:24:09,209
- Don't cry.
- 362
- 00:24:21,120 --> 00:24:23,168
- Most of them are still awaiting trial.
- 363
- 00:24:23,360 --> 00:24:25,931
- They have not been found guilty.
- 364
- 00:24:26,120 --> 00:24:29,806
- Last year, officials at Rikers reported
- to the Board of Corrections...
- 365
- 00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:33,482
- - ...that on a typical day...
- - What time is your tutorial?
- 366
- 00:24:33,680 --> 00:24:35,364
- Eleven.
- 367
- 00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:37,722
- Well, that gives you some time.
- 368
- 00:24:39,520 --> 00:24:43,684
- I'm gonna be a little late
- because I have a departmental meeting.
- 369
- 00:24:43,880 --> 00:24:46,724
- When I come back, we can go
- to dinner, have Thai food?
- 370
- 00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:48,405
- Yeah, okay.
- 371
- 00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:54,161
- I'm okay. I just...
- 372
- 00:24:55,520 --> 00:24:58,490
- Last night just got
- the better of me, that's all.
- 373
- 00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:03,009
- Well, two things: I think it's way too early
- to jump to any conclusions...
- 374
- 00:25:05,680 --> 00:25:07,887
- and whatever happens, I'm here.
- 375
- 00:25:09,920 --> 00:25:12,321
- You can clearly see in here...
- 376
- 00:25:12,520 --> 00:25:16,366
- The red areas are high in beta-amyloid.
- 377
- 00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:20,486
- The buildup has probably been ongoing
- for several years.
- 378
- 00:25:21,880 --> 00:25:23,006
- I'm sorry.
- 379
- 00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:26,765
- There is evidence
- of high amyloid in older people...
- 380
- 00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:29,241
- with normal cognitive function, correct?
- 381
- 00:25:29,880 --> 00:25:32,884
- Yes, but not in someone
- as young as Alice.
- 382
- 00:25:33,640 --> 00:25:35,847
- Well, at least
- it would be extremely rare.
- 383
- 00:25:36,040 --> 00:25:39,487
- High amyloid is associated
- with conditions other than Alzheimer's.
- 384
- 00:25:39,720 --> 00:25:41,848
- Unfortunately, in Alice's case...
- 385
- 00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:45,522
- this corroborates the clinical symptoms
- that she is presenting.
- 386
- 00:25:45,720 --> 00:25:48,724
- Shouldn't any diagnosis be accompanied
- by a genetic test?
- 387
- 00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:52,402
- - Hold on a minute, please.
- - Actually, I was gonna suggest that.
- 388
- 00:25:52,600 --> 00:25:55,524
- In a case like this,
- with the onset being so early...
- 389
- 00:25:55,720 --> 00:26:00,442
- we would like to check for presenilin
- mutations that would be an indicator...
- 390
- 00:26:00,640 --> 00:26:04,804
- of familial Alzheimer's disease,
- which is a rarer form.
- 391
- 00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:06,849
- We can make an appointment for you.
- 392
- 00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:10,721
- - So this concerns my children?
- - Yes.
- 393
- 00:26:10,960 --> 00:26:14,328
- I assume that if I have the gene...
- 394
- 00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:17,364
- the odds of my passing it along
- are fifty-fifty.
- 395
- 00:26:17,560 --> 00:26:18,800
- I'm afraid so.
- 396
- 00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:23,449
- And if they are carriers, what are the odds
- of them developing the disease?
- 397
- 00:26:23,680 --> 00:26:26,331
- I'm afraid it's a hundred percent.
- 398
- 00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:31,529
- Radiology technician,
- please dial extension to 256.
- 399
- 00:26:33,760 --> 00:26:36,411
- The kids will all be here
- for our anniversary.
- 400
- 00:26:36,600 --> 00:26:39,365
- I don't think we should tell them,
- not until we have the results.
- 401
- 00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:43,326
- We will by then, if I go in next week.
- I wanna know as soon as possible.
- 402
- 00:26:43,520 --> 00:26:47,684
- Where the hell is this goddamn elevator?
- Here we are in a major hospital.
- 403
- 00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:49,962
- - Only one elevator running?
- - It's okay.
- 404
- 00:26:50,160 --> 00:26:53,881
- - We could've taken the stairs by now.
- - It doesn't matter.
- 405
- 00:26:56,240 --> 00:26:58,208
- Going down.
- 406
- 00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:10,841
- Well, everybody...
- 407
- 00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:12,405
- What's going on?
- 408
- 00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:18,803
- - Oh, boy.
- - Are you guys gonna break up or...?
- 409
- 00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:20,764
- No.
- 410
- 00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:26,601
- - No, it's nothing like that. It...
- - Mom, are you sick?
- 411
- 00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:34,483
- I have been seeing a neurologist
- for the past few months...
- 412
- 00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:37,968
- and I have Alzheimer's disease.
- 413
- 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:39,850
- Early onset.
- 414
- 00:27:40,040 --> 00:27:42,930
- That... That doesn't make sense.
- Are...? Are you sure?
- 415
- 00:27:43,120 --> 00:27:45,851
- There is no doubt. She has the disease.
- 416
- 00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:48,122
- But at her age, it's...
- 417
- 00:27:48,320 --> 00:27:50,322
- It is rare, but it has been confirmed.
- 418
- 00:27:50,560 --> 00:27:52,562
- - Yeah.
- - You're so young, Mom.
- 419
- 00:27:55,520 --> 00:27:59,570
- - I don't understand that.
- - I had noticed one or two things.
- 420
- 00:27:59,760 --> 00:28:02,570
- You didn't know Tom's girlfriend
- when she came over...
- 421
- 00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:05,491
- - Lydia.
- - What medications are you on?
- 422
- 00:28:05,680 --> 00:28:08,126
- Right now, I'm on Aricept and Namenda.
- 423
- 00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:10,004
- They can help slow the progress?
- 424
- 00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:12,009
- - Well, no.
- - I'm afraid not.
- 425
- 00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:13,929
- Help alleviate the symptoms...
- 426
- 00:28:14,120 --> 00:28:17,090
- - ...but they can't prevent the disease.
- - The thing is...
- 427
- 00:28:17,280 --> 00:28:20,204
- that the type of Alzheimer's I have...
- 428
- 00:28:20,400 --> 00:28:23,927
- is very rare.
- 429
- 00:28:25,000 --> 00:28:30,131
- - It's familial. It's passed on genetically.
- - Oh, my God.
- 430
- 00:28:30,320 --> 00:28:32,687
- We believe that she got it
- from her father...
- 431
- 00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:36,043
- and of course, we're very worried
- about the three of you.
- 432
- 00:28:36,240 --> 00:28:38,322
- Now, there is a test you can take...
- 433
- 00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:43,287
- but it's completely up to you
- whether you wanna find out or not.
- 434
- 00:28:44,320 --> 00:28:46,209
- I'm sorry.
- 435
- 00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:49,329
- I'm so...
- 436
- 00:29:45,360 --> 00:29:49,490
- Can anyone tell me what it says
- in the syllabus for today?
- 437
- 00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:52,841
- Phonology.
- 438
- 00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:56,522
- And can anyone tell me
- what phonology is?
- 439
- 00:30:02,720 --> 00:30:06,611
- "Phono" is from the Greek word "phoné,"
- meaning "sound"...
- 440
- 00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:11,283
- and phonology, broadly speaking,
- is the study of the sounds of language.
- 441
- 00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:13,801
- It should be distinguished
- from phonetics...
- 442
- 00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:28,764
- Hi, Anna.
- 443
- 00:30:28,960 --> 00:30:30,291
- Hi, Mom.
- 444
- 00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:32,482
- Are you okay?
- 445
- 00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:36,288
- I got the results. I'm positive.
- 446
- 00:30:36,520 --> 00:30:39,842
- Oh, God, Anna.
- 447
- 00:30:40,240 --> 00:30:43,323
- I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
- 448
- 00:30:43,520 --> 00:30:47,730
- Tom turned out negative,
- and Lydia didn't wanna know.
- 449
- 00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:49,365
- But I'm positive.
- 450
- 00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:51,961
- Baby, how are you feeling?
- 451
- 00:30:52,360 --> 00:30:54,203
- I'm okay.
- 452
- 00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:59,964
- One good thing, at least I found out now
- before the next IUI session.
- 453
- 00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:02,083
- I guess they can test the embryos...
- 454
- 00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:04,806
- so they can be sure
- the babies will be okay.
- 455
- 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:09,130
- I'm on my way to a lecture, but I can
- cancel it and I can be right there.
- 456
- 00:31:09,320 --> 00:31:13,120
- No, no, Mom, it's okay.
- I'm with Charlie. I'm okay.
- 457
- 00:31:13,320 --> 00:31:17,086
- No, I want to. I can...
- I... I want to be there. I can come.
- 458
- 00:31:17,280 --> 00:31:21,251
- No, please don't worry. I'll be fine.
- 459
- 00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:23,530
- Okay.
- 460
- 00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:26,607
- I love you, sweetheart.
- 461
- 00:31:26,920 --> 00:31:28,729
- I love you.
- 462
- 00:31:29,720 --> 00:31:32,849
- - Bye.
- - Bye.
- 463
- 00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:17,010
- "I had been looking forward to this course,
- but I was disappointed.
- 464
- 00:32:17,240 --> 00:32:22,565
- The content was often muddled
- and delivered with little focus or care.
- 465
- 00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:27,045
- Class was a waste of time. I ended up
- just following the online version.
- 466
- 00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:30,164
- I found Linguistics 201 very erratic.
- 467
- 00:32:30,360 --> 00:32:34,160
- I had a hard time
- following Dr. Howland's lectures.
- 468
- 00:32:34,360 --> 00:32:36,886
- Even she seems
- like she gets lost in them."
- 469
- 00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:43,008
- Eric, I am so sorry. I... I didn't know
- the students felt this way.
- 470
- 00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:47,762
- Obviously, I will... I will make adjustments
- and we can reevaluate my performance.
- 471
- 00:32:47,960 --> 00:32:50,645
- Everything all right at home?
- Between you and John?
- 472
- 00:32:50,840 --> 00:32:53,969
- - Yes, everything's fine.
- - Is it something we can help with?
- 473
- 00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:55,964
- - Stress, depression?
- - No, no, no.
- 474
- 00:32:56,200 --> 00:32:58,646
- - Substance abuse? Alcohol?
- - No. No. God, Eric.
- 475
- 00:32:58,840 --> 00:33:01,605
- No, it's... It's nothing
- like that. I... it's...
- 476
- 00:33:01,800 --> 00:33:06,169
- It's medical.
- It's a... It's a medical issue...
- 477
- 00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:10,081
- and I admit I had a hard time
- teaching last semester...
- 478
- 00:33:10,280 --> 00:33:12,647
- and I wasn't aware
- of how much it showed.
