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- I'm thinking of ending things.
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- Once this thought arrives, it stays.
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- It sticks, it lingers, it dominates.
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- There's not much I can do about it,
- trust me.
- 5
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- It doesn't go away.
- 6
- 00:01:03,875 --> 00:01:05,708
- It's there whether I like it or not.
- 7
- 00:01:05,791 --> 00:01:09,791
- It's there when I eat, when I go to bed.
- It's there when I sleep, when I wake up.
- 8
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- It's always there. Always.
- 9
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- I haven't been thinking about it for long.
- 10
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- The idea is new.
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- But it feels old at the same time.
- 12
- 00:01:19,958 --> 00:01:21,083
- When did it start?
- 13
- 00:01:21,541 --> 00:01:23,291
- What if this thought
- wasn't conceived by me,
- 14
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- but planted in my mind, pre-developed.
- 15
- 00:01:26,416 --> 00:01:28,708
- Is an unspoken idea unoriginal?
- 16
- 00:01:29,458 --> 00:01:31,458
- Maybe I've actually known all along.
- 17
- 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:34,333
- Maybe this is how
- it was always going to end.
- 18
- 00:01:36,583 --> 00:01:37,750
- Jake once said,
- 19
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- "Sometimes the thought
- is closer to the truth,
- 20
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- to reality, than an action.
- 21
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- You can say anything, you can do anything,
- but you can't fake a thought."
- 22
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- The road is mostly empty.
- 23
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- It's quiet around here. Vacant.
- 24
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- More so than anticipated.
- 25
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- So much to see, but not many people.
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- Not many buildings or houses.
- 27
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- Sky.
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- Trees, fields, fences.
- 29
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- The road and its gravel shoulders.
- 30
- 00:02:07,958 --> 00:02:10,791
- "You wanna stop for a coffee?"
- "I think I'm OK I say.
- 31
- 00:02:11,625 --> 00:02:14,458
- "Last chance we'll have
- before it becomes really farm-y."
- 32
- 00:02:15,750 --> 00:02:18,250
- I'm visiting Jake's parents
- for the first time.
- 33
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- Or I will be when we arrive.
- 34
- 00:02:20,375 --> 00:02:22,250
- Jake, my boyfriend.
- 35
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- He hasn't been my boyfriend for very long.
- 36
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- It's our first trip together.
- 37
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- Our first long drive.
- 38
- 00:02:27,958 --> 00:02:30,208
- So it's weird that I'm feeling nostalgic,
- 39
- 00:02:30,291 --> 00:02:32,666
- about our relationship,
- about him, about us.
- 40
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- I should be excited,
- looking forward to the first of many.
- 41
- 00:02:37,666 --> 00:02:39,750
- But I'm not. Not at all.
- 42
- 00:02:41,416 --> 00:02:44,458
- I've seen more barns on this drive
- than I've seen in years.
- 43
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- Maybe in my life.
- 44
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- They all look the same.
- 45
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- Some cows, some horses, sheep, fields.
- 46
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- And barns.
- 47
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- Such a big sky.
- 48
- 00:02:56,958 --> 00:02:59,333
- Feels like I've known Jake
- longer than I have.
- 49
- 00:03:00,250 --> 00:03:01,291
- What has it been?
- 50
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- Oh, a month?
- 51
- 00:03:03,875 --> 00:03:05,250
- Six weeks, maybe seven.
- 52
- 00:03:05,333 --> 00:03:08,250
- I should know exactly.
- I'll say seven weeks.
- 53
- 00:03:12,625 --> 00:03:16,083
- The assumptions are right.
- I can feel my fear growing. Now is the...
- 54
- 00:03:16,166 --> 00:03:20,208
- We have a real connection.
- A rare and intense attachment.
- 55
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- I've never experienced anything like it.
- 56
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- â¦growing. Now is the time
- for the answer. Just one question.
- 57
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- One question to answer.
- 58
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- It's snowing!
- 59
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- Winter is comin' in!
- 60
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- Yep.
- 61
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- Look at the sky.
- 62
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- I'm thinking of ending things.
- 63
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- - Huh?
- - What?
- 64
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- Did you say something?
- 65
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- No, I don't think so.
- 66
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- Weird.
- 67
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- Yeah.
- 68
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- I'm thinking of ending things.
- 69
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- What's the point in carrying on like this?
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- I know what it is, where it's going.
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- Jake is a nice guy, but...
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- it's not going anywhere.
- I've known this for a while now.
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- Maybe it's human nature to keep going
- in the face of this knowledge.
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- The alternative requires too much energy.
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- Decisiveness.
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- Hmm.
- 77
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- People stay in unhealthy relationships
- because it's easier.
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- Basic physics.
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- An object in motion
- tends to stay in motion.
- 80
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- People tend to stay in relationships
- past their expiration date.
- 81
- 00:05:04,583 --> 00:05:06,541
- It's Newton's first law of emotion.
- 82
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- Do you want to stop for a coffee
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- or something, a... a snack?
- 84
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- It's... it's going to get pretty farm-y
- 85
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- - pretty fast now.
- - No, no, no, I'm... I'm fine.
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- - You sure?
- - Mm-hmm.
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- Don't want to spoil my appetite.
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- OK
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- You know, my mother hasn't been
- feeling well recently.
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- 00:05:47,916 --> 00:05:49,041
- - Oh.
- - So...
- 91
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- I'm sorry.
- 92
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- I'm just saying
- that there might not be much of a spread,
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- that she might not be up to
- a lot of cooking.
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- Um...
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- - She hasn't been well.
- - What's going on with her?
- 96
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- Just saying, if you want
- to stop for a snack
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- or anything like that,
- it would probably be fine...
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- um...
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- in terms of appetite spoiling.
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- It might even be advisable.
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- I'm fine.
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- OK
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- Come, join me, my friends,
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- and accept Jesus into your hearts,
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- for as Isaiah 1:18 tells us,
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- though your sins be as scarlet,
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- they shall be as white as snow.
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- They really are looking forward
- to meeting you.
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- I don't want to give you
- the wrong impression.
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- 00:06:45,666 --> 00:06:48,333
- - Aww, that's nice to hear.
- - ...a lot about you.
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- Yeah, I-I-I'm... I'm...
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- I'm really looking forward
- to meeting them too.
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- Maybe it's unfair of me
- to be going on this trip with Jakeâ¦
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- When I'm so uncertain about our future,
- our lack of it.
- 115
- 00:07:02,375 --> 00:07:04,416
- After all, going to meet
- your boyfriend's parents
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- is the proverbial next step, isn't it?
- 117
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- The truth is, I haven't even
- told my parents I'm dating Jake.
- 118
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- I've never mentioned him,
- and I don't think I ever will.
- 119
- 00:07:12,791 --> 00:07:14,458
- She hasn't been feeling well.
- 120
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- Getting old ain't for sissies,
- as Bette Davis said.
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- 00:07:17,875 --> 00:07:19,208
- True, although...
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- one might just take issue
- with her use of the word sissy...
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- 00:07:23,708 --> 00:07:26,500
- - Yeah, of course. Yeah. Yes, sir.
- - ...as a pejorative.
- 124
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- It was a different time.
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- I guess it's curiosity.
- 126
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- Jake is certainly hard to figure.
- 127
- 00:07:36,375 --> 00:07:38,500
- Maybe it's like a window into his origins.
- 128
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- The child being father of the man and all.
- 129
- 00:07:41,416 --> 00:07:43,250
- Are you a fan of Wordsworth, then?
- 130
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- - Wordsworth?
- - William Wordsworth, the poet?
- 131
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- Um...
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- Not... I'm not familiar, really.
- 133
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- Why do you ask?
- 134
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- Just thinking about him for some reason.
- 135
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- He popped into my head.
- 136
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- His poem Ode: Intimations of Immortality
- from Recollections of Early Childhood.
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- 00:08:04,458 --> 00:08:06,166
- Jesus, that's the title?
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- 00:08:06,250 --> 00:08:08,708
- - Sounds like an entire poem.
- - Wellâ¦
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- - I'm thinking of...
- - Get your words' worth with Wordsworth.
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- Fired.
- 141
- 00:08:22,166 --> 00:08:24,166
- Do you want to hear how it starts?
- 142
- 00:08:24,250 --> 00:08:26,708
- - It's just that the...
- - I'm not a metaphorical-type gal.
- 143
- 00:08:26,791 --> 00:08:28,666
- It's just that that one speaks to me.
- 144
- 00:08:30,500 --> 00:08:34,875
- Uh, incidentally, Wordsworth wrote
- a series of poems to a woman named Lucy.
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- Like me!
- 146
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- A beautiful, idealized woman
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- who dies young.
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- Oh, yikes.
- 149
- 00:08:46,166 --> 00:08:49,000
- Well, the comparison goes
- only as far as your name.
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- Phew.
- 151
- 00:08:50,958 --> 00:08:53,708
- And that you are ideal,
- 152
- 00:08:53,791 --> 00:08:56,208
- - of course.
- - Yeah, yeah.
- 153
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- Ah, that's very sweet.
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- It's justâ¦
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- Who's that?
- 156
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- Uh, it's just a friend.
- 157
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- I'm not gonna answer.
- 158
- 00:09:15,625 --> 00:09:17,916
- - You can, I don't mind. You should.
- - Eh, it's OK
- 159
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- - It's all right.
- - I don't mind.
- 160
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- That's odd. Did you see that swing set
- 161
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- - we just passed?
- - What swing set?
- 162
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- It was weird.
- It was this beautiful new swing set
- 163
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- in front of an abandoned house.
- 164
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- - No. I missed it.
- - What?
- 165
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- I didn't see it.
- 166
- 00:09:38,458 --> 00:09:39,791
- Why would that be there?
- 167
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- I mean, clearly no one's lived
- in that house for years.
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- Someone's moving in, and...
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- they brought the swing set first?
- That's all I can think of.
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- - I...
- - That seems
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- like an unlikely sequence of events.
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- You know, like,
- to have something
- 173
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- to entertain the kids while the parents
- are getting the house ready.
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- 00:10:04,958 --> 00:10:05,791
- Odd.
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- 00:10:06,416 --> 00:10:07,416
- They're saying, uh,
- 176
- 00:10:08,166 --> 00:10:10,083
- - there might be a fair amount of snow.
- - Yeah?
- 177
- 00:10:10,166 --> 00:10:11,666
- They're predicting it.
- 178
- 00:10:12,250 --> 00:10:14,208
- Do you think we should maybe turn back?
- 179
- 00:10:15,875 --> 00:10:17,291
- I've got a fair amount of...
- 180
- 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:20,916
- well, a lot, actually,
- of work to do tomorrow.
- 181
- 00:10:21,416 --> 00:10:22,916
- I need to get home tonight so that I...
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- I think we'll be OK.
- I've got tire chains in the trunk.
- 183
- 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:33,041
- - What are you working on?
- - Oh, I have a paper due Wednesday.
- 184
- 00:10:33,125 --> 00:10:34,041
- Which one is this?
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- 00:10:34,125 --> 00:10:36,333
- Susceptibility to rabies infection
- 186
- 00:10:36,416 --> 00:10:38,625
- in the sensory dorsal
- root ganglia neurons.
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- 00:10:38,708 --> 00:10:40,791
- The trigeminal ganglia as well, right?
- 188
- 00:10:41,333 --> 00:10:43,125
- Yes, exactly.
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- 00:10:45,291 --> 00:10:46,208
- Point for me.
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- 00:10:47,875 --> 00:10:51,666
- Interested in and knowledgeable
- about my girlfriend's work.
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- 00:10:51,750 --> 00:10:53,000
- Point for Jake.
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- 00:10:55,166 --> 00:10:56,416
- - How's the paper going?
- - Oh...
- 193
- 00:10:56,500 --> 00:10:59,125
- It's nowhere actually.
- 194
- 00:10:59,541 --> 00:11:02,708
- I really do need to get back tonight,
- deal with it first thing.
- 195
- 00:11:02,791 --> 00:11:03,750
- I'll get you home!
- 196
- 00:11:04,708 --> 00:11:05,541
- Chains.
- 197
- 00:11:05,625 --> 00:11:06,708
- Chains.
- 198
- 00:11:07,875 --> 00:11:09,625
- Yeah, I do like Jake.
- 199
- 00:11:10,166 --> 00:11:11,250
- And he's educated.
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- 00:11:11,666 --> 00:11:15,041
- Our fields are different,
- but he's curious and keeps up.
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- That's a good thing.
- It's in the pro column.
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- 00:11:17,583 --> 00:11:20,083
- And he's cute in his awkward way.
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- 00:11:20,875 --> 00:11:22,541
- We're interesting together too.
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- 00:11:22,958 --> 00:11:25,208
- People look at us when we're together.
- 205
- 00:11:25,291 --> 00:11:27,833
- "Who's that couple?"
- I don't get looked at alone.
- 206
- 00:11:28,291 --> 00:11:31,708
- And Jake doesn't either.
- Jake tells me that he feels it.
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- 00:11:32,416 --> 00:11:33,750
- Feels invisible.
- 208
- 00:11:40,208 --> 00:11:42,083
- You want to listen to something?
- 209
- 00:11:45,500 --> 00:11:46,833
- Sorry, uh, what?
- 210
- 00:11:49,791 --> 00:11:50,666
- Um...
- 211
- 00:11:51,041 --> 00:11:56,833
- I asked if you want to listen
- to some music?
- 212
- 00:11:56,916 --> 00:11:58,291
- Oh, yeah, sure.
- 213
- 00:12:03,958 --> 00:12:06,666
- When you get out this far,
- there's not much signal.
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- 00:12:13,791 --> 00:12:15,333
- It's an odd song.
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- 00:12:15,958 --> 00:12:17,208
- To...
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- 00:12:18,791 --> 00:12:22,083
- - Out here in... in the middle of nothing.
- - It's from Oklahoma!
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- 00:12:22,166 --> 00:12:23,125
- The musical.
- 218
- 00:12:23,500 --> 00:12:25,916
- I didn't know you were a fan
- of musical theater.
- 219
- 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:27,583
- Well, I'm not, really.
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- 00:12:27,666 --> 00:12:30,333
- Anyway, I just know a few musicals.Uh...
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- 00:12:30,416 --> 00:12:34,291
- Oklahoma, Phantom,
- Carousel, South Pacific,
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- 00:12:34,375 --> 00:12:36,416
- Guys and Dolls, Flower Drum Song...
- 223
- 00:12:36,500 --> 00:12:37,458
- Wicked...
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- 00:12:37,541 --> 00:12:40,708
- How to Succeed in Business
- Without Really Trying, Music Man,
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- 00:12:40,791 --> 00:12:42,541
- Pajama Game, Cabaret,
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- 00:12:43,375 --> 00:12:46,583
- The Lion King, Grease,
- The King and I, The Sound of Music,
- 227
- 00:12:46,666 --> 00:12:48,666
- Pal Joey, Charley's Aunt, On The Town,
- 228
- 00:12:48,750 --> 00:12:50,000
- My Fair Lady.
- 229
- 00:12:50,083 --> 00:12:52,416
- But I know Oklahoma best, I guess.
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- 00:12:52,500 --> 00:12:54,250
- They do it every few years...
- 231
- 00:12:55,291 --> 00:12:57,000
- For obvious reasons.
- 232
- 00:12:57,750 --> 00:12:59,458
- Wait, who does it every few years?
- 233
- 00:12:59,541 --> 00:13:02,041
- Sometimes I see kids
- 234
- 00:13:02,125 --> 00:13:05,458
- who were in past productions, you know,
- 235
- 00:13:05,916 --> 00:13:09,416
- um, at the supermarket,
- working at stores in town.
- 236
- 00:13:11,250 --> 00:13:12,875
- Older now.
- 237
- 00:13:40,583 --> 00:13:42,916
- This girl seems healthy enough
- in her attitude.
- 238
- 00:13:43,916 --> 00:13:44,750
- Good for her.
- 239
- 00:13:44,833 --> 00:13:48,208
- She... she's protesting too much,
- it turns out.
- 240
- 00:13:48,291 --> 00:13:49,500
- We've all been there.
- 241
- 00:13:51,833 --> 00:13:52,666
- Where?
- 242
- 00:13:53,791 --> 00:13:56,166
- Protesting too much
- how OK everything is.
- 243
- 00:13:56,250 --> 00:13:58,291
- That's why I like road trips.
- 244
- 00:13:58,375 --> 00:14:00,916
- It's good to remind yourself
- 245
- 00:14:01,333 --> 00:14:05,375
- the world's... larger
- than the inside of your own head.
- 246
- 00:14:05,458 --> 00:14:06,875
- - You know?
- - Mm-hmm.
- 247
- 00:14:07,625 --> 00:14:09,000
- Perspective.
- 248
- 00:14:09,083 --> 00:14:10,083
- Perspective.
- 249
- 00:14:11,416 --> 00:14:13,291
- It is beautiful out here.
- 250
- 00:14:13,875 --> 00:14:15,958
- In a bleak, heartbroken kind of way.
- 251
- 00:14:18,666 --> 00:14:20,500
- What was the last road trip I took?
- 252
- 00:14:22,708 --> 00:14:23,583
- Hmm...
- 253
- 00:14:24,291 --> 00:14:25,875
- I should remember, but I don't.
- 254
- 00:14:27,125 --> 00:14:28,750
- Nothing's coming to mind.
- 255
- 00:14:28,833 --> 00:14:31,500
- It's odd. I'm foggy
- about so many things lately.
- 256
- 00:14:31,583 --> 00:14:33,458
- Do you like this type of landscape?
- 257
- 00:14:33,541 --> 00:14:34,375
- Mmm.
- 258
- 00:14:34,458 --> 00:14:35,666
- Yeah, it's beautiful.
- 259
- 00:14:35,750 --> 00:14:36,791
- It's melancholy.
- 260
- 00:14:37,208 --> 00:14:38,625
- I do like that.
- 261
- 00:14:40,000 --> 00:14:41,333
- It's the poet in you.
- 262
- 00:14:43,375 --> 00:14:44,291
- Yeah.
- 263
- 00:14:44,833 --> 00:14:46,000
- I suppose so.
- 264
- 00:14:47,541 --> 00:14:48,583
- Maybe, I don't know.
- 265
- 00:14:53,125 --> 00:14:54,708
- You been working on anything?
- 266
- 00:14:55,166 --> 00:14:56,875
- Uh, I-I...
- 267
- 00:14:56,958 --> 00:14:58,416
- I just finished something.
- 268
- 00:14:58,500 --> 00:15:00,500
- Yeah. I don't... I don't know.
- 269
- 00:15:00,583 --> 00:15:02,625
- - Can I hear it?
- - You can read it.
- 270
- 00:15:02,708 --> 00:15:06,625
- I like to hear them in your voice,
- and you're so good at reciting them.
- 271
- 00:15:06,708 --> 00:15:08,166
- Not really, but thanks.
- 272
- 00:15:08,250 --> 00:15:11,375
- It'll go with the poetic scenery.
- 273
- 00:15:11,458 --> 00:15:13,208
- I don't know, Jake,
- I just don't...
- 274
- 00:15:13,291 --> 00:15:15,666
- I don't really feel much like performing
- 275
- 00:15:15,750 --> 00:15:17,583
- - right now.
- - Come on, it'll pass the time.
- 276
- 00:15:19,291 --> 00:15:21,125
- I don't want you to get bored.
- 277
- 00:15:23,416 --> 00:15:24,833
- It's called "Bonedog."
- 278
- 00:15:30,458 --> 00:15:31,958
- "Coming home is terrible...
- 279
- 00:15:33,250 --> 00:15:35,541
- whether the dogs lick your face or not,
- 280
- 00:15:36,250 --> 00:15:37,250
- whether you have...
- 281
- 00:15:38,666 --> 00:15:39,625
- A wife,
- 282
- 00:15:39,708 --> 00:15:44,416
- or just a wife-shaped loneliness
- waiting for you.
- 283
- 00:15:44,916 --> 00:15:46,833
- Coming home is terribly lonely...
- 284
- 00:15:47,875 --> 00:15:52,083
- so that you think
- of the oppressive barometric pressure
- 285
- 00:15:52,166 --> 00:15:54,791
- back where you have just come from
- with fondness,
- 286
- 00:15:54,875 --> 00:15:57,166
- because everything's worse
- once you're home.
- 287
- 00:15:57,625 --> 00:16:01,041
- You think of the vermin
- clinging to the grass stalks...
- 288
- 00:16:02,291 --> 00:16:04,083
- long hours on the road,
- 289
- 00:16:04,166 --> 00:16:07,375
- roadside assistance and ice creams,
- 290
- 00:16:07,458 --> 00:16:10,666
- and the peculiar shapes of certain clouds
- 291
- 00:16:10,750 --> 00:16:11,916
- and silences
- 292
- 00:16:12,500 --> 00:16:15,000
- with longing,
- because you did not want to return.
- 293
- 00:16:15,083 --> 00:16:16,208
- Coming home is...
- 294
- 00:16:18,833 --> 00:16:20,083
- just awful.
- 295
- 00:16:21,708 --> 00:16:24,916
- And the home-style silences and clouds
- 296
- 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:27,958
- contribute to nothing
- but the general malaise.
- 297
- 00:16:28,041 --> 00:16:31,416
- Clouds, such as they are,
- are in fact suspect
- 298
- 00:16:31,500 --> 00:16:34,875
- and made from a different material
- than those you left behind.
- 299
- 00:16:34,958 --> 00:16:39,125
- You yourself were cut
- from a different cloudy cloth,
- 300
- 00:16:40,375 --> 00:16:41,333
- returned,
- 301
- 00:16:43,000 --> 00:16:44,083
- remaindered,
- 302
- 00:16:45,333 --> 00:16:46,875
- ill-met by moonlight,
- 303
- 00:16:46,958 --> 00:16:48,333
- unhappy to be back,
- 304
- 00:16:48,416 --> 00:16:50,791
- slack in all the wrong spots.
- 305
- 00:16:50,875 --> 00:16:52,541
- Seamy suit of clothes,
- 306
- 00:16:52,625 --> 00:16:54,833
- dishrag-ratty, worn.
- 307
- 00:16:57,750 --> 00:16:59,166
- You return home,
- 308
- 00:17:00,333 --> 00:17:01,458
- moon-landed,
- 309
- 00:17:02,833 --> 00:17:03,750
- foreign.
- 310
- 00:17:05,791 --> 00:17:08,125
- The Earth's gravitational pull,
- 311
- 00:17:08,208 --> 00:17:09,958
- an effort now redoubled...
- 312
- 00:17:11,458 --> 00:17:13,875
- Dragging your shoelaces loose...
- 313
- 00:17:14,875 --> 00:17:16,125
- And your shoulders,
- 314
- 00:17:17,666 --> 00:17:20,958
- etching deeper the stanza of worry
- on your forehead.
- 315
- 00:17:22,125 --> 00:17:23,875
- You return home deepened,
- 316
- 00:17:24,583 --> 00:17:27,083
- a parched well linked to tomorrow
- 317
- 00:17:27,166 --> 00:17:29,625
- by a frail strand of...
- 318
- 00:17:31,458 --> 00:17:32,333
- anyway.
- 319
- 00:17:37,666 --> 00:17:40,958
- You sigh into the onslaught
- of identical days,
- 320
- 00:17:42,625 --> 00:17:45,041
- one might as well, at a time.
- 321
- 00:17:47,958 --> 00:17:48,791
- Well...
- 322
- 00:17:50,083 --> 00:17:50,958
- anyway,
- 323
- 00:17:51,916 --> 00:17:52,875
- you're back.
- 324
- 00:17:54,375 --> 00:17:58,166
- The sun goes up and down
- like a tired whore,
- 325
- 00:17:59,375 --> 00:18:05,250
- the weather immobile like a broken limb
- while you just keep getting older.
- 326
- 00:18:05,708 --> 00:18:10,416
- Nothing moves, but the shifting tides
- of salt in your body.
- 327
- 00:18:10,500 --> 00:18:12,083
- Your vision blears,
- 328
- 00:18:12,166 --> 00:18:14,250
- you carry your weather with you;
- 329
- 00:18:14,708 --> 00:18:16,208
- the big, blue whale;
- 330
- 00:18:17,291 --> 00:18:19,166
- a skeletal darkness.
- 331
- 00:18:22,875 --> 00:18:24,250
- You come back
- 332
- 00:18:25,416 --> 00:18:26,791
- with X-ray vision...
- 333
- 00:18:29,541 --> 00:18:31,500
- your eyes have become a hunger.
- 334
- 00:18:32,666 --> 00:18:36,000
- You come home with your mutant gifts
- 335
- 00:18:37,375 --> 00:18:38,791
- to a house of bone.
- 336
- 00:18:42,083 --> 00:18:43,583
- Everything you see now,
- 337
- 00:18:45,000 --> 00:18:46,000
- all of it...
- 338
- 00:18:47,500 --> 00:18:48,375
- bone."
- 339
- 00:18:52,708 --> 00:18:53,541
- Wow.
- 340
- 00:18:54,208 --> 00:18:56,833
- Well, wow is an all-purpose exclamation.
- 341
- 00:18:56,916 --> 00:18:58,583
- I just realized that.
- 342
- 00:19:00,625 --> 00:19:01,833
- It might be... It can...
- 343
- 00:19:03,458 --> 00:19:05,333
- It can mean you... you loved it,
- 344
- 00:19:05,416 --> 00:19:08,208
- or it can mean there are no words
- to describe how...
- 345
- 00:19:08,291 --> 00:19:09,833
- ...how rubbish it is.
- 346
- 00:19:09,916 --> 00:19:11,083
- I love it.
- 347
- 00:19:11,541 --> 00:19:13,500
- I love it. It's amazing.
- 348
- 00:19:15,458 --> 00:19:16,791
- It's... it's like...
- 349
- 00:19:17,708 --> 00:19:19,375
- It's like you wrote it about me.
- 350
- 00:19:19,458 --> 00:19:20,666
- Oh, you know, I-I-I...
- 351
- 00:19:20,750 --> 00:19:24,291
- I guess that's what one hopes for
- when writing a poem.
- 352
- 00:19:25,375 --> 00:19:26,541
- What's that?
- 353
- 00:19:26,625 --> 00:19:29,791
- Some universality in the specific,
- I don't know.
- 354
- 00:19:29,875 --> 00:19:31,541
- It's like you wrote it about me.
- 355
- 00:19:34,041 --> 00:19:36,250
- I'm thinking of ending things.
- 356
- 00:19:36,333 --> 00:19:37,791
- Jake is really great.
- 357
- 00:19:37,875 --> 00:19:39,083
- He's really sweet.
- 358
- 00:19:39,166 --> 00:19:40,166
- He's sensitive,
- 359
- 00:19:40,250 --> 00:19:42,125
- and he listens to me, and he's smart.
- 360
- 00:19:42,208 --> 00:19:44,250
- But there's just something...
- 361
- 00:19:44,333 --> 00:19:45,333
- Ineffable.
- 362
- 00:19:45,666 --> 00:19:48,291
- Profoundly, unutterably,
- un-fixably wrong here.
- 363
- 00:19:48,375 --> 00:19:50,708
- -Are you OK
- -Yeah.
- 364
- 00:19:50,791 --> 00:19:52,625
- You just seem sort of far away is all.
- 365
- 00:19:52,708 --> 00:19:54,500
- I'm... just thinking.
- 366
- 00:19:54,916 --> 00:19:56,666
- About what?
- 367
- 00:19:57,916 --> 00:19:59,333
- Uh...
- 368
- 00:19:59,416 --> 00:20:01,625
- I don't know, just...
- 369
- 00:20:02,125 --> 00:20:03,666
- Vague in my head stuff.
- 370
- 00:20:03,750 --> 00:20:05,208
- Vague in your head stuff.
- 371
- 00:20:06,500 --> 00:20:08,208
- I guess I was thinking about time.
- 372
- 00:20:08,291 --> 00:20:09,666
- - Really?
- - Yeah.
- 373
- 00:20:11,666 --> 00:20:14,333
- Like we're on a train
- and it takes us where it takes us.
- 374
- 00:20:14,416 --> 00:20:16,500
- There's no veering off,
- there's no side trips,
- 375
- 00:20:16,583 --> 00:20:18,750
- and like Mussolini's train,
- it runs on time.
- 376
- 00:20:18,833 --> 00:20:21,541
- But that's not really true
- about Mussolini and trains.
- 377
- 00:20:21,625 --> 00:20:24,791
- The improvements
- in the railway system preceded him.
- 378
- 00:20:24,875 --> 00:20:26,666
- He just took the credit.
- 379
- 00:20:26,750 --> 00:20:29,500
- And even still,
- they didn't always run on time.
- 380
- 00:20:29,583 --> 00:20:31,666
- I wasn't really talking
- about Mussolini's train...
- 381
- 00:20:31,750 --> 00:20:34,166
- And anyway, you...
- you can always jump off a train.
- 382
- 00:20:34,250 --> 00:20:35,250
- In movies.
- 383
- 00:20:35,333 --> 00:20:39,833
- In real life, you'll probably die
- jumping from a moving train.
- 384
- 00:20:42,291 --> 00:20:44,125
- That's... that's very true.
- 385
- 00:20:44,208 --> 00:20:47,583
- I suppose I watch too many movies.
- 386
- 00:20:48,083 --> 00:20:49,750
- Hmm. Everybody does.
- 387
- 00:20:50,083 --> 00:20:51,375
- Societal malady.
- 388
- 00:20:51,458 --> 00:20:54,416
- Fill my brain with lies
- to pass the time,
- 389
- 00:20:54,500 --> 00:20:57,333
- in the blink of an eye,
- 390
- 00:20:57,416 --> 00:21:01,458
- and an eye blink
- in excruciatingly slow motion.
- 391
- 00:21:01,541 --> 00:21:03,666
- It's like the rabies virus,
- 392
- 00:21:04,166 --> 00:21:06,625
- attaching itself to our ganglia,
- 393
- 00:21:06,708 --> 00:21:09,041
- changing us into itself.
- 394
- 00:21:09,416 --> 00:21:10,708
- Viruses are monstrous.
- 395
- 00:21:10,791 --> 00:21:12,375
- Everything wants to live, Jake.
- 396
- 00:21:14,416 --> 00:21:16,791
- Viruses are just one more example
- of everything.
- 397
- 00:21:16,875 --> 00:21:17,875
- But...
- 398
- 00:21:17,958 --> 00:21:21,166
- Even fake, crappy movie ideas
- want to live.
- 399
- 00:21:21,250 --> 00:21:22,958
- Like, they grow in your brain,
- 400
- 00:21:23,458 --> 00:21:25,333
- replacing real ideas.
- 401
- 00:21:25,791 --> 00:21:27,250
- That's what makes them dangerous.
- 402
- 00:21:27,333 --> 00:21:29,041
- But, did you know...
- 403
- 00:21:29,833 --> 00:21:32,375
- there are insects that blow themselves up?
- 404
- 00:21:32,458 --> 00:21:33,833
- - Yes.
- - Not everything wants to live.
- 405
- 00:21:33,916 --> 00:21:35,666
- There are certain ants, certain aphids.
- 406
- 00:21:35,750 --> 00:21:37,125
- For the good of their community.
- 407
- 00:21:37,208 --> 00:21:38,875
- There are suicide bombers.
- 408
- 00:21:45,250 --> 00:21:46,125
- Come...
- 409
- 00:21:47,208 --> 00:21:48,041
- join me.
- 410
- 00:21:49,625 --> 00:21:51,583
- So not everything wants to live.
- 411
- 00:21:53,708 --> 00:21:54,541
- Right?
- 412
- 00:21:56,291 --> 00:21:58,208
- True. Well, they...
- 413
- 00:21:58,291 --> 00:22:00,083
- they want their communities to live.
- 414
- 00:22:00,166 --> 00:22:02,416
- Which is sort of like themselves,
- writ large.
- 415
- 00:22:04,208 --> 00:22:07,000
- Anyway, we don't really know
- if they want anything.
- 416
- 00:22:07,583 --> 00:22:12,083
- It's just most likely
- how they're programmed.
- 417
- 00:22:12,166 --> 00:22:14,000
- Maybe we're all programmed, right?
- 418
- 00:22:23,875 --> 00:22:25,125
- And now we're both dead.
- 419
- 00:22:25,208 --> 00:22:26,458
- Ta-da!
- 420
- 00:22:52,500 --> 00:22:55,875
- So, uh, I'm not... I'm not ready to go in.
- 421
- 00:22:55,958 --> 00:22:58,541
- I-I need to stretch my legs, long legs.
- 422
- 00:22:59,333 --> 00:23:00,250
- Long drive.
- 423
- 00:23:00,708 --> 00:23:02,750
- What? What, isn't that rude?
- 424
- 00:23:02,833 --> 00:23:05,500
- She clearly knows we're here.
- We've been waving at each other for...
- 425
- 00:23:05,583 --> 00:23:06,666
- quite a long time.
- 426
- 00:23:06,750 --> 00:23:09,416
- They know I like to stretch my legs.
- Come on, I'll show you around.
- 427
- 00:23:09,500 --> 00:23:12,250
- Jake, I don't know,
- it's... it's... it's... it's cold
- 428
- 00:23:12,333 --> 00:23:14,083
- - and it's getting dark.
- - Come on.
- 429
- 00:23:14,166 --> 00:23:16,250
- Come on, I'll give you the abridged tour.
- 430
- 00:23:31,416 --> 00:23:32,666
- Maybe, we'll...
- 431
- 00:23:33,208 --> 00:23:34,666
- come back in the spring,
- 432
- 00:23:34,750 --> 00:23:38,583
- and we can lie out here
- and look up at the universe.
- 433
- 00:23:44,916 --> 00:23:46,166
- The sheep.
- 434
- 00:23:52,416 --> 00:23:54,250
- Let's say hi.
- 435
- 00:23:54,333 --> 00:23:56,375
- - Hi, sheep.
- - Hi, sheep.
- 436
- 00:23:57,583 --> 00:24:00,166
- There is something
- dreary and sad in here.
- 437
- 00:24:00,250 --> 00:24:01,416
- And it smells.
- 438
- 00:24:01,500 --> 00:24:03,666
- I wonder what it must be like
- to be a sheep.
- 439
- 00:24:03,750 --> 00:24:07,666
- Spend one's entire life in this miserable,
- smelly place doing nothing.
- 440
- 00:24:07,750 --> 00:24:09,791
- Eating, shitting, sleeping...
- 441
- 00:24:09,875 --> 00:24:12,250
- - over and over.
- - Well, there you have it.
- 442
- 00:24:13,250 --> 00:24:14,625
- The sheep.
- 443
- 00:24:14,708 --> 00:24:16,833
- - What happened to the lambs?
- - What?
- 444
- 00:24:16,916 --> 00:24:18,291
- What will happen...
- 445
- 00:24:18,375 --> 00:24:21,208
- I don't know what you're asking me.
- They're already dead, so wh...
- 446
- 00:24:21,291 --> 00:24:23,666
- what else can happen to them?
- 447
- 00:24:23,750 --> 00:24:27,500
- - Well, I mean, will they be buried?
- - Probably be burned
- 448
- 00:24:27,583 --> 00:24:29,041
- come spring.
- 449
- 00:24:29,125 --> 00:24:31,666
- But they're frozen solid for now,
- so they're fine.
- 450
- 00:24:33,625 --> 00:24:34,583
- No worries.
- 451
- 00:24:36,625 --> 00:24:39,625
- Come on, I'll show you the... the old pen
- where we used to keep the pigs.
- 452
- 00:24:39,708 --> 00:24:42,041
- They had to put them down.
- 453
- 00:24:42,125 --> 00:24:45,416
- - That's too bad.
- - Rotten situation, the pigs.
- 454
- 00:24:45,833 --> 00:24:49,041
- Life isn't always pretty on a farm.
- Something you should know.
- 455
- 00:24:53,208 --> 00:24:55,458
- So what... what happened to them?
- 456
- 00:24:55,541 --> 00:24:56,958
- To the pigs?
- 457
- 00:25:01,416 --> 00:25:03,333
- Forget it. Uh, I don't think
- you'd like the story.
- 458
- 00:25:03,416 --> 00:25:05,541
- Can't do that. You have to tell me now.
- 459
- 00:25:05,625 --> 00:25:07,083
- - Yeah?
- - Yes! Jesus.
- 460
- 00:25:07,166 --> 00:25:08,375
- OK, well...
- 461
- 00:25:08,833 --> 00:25:09,708
- um...
- 462
- 00:25:10,791 --> 00:25:12,916
- My dad hadn't been in
- 463
- 00:25:13,000 --> 00:25:14,458
- to check on the pigs for a few days.
- 464
- 00:25:14,541 --> 00:25:15,958
- My parents were busy.
- 465
- 00:25:16,500 --> 00:25:18,958
- He'd just tossed their food into the pen.
- 466
- 00:25:19,750 --> 00:25:20,958
- But after a few days,
- 467
- 00:25:21,041 --> 00:25:25,291
- he noticed that they were all just lying
- in this corner all the time,
- 468
- 00:25:25,375 --> 00:25:26,916
- so he went in to check on them.
- 469
- 00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:27,958
- They didn't look well.
- 470
- 00:25:28,041 --> 00:25:30,291
- He decided he'd better try to move them.
- 471
- 00:25:30,375 --> 00:25:31,833
- And they're heavy.
- 472
- 00:25:33,375 --> 00:25:35,291
- They're pigs, right?
- 473
- 00:25:35,708 --> 00:25:39,125
- But yeah, he... he finally managed
- to move one, and discovered...
- 474
- 00:25:40,458 --> 00:25:44,791
- its entire underside
- was filled with maggots.
- 475
- 00:25:46,583 --> 00:25:48,375
- Both pigs were being eaten alive.
- 476
- 00:25:54,791 --> 00:25:57,125
- Life can be brutal on a farm.
- 477
- 00:26:00,666 --> 00:26:02,291
- Should we go inside? It's getting cold.
- 478
- 00:26:04,583 --> 00:26:07,375
- Everything has to die.
- That's the truth.
- 479
- 00:26:07,916 --> 00:26:10,750
- One likes to think
- that there is always hope.
- 480
- 00:26:10,833 --> 00:26:12,750
- That you can live above death.
- 481
- 00:26:13,166 --> 00:26:17,208
- And it's a uniquely human fantasy
- that things will get better,
- 482
- 00:26:17,291 --> 00:26:22,083
- born perhaps of the uniquely
- human understanding that things will not.
- 483
- 00:26:22,666 --> 00:26:24,375
- There's no way to know for certain.
- 484
- 00:26:24,458 --> 00:26:26,541
- But I suspect humans are the only animals
- 485
- 00:26:26,625 --> 00:26:28,708
- that know the inevitability
- of their own deaths.
- 486
- 00:26:28,791 --> 00:26:31,458
- Other animals live in the present.
- 487
- 00:26:32,708 --> 00:26:33,958
- Humans cannot,
- 488
- 00:26:34,291 --> 00:26:35,791
- so they invented hope.
- 489
- 00:26:41,500 --> 00:26:42,333
- Hello?
- 490
- 00:26:45,458 --> 00:26:46,333
- Hello?
- 491
- 00:26:47,083 --> 00:26:47,958
- I'm here.
- 492
- 00:26:48,375 --> 00:26:49,208
- We're here.
- 493
- 00:26:58,083 --> 00:26:59,125
- Hello?
- 494
- 00:27:00,625 --> 00:27:01,458
- Hello?
- 495
- 00:27:03,333 --> 00:27:04,416
- It's Jake!
- 496
- 00:27:06,250 --> 00:27:07,166
- Hello?
- 497
- 00:27:15,583 --> 00:27:16,416
- Hello?
- 498
- 00:27:16,500 --> 00:27:18,375
- - We'll be right down.
- - OK
- 499
- 00:27:21,916 --> 00:27:23,625
- So...
- 500
- 00:27:27,500 --> 00:27:28,958
- Do you want slippers?
- 501
- 00:27:29,041 --> 00:27:30,750
- - I...
- - Floors are cold here.
- 502
- 00:27:30,833 --> 00:27:33,083
- - Old houses. Will you hold this, please?
- - Yeah.
- 503
- 00:27:33,166 --> 00:27:34,458
- Yeah, thanks, I think.
- 504
- 00:27:35,166 --> 00:27:36,000
- Um...
- 505
- 00:27:36,500 --> 00:27:39,916
- They'll be big on you.
- They're my old ones, but they are warm.
- 506
- 00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:42,041
- Ah! Voilà .
- 507
- 00:27:47,666 --> 00:27:49,125
- - None for you?
- - No.
- 508
- 00:27:49,208 --> 00:27:51,333
- No, no. No, no, no, no, no, no,
- you should have these.
- 509
- 00:27:51,416 --> 00:27:52,416
- - These are yours.
- - Oh, no.
- 510
- 00:27:52,500 --> 00:27:54,625
- What kind of gentleman
- would that make me?
- 511
- 00:27:58,041 --> 00:28:00,750
- My slippers are your slippers.
- 512
- 00:28:02,083 --> 00:28:03,750
- - You sure?
- - I am.
- 513
- 00:28:09,458 --> 00:28:11,166
- Um, have a seat.
- 514
- 00:28:21,708 --> 00:28:22,833
- They'll be right down.
- 515
- 00:28:32,416 --> 00:28:33,416
- Music?
- 516
- 00:28:33,500 --> 00:28:34,333
- Sure.
- 517
- 00:29:29,500 --> 00:29:32,625
- So, the... the bedrooms are upstairs.
- 518
- 00:29:33,208 --> 00:29:34,958
- Not much else. Um...
- 519
- 00:29:36,583 --> 00:29:38,250
- My mom's sewing room,
- 520
- 00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:40,666
- bedroom, linen closet.
- 521
- 00:29:41,958 --> 00:29:42,916
- Um...
- 522
- 00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:45,208
- I can show you after we eat,
- 523
- 00:29:45,291 --> 00:29:46,458
- if you'd like.
- 524
- 00:29:47,833 --> 00:29:48,958
- It's not fancy,
- 525
- 00:29:49,375 --> 00:29:50,541
- as you can see.
- 526
- 00:29:50,625 --> 00:29:52,583
- It's nice. I like it.
- 527
- 00:29:52,666 --> 00:29:54,041
- - Yeah?
- - Yes.
- 528
- 00:29:54,125 --> 00:29:56,000
- Reminds me of the house I grew up in.
- 529
- 00:29:57,833 --> 00:30:01,583
- I suppose all farmhouses are alike.
- 530
- 00:30:03,666 --> 00:30:05,333
- Like all happy families.
- 531
- 00:30:07,041 --> 00:30:09,041
- I'm not sure Tolstoy got that one right.
- 532
- 00:30:13,250 --> 00:30:16,916
- Happiness in a family
- is as nuanced as unhappiness.
- 533
- 00:30:17,541 --> 00:30:19,333
- Well, I think he was
- talking about marriage...
- 534
- 00:30:19,416 --> 00:30:20,666
- Ah, here they come!
- 535
- 00:30:30,500 --> 00:30:32,625
- I'll just get a fire going
- in the meantime.
- 536
- 00:30:50,541 --> 00:30:52,583
- Your parents knew
- we were coming, right?
- 537
- 00:30:52,666 --> 00:30:54,458
- I mean, they invited us and all...
- 538
- 00:30:54,541 --> 00:30:58,791
- Invitation sounds a little formal
- for my family,
- 539
- 00:30:58,875 --> 00:31:00,458
- but yeah, of course,
- we communicated.
- 540
- 00:31:00,541 --> 00:31:01,791
- OK, cool.
- 541
- 00:31:03,958 --> 00:31:04,875
- Hmm.
- 542
- 00:31:05,791 --> 00:31:07,250
- This fire feels good.
- 543
- 00:31:08,916 --> 00:31:09,916
- Cozy.
- 544
- 00:31:11,166 --> 00:31:12,833
- - What's in there?
- - The basement.
- 545
- 00:31:13,500 --> 00:31:14,375
- Oh.
- 546
- 00:31:14,833 --> 00:31:15,666
- I see.
- 547
- 00:31:16,333 --> 00:31:20,041
- We keep it closed off, mostly,
- 'cause old houses tend to be...
- 548
- 00:31:20,708 --> 00:31:21,541
- drafty.
- 549
- 00:31:21,625 --> 00:31:23,083
- Right.
- 550
- 00:31:25,541 --> 00:31:26,458
- Anyway...
- 551
- 00:31:27,125 --> 00:31:28,541
- the basement is unfinished.
- 552
- 00:31:29,416 --> 00:31:31,125
- A hole in the ground, really.
- 553
- 00:31:31,208 --> 00:31:32,583
- A hole in the ground?
- 554
- 00:31:33,166 --> 00:31:36,333
- Just, water heater, washer and dryer,
- stuff like that.
- 555
- 00:31:36,875 --> 00:31:39,000
- We don't use it really for anything else.
- 556
- 00:31:41,083 --> 00:31:43,000
- - OK.
- - So, it's a waste of space.
- 557
- 00:31:44,583 --> 00:31:46,083
- I hate the basement, if you...
- 558
- 00:31:46,958 --> 00:31:47,958
- really want to know.
- 559
- 00:31:48,041 --> 00:31:49,833
- You have intense feelings about it.
- 560
- 00:31:49,916 --> 00:31:51,208
- You...
- 561
- 00:31:51,291 --> 00:31:52,791
- You know, when you're a kid,
- 562
- 00:31:53,333 --> 00:31:55,708
- uh, basements are scary.
- 563
- 00:31:55,791 --> 00:31:58,666
- Well, we didn't have one
- growing up in an apartment,
- 564
- 00:31:58,750 --> 00:32:02,208
- but watching those scary movies,
- you get the idea.
- 565
- 00:32:03,625 --> 00:32:05,791
- Don't look down in the basement.
- 566
- 00:32:07,875 --> 00:32:08,958
- Oh, whoa!
- 567
- 00:32:11,708 --> 00:32:13,291
- Exactly.
- 568
- 00:32:15,458 --> 00:32:17,250
- He's hiding in there. Shh.
- 569
- 00:32:19,166 --> 00:32:20,375
- - Who?
- - What?
- 570
- 00:32:21,875 --> 00:32:22,708
- Um...
- 571
- 00:32:23,458 --> 00:32:24,916
- What are those scratches on the door?
- 572
- 00:32:26,541 --> 00:32:29,208
- Dog. From the dog, mostly.
- 573
- 00:32:32,166 --> 00:32:33,125
- I...
- 574
- 00:32:33,208 --> 00:32:34,125
- I love dogs.
- 575
- 00:32:35,666 --> 00:32:37,416
- I didn't know your parents have a dog!
- 576
- 00:32:37,500 --> 00:32:39,708
- I usually can tell when there's a dog
- in someone's house.
- 577
- 00:32:39,791 --> 00:32:42,458
- - Toys lying around, and...
- - My folks are tidy.
- 578
- 00:32:42,541 --> 00:32:45,208
- Well, where is it? What...
- what kind? What's its name?
- 579
- 00:32:46,041 --> 00:32:48,125
- So many questions. Uh, Jimmy.
- 580
- 00:32:49,208 --> 00:32:50,291
- He's a border collie.
- 581
- 00:32:50,708 --> 00:32:52,625
- Probably outside, or...
- 582
- 00:32:52,708 --> 00:32:55,416
- Oh! Hi, Jimmy!
- 583
- 00:32:55,500 --> 00:32:56,500
- Hi!
- 584
- 00:32:58,083 --> 00:32:59,958
- Oh, he's all wet.
- 585
- 00:33:03,333 --> 00:33:05,916
- - That's...
- - Ah! Here they come.
- 586
- 00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:07,416
- Oh!
- 587
- 00:33:07,500 --> 00:33:08,333
- Oh!
- 588
- 00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:10,958
- Aww!
- 589
- 00:33:11,041 --> 00:33:12,208
- Was the drive OK?
- 590
- 00:33:12,291 --> 00:33:13,250
- Yeah, fine.
- 591
- 00:33:13,333 --> 00:33:14,166
- Oh.
- 592
- 00:33:14,250 --> 00:33:16,125
- - So glad to meet you, Louisa.
- - Oh.
- 593
- 00:33:16,208 --> 00:33:18,958
- Jake has told us
- so much about you.
- 594
- 00:33:19,041 --> 00:33:22,000
- Oh, he's told me so much
- about both of you too.
- 595
- 00:33:22,083 --> 00:33:24,083
- Oh. And you came anyway?
- 596
- 00:33:29,791 --> 00:33:30,625
- Hi.
- 597
- 00:33:39,583 --> 00:33:42,916
- Well, let's eat. All the food
- will be as cold as a witch's tit
- 598
- 00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:44,333
- in a brass brassiere.
- 599
- 00:33:58,625 --> 00:34:01,333
- - Oh, it smells great.
- - I hope you're hungry.
- 600
- 00:34:01,416 --> 00:34:04,333
- All homemade. Everything you see
- on the table is from the farm.
- 601
- 00:34:10,541 --> 00:34:11,416
- Looks lovely.
- 602
- 00:34:11,500 --> 00:34:12,541
- So...
- 603
- 00:34:12,625 --> 00:34:14,333
- Jake tells us you're a painter.
- 604
- 00:34:14,416 --> 00:34:16,458
- Yes! Jake tells you correctly.
- 605
- 00:34:16,541 --> 00:34:18,250
- I don't really know much about art,
- 606
- 00:34:18,333 --> 00:34:20,708
- but I like pictures where you know
- what you're looking at.
- 607
- 00:34:20,791 --> 00:34:23,375
- What's it called? Uh, abstract.
- I don't get that.
- 608
- 00:34:23,458 --> 00:34:27,500
- I could do abstract. Smear some paint on,
- what's it called?
- 609
- 00:34:28,208 --> 00:34:31,041
- Canvas. I think it's a con job
- if you ask me.
- 610
- 00:34:31,458 --> 00:34:33,791
- I like paintings
- that look like photographs.
- 611
- 00:34:34,416 --> 00:34:37,708
- I couldn't do that in a million years.
- That is talent.
- 612
- 00:34:37,791 --> 00:34:43,708
- Why... why not just take a photograph,
- Dad, if you like photographs?
- 613
- 00:34:43,791 --> 00:34:46,958
- It's much quicker, and photographs look
- exactly like photographs.
- 614
- 00:34:47,041 --> 00:34:50,250
- I like photographs,
- mostly sports photographs.
- 615
- 00:34:50,333 --> 00:34:52,250
- What kind of paintings
- do you make, Lucy?
- 616
- 00:34:54,041 --> 00:34:57,833
- Uh, well, I-I'm not an abstract artist,
- so that's in my favor.
- 617
- 00:34:57,916 --> 00:35:00,875
- Good! You see, that's exactly my point.
- You see? Good!
- 618
- 00:35:00,958 --> 00:35:02,750
- I-I do mostly landscape.
- 619
- 00:35:03,541 --> 00:35:05,666
- Like outside paintings?
- 620
- 00:35:05,750 --> 00:35:08,000
- Uh, yes! Mm-hmm. Plein air.
- 621
- 00:35:08,333 --> 00:35:10,583
- Which is outdoor painting.
- 622
- 00:35:10,666 --> 00:35:14,500
- I try to capture the feel
- of light and atmosphere.
- 623
- 00:35:14,583 --> 00:35:15,541
- That sounds lovely.
- 624
- 00:35:15,625 --> 00:35:17,416
- - Jake used to paint too, of course.
- - Mom!
- 625
- 00:35:17,500 --> 00:35:19,750
- - He worked really hard at it.
- - Aww.
- 626
- 00:35:20,500 --> 00:35:21,500
- I didn't know that.
- 627
- 00:35:21,583 --> 00:35:23,083
- - He was very good.
- - Mom.
- 628
- 00:35:23,166 --> 00:35:24,000
- Aww.
- 629
- 00:35:27,750 --> 00:35:31,625
- I try to imbue my work with a sort of...
- 630
- 00:35:31,708 --> 00:35:32,708
- interiority.
- 631
- 00:35:32,791 --> 00:35:34,583
- Interiority. So you paint...
- 632
- 00:35:35,291 --> 00:35:37,000
- - inside?
- - Well, inside my head.
- 633
- 00:35:37,083 --> 00:35:40,208
- So a landscape would attempt to express
- how I feel at that time.
- 634
- 00:35:40,291 --> 00:35:42,916
- Lonely, joyous, worried, s-sad.
- 635
- 00:35:43,625 --> 00:35:45,083
- That sounds very interesting.
- 636
- 00:35:45,916 --> 00:35:49,541
- Like that painting of that girl,
- sitting in a field, looking at a house.
- 637
- 00:35:49,625 --> 00:35:50,958
- Christina's World. Wyeth.
- 638
- 00:35:51,041 --> 00:35:52,708
- Yes. Exactly.
- 639
- 00:35:53,166 --> 00:35:54,375
- But without people.
- 640
- 00:35:54,458 --> 00:35:55,375
- Uh...
- 641
- 00:35:55,458 --> 00:35:58,541
- How can a picture of a field be sad
- 642
- 00:35:58,625 --> 00:36:01,708
- without a sad person
- looking sad in the field?
- 643
- 00:36:03,666 --> 00:36:05,333
- That's an interesting problem.
- 644
- 00:36:05,416 --> 00:36:06,250
- I...
- 645
- 00:36:06,333 --> 00:36:07,708
- Yeah, I-I-I-I...
- 646
- 00:36:07,791 --> 00:36:09,416
- I... I struggle with that.
- 647
- 00:36:10,416 --> 00:36:11,333
- Uh...
- 648
- 00:36:11,416 --> 00:36:16,333
- Well, I have some pictures of my work,
- if you'd like to see them.
- 649
- 00:36:18,291 --> 00:36:20,333
- Oh, yes!
- 650
- 00:36:20,416 --> 00:36:21,583
- - Yeah?
- - Yes?
- 651
- 00:36:21,666 --> 00:36:23,500
- - Yes!
- - Yeah?
- 652
- 00:36:37,416 --> 00:36:38,250
- Uh...
- 653
- 00:36:41,333 --> 00:36:42,166
- These here.
- 654
- 00:36:44,791 --> 00:36:45,666
- Mmm!
- 655
- 00:36:46,791 --> 00:36:47,833
- Mmm.
- 656
- 00:36:47,916 --> 00:36:48,750
- Mmm.
- 657
- 00:36:49,916 --> 00:36:50,750
- Ah.
- 658
- 00:36:53,958 --> 00:36:55,375
- Mmm. Ah!
- 659
- 00:36:56,125 --> 00:36:57,916
- Mmm. I mean, they're pretty,
- 660
- 00:36:58,000 --> 00:37:01,750
- but I don't see how it's supposed
- to make me feel something
- 661
- 00:37:01,833 --> 00:37:04,583
- if there's not a person in them
- feeling something.
- 662
- 00:37:04,666 --> 00:37:07,750
- If there's not a person in them
- feeling sad or joyous
- 663
- 00:37:07,833 --> 00:37:09,708
- or whatever other emotion you said.
- 664
- 00:37:10,958 --> 00:37:15,791
- Well, m-maybe think of yourself
- as the person looking out at the scene.
- 665
- 00:37:15,875 --> 00:37:17,458
- I'd have to see me in them.
- 666
- 00:37:17,875 --> 00:37:20,083
- Well, if you were there,
- you wouldn't see yourself, right?
- 667
- 00:37:20,166 --> 00:37:22,541
- Well, I would if I looked down.
- I'm not a ghost.
- 668
- 00:37:22,625 --> 00:37:24,125
- - Yet.
- - I can attest to that.
- 669
- 00:37:24,208 --> 00:37:25,750
- Especially in the bedroom.
- 670
- 00:37:27,625 --> 00:37:30,500
- I mean, but if you were there
- 671
- 00:37:30,583 --> 00:37:32,208
- looking out at it without looking down,
- 672
- 00:37:32,291 --> 00:37:34,333
- you'd... you'd see the scene
- and you'd feel something.
- 673
- 00:37:34,416 --> 00:37:37,000
- Anything an environment makes you feel
- is about you,
- 674
- 00:37:37,083 --> 00:37:38,666
- not the environment, right?
- 675
- 00:37:39,208 --> 00:37:40,166
- None of...
- 676
- 00:37:40,250 --> 00:37:42,791
- none of the feeling
- is inherent to the place.
- 677
- 00:37:42,875 --> 00:37:44,750
- Uh, that's over my head, I guess.
- 678
- 00:37:45,250 --> 00:37:48,083
- They are pretty, though.
- You're very talented.
- 679
- 00:37:48,750 --> 00:37:50,333
- - Thank you.
- - I like the colors.
- 680
- 00:37:50,416 --> 00:37:51,500
- Thanks.
- 681
- 00:37:51,958 --> 00:37:55,916
- Psst, Jake, you didn't tell us
- your girlfriend was so talented.
- 682
- 00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:57,708
- I did, actually.
- 683
- 00:38:00,041 --> 00:38:02,125
- Anyway, uh...
- 684
- 00:38:02,833 --> 00:38:04,083
- I mean, sometimes I...
- 685
- 00:38:04,166 --> 00:38:05,250
- I would've thought...
- 686
- 00:38:05,875 --> 00:38:06,708
- Mmm...
- 687
- 00:38:06,791 --> 00:38:07,625
- Because...
- 688
- 00:38:12,875 --> 00:38:14,166
- Uh, so...
- 689
- 00:38:14,250 --> 00:38:15,458
- Jake...
- 690
- 00:38:16,041 --> 00:38:19,166
- tells me you're studying quantum psychics
- at the university.
- 691
- 00:38:19,250 --> 00:38:20,916
- - Yes.
- - Physics.
- 692
- 00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:22,250
- - Really?
- - Yeah.
- 693
- 00:38:23,083 --> 00:38:25,083
- That's unusual for a girl, isn't it?
- 694
- 00:38:25,666 --> 00:38:26,750
- Yes, it is, actually.
- 695
- 00:38:26,833 --> 00:38:28,083
- I'm just asking.
- 696
- 00:38:29,458 --> 00:38:32,666
- A little less so these days,
- which I think is a good thing.
- 697
- 00:38:32,750 --> 00:38:35,416
- Well, after seventh grade,
- 698
- 00:38:35,500 --> 00:38:37,708
- I couldn't understand
- what Jake was saying,
- 699
- 00:38:37,791 --> 00:38:41,708
- so it's wonderful he has someone
- he can share all his ideas with.
- 700
- 00:38:41,791 --> 00:38:47,166
- Jake tells us there's been lots of famous
- husband and wife physicists.
- 701
- 00:38:47,250 --> 00:38:48,791
- - Ooh!
- - Dad!
- 702
- 00:38:49,916 --> 00:38:50,833
- Yeah.
- 703
- 00:38:50,916 --> 00:38:53,208
- I guess there have been some.
- 704
- 00:38:53,583 --> 00:38:56,541
- Uh, Pierre and Marie Curie
- shared a Nobel Prize in physics.
- 705
- 00:38:56,625 --> 00:38:58,375
- Well, even I've heard of them.
- 706
- 00:38:58,458 --> 00:39:00,458
- Well, I've heard of her anyway, radiation.
- 707
- 00:39:00,541 --> 00:39:02,333
- - Uh, radioactivity.
- - Radium.
- 708
- 00:39:02,416 --> 00:39:06,166
- - Yes.
- - I am so glad Jake has found someone.
- 709
- 00:39:07,541 --> 00:39:10,000
- Won't you please tell us the story
- of how you met?
- 710
- 00:39:10,500 --> 00:39:11,750
- Jake has refused.
- 711
- 00:39:11,833 --> 00:39:13,416
- I love romantic meeting stories.
- 712
- 00:39:13,500 --> 00:39:14,916
- Like in Forget Paris.
- 713
- 00:39:15,416 --> 00:39:17,500
- - Billy Crystal?
- - I didn't like that movie.
- 714
- 00:39:17,583 --> 00:39:20,083
- Billy Crystal is a nancy.
- 715
- 00:39:22,416 --> 00:39:23,333
- Um...
- 716
- 00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:28,750
- So...
- 717
- 00:39:28,833 --> 00:39:29,791
- Uh...
- 718
- 00:39:29,875 --> 00:39:33,583
- I went with a friend
- to a bar near campus, and...
- 719
- 00:39:34,291 --> 00:39:35,708
- it turned out to be trivia night.
- 720
- 00:39:35,791 --> 00:39:38,375
- Oh, I love this so far!
- Jake is crazy about trivia!
- 721
- 00:39:38,458 --> 00:39:40,541
- We used to play
- the Genius Edition of the...
- 722
- 00:39:40,625 --> 00:39:42,333
- - We used to play the Genius Edition...
- - Genus.
- 723
- 00:39:42,416 --> 00:39:44,208
- - We used to play the Genius Edition...
- - Genus!
- 724
- 00:39:44,291 --> 00:39:45,916
- â¦of Trivial Pursuit. What?
- 725
- 00:39:46,000 --> 00:39:47,208
- It's Genus Edition.
- 726
- 00:39:47,291 --> 00:39:52,000
- Oh, I always thought the word was genius.
- I've been saying it wrong all these years.
- 727
- 00:39:52,083 --> 00:39:53,958
- Goes to show, I'm no genus!
- 728
- 00:39:57,291 --> 00:39:58,500
- That's a good one.
- 729
- 00:39:58,583 --> 00:39:59,958
- No, no, no.
- 730
- 00:40:01,041 --> 00:40:02,000
- Genus is not...
- 731
- 00:40:02,083 --> 00:40:04,041
- the same as genius.
- 732
- 00:40:04,125 --> 00:40:05,958
- A genus is a category.
- 733
- 00:40:06,041 --> 00:40:07,916
- I always thought
- it was the Genius Edition.
- 734
- 00:40:08,000 --> 00:40:11,041
- I told everyone he knew every answer
- in the Genius Edition.
- 735
- 00:40:11,125 --> 00:40:13,250
- I was very proud of that.
- 736
- 00:40:13,916 --> 00:40:16,416
- - Why didn't we get the Genius...
- - There is no...
- 737
- 00:40:19,541 --> 00:40:22,458
- - Genius Edition.
- - OK.
- 738
- 00:40:39,666 --> 00:40:41,375
- So, Jake was
- with his trivia team,
- 739
- 00:40:41,458 --> 00:40:43,708
- and my friend and I
- found an empty table near him,
- 740
- 00:40:43,791 --> 00:40:45,166
- and I was watching him.
- 741
- 00:40:45,250 --> 00:40:48,541
- - Because you thought he was cute!
- - Yeah, I did.
- 742
- 00:40:48,625 --> 00:40:52,791
- And he was very serious about the game,
- which I found, I don't know, charming.
- 743
- 00:40:53,291 --> 00:40:55,416
- And... Oh, his team was called...
- 744
- 00:40:55,500 --> 00:40:58,333
- - Brezhnev's Eyebrows.
- - Brezhnev's Eyebrows, right.
- 745
- 00:40:58,416 --> 00:41:00,375
- I asked who Brezhnev was,
- 746
- 00:41:00,458 --> 00:41:02,750
- basically so I could say something to him.
- 747
- 00:41:02,833 --> 00:41:06,708
- And he told me
- that Brezhnev was a Soviet engineer.
- 748
- 00:41:06,791 --> 00:41:10,958
- And a general of the...
- 749
- 00:41:11,041 --> 00:41:14,083
- - Uh, the section head of...
- - Secretary of the Communist Party.
- 750
- 00:41:14,541 --> 00:41:15,875
- During the age of starvation.
- 751
- 00:41:15,958 --> 00:41:17,458
- - Stagnation.
- - Stagnation.
- 752
- 00:41:17,541 --> 00:41:19,333
- Anyway, those team names
- drive me nuts usually.
- 753
- 00:41:19,416 --> 00:41:21,583
- They all have the most teams show-offy.
- 754
- 00:41:21,666 --> 00:41:24,458
- But I don't know, it didn't
- bother me so much with Jake.
- 755
- 00:41:24,541 --> 00:41:26,708
- I guess I didn't let it
- because I thought he was cute.
- 756
- 00:41:26,791 --> 00:41:30,000
- Aw, he is cute, isn't he?
- 757
- 00:41:30,083 --> 00:41:33,541
- So I-I-I was trying to get up the nerve
- to talk to him, because...
- 758
- 00:41:33,625 --> 00:41:35,833
- even though he looked over at me
- more than once,
- 759
- 00:41:35,916 --> 00:41:37,875
- it was clear he wasn't gonna say anything.
- 760
- 00:41:37,958 --> 00:41:42,208
- I thought you said
- you were talking about Brezhnev?
- 761
- 00:41:48,666 --> 00:41:49,625
- Uh...
- 762
- 00:41:52,833 --> 00:41:55,000
- Yes, that's true.
- 763
- 00:41:55,833 --> 00:41:57,958
- But we didn't talk anymore after that,
- 764
- 00:41:58,041 --> 00:41:59,291
- I guess is what I meant.
- 765
- 00:41:59,375 --> 00:42:00,833
- Oh.
- 766
- 00:42:08,500 --> 00:42:12,208
- So I said something stupid, like,
- "You guys seem to be doing well."
- 767
- 00:42:16,250 --> 00:42:19,250
- And I had to practically yell it,
- it was so noisy.
- 768
- 00:42:19,333 --> 00:42:22,750
- And Jake... Jake raised his glass
- and went, "Well, yeah,
- 769
- 00:42:22,833 --> 00:42:24,458
- well, we're helpfully fortified."
- 770
- 00:42:24,541 --> 00:42:26,666
- And I laughed, which broke the ice,
- 771
- 00:42:26,750 --> 00:42:29,125
- and I think he was egged on
- by my laughing,
- 772
- 00:42:29,208 --> 00:42:33,500
- 'cause he went on to tell me
- that he was a cruc...
- 773
- 00:42:33,583 --> 00:42:34,958
- - Verbalist.
- - Verbalist.
- 774
- 00:42:35,041 --> 00:42:36,583
- And I didn't know what that meant.
- 775
- 00:42:36,666 --> 00:42:38,791
- But I-I didn't want to admit that,
- so I just said,
- 776
- 00:42:38,875 --> 00:42:39,708
- - "Cool."
- - Cool.
- 777
- 00:42:39,791 --> 00:42:42,208
- And he was showing off again,
- and poorly,
- 778
- 00:42:42,291 --> 00:42:45,500
- and I thought, "This guy is awkward.
- He has no game at all."
- 779
- 00:42:45,583 --> 00:42:49,041
- And there was something
- sort of appealing about that.
- 780
- 00:42:50,750 --> 00:42:51,916
- But then he kept going.
- 781
- 00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:57,708
- And he told me that he wanted
- his team name to be Ipseity,
- 782
- 00:42:58,166 --> 00:42:59,625
- and I was like, "Ugh."
- 783
- 00:42:59,708 --> 00:43:01,125
- You didn't like him anymore?
- 784
- 00:43:04,375 --> 00:43:05,250
- No.
- 785
- 00:43:09,083 --> 00:43:10,041
- I did.
- 786
- 00:43:12,250 --> 00:43:13,958
- I just wanted that stuff to stop.
- 787
- 00:43:14,041 --> 00:43:14,875
- So I told him,
- 788
- 00:43:14,958 --> 00:43:17,833
- "You know I don't know that word.
- Why don't you just cut the crap?"
- 789
- 00:43:19,833 --> 00:43:22,125
- And he said something like,
- "I'm an asshole."
- 790
- 00:43:32,416 --> 00:43:34,333
- "I'm not very good at talking to people,
- 791
- 00:43:34,416 --> 00:43:36,875
- and ipseity is just another word
- for selfhood."
- 792
- 00:43:36,958 --> 00:43:41,000
- Anyway, after that, he talked
- like a normal person, and he was funny.
- 793
- 00:43:41,083 --> 00:43:43,791
- And I could see he wanted to ask
- for my number,
- 794
- 00:43:43,875 --> 00:43:45,000
- but was shy.
- 795
- 00:43:45,625 --> 00:43:47,708
- And I was getting up to go.
- 796
- 00:43:47,791 --> 00:43:49,875
- My girlfriend wanted to leave.
- 797
- 00:43:49,958 --> 00:43:50,958
- And Jake...
- 798
- 00:43:51,041 --> 00:43:52,708
- blurted out, could he have my number?
- 799
- 00:43:52,791 --> 00:43:54,166
- Oh!
- 800
- 00:43:54,250 --> 00:43:56,708
- There you go... Jake.
- 801
- 00:43:56,791 --> 00:43:58,291
- It's about time.
- 802
- 00:43:59,958 --> 00:44:01,458
- And the rest was history.
- 803
- 00:44:02,000 --> 00:44:02,958
- That was like...
- 804
- 00:44:04,333 --> 00:44:05,666
- six weeks ago?
- 805
- 00:44:06,125 --> 00:44:07,250
- God, feels longer.
- 806
- 00:44:10,458 --> 00:44:13,083
- Feels like forever, in a way.
- 807
- 00:44:13,750 --> 00:44:14,583
- I can't...
- 808
- 00:44:16,666 --> 00:44:18,750
- I can't even remember how long ago it is.
- 809
- 00:44:42,791 --> 00:44:43,750
- I'll be right with you.
- 810
- 00:44:43,833 --> 00:44:46,041
- Hello, welcome to Red Line.
- 811
- 00:44:46,125 --> 00:44:47,958
- I'm Yvonne. I'll be taking care
- of you today.
- 812
- 00:44:48,041 --> 00:44:49,083
- There's a guy behind you.
- 813
- 00:44:51,041 --> 00:44:51,875
- Really?
- 814
- 00:44:54,375 --> 00:44:55,833
- That's Nimrod.
- 815
- 00:44:55,916 --> 00:44:58,541
- He's the idiot waiter-in-training
- trailing me.
- 816
- 00:44:59,125 --> 00:45:01,041
- - Hi, I'm Nimrod.
- - Hey.
- 817
- 00:45:01,500 --> 00:45:04,333
- So are you folks ready to order,
- or can I answer questions about the menu?
- 818
- 00:45:04,416 --> 00:45:06,833
- - How is the Santa Fe burger?
- - Very popular.
- 819
- 00:45:07,125 --> 00:45:09,041
- OK, so, uh, which do you prefer,
- 820
- 00:45:09,125 --> 00:45:12,250
- the Santa Fe burger or the Natchez burger?
- 821
- 00:45:12,333 --> 00:45:14,791
- Hmm, that's a tough one.
- They're both really, really good.
- 822
- 00:45:14,875 --> 00:45:18,416
- - You don't have a favorite?
- - Um, I guess I would say the...
- 823
- 00:45:18,500 --> 00:45:20,208
- Look, man, she's a vegan, so...
- 824
- 00:45:20,291 --> 00:45:22,791
- - What the hell are you doing?
- - No, look. What you don't know
- 825
- 00:45:22,875 --> 00:45:26,250
- about this amazing woman in front of you
- is that she's not a waitress.
- 826
- 00:45:26,333 --> 00:45:28,500
- - Can you please leave?
- - She is a waitress.
- 827
- 00:45:28,583 --> 00:45:31,041
- But only to put herself through school
- so that she can become
- 828
- 00:45:31,125 --> 00:45:33,333
- - an animal rights lawyer.
- - OK.
- 829
- 00:45:33,416 --> 00:45:35,791
- No, not a crumb of meat or dairy
- has crossed her lips
- 830
- 00:45:35,875 --> 00:45:37,208
- since she was five years old.
- 831
- 00:45:37,291 --> 00:45:40,958
- And she realized that a...
- that a hamburger is just a ground-up cow.
- 832
- 00:45:41,041 --> 00:45:43,416
- She spent the rest of her life trying...
- 833
- 00:45:43,500 --> 00:45:45,583
- She spent the rest of her life
- trying to make the world
- 834
- 00:45:45,666 --> 00:45:47,958
- a better place for animals,
- and I love her!
- 835
- 00:45:48,458 --> 00:45:51,416
- I love her! I love her
- because she's the most beautiful...
- 836
- 00:45:57,083 --> 00:45:58,958
- That was beautiful, Yvonne.
- 837
- 00:45:59,041 --> 00:45:59,916
- You're fired.
- 838
- 00:46:08,041 --> 00:46:09,750
- I needed that job, idiot.
- 839
- 00:46:11,958 --> 00:46:12,791
- I know.
- 840
- 00:46:18,875 --> 00:46:20,125
- Did you say you love me?
- 841
- 00:46:23,916 --> 00:46:24,791
- I did.
- 842
- 00:46:33,333 --> 00:46:34,166
- Idiot.
- 843
- 00:46:41,583 --> 00:46:43,416
- Well, that was lovely.
- 844
- 00:46:43,500 --> 00:46:45,958
- - We gotta get on the road.
- - Jake was always a good boy.
- 845
- 00:46:46,041 --> 00:46:48,958
- He was even awarded a diligence pin
- at school, you remember?
- 846
- 00:46:49,041 --> 00:46:51,041
- - Still working on that?
- - Nah.
- 847
- 00:46:51,125 --> 00:46:53,125
- Diligence. At eight, can you believe that?
- 848
- 00:46:53,208 --> 00:46:56,541
- It was quite a thing. His father and I
- never got awarded any such pin at eight.
- 849
- 00:46:56,625 --> 00:46:58,166
- - At any age.
- - True enough.
- 850
- 00:46:58,250 --> 00:46:59,250
- At no age.
- 851
- 00:46:59,333 --> 00:47:02,500
- I won a bunch of sports trophies,
- but never a diligence trophy.
- 852
- 00:47:02,583 --> 00:47:04,875
- I don't imagine I knew the word diligence
- at eight!
- 853
- 00:47:04,958 --> 00:47:07,125
- But Jake knew it. You knew.
- 854
- 00:47:07,208 --> 00:47:08,333
- Jake knew.
- 855
- 00:47:08,666 --> 00:47:10,583
- Jake knew. Remember how excited you were
- 856
- 00:47:10,666 --> 00:47:12,125
- - about that diligence pin?
- - No.
- 857
- 00:47:12,208 --> 00:47:14,416
- - He wore it to school.
- - I didn't.
- 858
- 00:47:14,500 --> 00:47:17,000
- He did, every day. You did!
- 859
- 00:47:17,083 --> 00:47:20,208
- No, I was disappointed.
- I wanted the acumen pin.
- 860
- 00:47:20,500 --> 00:47:21,541
- Diligence...
- 861
- 00:47:22,000 --> 00:47:23,375
- is an also ran.
- 862
- 00:47:23,458 --> 00:47:25,750
- "You there, you worked very hard,
- you're not very bright,
- 863
- 00:47:25,833 --> 00:47:27,458
- but we're impressed
- that you tried anyway."
- 864
- 00:47:27,541 --> 00:47:28,833
- Oh, don't be sour.
- 865
- 00:47:28,916 --> 00:47:31,875
- It was a lovely pin, sweetheart.
- 866
- 00:47:31,958 --> 00:47:33,416
- Jakey.
- 867
- 00:47:34,875 --> 00:47:35,708
- Dessert?
- 868
- 00:47:36,166 --> 00:47:38,875
- I made Jake's favorite chocolate cake.
- 869
- 00:47:42,750 --> 00:47:43,625
- Lovely.
- 870
- 00:47:45,125 --> 00:47:47,291
- Of course, I never turn down
- anything chocolate.
- 871
- 00:47:47,375 --> 00:47:48,291
- Lovely.
- 872
- 00:47:55,083 --> 00:47:56,375
- Help me.
- 873
- 00:47:57,958 --> 00:47:59,916
- I'll serve dessert in the sitting room.
- 874
- 00:48:00,958 --> 00:48:02,791
- That's from My Fair Lady.
- 875
- 00:48:03,416 --> 00:48:06,500
- - That was you! Yes!
- - She said he was a nancy.
- 876
- 00:48:06,583 --> 00:48:09,000
- You've been saying that one
- for years!
- 877
- 00:48:09,083 --> 00:48:12,125
- Oh, you cannot keep doing this!
- 878
- 00:48:12,208 --> 00:48:13,833
- You seem so quiet.
- 879
- 00:48:15,125 --> 00:48:16,041
- You OK?
- 880
- 00:48:20,250 --> 00:48:21,083
- Do you like them?
- 881
- 00:48:22,000 --> 00:48:23,000
- They're very nice.
- 882
- 00:48:24,291 --> 00:48:25,541
- Very nice parents.
- 883
- 00:48:26,166 --> 00:48:27,541
- You chose well, my friend.
- 884
- 00:48:28,291 --> 00:48:29,791
- - Yeah.
- - Yes.
- 885
- 00:48:29,875 --> 00:48:31,583
- - Yeah.
- - Yes.
- 886
- 00:48:33,500 --> 00:48:34,416
- Of course.
- 887
- 00:48:35,750 --> 00:48:37,041
- They love you a lot.
- 888
- 00:48:38,250 --> 00:48:40,416
- - Yeah.
- - Prime importance in parents.
- 889
- 00:48:43,250 --> 00:48:44,333
- I suppose.
- 890
- 00:48:49,791 --> 00:48:51,083
- We've had our issues.
- 891
- 00:48:51,166 --> 00:48:53,541
- Jesus, everyone's had issues
- with their parents.
- 892
- 00:48:56,750 --> 00:48:58,458
- Hey, what happened to Jimmy?
- 893
- 00:49:00,083 --> 00:49:02,833
- Aw, here he is!
- 894
- 00:49:02,916 --> 00:49:04,958
- You're a stinky wet monster, huh?
- 895
- 00:49:05,041 --> 00:49:06,458
- Sorry!
- 896
- 00:49:07,625 --> 00:49:09,416
- - Sorry.
- - About?
- 897
- 00:49:09,500 --> 00:49:10,625
- His smell.
- 898
- 00:49:11,375 --> 00:49:12,291
- Jake, he's a dog.
- 899
- 00:49:13,375 --> 00:49:14,875
- It's fine. Jimmy...
- 900
- 00:49:29,041 --> 00:49:30,541
- Hey, who is this?
- 901
- 00:49:31,375 --> 00:49:32,583
- You can't tell?
- 902
- 00:49:34,458 --> 00:49:35,291
- No.
- 903
- 00:49:39,666 --> 00:49:40,541
- It's me.
- 904
- 00:49:41,125 --> 00:49:43,541
- No, it was me.
- W-Wasn't it me?
- 905
- 00:49:43,625 --> 00:49:45,333
- - H-How...
- - Sorry for the delay...
- 906
- 00:49:45,416 --> 00:49:47,750
- - Oh, God.
- - Kitchen emergency, don't you know.
- 907
- 00:49:47,833 --> 00:49:50,875
- Well, here it is,
- Jake's favorite. Ta-da!
- 908
- 00:49:50,958 --> 00:49:52,416
- Chocolate yule log.
- 909
- 00:49:52,500 --> 00:49:53,958
- Mm-mm.
- 910
- 00:49:54,041 --> 00:49:56,125
- Even though it's well past yule.
- 911
- 00:49:56,208 --> 00:49:59,291
- Reminds me of when Jake
- used to suck his thumb.
- 912
- 00:49:59,375 --> 00:50:01,583
- Well past the age
- when he should've stopped.
- 913
- 00:50:02,208 --> 00:50:05,208
- He'd say, "Yule, yule, yule..."
- 914
- 00:50:05,291 --> 00:50:06,250
- As he sucked it.
- 915
- 00:50:06,333 --> 00:50:09,208
- Yule log. Kinda looks like thumb!
- 916
- 00:50:10,416 --> 00:50:11,791
- Looks great.
- 917
- 00:50:14,125 --> 00:50:15,083
- Enjoy!
- 918
- 00:50:15,166 --> 00:50:16,000
- Thank you.
- 919
- 00:50:16,083 --> 00:50:17,708
- It really looks amazing.
- 920
- 00:50:17,791 --> 00:50:19,500
- Thank you. Enjoy.
- 921
- 00:50:19,583 --> 00:50:20,708
- Oh!
- 922
- 00:50:20,791 --> 00:50:21,750
- God.
- 923
- 00:50:21,833 --> 00:50:24,000
- I've been having problems with my ears.
- 924
- 00:50:24,083 --> 00:50:27,625
- Just in case anyone is wondering why
- I keep pulling at my ears all night long.
- 925
- 00:50:27,708 --> 00:50:29,041
- More than a problem.
- 926
- 00:50:29,125 --> 00:50:30,541
- Tinnitus.
- 927
- 00:50:30,625 --> 00:50:32,375
- It is what it is, as they say.
- 928
- 00:50:32,458 --> 00:50:33,541
- What is tinnitus?
- 929
- 00:50:33,625 --> 00:50:35,416
- Not very much fun is what.
- 930
- 00:50:35,500 --> 00:50:37,125
- Not very much fun.
- 931
- 00:50:37,583 --> 00:50:39,208
- But shit happens, as they say.
- 932
- 00:50:42,125 --> 00:50:44,041
- I hear a kind of buzzing in my ears.
- 933
- 00:50:44,125 --> 00:50:46,041
- Well, not so much a buzzing,
- more of a hiss.
- 934
- 00:50:46,125 --> 00:50:47,083
- Well, more of a...
- 935
- 00:50:47,625 --> 00:50:48,500
- whisper.
- 936
- 00:50:49,833 --> 00:50:51,041
- Oh, always?
- 937
- 00:50:51,458 --> 00:50:52,291
- Yes!
- 938
- 00:50:52,916 --> 00:50:55,333
- As if I'm constantly being whispered to.
- 939
- 00:51:03,583 --> 00:51:06,291
- Maybe it's sharing the secrets
- of the universe with me.
- 940
- 00:51:08,333 --> 00:51:09,541
- But I can't tell.
- 941
- 00:51:12,625 --> 00:51:14,583
- Maybe it's giving me stock market tips.
- 942
- 00:51:15,958 --> 00:51:17,458
- Oh, we'd be rich!
- 943
- 00:51:19,000 --> 00:51:20,125
- Sorry, sorry.
- 944
- 00:51:20,208 --> 00:51:22,666
- I... I thought it had been turned off.
- 945
- 00:51:22,750 --> 00:51:24,250
- Um...
- 946
- 00:51:25,250 --> 00:51:26,875
- - See my glasses?
- - Here you are.
- 947
- 00:51:31,916 --> 00:51:33,583
- It's just a friend.
- 948
- 00:51:33,666 --> 00:51:35,833
- - Her friend calls a lot.
- - Well, you can take it.
- 949
- 00:51:35,916 --> 00:51:37,583
- You should take it.
- We won't think it rude.
- 950
- 00:51:37,666 --> 00:51:39,125
- No, it's OK. It's not important.
- 951
- 00:51:39,208 --> 00:51:41,583
- You don't know. It might be.
- It's a blizzard out there.
- 952
- 00:51:41,666 --> 00:51:43,625
- - She might be stranded.
- - It's OK.
- 953
- 00:51:43,708 --> 00:51:46,166
- Is it a blizzard now?
- We... We don't want to get stuck.
- 954
- 00:51:46,250 --> 00:51:48,166
- - Stuck? Stuck?
- - It's OK. I've got the chains.
- 955
- 00:51:48,250 --> 00:51:49,875
- I've... I've got to work early tomorrow.
- 956
- 00:51:49,958 --> 00:51:51,208
- Oh, you put the chains on?
- 957
- 00:51:51,291 --> 00:51:53,750
- No, not yet, but they're in...
- they're in the bed.
- 958
- 00:51:53,833 --> 00:51:55,583
- Chains should make it fine.
- 959
- 00:51:55,666 --> 00:51:56,666
- What? I'm sorry.
- 960
- 00:51:56,750 --> 00:51:58,583
- - The chains.
- - Oh, God.
- 961
- 00:51:59,208 --> 00:52:02,083
- - The whispers, I call them.
- - The night is the worst.
- 962
- 00:52:02,166 --> 00:52:03,500
- - What is?
- - Night!
- 963
- 00:52:03,583 --> 00:52:04,958
- Oh, night is the worst.
- 964
- 00:52:05,416 --> 00:52:06,666
- I don't sleep much anymore.
- 965
- 00:52:06,750 --> 00:52:09,208
- Oh, that sounds very difficult. I'm sorry.
- 966
- 00:52:09,291 --> 00:52:11,041
- - Sorry?
- - I just said I'm sorry!
- 967
- 00:52:11,125 --> 00:52:11,958
- Oh.
- 968
- 00:52:12,041 --> 00:52:13,375
- We're both saying sorry!
- 969
- 00:52:16,208 --> 00:52:18,958
- - You should take your call though.
- - It could be an emergency.
- 970
- 00:52:19,041 --> 00:52:19,875
- It's fine.
- 971
- 00:52:20,333 --> 00:52:21,208
- I-I-I-I...
- 972
- 00:52:21,750 --> 00:52:25,000
- - I know what she's calling about.
- - You should at least listen to the message
- 973
- 00:52:25,083 --> 00:52:25,916
- OK!
- 974
- 00:52:28,916 --> 00:52:30,041
- Sure.
- 975
- 00:52:36,458 --> 00:52:38,416
- There's only one question
- to resolve.
- 976
- 00:52:38,500 --> 00:52:40,708
- I'm scared. I feel a little crazy.
- 977
- 00:52:40,791 --> 00:52:42,125
- I'm not lucid. How...
- 978
- 00:52:42,208 --> 00:52:43,583
- The assumptions are right.
- 979
- 00:52:43,666 --> 00:52:45,083
- I can feel my fear growing.
- 980
- 00:52:45,166 --> 00:52:47,958
- Now is the time for the answer,
- just one question.
- 981
- 00:52:48,041 --> 00:52:49,416
- One question to answer.
- 982
- 00:52:53,416 --> 00:52:54,666
- - She's fine.
- - Eh?
- 983
- 00:52:55,166 --> 00:52:56,958
- Wh... what did she want?
- 984
- 00:52:57,041 --> 00:52:59,208
- Oh, she was just calling to say hi.
- 985
- 00:52:59,291 --> 00:53:00,250
- How nice.
- 986
- 00:53:00,333 --> 00:53:01,666
- Friends are important.
- 987
- 00:53:02,250 --> 00:53:05,958
- Jake never really had a lot of them
- growing up. Or even after.
- 988
- 00:53:07,125 --> 00:53:08,583
- Remember your 50th birthday?
- 989
- 00:53:08,666 --> 00:53:10,625
- - Twentieth.
- - What did I say?
- 990
- 00:53:10,708 --> 00:53:12,125
- - Fiftieth.
- - Fiftieth.
- 991
- 00:53:12,208 --> 00:53:13,666
- Oh.
- 992
- 00:53:13,750 --> 00:53:15,625
- Goodness, where is my brain?
- 993
- 00:53:18,291 --> 00:53:19,125
- Anyway.
- 994
- 00:53:20,916 --> 00:53:22,208
- Friends can be helpful.
- 995
- 00:53:22,750 --> 00:53:24,791
- Hmm. That's what I've always found.
- 996
- 00:53:25,750 --> 00:53:27,916
- 'Cause life can be difficult.
- 997
- 00:53:29,083 --> 00:53:30,208
- On a farm.
- 998
- 00:53:30,291 --> 00:53:33,875
- Doesn't get any easier
- as it trudges along, I'll say that.
- 999
- 00:53:35,041 --> 00:53:36,916
- - What?
- - Doesn't get any easier.
- 1000
- 00:53:37,000 --> 00:53:38,583
- - What doesn't?
- - Life!
- 1001
- 00:53:38,666 --> 00:53:41,916
- Oh, no, it doesn't.
- It's basically a fast train to hell.
- 1002
- 00:53:42,000 --> 00:53:43,166
- For God's sake, Mom!
- 1003
- 00:53:43,250 --> 00:53:46,208
- All right, all right, yes.
- I'm overstating it. I agree.
- 1004
- 00:53:47,375 --> 00:53:48,708
- It's a fast train to heck!
- 1005
- 00:54:05,458 --> 00:54:07,416
- Your mother was always very funny.
- 1006
- 00:54:09,416 --> 00:54:10,916
- It's what I loved about her.
- 1007
- 00:54:12,291 --> 00:54:13,250
- I think it's the...
- 1008
- 00:54:14,166 --> 00:54:16,250
- the first thing that I fell in love with.
- 1009
- 00:54:18,958 --> 00:54:22,333
- Kind of... faded as she got older.
- 1010
- 00:54:24,083 --> 00:54:25,833
- Wears you down, I guess.
- 1011
- 00:54:26,958 --> 00:54:28,541
- It's not so funny anymore.
- 1012
- 00:54:32,125 --> 00:54:33,416
- I miss her terribly.
- 1013
- 00:54:34,791 --> 00:54:35,625
- Yeah.
- 1014
- 00:54:47,166 --> 00:54:48,250
- So, Lucia...
- 1015
- 00:54:49,041 --> 00:54:50,708
- is studying gerontology.
- 1016
- 00:54:51,833 --> 00:54:53,333
- Oh, really?
- 1017
- 00:54:53,416 --> 00:54:55,250
- Oh, how fascinating.
- 1018
- 00:54:55,333 --> 00:54:57,166
- Oh, fascinating.
- 1019
- 00:54:58,875 --> 00:54:59,708
- Yes.
- 1020
- 00:55:01,250 --> 00:55:04,708
- I've always been interested
- in the problems associated with aging.
- 1021
- 00:55:05,375 --> 00:55:08,875
- I think our society has an almost
- repulsed relationship to the aged.
- 1022
- 00:55:08,958 --> 00:55:11,750
- Which is eminently foolish,
- seeing that it's an inevitable and natural
- 1023
- 00:55:11,833 --> 00:55:14,000
- part of the life cycle
- of all living things.
- 1024
- 00:55:15,875 --> 00:55:18,000
- Not to mention it's terribly unkind.
- 1025
- 00:55:19,083 --> 00:55:19,916
- Oh.
- 1026
- 00:55:21,125 --> 00:55:22,333
- How interesting.
- 1027
- 00:55:22,750 --> 00:55:24,083
- And compassionate.
- 1028
- 00:55:24,500 --> 00:55:26,875
- Oh, we've gotta keep her, Jake.
- 1029
- 00:55:26,958 --> 00:55:29,083
- Oh, how kind she is.
- 1030
- 00:55:34,208 --> 00:55:35,208
- Boy, it's, uh...
- 1031
- 00:55:37,125 --> 00:55:38,916
- It's looking pretty bad out there.
- 1032
- 00:55:39,791 --> 00:55:42,291
- I don't know, Jake,
- I-I think we should probably...
- 1033
- 00:55:53,083 --> 00:55:54,083
- Jake?
- 1034
- 00:55:57,833 --> 00:55:58,708
- Jake?
- 1035
- 00:55:59,500 --> 00:56:01,083
- - Jake?
- - What?
- 1036
- 00:56:01,166 --> 00:56:02,833
- I-I-I-I think we should go.
- 1037
- 00:56:02,916 --> 00:56:04,125
- It's looking pretty bad.
- 1038
- 00:56:06,125 --> 00:56:07,333
- I have chains!
- 1039
- 00:56:14,000 --> 00:56:14,833
- Where are you?
- 1040
- 00:56:15,250 --> 00:56:16,958
- - Upstairs.
- - I'm coming up.
- 1041
- 00:56:19,916 --> 00:56:21,041
- Just letting you know.
- 1042
- 00:56:50,250 --> 00:56:51,125
- Jake?
- 1043
- 00:57:03,750 --> 00:57:04,625
- Jake?
- 1044
- 00:57:06,166 --> 00:57:07,041
- Where are you?
- 1045
- 00:57:13,333 --> 00:57:14,166
- Jake?
- 1046
- 00:58:14,416 --> 00:58:16,375
- "Coming home is terrible.
- 1047
- 00:58:16,833 --> 00:58:19,083
- Whether the dogs lick your face or not.
- 1048
- 00:58:20,375 --> 00:58:24,000
- Whether you have a wife or just
- a wife-shaped loneliness waiting for you.
- 1049
- 00:58:25,041 --> 00:58:27,166
- Coming home is terribly lonely."
- 1050
- 00:58:30,041 --> 00:58:31,583
- Sorry, you...
- 1051
- 00:58:31,666 --> 00:58:32,541
- you scared me.
- 1052
- 00:58:32,625 --> 00:58:34,000
- Oh, I'm sorry.
- 1053
- 00:58:37,458 --> 00:58:38,291
- This is...
- 1054
- 00:58:39,208 --> 00:58:41,666
- Jake's childhood bedroom.
- 1055
- 00:58:43,666 --> 00:58:44,500
- Yeah.
- 1056
- 00:58:45,250 --> 00:58:46,250
- Yeah, I-I...
- 1057
- 00:58:46,333 --> 00:58:47,916
- I saw the sign on the door.
- 1058
- 00:58:49,083 --> 00:58:50,166
- Oh, that.
- 1059
- 00:58:51,875 --> 00:58:53,416
- How can I explain that?
- 1060
- 00:58:53,833 --> 00:58:56,041
- My memory is going, um...
- 1061
- 00:58:56,125 --> 00:58:58,500
- Early signs of, uh...
- 1062
- 00:59:01,666 --> 00:59:02,666
- Uh...
- 1063
- 00:59:06,250 --> 00:59:07,166
- Alzheimer's?
- 1064
- 00:59:09,000 --> 00:59:09,875
- Dementia?
- 1065
- 00:59:11,583 --> 00:59:13,875
- - Lewy bodies...
- - Yeah, I think that's it.
- 1066
- 00:59:15,333 --> 00:59:16,625
- We've taken to...
- 1067
- 00:59:17,375 --> 00:59:19,250
- labeling things
- 1068
- 00:59:19,666 --> 00:59:24,166
- around the home,
- you'll see labels all over the house.
- 1069
- 00:59:25,583 --> 00:59:26,833
- I haven't noticed.
- 1070
- 00:59:30,083 --> 00:59:31,750
- You will notice.
- 1071
- 00:59:32,416 --> 00:59:36,083
- I'm sorry to hear that y-you're...
- 1072
- 00:59:36,166 --> 00:59:37,541
- That's OK.
- 1073
- 00:59:38,875 --> 00:59:39,833
- Truth is...
- 1074
- 00:59:40,583 --> 00:59:43,000
- I'm looking forward
- to when it gets very bad
- 1075
- 00:59:43,083 --> 00:59:45,833
- and I don't have to remember
- that I can't remember!
- 1076
- 00:59:50,500 --> 00:59:52,083
- Seems that that'll be a...
- 1077
- 00:59:52,958 --> 00:59:55,291
- better way to, um...
- 1078
- 00:59:55,958 --> 00:59:58,083
- Oh, come on.
- 1079
- 01:00:01,125 --> 01:00:04,000
- - Yeah.
- - They say that every cloud has a...
- 1080
- 01:00:06,375 --> 01:00:09,916
- - A silver...
- - Silver! Ah, that's it, exactly. Silver.
- 1081
- 01:00:10,750 --> 01:00:14,291
- They say that every cloud has a silver,
- and, uh...
