[23:40:58]  <shaun413>	I am crying
[23:44:10]  <Capricious>	Why are you crying, shaun413
[23:44:30]  <shaun413>	Because I'm sad
[23:45:30]  <Lola>	shaun413: make a list of all the good things in your life that you are grateful for
[23:46:04]  <shaun413>	Nothing
[23:46:07]  <shaun413>	I hate everything
[23:46:38]  <Lola>	I am disabled and live in poverty
[23:46:58]  <Lola>	I'm pretty frucking sure you have things in your life that are good
[23:48:03]  <Lola>	Like a place to live, food, friends, etc. You have to get out of the mindset where the only thing you think about is negative stuff.
[23:51:58]  <shaun413>	 I live in a home where I am abused constantly
[23:52:05]  <shaun413>	I don't have friends
[23:52:09]  <Capricious>	Who is abusing you?
[23:52:14]  <shaun413>	Parents
[23:52:19]  <Capricious>	Why?
[23:52:25]  <shaun413>	Idk?
[23:53:14]  <jesusgrande>	can we all hug
[23:54:55]  <Capricious>	Lola is right though.  Having gratitude helps mentally.
[23:55:58]  <Lola>	Why don't you leave shaun413 ?
[23:56:20]  <Lola>	My parents were also abusive
[23:56:35]  <Lola>	I left when I was a teenager
[23:56:38]  <shaun413>	You want to give me money to leave?
[23:57:12]  <Lola>	you don't need money to leave and gp to a shelter dude
[23:57:49]  <Lola>	I was homeless before and ot was still better than being with my parents
[23:58:20]  <Lola>	You just need the will to leave
[00:00:11]  <Lola>	Do you have a job now ?
[00:00:15]  <shaun413>	No
[00:01:13]  <Lola>	Ok, start picking up gigs on craigslist. Clean houses, collect cans, apply for welfare, get the fuck out.
[00:01:22]  <Lola>	Reach out to fami
[00:01:30]  <Lola>	Family and friends to help
[00:01:41]  <shaun413>	No
[00:01:47]  <shaun413>	I cant
[00:01:51]  <Lola>	Why ?
[00:01:55]  <shaun413>	I don't want to fucking move
[00:01:58]  <shaun413>	Let alone work
[00:02:04]  <shaun413>	I want to slit my throat
[00:03:06]  <Lola>	Then go to therapy and take meds and if the abuse is bad call adu
[00:03:14]  <Lola>	Adult Protective Services
[00:03:26]  <Lola>	They will put you into a different living situation
[00:05:02]  <caze>	How do your parents abuse you?
[00:05:25]  <shaun413>	I don't need meds
[00:05:32]  <shaun413>	I need to fix my shit hormone levels
[00:09:52]  <shaun413>	Idk how
[00:10:02]  <shaun413>	Sure I can take hormone shots for the rest of my life
[00:10:15]  <shaun413>	Or I can try exercise? Diet? Vitamin d zinc
[00:10:24]  <shaun413>	But maybe the hormone issues are causing that
[00:10:38]  <shaun413>	Is not like I'm just kinda low or on the low end
[00:10:47]  <shaun413>	I'm clinically off the charted reference range
[00:11:17]  <shaun413>	My mother refuses to believe it's a legitimate medical issye
[00:11:47]  <shaun413>	Despite studies showing links to heart issues, diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, bone density loss
[00:12:04]  <shaun413>	Many of which I'm already exhibiting symptoms
[00:12:24]  <shaun413>	This shit is destroying my lige
[00:12:26]  <shaun413>	Life
[00:15:39]  <shaun413>	Just kill me