- 479
- 00:33:12,880 --> 00:33:15,690
- Alice, I'm not following.
- 480
- 00:33:16,640 --> 00:33:20,247
- I have mild cognitive impairment.
- 481
- 00:33:20,440 --> 00:33:22,647
- Would you unpack that for me?
- 482
- 00:33:22,840 --> 00:33:26,686
- In February, I was diagnosed
- with early onset Alzheimer's disease.
- 483
- 00:33:27,560 --> 00:33:29,244
- What?
- 484
- 00:33:29,640 --> 00:33:33,565
- - Alice, oh, my God, I'm sorry.
- - It's early. It's still early stages.
- 485
- 00:33:33,760 --> 00:33:36,206
- It will limit my ability
- as time goes on...
- 486
- 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:39,643
- - but for now, I feel capable...
- - There's no need to...
- 487
- 00:33:39,840 --> 00:33:43,162
- I mean, we don't want you
- under any undue stress.
- 488
- 00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:46,443
- - That would be counterproductive.
- - I can handle the stress.
- 489
- 00:33:46,640 --> 00:33:51,282
- I would like to remain in the department
- for as long as we all think is possible.
- 490
- 00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:57,366
- Well, I'll have to let the department
- and the faculty know.
- 491
- 00:33:58,560 --> 00:33:59,721
- Yes, of course.
- 492
- 00:33:59,920 --> 00:34:02,730
- I am so, so sorry.
- 493
- 00:34:48,200 --> 00:34:53,491
- I'll have a regular
- with blueberries and coconut, please.
- 494
- 00:35:08,240 --> 00:35:09,480
- Hi.
- 495
- 00:35:10,520 --> 00:35:12,727
- Alice, where the hell were you?
- 496
- 00:35:12,960 --> 00:35:14,121
- I went for a run.
- 497
- 00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:17,051
- You've been gone for over two hours.
- I was worried.
- 498
- 00:35:17,240 --> 00:35:19,049
- Well, then I went to Pinkberry.
- 499
- 00:35:19,240 --> 00:35:21,811
- - You went to Pinkberry?
- - Yeah.
- 500
- 00:35:22,160 --> 00:35:26,688
- Well, I hope you enjoyed that because
- you completely blew our dinner plans.
- 501
- 00:35:27,840 --> 00:35:30,047
- Susan Kirby and her husband.
- 502
- 00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:35,081
- I'm sorry. I forgot.
- 503
- 00:35:35,680 --> 00:35:37,728
- I have Alzheimer's.
- 504
- 00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:39,524
- I texted you, I e-mailed you.
- 505
- 00:35:39,720 --> 00:35:42,291
- - There are ways to manage...
- - I said I was sorry.
- 506
- 00:35:42,480 --> 00:35:44,960
- She's the chair of my department.
- 507
- 00:35:45,200 --> 00:35:47,885
- I had no idea where you were,
- if something happened.
- 508
- 00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:51,283
- - Why didn't you bring your phone?
- - I can't when I'm running.
- 509
- 00:35:51,480 --> 00:35:53,801
- Wear a fanny pack.
- Is it that inhibiting?
- 510
- 00:35:54,040 --> 00:35:55,530
- Yes.
- 511
- 00:35:59,920 --> 00:36:03,811
- - I hate that this is happening to me.
- - I hate it too.
- 512
- 00:36:04,760 --> 00:36:07,684
- We have to keep the important things
- in our life going.
- 513
- 00:36:07,880 --> 00:36:10,087
- We have to try
- or we're going to go crazy.
- 514
- 00:36:10,280 --> 00:36:11,691
- I know. I know, John.
- 515
- 00:36:11,880 --> 00:36:15,965
- I am, I'm sorry, but I don't know what
- I would've been like at a dinner party.
- 516
- 00:36:16,160 --> 00:36:19,562
- I might not be able to remember names
- or answer simple questions.
- 517
- 00:36:19,760 --> 00:36:22,764
- - Never mind get through an anecdote.
- - You're doing great.
- 518
- 00:36:22,960 --> 00:36:24,166
- Relative to what?
- 519
- 00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:30,001
- I wish I had cancer.
- 520
- 00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:32,286
- Don't say that.
- 521
- 00:36:32,480 --> 00:36:35,609
- No, I do. I mean it.
- I mean, I wouldn't feel so ashamed.
- 522
- 00:36:35,800 --> 00:36:38,690
- People have cancer,
- they wear pink ribbons for you...
- 523
- 00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:43,005
- and go on long walks, and raise money...
- 524
- 00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:47,967
- and you don't have to feel
- like some kind of a social...
- 525
- 00:36:50,360 --> 00:36:52,488
- I can't remember the word.
- 526
- 00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:07,003
- In 2013, we completed exterior repairs,
- and inside, we replaced the elevators...
- 527
- 00:37:07,240 --> 00:37:10,403
- refurbished the auditorium,
- the library and lounge area...
- 528
- 00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:13,524
- - ...and upgraded our HVAC system.
- - Well, that's good.
- 529
- 00:37:13,720 --> 00:37:16,326
- We also took away
- a lot of the old security doors.
- 530
- 00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:18,682
- Residents are issued a bracelet
- instead...
- 531
- 00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:23,721
- which keeps them from using elevators or
- leaving the building, depending on their level.
- 532
- 00:37:23,920 --> 00:37:26,207
- I don't know if you've experienced this
- with your parent...
- 533
- 00:37:26,400 --> 00:37:29,643
- but they get nighttime restlessness
- and wandering.
- 534
- 00:37:29,840 --> 00:37:33,845
- We can prevent their elopement
- without patients feeling they're locked in.
- 535
- 00:37:34,040 --> 00:37:35,087
- I see.
- 536
- 00:37:35,280 --> 00:37:39,808
- We saw that large group activities
- left most of the residents unengaged...
- 537
- 00:37:40,000 --> 00:37:44,324
- and even distressed by the confusion
- they experienced from all the stimulation.
- 538
- 00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:46,761
- So we redefined activities...
- 539
- 00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:51,010
- to include all interactions
- between staff and residents in the unit.
- 540
- 00:37:51,240 --> 00:37:55,325
- Staff looks for opportunities to make
- meaningful connections with residents...
- 541
- 00:37:55,520 --> 00:37:59,969
- starting with knowing about the person
- and what makes them comfortable.
- 542
- 00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:05,200
- One woman who had worked as a nurse sat,
- most days, in the nursing station, writing notes.
- 543
- 00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:06,447
- Heartbreaking.
- 544
- 00:38:06,680 --> 00:38:09,684
- Yes, but it's a behavior
- we see time and again.
- 545
- 00:38:09,880 --> 00:38:12,201
- We don't have restrictions
- on visiting times.
- 546
- 00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:14,721
- Family and friends
- are welcome day or night.
- 547
- 00:38:14,920 --> 00:38:18,242
- - Doesn't look like anybody's here.
- - Sunday is the day they come.
- 548
- 00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:19,925
- - What's that?
- - Chair alarm.
- 549
- 00:38:20,120 --> 00:38:22,487
- Certain residents have them
- so we know they're up.
- 550
- 00:38:22,680 --> 00:38:25,081
- - She all right?
- - Just a precautionary measure.
- 551
- 00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:27,926
- - Get me to Penn Station.
- - It's all women.
- 552
- 00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:31,283
- We do have mainly female residents
- here, but there are men.
- 553
- 00:38:31,480 --> 00:38:33,960
- There's William.
- William was part of the team...
- 554
- 00:38:34,200 --> 00:38:37,044
- that sent the first satellite
- into orbit.
- 555
- 00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:52,811
- They just aren't powerful enough
- to put me to sleep.
- 556
- 00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:54,570
- Do you want to try Lunesta?
- 557
- 00:38:54,760 --> 00:38:56,285
- What about Rohypnol?
- 558
- 00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:57,726
- That's very strong.
- 559
- 00:38:57,920 --> 00:39:00,048
- I need something strong.
- 560
- 00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:11,805
- Hi, Alice.
- 561
- 00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:16,369
- I am you and I have something
- very important to say to you.
- 562
- 00:39:16,560 --> 00:39:19,370
- So you've reached the point
- where you can no longer answer...
- 563
- 00:39:20,800 --> 00:39:22,165
- any of the questions.
- 564
- 00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:25,489
- So this is the next logical step.
- 565
- 00:39:25,680 --> 00:39:27,489
- I'm sure of it.
- 566
- 00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:30,524
- In your bedroom there's a dresser
- with a blue lamp.
- 567
- 00:39:31,040 --> 00:39:32,849
- Open the top drawer.
- 568
- 00:39:33,040 --> 00:39:36,203
- In the back of the drawer,
- there's a bottle with pills in it.
- 569
- 00:39:36,400 --> 00:39:39,290
- It says, "Take all pills with water."
- 570
- 00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:42,126
- Now, there are a lot of pills
- in that bottle...
- 571
- 00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:45,767
- but it's very important
- that you swallow them all.
- 572
- 00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:52,283
- Okay? And then lie down and go to sleep.
- 573
- 00:39:52,960 --> 00:39:55,725
- And don't tell anyone what you're doing.
- 574
- 00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:34,522
- Ali!
- 575
- 00:41:34,760 --> 00:41:36,603
- Ali!
- 576
- 00:41:44,920 --> 00:41:46,206
- Oh, I love it here.
- 577
- 00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:48,204
- Me too.
- 578
- 00:42:08,440 --> 00:42:10,920
- - Remember Santorini?
- - Santorini.
- 579
- 00:42:11,120 --> 00:42:15,967
- - Can you believe that was 30 years ago?
- - Don't do that to me. Oh, my God.
- 580
- 00:42:16,160 --> 00:42:18,367
- Oh, it was a complicated time, huh?
- 581
- 00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:21,404
- You were dealing with a lot.
- What was it, a year after?
- 582
- 00:42:21,640 --> 00:42:24,211
- - Yeah, something like that.
- - Yeah.
- 583
- 00:42:24,400 --> 00:42:28,724
- I know I've said this, but I am sorry I
- never got to meet your mom or your sister.
- 584
- 00:42:28,920 --> 00:42:30,729
- Me too.
- 585
- 00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:33,010
- We had a great time, though.
- 586
- 00:42:34,600 --> 00:42:37,888
- - Yeah.
- - Don't you wish we had more of that?
- 587
- 00:42:38,480 --> 00:42:41,609
- If you mean blow jobs
- on the beach, yes, I...
- 588
- 00:42:41,800 --> 00:42:44,246
- - Yeah, but, you know.
- - I do wish we had more.
- 589
- 00:42:44,440 --> 00:42:46,602
- Yeah, all of it.
- 590
- 00:42:47,160 --> 00:42:48,969
- It all happened so fast, you know.
- 591
- 00:42:49,160 --> 00:42:51,640
- Anna was born, our careers.
- 592
- 00:42:51,880 --> 00:42:53,484
- Well, you were relentless.
- 593
- 00:42:53,680 --> 00:42:56,684
- You wanted everything and all at once.
- 594
- 00:42:56,920 --> 00:43:00,527
- That's how I am. That's how I like it.
- 595
- 00:43:01,560 --> 00:43:03,369
- Anna's the same way, right?
- 596
- 00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:06,207
- I like you the way you are.
- 597
- 00:43:07,840 --> 00:43:09,922
- I like everything about you.
- 598
- 00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:12,282
- Thank God you do.
- 599
- 00:43:16,840 --> 00:43:18,285
- This is so great, you know.
- 600
- 00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:19,766
- I kind of like it.
- 601
- 00:43:19,960 --> 00:43:22,884
- Being liberated from Columbia.
- 602
- 00:43:23,120 --> 00:43:26,090
- Why don't you take a sabbatical
- next year?
- 603
- 00:43:26,640 --> 00:43:30,440
- And we're gonna do what,
- drive around the country in an RV?
- 604
- 00:43:30,720 --> 00:43:34,406
- Sure. I don't know,
- we could spend more time here.
- 605
- 00:43:34,600 --> 00:43:35,647
- Go to Bhutan.
- 606
- 00:43:35,880 --> 00:43:39,601
- Well, I think our summer on the island
- is all the excitement I can handle.
- 607
- 00:43:39,840 --> 00:43:42,320
- Okay. Well, you know what?
- 608
- 00:43:42,520 --> 00:43:46,286
- This might be the last year
- that I'm myself, you know?
- 609
- 00:43:51,840 --> 00:43:53,922
- Please don't say that.
- 610
- 00:44:17,560 --> 00:44:19,289
- John?
- 611
- 00:44:19,480 --> 00:44:21,289
- I'm over here.
- 612
- 00:44:21,480 --> 00:44:25,371
- Oh, hey, when are you going
- to the conference?
- 613
- 00:44:26,880 --> 00:44:28,211
- On Monday.
- 614
- 00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:31,324
- - And when is Lydia coming?
- - Lydia comes on Sunday.
- 615
- 00:44:31,560 --> 00:44:34,040
- She doesn't have to come
- just to babysit me.
- 616
- 00:44:34,520 --> 00:44:37,603
- She's coming to do the Chekhov play
- at Saugatuck, remember?
- 617
- 00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:40,288
- - Right.
- - When I get finished...
- 618
- 00:44:40,480 --> 00:44:44,007
- - ...are we gonna go for a run?
- - Yeah, I need to grab another layer.
- 619
- 00:44:44,240 --> 00:44:45,651
- Okay.
- 620
- 00:45:27,720 --> 00:45:30,929
- - Hey, are we still going running?
- - Oh, I'm sorry. Hey, look.
- 621
- 00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:33,527
- Look, I found this photo album...
- 622
- 00:45:33,720 --> 00:45:36,849
- with these pictures
- of my mother and my sister.
- 623
- 00:45:37,880 --> 00:45:40,645
- Hey, when are you going
- to the conference?
- 624
- 00:45:41,560 --> 00:45:44,086
- - Monday.
- - And when is Lydia coming?
- 625
- 00:45:44,280 --> 00:45:46,408
- Lydia's coming on Sunday.
- 626
- 00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:48,170
- Okay.
- 627
- 00:45:49,400 --> 00:45:51,129
- - Are we going running?
- - Yes.
- 628
- 00:45:51,320 --> 00:45:53,288
- Yes, we are. I just have to go pee.
- 629
- 00:45:53,520 --> 00:45:55,170
- I'll be right back.
- 630
- 00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:03,970
- Ali?
- 631
- 00:47:07,200 --> 00:47:09,601
- I couldn't find the bathroom.
- 632
- 00:47:09,840 --> 00:47:12,844
- It's okay, baby.
- Come on, let's get you cleaned up.
- 633
- 00:47:13,600 --> 00:47:15,364
- I don't know where I am.
- 634
- 00:47:36,960 --> 00:47:38,644
- - I like that necklace.
- - You do?
- 635
- 00:47:38,840 --> 00:47:40,205
- - Yeah.
- - Haven't seen this?
- 636
- 00:47:40,400 --> 00:47:41,845
- Nope.
- 637
- 00:47:42,320 --> 00:47:44,721
- My mother gave it to me.
- 638
- 00:47:45,360 --> 00:47:48,091
- When I was a little girl...
- 639
- 00:47:48,280 --> 00:47:52,126
- like, in second grade,
- my teacher told me...
- 640
- 00:47:52,320 --> 00:47:55,722
- butterflies don't live a long time.
- They live, like, a month.
- 641
- 00:47:55,920 --> 00:47:59,686
- And I was so upset, and I went home,
- and I told my mother, and she said:
- 642
- 00:47:59,880 --> 00:48:03,009
- "Yeah, but, you know,
- they have a nice life.
- 643
- 00:48:03,200 --> 00:48:05,487
- They have a really beautiful life."
- 644
- 00:48:05,680 --> 00:48:10,129
- So now it always makes me think about
- my mother's life, and my sister's life.
- 645
- 00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:14,809
- And to a certain extent,
- you know, my own.
- 646
- 00:48:18,520 --> 00:48:21,808
- - You are gonna be around for a long time, Mom.
- - Yes, yes.
- 647
- 00:48:22,040 --> 00:48:24,168
- There's some things I wanna do,
- you know?
- 648
- 00:48:24,360 --> 00:48:28,126
- I wanna take a sabbatical with Daddy.
- I don't think that's gonna happen.
- 649
- 00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:32,882
- And I wanna see Anna have a baby,
- and I wanna see Tom graduate.
- 650
- 00:48:33,080 --> 00:48:36,971
- - You will.
- - And I'd like to see you go to college.
- 651
- 00:48:39,640 --> 00:48:43,326
- Not for law or medicine or anything,
- but for drama.
- 652
- 00:48:43,560 --> 00:48:46,370
- And if the acting thing
- doesn't work out, you could...
- 653
- 00:48:46,560 --> 00:48:50,724
- You could teach or do workshops.
- You'd have some kind of a backup plan.
- 654
- 00:48:50,920 --> 00:48:52,604
- Yeah.
- 655
- 00:48:53,440 --> 00:48:55,841
- I don't want a backup plan.
- 656
- 00:48:56,520 --> 00:48:57,726
- I...
- 657
- 00:48:57,920 --> 00:49:00,022
- I wanna do this.
- I'm gonna give it a shot.
- 658
- 00:49:00,123 --> 00:49:02,806
- It's not gonna happen
- if I don't believe in myself.
- 659
- 00:49:03,200 --> 00:49:06,807
- I believe in you, Lydia.
- I do, I believe in you.
- 660
- 00:49:07,040 --> 00:49:09,850
- It's just that, you know, life is tough.
- 661
- 00:49:10,040 --> 00:49:12,964
- It is tougher than you know.
- 662
- 00:49:13,160 --> 00:49:14,321
- And I...
- 663
- 00:49:14,520 --> 00:49:18,684
- I just... I want you to have
- some kind of security before I go.
- 664
- 00:49:19,600 --> 00:49:21,762
- Mom, for God...
- 665
- 00:49:22,000 --> 00:49:23,650
- You have to...
- 666
- 00:49:25,200 --> 00:49:28,522
- You can't use your situation
- to just get me to do everything...
- 667
- 00:49:28,720 --> 00:49:30,802
- - ...you want me to do.
- - Why can't I?
- 668
- 00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:33,844
- - Because that's not fair.
- - I don't have to be fair.
- 669
- 00:49:34,040 --> 00:49:35,929
- I'm your mother.
- 670
- 00:49:36,560 --> 00:49:39,404
- - Right?
- - Yeah.
- 671
- 00:50:20,160 --> 00:50:22,925
- - Hey.
- - What's going on?
- 672
- 00:50:23,160 --> 00:50:25,447
- I'm just working, how about you?
- 673
- 00:50:26,240 --> 00:50:28,129
- Nothing.
- 674
- 00:50:30,560 --> 00:50:32,050
- I need something to read.
- 675
- 00:50:32,240 --> 00:50:36,131
- - I thought you were reading Moby-Dick.
- - Yeah, I was...
- 676
- 00:50:36,320 --> 00:50:41,281
- but I got tired of reading the same page
- over and over again. I can't focus.
- 677
- 00:50:41,480 --> 00:50:44,165
- Well, that happens to me
- when I read Moby-Dick too.
- 678
- 00:50:44,360 --> 00:50:47,887
- - Why don't you try something lighter?
- - Like The Cat in the Hat?
- 679
- 00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:50,686
- How about one of those plays
- Lydia has downstairs?
- 680
- 00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:53,201
- They're quicker, they're easier to read.
- 681
- 00:50:53,440 --> 00:50:56,364
- It might give the two of you
- something to talk about.
- 682
- 00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:03,648
- Okay.
- 683
- 00:51:11,960 --> 00:51:14,406
- You work all the time.
- 684
- 00:52:10,640 --> 00:52:15,168
- What I liked about it was how...
- 685
- 00:52:15,400 --> 00:52:18,802
- How big, how...
- 686
- 00:52:19,000 --> 00:52:24,006
- How wide the scape of it was.
- 687
- 00:52:24,240 --> 00:52:25,844
- Yeah. The scope of it.
- 688
- 00:52:26,080 --> 00:52:28,686
- The scope, that's the word.
- Oh, God, listen to me.
- 689
- 00:52:28,880 --> 00:52:31,406
- It's unbelievable you had to live
- through that.
- 690
- 00:52:32,320 --> 00:52:33,924
- You must have known...
- 691
- 00:52:34,120 --> 00:52:36,441
- Must have known somebody
- that died from AIDS.
- 692
- 00:52:36,640 --> 00:52:40,122
- Oh, yeah, honey. Everybody did.
- 693
- 00:52:40,680 --> 00:52:43,206
- We lost a lot of people.
- 694
- 00:52:44,760 --> 00:52:46,524
- What did you think?
- 695
- 00:52:46,760 --> 00:52:49,730
- I mean, you and Malcolm
- played the Mormons, right?
- 696
- 00:52:49,920 --> 00:52:53,003
- The husband and wife?
- You did scenes in your acting class.
- 697
- 00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:55,009
- Yeah, how'd you know that?
- 698
- 00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:58,967
- I don't know, you must have told me.
- 699
- 00:52:59,560 --> 00:53:01,483
- I didn't tell you.
- 700
- 00:53:02,320 --> 00:53:03,731
- Well, then...
- 701
- 00:53:04,000 --> 00:53:05,809
- I don't know how I know it.
- 702
- 00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:08,930
- Mom, did you read my journal?
- 703
- 00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:16,009
- Why?
- 704
- 00:53:16,200 --> 00:53:18,771
- - Why would you do that, Mom?
- - Oh, gosh.
- 705
- 00:53:19,000 --> 00:53:21,571
- I am so sorry.
