Need for Motivation Please

Speedrun stuff:

Tl;dr: I need advice to help me get motivated to speedrun or learn a new game in general, any advice are welcome and appreciated

Hi, I hate talking about this cause it always happens but I'm desperate and need advice or something I don't know

I've been having a lot(and I mean a lot) of trouble with motivation for anything speedrun related, and kinda in general.
I've been trying out a lot of different games, I tried tp, I tried billy, I tried oot and mm, I tried skyward sword, and literally nothing makes me happy, or at least is as fun to run as it is to watch.

It has honestly everything to do with me and my personality, I am very impatient with learning anything, especially if they become frustrating, and it has been a trait that I have adopted from running albw for so long because I never had to learn a new game, and it was on a 3ds so I'm not even familiar with a gc controller or anything really.

It really sucks to feel like this because despite how much I make fun of speedrunning, I really do enjoy it and it has been my favorite hobby for almost 3 years. I am very passionate about this (not to the extent of wanting to be a god, but at least to enjoy games and learn more).

I don't care if I don't get viewers, I don't care if I don't get donations, I don't care if I never get partner, I want to speedrun because it's fun to me, and me not knowing what I want to run despite having a lot of tools to be able to and games to run that are all enjoyable, I simply have no motivation to even learn any of them.

I would go back to albw, but again I am really burned out of it and don't really want to run it anymore but that game is really fun, aside from all this, here are the games that I have and can learn:

Twilight Princess
Billy Hatcher
Majora's Mask
Ocarina of Time (vc only for now)
Minish Cap (emulator until I get a gamecube)

and I have a few more but can't recall all their names. But I have learned some of these but never finished because I get stuck on some part of just have not as much fun. How do you people do it, especially to those who know multiple games? What is your drive I guess. Please tell me D: