Abt silk, please give this a read, not asking for forgiveness, or for you to talk to me.

I'm not asking for any of those things, or for you to get back with me, or for you to forget what I did. Nor was it my intention to harass people to ask them to talk to you - I was just slightly desperate, because I wanted to talk to you. Chijo approached me, and so did Ishak. So did a few other people, though they didn't carry messages for me. They just wanted to help and I didn't mean to bother you. But regardless, the links are here to what I wanted to show you.

I'm merely asking you to take a look here - clearly, Silky can't be trusted, just as you thought before. Like he did the first time (when he was hitting on me).

I was trying to move on (which didn't exactly work) but I'm not trying to harass anyone. I was thinking about the actual reason why I left you that moment - which I instantly regretted - and I couldn't remember on the day. I was too miserable. I just want to exonerate myself, atleast in your eyes - I can't bear being seen as this awful person, because it's simply not true.

And it was Silky. He had argued against me being with you and manipulated me into saying it, even though I really didn't want to, which is why I told you the following:
"i love you too, and i wish this could go on"
"i can't waste my life on a wistful dream of walking around with you at night. you're 4000 miles away."
"i desperately wanna be with you I just
it's
i can't and you know i can't"

He had clearly planted these ideas into my head, which you can see all below.

Claimed you didn't like me at all:
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/433656411763769354/460015623884374021/IMG_20180623_103630.png

Tried to reduce my faith in what we had:
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/433656411763769354/460015625364963329/IMG_20180623_103526.png

Describing you as the "abusive mom":
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/433656411763769354/460015623351828492/IMG_20180623_103651.png

The rest are screenshots. The others I had taken screenshots of on my phone and had sent to my computer, but I'm on my computer writing this pastebin now, so yeah. You can go onto the Gyazo website or search around to make sure it's legitimate if you really don't trust me.

Again saying you didn't love me at all:
https://gyazo.com/472a0686474f5150f72902db81609f5d

Apparently is doing this just to spite me:
https://gyazo.com/ab1d8b352af1b36d12d80ae73de88fe0

Don't know what to describe this one as:
https://gyazo.com/f2b942141ecfaecd8e578a8a34f997cc

Prior to this, he had constantly tried to erode my faith in us, including claiming the only reason I like you is because I want to be forced into taking HRT, apparently:
https://gyazo.com/0cbc49bf90e980671c0010708bfbd4ef

They claimed you were a "child predator", even though everything was legal, and tried to dirty the way I think of you:
https://gyazo.com/d0430c1ae7cad66dd81c4b10942ef5e2

They told me to "not let [you] mess about with me", and ghost you:
https://gyazo.com/f537e2459b3a2e8426c628926be6adb2
https://gyazo.com/684974d21d99c50ea3dc9203bd119390

Remember when they claimed if I left you, I'd still "have" them? That they'll be available for me? It's pretty clear what they were implying:
https://gyazo.com/a08fe229f555132529e0b69eceb9e082

They also continued to attempt to erode my love for you, claiming it's just "infatuation":
https://gyazo.com/41420e0d181b7bfadb30d18c0dc13369

He clearly tried to do this over a long period of time to erode my faith in you - for whatever reason he had. I trusted him because these would be small nuggets in among his kindness. And I was stupid for thinking he'd still be okay after the first time.

And after the issue with the images I sent to the Discord, he began barraging me with messages, making me panic, which later led to him ruining our relationship. It was like the previous time. I didn't know what to do, though I knew I liked you. He made it seem as if everyone would be better off if we weren't together. I don't know if you're better off, and I'm sorry if I haven't realised you are, but I'm ... not.

I know what I did was wrong, but my relationship with the bf was tumultuous, it turned out we  were never going to meet even if we wanted to, and that's when I began to really like you.

My relationship with my "bf" wasn't exactly a real relationship. Yeah, I'm aware Silky apparently screencapped some stuff, though it wasn't exactly true.. I tend to present things to people as being much better than they are once we get talking about something, because otherwise I'd be venting constantly. I didn't feel like I had to lie to you though - when I was talking to you and was with you, you were all that mattered. No one else. Not at all in the wonderful time I spent with you.

You made me feel like maybe I was worth something - and I had never felt that before. You were everything I had ever wanted, and I didn't know how to handle that.

Sorry if you don't like me anymore. Sorry for behaving like this and pestering you constantly. I imagine if this doesn't convince you, nothing will, and I'm trying to move on anyway if you're not interested in me anymore.

I dreamed about you the night before we broke up, about going on long nightwalks with you and stuff.

**Please don't "disown" me for this**, whatever that means and whatever that would entail. I'm trying my best to stop bothering you, though it's hard due to the way we kinda ended suddenly. I'm just trying to deal with my pain by hoping we could still have something, though it's obvious you don't want to. I'm sorry. I thought we were happy together.. I'd work harder if we had another chance, as hard as I can, because being with you was amazing.

That's it. All I have to say. It means so much you read this. And now I'm being an idiot, hoping we could still rescue what we had.

But even if you don't like me, **why trust Silky**? We know what he did, Aero. And sorry for posting so much text - I didn't think it'd be this much, but apparently it is.

Apparently he also said that I was trying to manipulate you into feeling bad because you don't like me or something? I'm not trying to do that. If you don't like me, then you don't have to get back with me or anything. I don't want to guilt you into getting back with me - one of my past partners pitied me so much they pretended to love me again. Whatever you do, don't do that - I'm just hoping that, given what an amazing time we had together, you might still like me too.

Or atleast, you'll hate me a little less. I'm not a villain.