- 706
- 00:53:21,800 --> 00:53:25,327
- Lydia, I honestly didn't understand
- what I was reading.
- 707
- 00:53:25,520 --> 00:53:28,967
- You didn't understand "Lydia Howland"
- written across the front?
- 708
- 00:53:29,160 --> 00:53:32,243
- - I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I...
- - I don't believe you.
- 709
- 00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:33,965
- I didn't mean to.
- 710
- 00:53:34,360 --> 00:53:35,521
- Okay, it's fine.
- 711
- 00:53:35,720 --> 00:53:37,290
- I just can't...
- 712
- 00:53:37,520 --> 00:53:40,444
- - Lydia, I didn't... I really didn't know.
- - Just stop!
- 713
- 00:53:40,640 --> 00:53:42,961
- I wouldn't do that to you.
- 714
- 00:53:45,440 --> 00:53:47,681
- - So you can't eat this.
- - No, I know.
- 715
- 00:53:47,880 --> 00:53:51,805
- No sushi, not hot do...
- Hot dogs are the worst. I love hot dogs.
- 716
- 00:53:52,040 --> 00:53:53,565
- - No alcohol.
- - No alcohol.
- 717
- 00:53:53,760 --> 00:53:55,842
- - No cigarettes.
- - Never even smoked.
- 718
- 00:53:56,080 --> 00:53:57,525
- Well, you... I mean...
- 719
- 00:53:57,720 --> 00:54:00,690
- - Never had one cigarette in your life?
- - Not one.
- 720
- 00:54:00,920 --> 00:54:02,570
- We can't be too careful.
- 721
- 00:54:02,800 --> 00:54:06,885
- He even grabbed my hand the other day
- as we were walking down the stairs.
- 722
- 00:54:07,080 --> 00:54:11,244
- - Just trying to protect my investment.
- - Anna, return my "Words with Friends."
- 723
- 00:54:11,440 --> 00:54:13,920
- Oh, I'm sorry, Mom. I haven't had time.
- 724
- 00:54:14,800 --> 00:54:15,847
- - Yeah.
- - Hey.
- 725
- 00:54:16,040 --> 00:54:18,168
- - Congrats.
- - Hey, hey. Thank you.
- 726
- 00:54:20,000 --> 00:54:22,810
- - There you are.
- - Thanks. So twins, huh?
- 727
- 00:54:23,120 --> 00:54:25,600
- - Yes, a boy and a girl.
- - Kind of perfect.
- 728
- 00:54:25,800 --> 00:54:28,963
- - What your mother and I were hoping for.
- - It's so wonderful.
- 729
- 00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:30,565
- Oh, gosh.
- 730
- 00:54:30,760 --> 00:54:33,604
- I'm sorry, I've gotta take this. Hello?
- 731
- 00:54:33,800 --> 00:54:35,768
- - How far along are you?
- - Five weeks.
- 732
- 00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:39,243
- Right now, it's very early days, but...
- 733
- 00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:42,808
- Well, the timing of things,
- how we found out and when we did...
- 734
- 00:54:43,000 --> 00:54:45,924
- - ...well, it really worked out in the end.
- - Great.
- 735
- 00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:49,204
- - That's amazing.
- - So, Mom, how you feeling?
- 736
- 00:54:49,400 --> 00:54:50,925
- - Mostly fine.
- - Really?
- 737
- 00:54:51,120 --> 00:54:54,841
- Yeah, I use this thing,
- you know, instead of a memory.
- 738
- 00:54:55,040 --> 00:54:57,725
- Reminds me to take my medication,
- things like that.
- 739
- 00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:00,002
- It's nice how the technology can help.
- 740
- 00:55:00,200 --> 00:55:04,125
- - I think it has the same...
- - Lydia, what time is your play?
- 741
- 00:55:04,480 --> 00:55:05,561
- Eight o'clock.
- 742
- 00:55:05,760 --> 00:55:07,728
- - Nervous about tomorrow night?
- - Yes.
- 743
- 00:55:07,920 --> 00:55:10,605
- I'll be fine,
- but I'll have to block you out.
- 744
- 00:55:10,800 --> 00:55:12,529
- I'm sorry. What time again?
- 745
- 00:55:12,720 --> 00:55:14,085
- - Eight o'clock.
- - Okay.
- 746
- 00:55:14,280 --> 00:55:18,001
- - You don't have to schedule it.
- - I wanna put it in. And where is it?
- 747
- 00:55:18,200 --> 00:55:20,202
- - The Saugatuck Theater.
- - Can you spell that?
- 748
- 00:55:20,400 --> 00:55:22,767
- - S-A-U...
- - Mom, we're not gonna forget you.
- 749
- 00:55:23,000 --> 00:55:24,286
- Just let her do it.
- 750
- 00:55:24,480 --> 00:55:27,404
- - It's S-A-U-G-A-T-U-C-K.
- - Oh, God.
- 751
- 00:55:27,600 --> 00:55:29,204
- - Anna, you're not helping.
- - You're not.
- 752
- 00:55:29,400 --> 00:55:31,801
- Why worry about remembering something
- she doesn't have to?
- 753
- 00:55:32,000 --> 00:55:33,968
- If you just let her, she won't worry.
- 754
- 00:55:34,360 --> 00:55:37,603
- You don't have to talk about her
- like she's not sitting here.
- 755
- 00:55:37,800 --> 00:55:41,009
- - I'm not, I'm talking to her. Aren't I, Mom?
- - Yes, you are.
- 756
- 00:55:41,200 --> 00:55:43,646
- - Yes, and what makes you an expert?
- - Shut up.
- 757
- 00:55:43,840 --> 00:55:45,171
- - Grow up, Lydia.
- - Suck it.
- 758
- 00:55:45,400 --> 00:55:46,731
- That's very articulate.
- 759
- 00:55:46,920 --> 00:55:48,365
- Girls, girls, you know...
- 760
- 00:55:48,560 --> 00:55:50,688
- - Are you kidding me?
- - That's enough.
- 761
- 00:55:50,880 --> 00:55:52,928
- - Stop it, please.
- - You shut up.
- 762
- 00:55:53,160 --> 00:55:56,050
- - No, both of you, stop it.
- - What is going on here?
- 763
- 00:55:57,920 --> 00:56:00,685
- Alice, this is a beautiful spread.
- 764
- 00:56:01,400 --> 00:56:03,368
- Thank you, Charlie.
- 765
- 00:56:04,160 --> 00:56:07,642
- - Very valuable...
- - Lydia, baby, I know that we argued...
- 766
- 00:56:07,880 --> 00:56:09,530
- about something yesterday...
- 767
- 00:56:09,760 --> 00:56:13,082
- but I can't remember what it was about.
- 768
- 00:56:14,960 --> 00:56:17,964
- - It was nothing, honestly.
- - No, I upset you.
- 769
- 00:56:18,160 --> 00:56:22,290
- And I should apologize.
- 770
- 00:56:24,920 --> 00:56:27,048
- No, no.
- 771
- 00:56:27,240 --> 00:56:28,480
- I should apologize.
- 772
- 00:56:28,680 --> 00:56:29,966
- I'm...
- 773
- 00:56:30,640 --> 00:56:34,087
- I feel really bad.
- I was so insensitive yesterday.
- 774
- 00:56:36,800 --> 00:56:38,609
- Will you forgive me, honestly?
- 775
- 00:56:39,480 --> 00:56:41,244
- But for what?
- 776
- 00:56:41,440 --> 00:56:47,891
- It was about you respecting my privacy,
- and I don't want that.
- 777
- 00:56:48,080 --> 00:56:50,970
- And I take it back completely.
- 778
- 00:56:51,720 --> 00:56:53,484
- And I'm sorry, okay?
- 779
- 00:56:53,920 --> 00:56:55,729
- I'm sorry.
- 780
- 00:56:59,640 --> 00:57:02,041
- It's not as if I can remember it.
- 781
- 00:57:02,600 --> 00:57:06,286
- Yeah, I know, right?
- That's why I tried to drop it.
- 782
- 00:57:13,480 --> 00:57:15,403
- What's it like?
- 783
- 00:57:17,160 --> 00:57:19,731
- Like, what does it actually feel like?
- 784
- 00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:24,364
- Well, it's not always the same.
- 785
- 00:57:24,560 --> 00:57:28,360
- You know, I have...
- I have good days and bad days.
- 786
- 00:57:28,560 --> 00:57:35,250
- And on my good days, I can, you know,
- almost pass for a normal person.
- 787
- 00:57:35,440 --> 00:57:40,321
- But on my bad days,
- I feel like I can't find myself.
- 788
- 00:57:42,160 --> 00:57:48,725
- I've always been so defined
- by my intellect...
- 789
- 00:57:48,920 --> 00:57:52,766
- my language, my articulation...
- 790
- 00:57:52,960 --> 00:57:56,965
- and now, sometimes, I can see
- the words hanging in front of me...
- 791
- 00:57:57,200 --> 00:57:59,851
- and I can't reach them.
- I don't know who I am...
- 792
- 00:58:00,080 --> 00:58:02,606
- and I don't know
- what I'm gonna lose next.
- 793
- 00:58:08,480 --> 00:58:10,289
- That sounds horrible.
- 794
- 00:58:15,960 --> 00:58:17,803
- Thanks for asking.
- 795
- 00:58:46,240 --> 00:58:48,322
- Oh, Lydia.
- 796
- 00:58:50,280 --> 00:58:52,408
- They're leaving us.
- 797
- 00:58:52,760 --> 00:58:54,524
- One has quite left us.
- 798
- 00:58:54,760 --> 00:58:57,240
- Quite and forever.
- 799
- 00:58:57,440 --> 00:59:01,161
- We alone remain
- to begin our lives over again.
- 800
- 00:59:01,360 --> 00:59:02,930
- We must live.
- 801
- 00:59:03,120 --> 00:59:05,361
- We must live.
- 802
- 00:59:06,120 --> 00:59:09,966
- There will come a time
- when we all will know why...
- 803
- 00:59:10,720 --> 00:59:13,849
- for what purpose
- there is all of this suffering...
- 804
- 00:59:15,640 --> 00:59:18,086
- and there will be no mystery.
- 805
- 00:59:18,480 --> 00:59:20,164
- But now we must live.
- 806
- 00:59:20,360 --> 00:59:24,570
- We must work, just work.
- 807
- 00:59:25,760 --> 00:59:28,161
- Tomorrow I'll go off on my own
- and I'll teach.
- 808
- 00:59:28,360 --> 00:59:32,331
- I'll give everything I have
- to those who might, perhaps, need it.
- 809
- 00:59:34,200 --> 00:59:36,168
- It's autumn now.
- 810
- 00:59:36,960 --> 00:59:40,851
- Soon it will be winter.
- The snow will cover everything.
- 811
- 00:59:41,680 --> 00:59:43,762
- And I'll be working.
- 812
- 00:59:45,880 --> 00:59:47,803
- Just working.
- 813
- 01:00:08,840 --> 01:00:12,003
- There she is. Hey, you were amazing.
- 814
- 01:00:12,200 --> 01:00:14,328
- Yes, you were so good.
- 815
- 01:00:14,520 --> 01:00:18,206
- - Incredible.
- - You killed it, totally.
- 816
- 01:00:18,960 --> 01:00:21,850
- Miss Howland,
- would you sign this for me?
- 817
- 01:00:23,680 --> 01:00:25,728
- It was just wonderful.
- 818
- 01:00:25,920 --> 01:00:28,764
- I... I found it so easy
- to empathize with her.
- 819
- 01:00:28,960 --> 01:00:33,249
- You... You really caught her despair,
- but also her joy.
- 820
- 01:00:34,440 --> 01:00:37,330
- Thank you. Awesome.
- 821
- 01:00:37,680 --> 01:00:40,729
- Will we get to see you in anything else
- this summer?
- 822
- 01:00:41,680 --> 01:00:43,648
- No, this is the only job I got.
- 823
- 01:00:43,840 --> 01:00:46,684
- Oh, so you're here for just the season.
- 824
- 01:00:51,120 --> 01:00:53,487
- - Yeah.
- - Mom. Mom.
- 825
- 01:00:54,360 --> 01:00:56,124
- This is Lydia, your daughter.
- 826
- 01:00:57,520 --> 01:01:00,524
- No, I... I know that.
- 827
- 01:01:03,560 --> 01:01:05,642
- Thanks for coming. Weird, embarrassing.
- 828
- 01:01:05,840 --> 01:01:09,367
- Don't be embarrassed.
- Don't, please. Please don't be.
- 829
- 01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:11,250
- Giraffe.
- 830
- 01:01:11,480 --> 01:01:13,528
- Hammer.
- 831
- 01:01:14,920 --> 01:01:17,002
- Comb.
- 832
- 01:01:17,560 --> 01:01:20,564
- Oh, I know what that is.
- 833
- 01:01:20,760 --> 01:01:23,366
- It is like a chicken, but it's not.
- 834
- 01:01:24,280 --> 01:01:27,204
- It is a duck.
- 835
- 01:01:27,400 --> 01:01:28,686
- How about this one?
- 836
- 01:01:28,880 --> 01:01:30,041
- A basketball.
- 837
- 01:01:30,720 --> 01:01:35,362
- - Can you spell water for me backwards?
- - Could I spell it forward first?
- 838
- 01:01:36,160 --> 01:01:41,405
- W-A-T-E-R.
- 839
- 01:01:41,600 --> 01:01:48,210
- R-E-T-A-W.
- 840
- 01:01:48,400 --> 01:01:49,606
- That's very good.
- 841
- 01:01:49,800 --> 01:01:53,122
- Now, can you tell me that name
- I asked you to remember?
- 842
- 01:01:53,320 --> 01:01:56,449
- You always tell me,
- and I can never remember it.
- 843
- 01:01:56,640 --> 01:02:02,363
- Was it John Black, John White,
- John Jones, or John Smith?
- 844
- 01:02:02,560 --> 01:02:03,607
- Smith?
- 845
- 01:02:03,920 --> 01:02:07,208
- And his address, was it East Street,
- Washington Street...
- 846
- 01:02:07,400 --> 01:02:09,801
- Humboldt Street, or Main Street?
- 847
- 01:02:10,000 --> 01:02:14,324
- Just to jump in here, we're both
- concerned about the rate of deterioration.
- 848
- 01:02:14,720 --> 01:02:18,042
- - Is that normal?
- - Well, every case is different.
- 849
- 01:02:18,240 --> 01:02:21,881
- With familial early onset,
- things can go fast.
- 850
- 01:02:22,080 --> 01:02:27,007
- And with people who have a high level
- of education, things can go faster.
- 851
- 01:02:27,480 --> 01:02:30,324
- They've managed to sustain
- their mental processes...
- 852
- 01:02:30,520 --> 01:02:34,730
- through innovative means
- and that delays diagnosis.
- 853
- 01:02:34,920 --> 01:02:39,448
- Now, clearly, Alice's memory is failing,
- but she's still incredibly resourceful.
- 854
- 01:02:39,640 --> 01:02:41,005
- Thank you.
- 855
- 01:02:41,200 --> 01:02:43,487
- I know you're... You're discouraged...
- 856
- 01:02:44,040 --> 01:02:47,123
- but sometimes I've seen patients
- plateau at this point.
- 857
- 01:02:48,320 --> 01:02:50,129
- Don't lose hope.
- 858
- 01:02:50,480 --> 01:02:54,326
- I read your name in the Alzheimer's
- Association Care Conference brochure.
- 859
- 01:02:55,160 --> 01:02:57,766
- - You're gonna give a speech.
- - Will you be there?
- 860
- 01:02:58,000 --> 01:02:59,809
- Yes. I'm looking forward to it.
- 861
- 01:03:00,040 --> 01:03:04,090
- I'm going to be away on business
- in Minnesota, and I'm worried.
- 862
- 01:03:04,280 --> 01:03:08,001
- Are you sure this is a good idea,
- considering the state that she's in?
- 863
- 01:03:08,200 --> 01:03:11,488
- - She's gonna be under a lot of stress.
- - It'll be great for her.
- 864
- 01:03:11,720 --> 01:03:14,963
- Everything will be fine.
- But you're not worried about it...
- 865
- 01:03:15,160 --> 01:03:18,209
- - ...are you, Alice?
- - No, I don't think so.
- 866
- 01:03:18,960 --> 01:03:24,046
- "...various ways to prevent
- the production of amyloid...
- 867
- 01:03:24,240 --> 01:03:26,129
- are being tried.
- 868
- 01:03:26,360 --> 01:03:29,125
- There is a new study...
- 869
- 01:03:29,360 --> 01:03:33,843
- that combines base and gamma
- secretase inhibitors...
- 870
- 01:03:34,080 --> 01:03:38,722
- and this is one of our best hopes
- for the future."
- 871
- 01:03:38,960 --> 01:03:41,167
- That's it. That's the end.
- 872
- 01:03:41,360 --> 01:03:44,204
- It's good, Mom. It's good.
- 873
- 01:03:44,960 --> 01:03:48,123
- - It's very scientific.
- - Yes, well, you know.
- 874
- 01:03:48,320 --> 01:03:52,803
- Yeah. And I'm sure it's valid, but...
- 875
- 01:03:53,000 --> 01:03:54,525
- But what?
- 876
- 01:03:54,760 --> 01:03:58,401
- I mean, is there any value
- in making it a bit more personal?
- 877
- 01:03:58,880 --> 01:04:00,689
- I don't understand what you mean.
- 878
- 01:04:00,880 --> 01:04:04,726
- You know, you're not speaking
- to a room of scientists.
- 879
- 01:04:04,920 --> 01:04:09,323
- What I wanna know, really, is, like,
- how you feel, what does it feel like?
- 880
- 01:04:09,520 --> 01:04:11,682
- What does this disease mean to you?
- 881
- 01:04:11,880 --> 01:04:14,486
- You weren't listening
- because that's all there.
- 882
- 01:04:14,680 --> 01:04:16,170
- That's in the speech.
- 883
- 01:04:16,360 --> 01:04:17,725
- Okay.
- 884
- 01:04:18,600 --> 01:04:22,969
- - Don't ask me, then.
- - Oh, no, then I won't ask, then.
- 885
- 01:04:27,680 --> 01:04:29,125
- Hey.
- 886
- 01:04:29,760 --> 01:04:32,570
- Mom. Just give it one more shot, okay?
- 887
- 01:04:33,040 --> 01:04:36,761
- I can't because I have done it already.
- 888
- 01:04:37,640 --> 01:04:41,247
- I... I use this...
- 889
- 01:04:42,160 --> 01:04:44,925
- Yellow... Yellow thingy to mark it...
- 890
- 01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:51,685
- so I don't have to read the same line
- over and over and over and over again.
- 891
- 01:04:51,880 --> 01:04:53,041
- Got it. Totally.
- 892
- 01:04:53,280 --> 01:04:55,328
- Just print out one more.
- 893
- 01:04:55,520 --> 01:04:57,443
- It took me three days to write this.
- 894
- 01:04:57,640 --> 01:05:01,361
- - You can print out one more.
- - No, it took me three days.
- 895
- 01:05:02,240 --> 01:05:04,288
- - Sorry.
- - Three days.
- 896
- 01:05:29,200 --> 01:05:30,326
- Here you are.
- 897
- 01:05:31,760 --> 01:05:33,171
- Thank you.
- 898
- 01:05:43,800 --> 01:05:45,848
- - Hi.
- - Hi.
- 899
- 01:05:46,440 --> 01:05:48,408
- - Hello there.
- - Hello.
- 900
- 01:05:49,640 --> 01:05:52,769
- Hi. Oh, Tom, this is my doctor.
- 901
- 01:05:52,960 --> 01:05:54,371
- - My son.
- - Travis Benjamin.
- 902
- 01:05:54,560 --> 01:05:57,040
- - I'm your mother's neurologist.
- - My son, Tom.
- 903
- 01:05:57,240 --> 01:06:00,050
- - Pleasure.
- - So how you feeling, Alice?
- 904
- 01:06:00,400 --> 01:06:01,890
- I think I'm nervous.
- 905
- 01:06:02,080 --> 01:06:04,731
- You're gonna do great. Break a leg.
- 906
- 01:06:04,920 --> 01:06:07,002
- - Nice to meet you.
- - Yeah.
- 907
- 01:06:10,480 --> 01:06:15,122
- It is a great honor to welcome
- our next speaker, Alice Howland.
- 908
- 01:06:15,360 --> 01:06:17,966
- A former professor of linguistics
- at Columbia...
- 909
- 01:06:18,200 --> 01:06:22,285
- she's written textbooks
- and has lectured all over the world.
- 910
- 01:06:22,480 --> 01:06:24,926
- Alice is living
- with early onset Alzheimer's...
- 911
- 01:06:25,160 --> 01:06:28,448
- with the care and support
- of her loving family.
- 912
- 01:06:28,640 --> 01:06:31,883
- Please welcome Alice Howland.
- 913
- 01:06:40,040 --> 01:06:43,601
- Please give me just a minute.
- 914
- 01:06:50,960 --> 01:06:52,644
- "Good morning.
- 915
- 01:06:52,840 --> 01:06:55,320
- It's an honor to be here.
- 916
- 01:06:55,920 --> 01:06:59,242
- The poet Elizabeth Bishop once wrote:
- 917
- 01:06:59,440 --> 01:07:03,604
- 'The art of losing isn't hard to master.
- 918
- 01:07:03,800 --> 01:07:07,600
- So many things seem filled
- with the intent to be lost...
- 919
- 01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:10,804
- that their loss is no disaster.'
- 920
- 01:07:11,040 --> 01:07:12,724
- I am not a poet.
- 921
- 01:07:12,960 --> 01:07:16,851
- I am a person living
- with early onset Alzheimer's.
- 922
- 01:07:17,040 --> 01:07:24,049
- And as that person, I find myself
- learning the art of losing every day.
- 923
- 01:07:27,840 --> 01:07:33,006
- Losing my bearings,
- losing objects, losing sleep...
- 924
- 01:07:33,200 --> 01:07:35,726
- but mostly, losing memories."
- 925
- 01:07:36,040 --> 01:07:37,724
- Oh, no.
- 926
- 01:07:43,840 --> 01:07:45,524
- Thank you.
- 927
- 01:07:47,240 --> 01:07:50,608
- I think I'll try to forget
- that just happened.
- 928
- 01:07:56,480 --> 01:08:00,121
- "All my life, I've accumulated memories.
- 929
- 01:08:00,320 --> 01:08:04,609
- They've become, in a way,
- my most precious possessions.
- 930
- 01:08:04,800 --> 01:08:07,201
- The night I met my husband...
- 931
- 01:08:08,200 --> 01:08:11,329
- the first time I held my textbook
- in my hands...
- 932
- 01:08:12,520 --> 01:08:18,721
- having children, making friends,
- traveling the world.
- 933
- 01:08:18,920 --> 01:08:21,002
- Everything I accumulated in life...
- 934
- 01:08:21,640 --> 01:08:24,166
- everything I've worked so hard for...
- 935
- 01:08:24,360 --> 01:08:27,921
- now all that is being ripped away.
- 936
- 01:08:28,240 --> 01:08:34,566
- As you can imagine or as you know,
- this is hell.
- 937
- 01:08:35,360 --> 01:08:37,169
- But it gets worse.
- 938
- 01:08:39,960 --> 01:08:41,485
- Who can take us seriously...
- 939
- 01:08:41,720 --> 01:08:44,644
- when we are so far
- from who we once were?
- 940
- 01:08:44,840 --> 01:08:48,686
- Our strange behavior
- and fumbled sentences...
- 941
- 01:08:48,880 --> 01:08:55,729
- change others' perceptions of us
- and our perception of ourselves.
- 942
- 01:08:55,920 --> 01:09:02,246
- We become ridiculous, incapable, comic.
- 943
- 01:09:02,560 --> 01:09:04,801
- But this is not who we are.
- 944
- 01:09:05,000 --> 01:09:06,764
- This is our disease.
- 945
- 01:09:06,960 --> 01:09:10,760
- And like any disease, it has a cause...
- 946
- 01:09:11,000 --> 01:09:13,128
- it has a progression...
- 947
- 01:09:13,320 --> 01:09:16,051
- and it could have a cure.
- 948
- 01:09:16,440 --> 01:09:20,650
- My greatest wish is that my children...
- 949
- 01:09:21,000 --> 01:09:27,610
- our children, the next generation,
- do not have to face what I am facing.
- 950
- 01:09:28,080 --> 01:09:30,560
- But for the time being, I'm still alive.
- 951
- 01:09:31,240 --> 01:09:32,401
- I know I'm alive.
- 952
- 01:09:33,280 --> 01:09:34,805
- I have people I love dearly.
- 953
- 01:09:36,120 --> 01:09:39,203
- I have things I wanna do with my life.
- 954
- 01:09:40,440 --> 01:09:45,321
- I rail against myself
- for not being able to remember things...
- 955
- 01:09:45,520 --> 01:09:50,651
- but I still have moments in the day
- of pure happiness and joy.
- 956
- 01:09:50,840 --> 01:09:54,526
- And please,
- do not think that I am suffering.
- 957
- 01:09:54,960 --> 01:09:57,201
- I am not suffering.
- 958
- 01:09:57,400 --> 01:09:59,129
- I am struggling.
- 959
- 01:09:59,320 --> 01:10:02,927
- Struggling to be a part of things...
- 960
- 01:10:03,120 --> 01:10:08,126
- to stay connected to who I once was.
- 961
- 01:10:09,640 --> 01:10:12,450
- 'So live in the moment, ' I tell myself.
- 962
- 01:10:12,680 --> 01:10:15,047
- It's really all I can do.
- 963
- 01:10:15,240 --> 01:10:17,208
- Live in the moment.
- 964
- 01:10:17,440 --> 01:10:21,081
- And not beat myself up too much...
- 965
- 01:10:21,320 --> 01:10:24,927
- And not beat myself up too much...
- 966
- 01:10:25,120 --> 01:10:29,011
- for mastering the art of losing.
- 967
- 01:10:30,040 --> 01:10:35,285
- One thing I will try to hold on to, though,
- is the memory of speaking here today.
- 968
- 01:10:36,240 --> 01:10:37,526
- It will go.
- 969
- 01:10:37,720 --> 01:10:39,768
- I know it will.
- 970
- 01:10:40,240 --> 01:10:42,971
- It may be gone by tomorrow...
- 971
- 01:10:43,640 --> 01:10:49,966
- but it means so much
- to be talking here today...
- 972
- 01:10:50,240 --> 01:10:52,641
- like my old, ambitious self...
- 973
- 01:10:52,840 --> 01:10:55,320
- who was so fascinated by communication."
- 974
- 01:11:03,120 --> 01:11:05,851
- Thank you for this opportunity.
- 975
- 01:11:06,640 --> 01:11:08,961
- It means the world to me.
- 976
- 01:11:11,840 --> 01:11:13,649
- Thank you.
- 977
- 01:11:49,200 --> 01:11:51,362
- It's the Mayo Clinic.
- 978
- 01:11:51,720 --> 01:11:53,882
- It would start up next spring.
- 979
- 01:11:54,120 --> 01:11:56,361
- And I'd be heading up my own team.
- 980
- 01:11:56,560 --> 01:11:59,450
- So you want us to move to...?
- 981
- 01:12:00,360 --> 01:12:01,930
- It's in Rochester, Minnesota.
- 982
- 01:12:02,600 --> 01:12:05,171
- Well, it could be
- a whole new adventure for us.
- 983
- 01:12:05,360 --> 01:12:09,081
- - You might even like it there.
- - Everything I know is here.
- 984
- 01:12:09,280 --> 01:12:13,569
- Anna and Tom
- and the babies that are coming.
- 985
- 01:12:13,800 --> 01:12:17,361
- It's just a two-hour flight.
- We'd see them as often as we do now.
- 986
- 01:12:17,960 --> 01:12:19,405
- Ali, this just came up...
- 987
- 01:12:19,640 --> 01:12:23,281
- and they haven't even made
- a formal offer, but don't you see?
- 988
- 01:12:23,520 --> 01:12:26,729
- This is it. They're working
- on many cutting-edge treatments.
- 989
- 01:12:26,920 --> 01:12:28,888
- - They've got resources.
- - I understand.
- 990
- 01:12:29,080 --> 01:12:31,845
- I understand that work is important.
- 991
- 01:12:32,040 --> 01:12:34,566
- I miss working.
- 992
- 01:12:35,680 --> 01:12:41,483
- I think you should ask them
- if you can start in a year.
- 993
- 01:12:42,680 --> 01:12:45,286
- It's not academia.
- They don't give sabbaticals.
- 994
- 01:12:45,480 --> 01:12:49,451
- But to pick up and move...
- 995
- 01:12:49,640 --> 01:12:53,167
- right when... When... When...
- 996
- 01:12:53,880 --> 01:12:55,689
- Why can't I say what I wanna say?
- 997
- 01:12:55,880 --> 01:12:58,690
- Ali, one way or the other,
- we'll still be together.
- 998
- 01:12:58,880 --> 01:13:01,804
- So no time off?
- 999
- 01:13:02,000 --> 01:13:05,163
- I can't take a year off.
- Financially, that's not an option...
- 1000
- 01:13:05,400 --> 01:13:08,404
- and God knows where we'll be
- further down the line.
- 1001
- 01:13:08,600 --> 01:13:10,443
- That's it then. That's it.
- 1002
- 01:13:10,640 --> 01:13:14,361
- - What?
- - Well, you don't... You don't want that.
- 1003
- 01:13:14,560 --> 01:13:18,804
- A year at home with me, watching this.
- 1004
- 01:13:21,360 --> 01:13:22,486
- I didn't say that.
- 1005
- 01:13:22,680 --> 01:13:24,682
- You didn't have to.
- 1006
- 01:14:36,840 --> 01:14:38,171
- Ali, what are you doing?
- 1007
- 01:14:38,360 --> 01:14:39,646
- I can't find it.
- 1008
- 01:14:39,840 --> 01:14:42,207
- - You can't find what?
- - I can't find my phone.
- 1009
- 01:14:42,400 --> 01:14:46,086
- - It's the middle of the night.
- - It's important. It goes off at 8:00...
- 1010
- 01:14:46,280 --> 01:14:49,045
- and it asks me these questions.
- I have to find it.
- 1011
- 01:14:49,240 --> 01:14:51,971
- - We'll look for it in the morning.
- - I have to find it.
- 1012
- 01:14:52,160 --> 01:14:54,447
- - Help me find my phone!
- - I'll help tomorrow.
- 1013
- 01:14:54,640 --> 01:14:57,246
- - I promise you. Tomorrow.
- - Help me. No! I want it.
- 1014
- 01:14:57,440 --> 01:14:59,568
- - I'll help you find it.
- - Help me find it.
- 1015
- 01:14:59,800 --> 01:15:04,089
- - I promise, but come to bed. Come.
- - Help me. God. Help me find my phone.
- 1016
- 01:15:04,440 --> 01:15:06,920
- - Come to bed with me, please.
- - All right.
- 1017
- 01:15:07,200 --> 01:15:10,044
- - Please?
- - Okay.
- 1018
- 01:15:10,640 --> 01:15:11,687
- Come on.
- 1019
- 01:15:12,640 --> 01:15:16,042
- Since the beginning,
- I completely understand the situation.
- 1020
- 01:15:16,280 --> 01:15:18,044
- Hey.
- 1021
- 01:15:19,640 --> 01:15:22,803
- - Anne?
- - I look forward to seeing you guys.
- 1022
- 01:15:23,120 --> 01:15:27,444
- - Hi.
- - Hey, Mama. Hey.
- 1023
- 01:15:28,960 --> 01:15:30,086
- It's Anna, Mom.
- 1024
- 01:15:31,040 --> 01:15:33,281
- I thought you were my sister.
- 1025
- 01:15:33,480 --> 01:15:35,482
- - It's okay.
- - How are you feeling?
- 1026
- 01:15:35,680 --> 01:15:38,490
- Oh, so uncomfortable.
- 1027
- 01:15:38,720 --> 01:15:41,883
- I can't breathe, I can't sleep.
- 1028
- 01:15:42,080 --> 01:15:43,605
- Was it like this for you?