- 1082
- 01:00:14,375 --> 01:00:16,000
- Well, I believe that to be true.
- 1083
- 01:00:19,875 --> 01:00:20,708
- Oh.
- 1084
- 01:00:21,125 --> 01:00:22,708
- This is Jake's old room.
- 1085
- 01:00:25,250 --> 01:00:27,541
- You two can stay in here tonight
- if you want.
- 1086
- 01:00:27,625 --> 01:00:31,500
- His mother and I aren't old fashioned
- about that kind of thing.
- 1087
- 01:00:31,583 --> 01:00:33,250
- Fucking and whatnot.
- 1088
- 01:00:33,666 --> 01:00:35,791
- Oh, I.. I... I have to get home tonight.
- 1089
- 01:00:35,875 --> 01:00:37,541
- I have work in... in the morning.
- 1090
- 01:00:37,625 --> 01:00:38,875
- I know this bed
- 1091
- 01:00:39,833 --> 01:00:42,166
- looks a bit small for two, um...
- 1092
- 01:00:43,125 --> 01:00:43,958
- Oh, come on.
- 1093
- 01:00:44,041 --> 01:00:46,083
- Uh, uh, grown-ups.
- 1094
- 01:00:46,166 --> 01:00:49,833
- It's a child's bed, after all.
- Not even for twin children.
- 1095
- 01:00:50,208 --> 01:00:53,625
- Just for one child. I'm sure
- for a single night you could make do.
- 1096
- 01:00:54,041 --> 01:00:56,750
- That's very generous of you, but I...
- I-I do have to...
- 1097
- 01:00:56,833 --> 01:00:59,500
- I imagine you won't be doing
- any fucking in this bed.
- 1098
- 01:01:00,458 --> 01:01:03,250
- Not really made for fucking.
- It's a child's bed.
- 1099
- 01:01:03,333 --> 01:01:05,208
- Just for one child, not two.
- 1100
- 01:01:05,291 --> 01:01:06,125
- Right.
- 1101
- 01:01:06,208 --> 01:01:09,625
- Sure I can find
- one of my wife's old, um...
- 1102
- 01:01:11,208 --> 01:01:12,125
- Oh.
- 1103
- 01:01:14,125 --> 01:01:16,625
- Things for you to wear for tonight.
- 1104
- 01:01:16,708 --> 01:01:18,750
- Might have to dig through some trunks.
- 1105
- 01:01:19,666 --> 01:01:23,500
- Sure I can find one of my wife's
- old things for you to wear.
- 1106
- 01:01:24,458 --> 01:01:26,125
- For tonight. Oh, look, there's...
- 1107
- 01:01:26,583 --> 01:01:29,666
- Jake's old room.
- 1108
- 01:01:52,958 --> 01:01:53,916
- Jake.
- 1109
- 01:01:56,750 --> 01:01:59,625
- Oh, it's the girlfriend.
- 1110
- 01:02:00,500 --> 01:02:01,416
- Open up.
- 1111
- 01:02:02,375 --> 01:02:04,291
- Jake, the snow. I need to leave.
- 1112
- 01:02:04,375 --> 01:02:09,958
- I've told him over and over
- it's time for him to leave!
- 1113
- 01:02:10,041 --> 01:02:11,916
- Mom, you need to eat!
- 1114
- 01:02:12,000 --> 01:02:13,250
- I'll be down in a minute.
- 1115
- 01:02:16,916 --> 01:02:17,750
- Mom!
- 1116
- 01:02:19,125 --> 01:02:21,958
- Jake's always been a good boy.
- 1117
- 01:02:22,041 --> 01:02:22,875
- Mom.
- 1118
- 01:02:23,291 --> 01:02:24,583
- Diligent.
- 1119
- 01:02:27,166 --> 01:02:29,000
- He won a pin.
- 1120
- 01:02:29,416 --> 01:02:35,458
- Maybe not as naturally talented
- as some of the other students,
- 1121
- 01:02:35,541 --> 01:02:36,375
- but...
- 1122
- 01:02:37,041 --> 01:02:40,375
- he worked so hard.
- 1123
- 01:02:42,041 --> 01:02:44,958
- And that's even more impressive.
- 1124
- 01:02:47,375 --> 01:02:48,666
- Being a genus...
- 1125
- 01:02:48,750 --> 01:02:50,041
- Genius, Mom.
- 1126
- 01:02:50,125 --> 01:02:51,375
- Genius.
- 1127
- 01:02:53,166 --> 01:02:55,458
- The luck of the draw, really.
- 1128
- 01:02:57,375 --> 01:03:00,875
- The genetic lottery, as they say.
- 1129
- 01:03:02,666 --> 01:03:06,958
- But to do as well as Jake did
- 1130
- 01:03:07,041 --> 01:03:12,458
- with no special talent or abilities...
- 1131
- 01:03:12,833 --> 01:03:14,666
- Oh.
- 1132
- 01:03:14,750 --> 01:03:18,250
- That's much more impressive.
- 1133
- 01:03:19,333 --> 01:03:20,625
- Mm...
- 1134
- 01:03:20,708 --> 01:03:21,666
- Yes.
- 1135
- 01:03:22,208 --> 01:03:23,666
- - Maybe you should...
- - Soon!
- 1136
- 01:03:25,416 --> 01:03:26,250
- OK.
- 1137
- 01:03:27,125 --> 01:03:30,333
- We will leave soon.
- 1138
- 01:03:31,833 --> 01:03:33,416
- Let me just finish up here.
- 1139
- 01:03:56,333 --> 01:03:57,208
- Mom?
- 1140
- 01:03:58,333 --> 01:04:01,166
- I'm impressed
- with your attentiveness to your mom.
- 1141
- 01:04:01,583 --> 01:04:02,666
- It's rare.
- 1142
- 01:04:03,375 --> 01:04:05,333
- We tend to warehouse our elderly.
- 1143
- 01:04:08,416 --> 01:04:11,083
- It's really special
- how devoted a son you are.
- 1144
- 01:04:11,166 --> 01:04:14,000
- I'm glad to hear you say that.
- That makes me feel better.
- 1145
- 01:04:15,625 --> 01:04:17,083
- Sometimes it...
- 1146
- 01:04:18,458 --> 01:04:22,166
- feels like no one sees
- the good things you do.
- 1147
- 01:04:24,125 --> 01:04:25,541
- Like you're just alone.
- 1148
- 01:04:31,625 --> 01:04:32,791
- I see it.
- 1149
- 01:04:40,083 --> 01:04:41,500
- I'll wait downstairs.
- 1150
- 01:04:42,333 --> 01:04:43,500
- Give you some privacy.
- 1151
- 01:04:48,875 --> 01:04:52,875
- I don't want to live in a warehouse.
- 1152
- 01:04:53,416 --> 01:04:55,875
- I should end this.
- Just end it.
- 1153
- 01:04:56,250 --> 01:04:57,791
- I just make a clean break.
- 1154
- 01:04:58,166 --> 01:05:00,750
- No lingering,
- no waiting for things to get better.
- 1155
- 01:05:01,375 --> 01:05:02,833
- You can only wait so long.
- 1156
- 01:05:03,333 --> 01:05:05,916
- I don't even know who I am
- in this whole thing anymore,
- 1157
- 01:05:06,000 --> 01:05:07,875
- where I stop and Jake starts.
- 1158
- 01:05:08,416 --> 01:05:12,666
- I'm a pinball. My emotional state
- is bouncing all over the place.
- 1159
- 01:05:12,750 --> 01:05:15,750
- Jake needs to see me
- as someone who sees him.
- 1160
- 01:05:15,833 --> 01:05:18,750
- He needs to be seen,
- and he needs to be seen with approval.
- 1161
- 01:05:19,250 --> 01:05:21,666
- Like that's my purpose
- in all this, in life.
- 1162
- 01:05:21,750 --> 01:05:24,250
- To approve of Jake, to keep him going.
- 1163
- 01:05:24,333 --> 01:05:27,333
- And he needs to see me as someone
- whose approval of him is validated
- 1164
- 01:05:27,416 --> 01:05:28,958
- because I'm approved of by others.
- 1165
- 01:05:29,041 --> 01:05:31,000
- "Look at my girlfriend,
- look at what I won.
- 1166
- 01:05:31,083 --> 01:05:33,666
- She's smart, she's talented,
- she's sensitive.
- 1167
- 01:05:33,750 --> 01:05:36,875
- She can do this, she knows about that,
- she made this, she cares about that."
- 1168
- 01:05:36,958 --> 01:05:39,666
- Let me just take him to the bathroom,
- then we'll go.
- 1169
- 01:05:39,750 --> 01:05:41,000
- I need to end it.
- 1170
- 01:05:41,083 --> 01:05:42,041
- Is that the girl?
- 1171
- 01:05:44,125 --> 01:05:46,833
- - Yes, Dad, Louisa.
- - Oh.
- 1172
- 01:05:46,916 --> 01:05:47,750
- Good.
- 1173
- 01:05:48,250 --> 01:05:49,750
- I brought your mother's, uh...
- 1174
- 01:05:54,250 --> 01:05:55,416
- nightgown.
- 1175
- 01:05:56,333 --> 01:05:57,208
- For her.
- 1176
- 01:05:59,208 --> 01:06:00,958
- That's...
- 1177
- 01:06:01,041 --> 01:06:02,625
- Very kind. I...
- 1178
- 01:06:04,708 --> 01:06:06,166
- I have to go home tonight.
- 1179
- 01:06:06,958 --> 01:06:07,791
- Soon.
- 1180
- 01:06:07,875 --> 01:06:11,625
- Oh, I-I... I don't understand.
- What does she mean?
- 1181
- 01:06:11,708 --> 01:06:13,000
- I don't know, Dad.
- 1182
- 01:06:13,083 --> 01:06:15,458
- - I can't tell.
- - I have my shift tomorrow.
- 1183
- 01:06:16,916 --> 01:06:18,125
- She's a waitress.
- 1184
- 01:06:18,208 --> 01:06:19,125
- Oh
- 1185
- 01:06:20,416 --> 01:06:22,833
- We.. we met when she was serving me.
- 1186
- 01:06:24,500 --> 01:06:25,833
- It's a sweet story.
- 1187
- 01:06:27,791 --> 01:06:31,041
- I asked her about the...
- 1188
- 01:06:31,666 --> 01:06:34,000
- Santa Fe burger.
- 1189
- 01:06:36,833 --> 01:06:38,250
- I'm feeling confused.
- 1190
- 01:06:38,333 --> 01:06:40,083
- Let's just get you to the bathroom.
- 1191
- 01:06:41,333 --> 01:06:42,958
- We don't want another accident.
- 1192
- 01:06:43,458 --> 01:06:44,500
- Remember last night?
- 1193
- 01:06:44,583 --> 01:06:46,416
- What's this old thing doing here?
- 1194
- 01:06:46,500 --> 01:06:47,750
- I'm not sure.
- 1195
- 01:06:47,833 --> 01:06:49,000
- Oh, my goodness it's filthy.
- 1196
- 01:06:49,083 --> 01:06:51,500
- It's got Jake's baby food on it.
- What's it doing here?
- 1197
- 01:06:51,583 --> 01:06:52,750
- I tell you,
- 1198
- 01:06:52,833 --> 01:06:55,708
- I would misplace my own head
- if it wasn't screwed onto my own head.
- 1199
- 01:06:55,791 --> 01:06:58,666
- Would you be a sweetheart and toss it
- in the washer? I just started a load.
- 1200
- 01:06:58,750 --> 01:07:01,166
- My hands are full picking up
- all these darn toys.
- 1201
- 01:07:01,250 --> 01:07:04,375
- Jake would leave his head on the floor
- if it wasn't screwed onto his own head.
- 1202
- 01:07:04,458 --> 01:07:05,500
- Sure.
- 1203
- 01:07:05,583 --> 01:07:07,083
- - Where is it?
- - In the basement.
- 1204
- 01:07:10,000 --> 01:07:11,541
- I don't think Jake wants me down there.
- 1205
- 01:07:11,625 --> 01:07:13,166
- Jake can be controlling.
- 1206
- 01:07:13,250 --> 01:07:15,333
- You can't allow him to control you.
- 1207
- 01:07:15,708 --> 01:07:19,833
- I think it's the other side of his type
- of personality. This diligence thing.
- 1208
- 01:07:19,916 --> 01:07:21,500
- He needs to control everything.
- 1209
- 01:07:21,583 --> 01:07:23,291
- There's so many,
- 1210
- 01:07:23,375 --> 01:07:25,750
- many things that make him nervous.
- 1211
- 01:07:25,833 --> 01:07:29,291
- He keeps closing off more and more
- of the world. It's a problem.
- 1212
- 01:07:29,750 --> 01:07:32,125
- And the few people
- he does have left in his life
- 1213
- 01:07:32,208 --> 01:07:33,708
- need to follow all sorts of rules.
- 1214
- 01:07:33,791 --> 01:07:35,125
- It really is a problem.
- 1215
- 01:07:35,208 --> 01:07:36,625
- Yes, I'm probably to blame.
- 1216
- 01:07:37,875 --> 01:07:40,958
- And all this guilt
- causes me to feel obligated...
- 1217
- 01:07:41,500 --> 01:07:44,666
- ...to bend over backwards
- to accommodate his every little whim.
- 1218
- 01:07:44,750 --> 01:07:46,375
- It's a vicious cycle.
- 1219
- 01:07:46,916 --> 01:07:48,791
- So what exactly are you saying to me?
- 1220
- 01:07:49,500 --> 01:07:53,958
- I'm saying,
- take the darn nightgown to the basement.
- 1221
- 01:07:55,000 --> 01:07:56,541
- Live dangerously.
- 1222
- 01:08:29,958 --> 01:08:31,625
- You... you sent her down?
- 1223
- 01:08:32,791 --> 01:08:33,958
- To the washer.
- 1224
- 01:08:34,500 --> 01:08:36,250
- Mom! Really?
- 1225
- 01:08:37,125 --> 01:08:39,791
- You don't have to do laundry
- for my mom.
- 1226
- 01:08:39,875 --> 01:08:41,166
- You're a guest,
- 1227
- 01:08:41,958 --> 01:08:45,458
- and we... we... we'll get you
- a clean nightgown for tonight.
- 1228
- 01:08:45,541 --> 01:08:47,583
- - I don't mind.
- - Well, we really need...
- 1229
- 01:08:47,666 --> 01:08:49,250
- We really need to get on the road.
- 1230
- 01:08:50,833 --> 01:08:53,000
- I could... I could use some help
- with the chains.
- 1231
- 01:08:53,083 --> 01:08:54,250
- Right, I'll be up.
- 1232
- 01:10:19,458 --> 01:10:23,291
- It's tragic how few people
- possess their souls before they die.
- 1233
- 01:10:25,458 --> 01:10:28,750
- "Nothing is more rare in any man,"
- says Emerson,
- 1234
- 01:10:29,291 --> 01:10:30,541
- "than an act of his own."
- 1235
- 01:10:31,250 --> 01:10:32,583
- And it's quite true.
- 1236
- 01:10:33,000 --> 01:10:34,541
- Most people are other people.
- 1237
- 01:10:35,375 --> 01:10:37,500
- Their thoughts are
- someone else's opinions.
- 1238
- 01:10:37,875 --> 01:10:40,666
- Their lives a mimicry,
- their passions a quotation.
- 1239
- 01:10:42,250 --> 01:10:43,708
- That's an Oscar Wilde quote.
- 1240
- 01:10:48,500 --> 01:10:50,541
- There's only one question
- to resolve.
- 1241
- 01:10:50,625 --> 01:10:54,000
- I'm scared. I feel a little crazy.
- I'm not lucid.
- 1242
- 01:10:54,083 --> 01:10:57,041
- The assumptions are right.
- I can feel my fear growing.
- 1243
- 01:10:57,125 --> 01:10:58,833
- Now is the time for the answer.
- 1244
- 01:10:58,916 --> 01:11:01,666
- Just one question,
- one question to answer.
