Abit late at writing this but nevertheless!
I'll probably send you these on the 20th of march, once I've aready sorted out my issues with you.
Log 2.

I can safely say I'm over you. The only thing that still fucks my head up is how it all changed so fast. I mean it made me realise that you were definitely not the girl I've been waiting for, so i have no regrets about losing you but fuck man. I honestly feel like i got played like a bitch. I mean how are you gonna kiss a guy, share your food with him, make him promise to call you, wait around for him just to give him a kiss and make him drop you home only to fuck off with another guy less then 2 days later. Do you not even feel slightly guilty for that? Shit you  know you'd have not taken that well if that happened to you. Whats worse is when i questioned you about it you claimed tha i was playing around with your head trying to make you reconsider shit? Do you have any idea how badly I wanted to rip you apart? fuck man what do you take me for.

The other thing this made me realise is your honestly not the one I'm waitin for. The girl I'm after would never have moved on so easily nor would she have ever changed so quickly or understood so little. I really beleived you udnerstood me but you didnt get shit, it was all one sided. (before you even try, I had already pretty much figured out everything you eventually told me, on the end of the tuesday it all started to go downhill for me) You dont even know why I fell for you, nor will I ever tell you (you wont ever get the truth, the fact that you didnt even know what it was, was bad enough. If you have any respect for me you wont ever try to find out). The person you are now and the person you were when the feelings developed were two completely different people. You don't even have that warmth you once used to.

But yeah, you somehow think i still like you... you think i still want you... There are still feelings but there completely different... its not love or like anymore. The only reason im still around is because i made a few hasty promises that i will never go back on.  Dont get me wrong i might hate you for what you did, and i definitely think its completely fucked up how you can always try to rub it in my face that you got with P and not me 'you had your chance but you didnt want me so i moved on...etc' but oddly enough your still an important person to me and I want to see you smile. So if for some reason i just give you the most fucked up cold shoulder or i just cant be asked to talk to you anymore just know that If you ever truly need me, ill be here. I'll still drop anything for you but I wont ever let you play with my heart again nor will i ever re-open that door for you. You aren't my Jaani anymore but i do wish you all the happiness in the world.


This things kinda all over the place but I think it makes sense.

P.S. there was so much mroe i wanted to say, so much mroe i wanted to bitch about but there not really important. When you do see this dont get down on yourself, im already over it lol.