- 1029
- 01:15:43,800 --> 01:15:45,723
- I didn't have two at a time.
- 1030
- 01:15:45,920 --> 01:15:47,490
- This is true.
- 1031
- 01:15:47,680 --> 01:15:50,524
- - Did you get the green curry?
- - I did. It's right here.
- 1032
- 01:15:50,720 --> 01:15:52,484
- - Oh, great.
- - Everything on track?
- 1033
- 01:15:52,680 --> 01:15:55,331
- Yes. They made a very generous offer.
- 1034
- 01:15:55,520 --> 01:15:57,966
- - Oh, that's great.
- - I guess.
- 1035
- 01:15:58,160 --> 01:16:00,242
- No, it is. It's the right decision.
- 1036
- 01:16:00,720 --> 01:16:02,643
- - Would you like some water?
- - Yes.
- 1037
- 01:16:02,840 --> 01:16:05,684
- John, what happened?
- Who was on the phone?
- 1038
- 01:16:05,880 --> 01:16:09,168
- That was that hospital, honey,
- the Mayo Clinic.
- 1039
- 01:16:09,360 --> 01:16:10,771
- Is someone sick?
- 1040
- 01:16:11,000 --> 01:16:12,490
- No. Nothing's wrong.
- 1041
- 01:16:12,680 --> 01:16:15,126
- Everything's absolutely fine.
- 1042
- 01:16:16,920 --> 01:16:18,922
- Oh, my God.
- 1043
- 01:16:21,240 --> 01:16:23,766
- Oh, no.
- 1044
- 01:16:25,920 --> 01:16:29,208
- I was looking for that last night.
- 1045
- 01:16:31,080 --> 01:16:34,129
- - That was a month ago.
- - Right.
- 1046
- 01:17:52,880 --> 01:17:54,848
- Ali. Hey.
- 1047
- 01:17:57,120 --> 01:17:59,646
- Wake up, baby. It's time to wake up.
- 1048
- 01:18:00,680 --> 01:18:02,444
- It's time to get dressed.
- 1049
- 01:18:02,640 --> 01:18:04,529
- I'm gonna help you.
- 1050
- 01:18:06,400 --> 01:18:08,880
- I've got some very good news for you.
- 1051
- 01:18:15,600 --> 01:18:18,331
- Let me help you with your pants. Come.
- 1052
- 01:18:18,920 --> 01:18:22,208
- No, I... I want my green one.
- 1053
- 01:18:22,400 --> 01:18:25,404
- Oh, no, I think this one
- will be really, really nice.
- 1054
- 01:18:25,600 --> 01:18:27,568
- Let's put that one on.
- 1055
- 01:18:27,800 --> 01:18:29,290
- Okay.
- 1056
- 01:18:32,280 --> 01:18:35,170
- Okay. Lean on me.
- 1057
- 01:18:37,160 --> 01:18:38,491
- Okay, hold on.
- 1058
- 01:18:47,480 --> 01:18:49,130
- Oh, there she is. Hey.
- 1059
- 01:18:49,320 --> 01:18:51,322
- What's the matter? She looks terrible.
- 1060
- 01:18:51,520 --> 01:18:54,046
- Well, she just delivered
- the babies, honey.
- 1061
- 01:18:57,400 --> 01:19:02,930
- - Anna, you had your babies.
- - I did, Mom.
- 1062
- 01:19:04,240 --> 01:19:06,402
- - This is Allison.
- - You look so beautiful.
- 1063
- 01:19:06,600 --> 01:19:08,204
- - Thank you.
- - That's Charlie Jr.
- 1064
- 01:19:08,400 --> 01:19:10,129
- - Little Charlie.
- - My goodness.
- 1065
- 01:19:10,320 --> 01:19:11,924
- Yes.
- 1066
- 01:19:14,920 --> 01:19:18,049
- - There you go.
- - Can I hold her?
- 1067
- 01:19:18,360 --> 01:19:20,283
- Is that a good idea?
- 1068
- 01:19:21,080 --> 01:19:23,481
- I know how to hold a baby.
- 1069
- 01:19:24,040 --> 01:19:27,601
- That's okay. Mom, you can sit
- right there in that chair.
- 1070
- 01:19:28,320 --> 01:19:31,324
- There. That's good.
- 1071
- 01:19:32,600 --> 01:19:35,729
- There we go. All right.
- 1072
- 01:19:36,160 --> 01:19:38,288
- Hi.
- 1073
- 01:19:38,760 --> 01:19:41,491
- Something tells me
- you've done this before.
- 1074
- 01:19:51,440 --> 01:19:53,010
- She looks like you.
- 1075
- 01:20:03,400 --> 01:20:06,085
- There are days she knows
- where she is, certainly...
- 1076
- 01:20:06,320 --> 01:20:09,130
- but there are just as many days
- when she doesn't.
- 1077
- 01:20:09,720 --> 01:20:13,202
- Maybe she thinks she's a child
- back in New Hampshire or who knows?
- 1078
- 01:20:13,400 --> 01:20:16,688
- It's happening more and more.
- She doesn't know what's going on.
- 1079
- 01:20:16,880 --> 01:20:18,530
- Yeah, I just...
- 1080
- 01:20:18,720 --> 01:20:22,122
- I keep thinking about what she said
- in that speech, you know...
- 1081
- 01:20:22,320 --> 01:20:24,243
- how important her memories are
- to who she is.
- 1082
- 01:20:24,440 --> 01:20:26,249
- Yes, but that was months ago.
- 1083
- 01:20:26,440 --> 01:20:28,966
- Guys, this is difficult for all of us.
- 1084
- 01:20:29,160 --> 01:20:32,721
- But it's important to remember
- who Alice was.
- 1085
- 01:20:32,920 --> 01:20:35,082
- She would not want to be a burden.
- 1086
- 01:20:35,280 --> 01:20:38,045
- Anna, you have the babies,
- you wanna go back to work.
- 1087
- 01:20:38,240 --> 01:20:41,449
- You're not in a position
- to care for her, not seriously, Tom.
- 1088
- 01:20:41,640 --> 01:20:43,768
- And I can't keep Mayo waiting.
- 1089
- 01:20:43,960 --> 01:20:47,521
- The beginning of this month, I am gone.
- I want to take her with me.
- 1090
- 01:20:47,720 --> 01:20:52,089
- I will get her the best possible care,
- and once she's adjusted to Minnesota...
- 1091
- 01:20:52,320 --> 01:20:56,006
- she will be happier for it,
- and so will all of us.
- 1092
- 01:21:00,600 --> 01:21:02,682
- - Lydia's gonna flip.
- - Oh, so let her.
- 1093
- 01:21:02,920 --> 01:21:05,969
- - Well, she is.
- - Well, she has no right to.
- 1094
- 01:21:06,160 --> 01:21:08,891
- If she cared, she wouldn't be
- on the other side of the country.
- 1095
- 01:21:09,080 --> 01:21:11,287
- Hot in here.
- 1096
- 01:21:16,640 --> 01:21:18,722
- Who is he exactly?
- 1097
- 01:21:18,920 --> 01:21:22,720
- His name is Bill Thompson.
- He's a manager.
- 1098
- 01:21:22,920 --> 01:21:25,446
- Why is he so important?
- 1099
- 01:21:26,720 --> 01:21:28,609
- He'll open doors for me.
- 1100
- 01:21:28,800 --> 01:21:31,610
- Get me into auditions
- I wouldn't be able to get into.
- 1101
- 01:21:31,800 --> 01:21:33,564
- Got me some good headshots.
- 1102
- 01:21:33,760 --> 01:21:35,603
- I see.
- 1103
- 01:21:35,840 --> 01:21:37,808
- What's his name?
- 1104
- 01:21:38,280 --> 01:21:40,044
- Bill Thompson.
- 1105
- 01:21:40,240 --> 01:21:42,049
- He's with Thompson and Gould...
- 1106
- 01:21:42,240 --> 01:21:44,527
- if you wanna look him up. They're good.
- 1107
- 01:21:44,720 --> 01:21:46,882
- Kettle's boiling.
- 1108
- 01:21:49,720 --> 01:21:51,484
- Where's Elena?
- 1109
- 01:21:51,760 --> 01:21:54,889
- I'm making myself a cup of tea.
- 1110
- 01:21:55,280 --> 01:21:59,842
- Cool. Where's your caretaker?
- 1111
- 01:22:01,440 --> 01:22:04,046
- Elena's not here today.
- 1112
- 01:22:04,240 --> 01:22:08,086
- Her daughter's sick.
- She's at the doctor.
- 1113
- 01:22:10,040 --> 01:22:11,804
- So you're alone?
- 1114
- 01:22:13,000 --> 01:22:16,288
- I can make myself a cup of tea.
- 1115
- 01:22:16,880 --> 01:22:18,450
- Okay.
- 1116
- 01:22:19,880 --> 01:22:21,370
- Okay.
- 1117
- 01:22:21,960 --> 01:22:24,884
- You wanna check out my headshot?
- If I send you a link...
- 1118
- 01:22:25,120 --> 01:22:28,681
- can you open the file,
- download the file?
- 1119
- 01:22:29,280 --> 01:22:31,009
- Yes.
- 1120
- 01:22:32,160 --> 01:22:33,605
- Good.
- 1121
- 01:22:34,480 --> 01:22:36,244
- Okay.
- 1122
- 01:22:37,920 --> 01:22:39,809
- I'll talk to you later. I love you.
- 1123
- 01:22:40,000 --> 01:22:42,571
- - Bye.
- - Bye.
- 1124
- 01:23:15,120 --> 01:23:16,201
- Hi.
- 1125
- 01:23:16,400 --> 01:23:21,122
- Alice, I'm you, and I have something
- very important to say to you.
- 1126
- 01:23:22,040 --> 01:23:26,728
- You've reached that point, the point
- where you can't answer the questions.
- 1127
- 01:23:26,920 --> 01:23:30,083
- So this is the next logical step.
- 1128
- 01:23:30,280 --> 01:23:32,123
- I'm sure of it.
- 1129
- 01:23:32,600 --> 01:23:34,967
- Because what's happened to you. The...
- 1130
- 01:23:35,160 --> 01:23:39,085
- You know, the Alzheimer's.
- You could see it as tragic, but...
- 1131
- 01:23:39,640 --> 01:23:41,802
- your life has been anything but tragic.
- 1132
- 01:23:42,000 --> 01:23:45,083
- You have had a remarkable career...
- 1133
- 01:23:45,280 --> 01:23:47,044
- and a great marriage...
- 1134
- 01:23:47,240 --> 01:23:49,641
- and three beautiful children.
- 1135
- 01:23:52,160 --> 01:23:55,369
- All right, listen to me.
- 1136
- 01:23:56,760 --> 01:23:57,921
- This is important.
- 1137
- 01:23:58,120 --> 01:24:00,964
- Make sure that you're alone
- and go to your bedroom.
- 1138
- 01:24:01,160 --> 01:24:04,403
- In your bedroom,
- there's a dresser with a blue lamp.
- 1139
- 01:24:04,840 --> 01:24:06,683
- Open the top drawer.
- 1140
- 01:24:06,880 --> 01:24:10,521
- In the back of the drawer,
- there's a bottle with pills in it.
- 1141
- 01:24:10,720 --> 01:24:14,122
- It says, "Take all pills with water."
- 1142
- 01:24:14,360 --> 01:24:17,204
- Now, there are a lot of pills
- in that bottle...
- 1143
- 01:24:17,440 --> 01:24:22,321
- but it's very important
- that you swallow them all, okay?
- 1144
- 01:24:22,520 --> 01:24:26,161
- And then lie down...
- 1145
- 01:24:26,360 --> 01:24:28,203
- and go to sleep.
- 1146
- 01:24:30,720 --> 01:24:34,327
- And don't tell anyone
- what you're doing, okay?
- 1147
- 01:25:03,280 --> 01:25:06,284
- In your bedroom,
- there's a dresser with a blue lamp.
- 1148
- 01:25:06,480 --> 01:25:08,369
- Open the top drawer.
- 1149
- 01:25:08,560 --> 01:25:12,042
- In the back of the drawer,
- there's a bottle with pills in it.
- 1150
- 01:25:12,240 --> 01:25:15,562
- It says, "Take all pills with water."
- 1151
- 01:25:18,520 --> 01:25:22,889
- Dresser with lamp. Dresser...
- 1152
- 01:25:23,080 --> 01:25:26,243
- Blue lamp. Dresser.
- 1153
- 01:25:38,760 --> 01:25:41,604
- Make sure that you're alone
- and go to your bedroom.
- 1154
- 01:25:41,800 --> 01:25:45,202
- In your bedroom,
- there's a dresser with a blue lamp.
- 1155
- 01:25:45,400 --> 01:25:47,323
- Open the top drawer.
- 1156
- 01:25:47,520 --> 01:25:51,127
- In the back of the drawer,
- there's a bottle with pills in it.
- 1157
- 01:25:51,320 --> 01:25:54,767
- It says, "Take all pills with water."
- 1158
- 01:25:55,000 --> 01:25:57,606
- Now, there are a lot of pills
- in that bottle...
- 1159
- 01:25:57,840 --> 01:26:02,971
- but it's very important
- that you swallow them all, okay?
- 1160
- 01:26:03,160 --> 01:26:08,769
- And then lie down and go to sleep.
- 1161
- 01:26:11,360 --> 01:26:16,082
- And don't tell anyone
- what you're doing, okay?
- 1162
- 01:26:34,960 --> 01:26:36,610
- Hello?
- 1163
- 01:27:09,640 --> 01:27:12,723
- May I have a cookies-and-cream
- and a chocolate hazelnut?
- 1164
- 01:27:13,200 --> 01:27:14,531
- You know what you want.
- 1165
- 01:27:14,720 --> 01:27:16,848
- Cookies-and-cream
- and chocolate hazelnut.
- 1166
- 01:27:17,080 --> 01:27:20,289
- You usually have the original
- with blueberries and coconut.
- 1167
- 01:27:20,480 --> 01:27:21,527
- Okay.
- 1168
- 01:27:21,720 --> 01:27:24,849
- Original with blueberries and coconut,
- please.
- 1169
- 01:27:34,880 --> 01:27:37,565
- Ali, you see that building over there?
- 1170
- 01:27:37,920 --> 01:27:39,524
- Do you know what that is?
- 1171
- 01:27:40,520 --> 01:27:42,966
- I don't think I know that.
- 1172
- 01:27:43,600 --> 01:27:46,888
- That's Columbia,
- where you used to teach.
- 1173
- 01:27:47,760 --> 01:27:51,242
- Someone told me I was a good teacher.
- 1174
- 01:27:51,440 --> 01:27:54,171
- Yes. You were.
- 1175
- 01:27:56,280 --> 01:27:57,770
- I was really smart.
- 1176
- 01:28:00,080 --> 01:28:03,004
- You were the smartest person
- I've ever met.
- 1177
- 01:28:09,240 --> 01:28:13,723
- Ali, do you still wanna be here?
- 1178
- 01:28:17,520 --> 01:28:19,204
- I'm not done yet.
- 1179
- 01:28:19,400 --> 01:28:20,731
- Do we have to go?
- 1180
- 01:28:22,400 --> 01:28:23,811
- No.
- 1181
- 01:28:24,960 --> 01:28:26,610
- Don't worry.
- 1182
- 01:28:26,800 --> 01:28:28,643
- Take your time.
- 1183
- 01:28:52,760 --> 01:28:56,810
- - Is this all of your stuff?
- - I shipped some boxes as well.
- 1184
- 01:28:57,280 --> 01:28:59,567
- Are you sad to leave L.A.?
- 1185
- 01:28:59,880 --> 01:29:02,724
- I'm trying to convince myself
- I'm an East Coast girl.
- 1186
- 01:29:02,920 --> 01:29:04,524
- Where's Mom?
- 1187
- 01:29:04,840 --> 01:29:06,683
- She's sleeping.
- 1188
- 01:29:10,600 --> 01:29:12,728
- Well, here it is.
- 1189
- 01:29:13,200 --> 01:29:15,043
- Your old room.
- 1190
- 01:29:23,000 --> 01:29:25,924
- So how did it work out
- with your manager?
- 1191
- 01:29:26,880 --> 01:29:30,521
- It's a West Coast company, you know.
- Not so good.
- 1192
- 01:29:31,080 --> 01:29:34,402
- Well, that's too bad.
- Are you sure you don't mind?
- 1193
- 01:29:36,000 --> 01:29:38,367
- We've had this conversation.
- 1194
- 01:29:39,120 --> 01:29:40,610
- Okay.
- 1195
- 01:29:40,800 --> 01:29:44,725
- It's New York City.
- I'll audition, do theater.
- 1196
- 01:29:45,600 --> 01:29:48,444
- I know that this is where I need to be,
- though, so...
- 1197
- 01:29:49,520 --> 01:29:51,887
- You're a better man than I am.
- 1198
- 01:29:53,760 --> 01:29:57,367
- Dad, I've got her, okay?
- 1199
- 01:30:42,880 --> 01:30:45,247
- It's getting pretty cold, huh?
- 1200
- 01:30:45,960 --> 01:30:47,769
- Wanna head home?
- 1201
- 01:30:49,360 --> 01:30:51,283
- Come on, let's do it.
- 1202
- 01:31:15,280 --> 01:31:17,089
- - Hey.
- - Hi.
- 1203
- 01:31:17,680 --> 01:31:18,966
- How was your walk?
- 1204
- 01:31:19,200 --> 01:31:20,770
- I don't think I know you.
- 1205
- 01:31:20,960 --> 01:31:23,088
- - Yes, you do.
- - Hey, Mom, it's Elena.
- 1206
- 01:31:23,280 --> 01:31:25,203
- I'm gonna get you some juice, okay?
- 1207
- 01:31:25,400 --> 01:31:28,927
- Come, let's take off your coat
- and go inside.
- 1208
- 01:31:45,360 --> 01:31:49,001
- "Night flight to San Francisco,
- chase the moon across America.
- 1209
- 01:31:49,760 --> 01:31:52,730
- God, it's been years
- since I was on a plane.
- 1210
- 01:31:53,040 --> 01:31:56,283
- When we hit 35,000 feet,
- we'll have reached the tropopause...
- 1211
- 01:31:56,480 --> 01:31:59,689
- the great belt of calm air.
- 1212
- 01:32:00,840 --> 01:32:05,289
- As close to the ozone as I'll get,
- I... I dreamed we were there.
- 1213
- 01:32:05,960 --> 01:32:09,009
- The plane leapt the tropopause...
- 1214
- 01:32:09,560 --> 01:32:14,088
- the safe air, and attained the outer rim,
- the ozone, which was ragged and torn...
- 1215
- 01:32:14,280 --> 01:32:18,330
- patches of it threadbare
- as old cheesecloth, and that was...
- 1216
- 01:32:19,080 --> 01:32:20,889
- frightening.
- 1217
- 01:32:21,520 --> 01:32:23,124
- But I saw something only I could see...
- 1218
- 01:32:23,320 --> 01:32:26,449
- because of my astonishing ability
- to see such things.
- 1219
- 01:32:28,480 --> 01:32:31,131
- Souls were rising...
- 1220
- 01:32:32,320 --> 01:32:34,926
- from the earth far below,
- souls of the dead...
- 1221
- 01:32:35,120 --> 01:32:37,566
- of people who'd perished...
- 1222
- 01:32:37,760 --> 01:32:40,764
- from famine, from war,
- from the plague...
- 1223
- 01:32:42,560 --> 01:32:48,249
- and they floated up,
- like skydivers in reverse...
- 1224
- 01:32:48,440 --> 01:32:53,128
- limbs all akimbo, wheeling, spinning.
- 1225
- 01:32:54,360 --> 01:32:56,966
- The souls of these departed
- joined hands, clasped ankles...
- 1226
- 01:32:57,160 --> 01:33:01,210
- and formed a web, a great net of souls.
- 1227
- 01:33:02,680 --> 01:33:06,605
- And the souls were three-atom
- oxygen molecules of the stuff of ozone...
- 1228
- 01:33:06,800 --> 01:33:10,850
- and the outer rim absorbed them,
- and was repaired.
- 1229
- 01:33:14,760 --> 01:33:17,445
- Because nothing is lost forever.
- 1230
- 01:33:21,120 --> 01:33:23,930
- In this world,
- there's a kind of painful progress.
- 1231
- 01:33:24,160 --> 01:33:27,164
- A longing for what we've left behind...
- 1232
- 01:33:29,160 --> 01:33:31,208
- and dreaming ahead.
- 1233
- 01:33:32,280 --> 01:33:34,487
- At least I think that's so."
- 1234
- 01:33:36,920 --> 01:33:38,570
- That's it.
- 1235
- 01:33:47,680 --> 01:33:48,920
- Hey.
- 1236
- 01:33:52,560 --> 01:33:54,528
- Did you like that?
- 1237
- 01:33:58,720 --> 01:34:02,088
- What I just read, did you like it?
- 1238
- 01:34:02,880 --> 01:34:04,450
- Yeah.
- 1239
- 01:34:10,720 --> 01:34:12,484
- And what...?
- 1240
- 01:34:13,680 --> 01:34:15,364
- What was it about?
- 1241
- 01:34:19,440 --> 01:34:21,090
- Love.
- 1242
- 01:34:21,840 --> 01:34:22,887
- Yeah. Love.
- 1243
- 01:34:24,000 --> 01:34:25,684
- Yeah, Mom.
- 1244
- 01:34:27,720 --> 01:34:29,848
- It was about love.
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