- 1245
- 01:11:15,000 --> 01:11:15,916
- Oh, my God.
- 1246
- 01:11:16,875 --> 01:11:17,875
- Jake, is your mom...
- 1247
- 01:11:25,083 --> 01:11:27,458
- She's...
- 1248
- 01:11:29,166 --> 01:11:30,291
- She's asleep.
- 1249
- 01:11:32,125 --> 01:11:33,250
- She's...
- 1250
- 01:11:34,291 --> 01:11:35,875
- We should go.
- 1251
- 01:11:37,541 --> 01:11:39,041
- It's getting treacherous.
- 1252
- 01:11:40,375 --> 01:11:42,083
- Are you certain she's all right?
- 1253
- 01:11:42,166 --> 01:11:43,666
- Out like a light.
- 1254
- 01:11:47,375 --> 01:11:48,708
- It's a good time to go.
- 1255
- 01:11:50,541 --> 01:11:51,583
- What about your dad?
- 1256
- 01:11:52,291 --> 01:11:53,125
- He's...
- 1257
- 01:11:55,166 --> 01:11:56,958
- He's puttering somewhere.
- 1258
- 01:11:59,458 --> 01:12:01,000
- The disposal's out again.
- 1259
- 01:12:03,958 --> 01:12:05,291
- It was great to meet you.
- 1260
- 01:12:08,208 --> 01:12:09,708
- It was great to meet you too.
- 1261
- 01:12:13,708 --> 01:12:15,791
- Thank you so much for your hospitality.
- 1262
- 01:12:15,875 --> 01:12:18,541
- Oh, you're welcome here any time. Yes.
- 1263
- 01:12:24,625 --> 01:12:26,416
- Jake's a good boy, yes?
- 1264
- 01:12:27,833 --> 01:12:28,916
- - Yes.
- - Yeah?
- 1265
- 01:12:29,416 --> 01:12:31,208
- A good man, I should say.
- 1266
- 01:12:32,333 --> 01:12:33,208
- You agree?
- 1267
- 01:12:33,708 --> 01:12:34,666
- Yes.
- 1268
- 01:12:39,375 --> 01:12:40,458
- OK then, well...
- 1269
- 01:13:15,458 --> 01:13:16,291
- So?
- 1270
- 01:13:17,833 --> 01:13:19,291
- Did you like them?
- 1271
- 01:13:20,208 --> 01:13:22,625
- Uh, y-yes, they're very nice.
- 1272
- 01:13:24,041 --> 01:13:25,041
- Really?
- 1273
- 01:13:25,125 --> 01:13:25,958
- Yes.
- 1274
- 01:13:28,208 --> 01:13:31,500
- They can be a little pushy,
- but they're basically decent people.
- 1275
- 01:13:31,916 --> 01:13:33,250
- That was eminently clear.
- 1276
- 01:13:35,791 --> 01:13:37,416
- They both loved you, by the way.
- 1277
- 01:13:38,083 --> 01:13:39,333
- That's good. I'm glad.
- 1278
- 01:13:41,541 --> 01:13:44,500
- - So smart, my mother said.
- - Did she?
- 1279
- 01:13:45,041 --> 01:13:47,958
- Well, not to you. That would've
- made you uncomfortable.
- 1280
- 01:13:48,833 --> 01:13:51,333
- But, um, when I was helping her
- with the dishes.
- 1281
- 01:13:52,041 --> 01:13:55,166
- I don't remember Jake
- helping his mother with the dishes.
- 1282
- 01:13:55,833 --> 01:13:58,833
- I feel uncertain about a lot
- of what happened tonight. It felt like...
- 1283
- 01:13:58,916 --> 01:14:01,291
- When you and Dad were discussing...
- 1284
- 01:14:01,375 --> 01:14:02,250
- What?
- 1285
- 01:14:03,250 --> 01:14:05,208
- When you and Dad were discussing...
- 1286
- 01:14:05,291 --> 01:14:07,416
- It seemed
- as if everything was slightly...
- 1287
- 01:14:07,875 --> 01:14:10,333
- - Tariffs.
- - Right. Tariffs.
- 1288
- 01:14:13,166 --> 01:14:16,000
- Yeah, I-I do remember now.
- I'm a little fuzzy.
- 1289
- 01:14:16,083 --> 01:14:17,458
- You did have a lot of wine.
- 1290
- 01:14:19,416 --> 01:14:21,541
- He was thrilled to have someone
- who knew the difference.
- 1291
- 01:14:21,625 --> 01:14:22,458
- Did I?
- 1292
- 01:14:22,791 --> 01:14:23,666
- You did.
- 1293
- 01:14:24,666 --> 01:14:25,500
- Uh...
- 1294
- 01:14:26,041 --> 01:14:28,958
- I don't think you noticed,
- because he kept topping you off.
- 1295
- 01:14:29,041 --> 01:14:30,958
- - Did he?
- - Yes, yes, yes.
- 1296
- 01:14:31,041 --> 01:14:32,041
- Right.
- 1297
- 01:14:33,000 --> 01:14:34,125
- I didn't notice that.
- 1298
- 01:14:34,750 --> 01:14:36,125
- - Yeah.
- - Tricky.
- 1299
- 01:14:36,208 --> 01:14:37,666
- Makes it hard to keep count.
- 1300
- 01:14:39,000 --> 01:14:41,250
- - It does.
- - As I was saying...
- 1301
- 01:14:42,458 --> 01:14:44,916
- All in all, I think everything...
- 1302
- 01:14:45,000 --> 01:14:46,666
- ...went well.
- 1303
- 01:14:46,750 --> 01:14:48,666
- I think it was a successful visit.
- 1304
- 01:14:48,750 --> 01:14:49,875
- Mm-hmm. Yes.
- 1305
- 01:14:51,166 --> 01:14:52,791
- Everyone got to know each other.
- 1306
- 01:14:52,875 --> 01:14:55,166
- That's true. They're very nice.
- 1307
- 01:14:55,250 --> 01:14:56,750
- - You liked them?
- - Yes.
- 1308
- 01:14:56,833 --> 01:14:59,125
- They liked you, too.
- I think that...
- 1309
- 01:14:59,208 --> 01:15:00,916
- I think that's a good sign.
- 1310
- 01:15:01,875 --> 01:15:02,708
- S-Sign?
- 1311
- 01:15:02,791 --> 01:15:03,625
- Sign.
- 1312
- 01:15:04,250 --> 01:15:06,416
- Sign is perhaps not the right word.
- 1313
- 01:15:06,500 --> 01:15:08,500
- - The thing.
- - Oh.
- 1314
- 01:15:08,583 --> 01:15:09,833
- The good thing.
- 1315
- 01:15:09,916 --> 01:15:11,500
- - Yeah.
- - Good thing.
- 1316
- 01:15:12,750 --> 01:15:15,125
- It's good when people you like,
- like each other.
- 1317
- 01:15:18,125 --> 01:15:19,958
- People like to think of themselves
- 1318
- 01:15:20,041 --> 01:15:21,875
- as points moving through time.
- 1319
- 01:15:22,791 --> 01:15:24,750
- But I think it's probably the opposite.
- 1320
- 01:15:25,625 --> 01:15:26,958
- We're stationary,
- 1321
- 01:15:27,333 --> 01:15:29,208
- and time passes through us,
- 1322
- 01:15:29,916 --> 01:15:31,500
- blowing like cold wind,
- 1323
- 01:15:32,583 --> 01:15:33,833
- stealing our heat,
- 1324
- 01:15:33,916 --> 01:15:36,291
- - leaving us chapped and frozen.
- - What are you thinking?
- 1325
- 01:15:36,375 --> 01:15:38,875
- I don't know, dead.
- 1326
- 01:15:40,208 --> 01:15:42,458
- I feel like I was that wind tonight.
- 1327
- 01:15:43,166 --> 01:15:45,000
- Blowing through Jake's parents.
- 1328
- 01:15:45,666 --> 01:15:48,416
- Seeing them as they were,
- seeing them as they will be.
- 1329
- 01:15:48,833 --> 01:15:50,916
- - Seeing them after they're gone.
- - What are you...
- 1330
- 01:15:51,000 --> 01:15:53,458
- - When only I'm left.
- - What are you thinking?
- 1331
- 01:15:53,541 --> 01:15:54,750
- Only the wind.
- 1332
- 01:15:54,833 --> 01:15:55,958
- Not much.
- 1333
- 01:15:59,333 --> 01:16:00,166
- Really?
- 1334
- 01:16:00,250 --> 01:16:02,625
- I'm tired, Jake. The wine, I guess.
- 1335
- 01:16:02,708 --> 01:16:03,833
- Yes, you did have a lot.
- 1336
- 01:16:03,916 --> 01:16:04,833
- Yes.
- 1337
- 01:16:05,375 --> 01:16:07,208
- It is a depressant, as you know.
- 1338
- 01:16:07,291 --> 01:16:08,125
- Of course I know.
- 1339
- 01:16:08,208 --> 01:16:11,666
- I think it's important for people
- to keep that in mind
- 1340
- 01:16:11,750 --> 01:16:14,125
- before they make decisions
- under its influence.
- 1341
- 01:16:24,541 --> 01:16:27,583
- - A Woman Under the Influence.
- - Amazing film.
- 1342
- 01:16:29,500 --> 01:16:30,958
- I'm not sure I agree.
- 1343
- 01:16:34,000 --> 01:16:38,291
- I've been watching that film over and over
- for my essay due Wednesday.
- 1344
- 01:16:42,166 --> 01:16:44,375
- I felt, uh, a kinship
- 1345
- 01:16:45,208 --> 01:16:46,625
- with Mabel, I guess.
- 1346
- 01:16:47,250 --> 01:16:51,541
- She's such a powerful,
- horribly wronged character.
- 1347
- 01:16:51,625 --> 01:16:52,458
- Is she?
- 1348
- 01:16:55,000 --> 01:16:55,875
- I think...
- 1349
- 01:17:02,666 --> 01:17:04,333
- Mabel Longhetti is bombed out
- 1350
- 01:17:04,416 --> 01:17:06,750
- because she's always trying
- to please everyone,
- 1351
- 01:17:08,166 --> 01:17:12,500
- so that she can be considered one more
- victim-heroine for the women's liberation.
- 1352
- 01:17:12,833 --> 01:17:15,500
- But only by women liberationists
- 1353
- 01:17:15,583 --> 01:17:18,208
- who are willing to accept
- textbook spin-offs as art.
- 1354
- 01:17:18,291 --> 01:17:20,416
- The Junoesque Gena Rowlands,
- 1355
- 01:17:20,500 --> 01:17:24,500
- Mrs. Cassavetes, is a prodigious actress,
- and she never lets go of the character.
- 1356
- 01:17:24,583 --> 01:17:27,458
- I agree. I-I thought she was
- great in the role.
- 1357
- 01:17:29,458 --> 01:17:32,916
- - Seemed to me she... she encompassed...
- - Now at an indeterminate age
- 1358
- 01:17:33,000 --> 01:17:35,250
- when her beauty has deepened
- beyond ingenue roles,
- 1359
- 01:17:35,333 --> 01:17:36,958
- Rowlands can look old or young.
- 1360
- 01:17:37,041 --> 01:17:40,666
- Shades of expression
- transform Mabel Longhetti from...
- 1361
- 01:17:41,041 --> 01:17:43,625
- a radiantly flirtatious beauty
- 1362
- 01:17:43,708 --> 01:17:45,958
- into a sad, sagging neighborhood drunk.
- 1363
- 01:17:46,041 --> 01:17:49,250
- Rowlands externalizes
- schizophrenic dissolution.
- 1364
- 01:17:50,250 --> 01:17:52,625
- Mabel fragments before your eyes.
- 1365
- 01:17:52,708 --> 01:17:55,500
- A three-ring circus
- might be taking place in her face.
- 1366
- 01:17:56,250 --> 01:17:59,500
- Rowland's performance is enough
- for half a dozen tours de force,
- 1367
- 01:17:59,583 --> 01:18:01,916
- a whole row of Oscars. It's exhausting.
- 1368
- 01:18:02,000 --> 01:18:04,125
- Conceivably,
- she is a great actress, but...
- 1369
- 01:18:04,208 --> 01:18:07,291
- nothing she does is memorable,
- because she does so much.
- 1370
- 01:18:16,583 --> 01:18:19,875
- It's the most transient
- big performance I've ever seen.
- 1371
- 01:18:19,958 --> 01:18:23,250
- I guess I'm unclear
- what you mean by transient?
- 1372
- 01:18:26,666 --> 01:18:28,625
- Mabel tries to slash her wrist,
- 1373
- 01:18:28,708 --> 01:18:30,375
- Nick puts a band-aid on the cut.
- 1374
- 01:18:30,458 --> 01:18:32,625
- The idiot symbolism is enough
- to make you want to hoot,
- 1375
- 01:18:32,708 --> 01:18:34,458
- but this two-hour and 35-minute movie
- 1376
- 01:18:34,541 --> 01:18:36,791
- leaves you too groggy
- to do more than moan.
- 1377
- 01:18:36,875 --> 01:18:40,625
- Details that are meant to establish
- the pathological nature
- 1378
- 01:18:40,708 --> 01:18:42,708
- of the characters surrounding Mabel...
- 1379
- 01:18:42,791 --> 01:18:47,791
- ...and so show her isolation
- become instead limp, false moments.
- 1380
- 01:18:48,208 --> 01:18:50,208
- It's unclear whether the characters
- are unconscious
- 1381
- 01:18:50,291 --> 01:18:53,666
- or whether it's Cassavetes
- who's unconscious of what he's doing.
- 1382
- 01:18:54,041 --> 01:18:56,375
- The children keep murmuring
- that they love her.
- 1383
- 01:18:56,833 --> 01:18:59,208
- There's no clue
- as how to decipher that refrain.
- 1384
- 01:18:59,583 --> 01:19:01,625
- Are they coddling her?
- 1385
- 01:19:02,041 --> 01:19:05,541
- Reversing roles and treating her
- like a child in need of reassurance?
- 1386
- 01:19:05,625 --> 01:19:08,416
- Or are they as unashamedly loving
- as she is?
- 1387
- 01:19:08,500 --> 01:19:10,416
- And what are... what are we to make
- 1388
- 01:19:10,500 --> 01:19:12,625
- of Nick the Pulper's
- constant assertations?
- 1389
- 01:19:12,708 --> 01:19:14,250
- Is assertations even a word?
- 1390
- 01:19:14,333 --> 01:19:18,000
- - I thought it was assertions.
- - They're both words. Look it up.
- 1391
- 01:19:19,125 --> 01:19:22,208
- What are we to make of Nick the Pulper's
- constant assertations of love?
- 1392
- 01:19:22,291 --> 01:19:24,625
- The... the movie is entirely tendentious.
- 1393
- 01:19:24,708 --> 01:19:27,291
- It's all planned yet it isn't thought out.
- 1394
- 01:19:36,541 --> 01:19:38,291
- I do see what you're saying.
- 1395
- 01:19:41,666 --> 01:19:46,583
- You are certainly the expert
- on things cinematic.
- 1396
- 01:19:46,666 --> 01:19:47,500
- Yeah.
- 1397
- 01:19:49,000 --> 01:19:49,833
- I am.
- 1398
- 01:19:53,541 --> 01:19:55,208
- I-I guess I was just...
- 1399
- 01:19:56,333 --> 01:19:57,208
- Taken in...
- 1400
- 01:19:57,875 --> 01:20:02,916
- by the... the sympathy
- that Cassavetes showed for her.
- 1401
- 01:20:03,625 --> 01:20:07,583
- I feel like maybe our society
- lacks a certain kindness,
- 1402
- 01:20:08,250 --> 01:20:14,625
- a certain willingness
- to take in the struggles of others...
- 1403
- 01:20:14,708 --> 01:20:19,708
- ...struggling with, uh,
- issues caused by...
- 1404
- 01:20:19,791 --> 01:20:21,625
- An alienating society?
- 1405
- 01:20:22,750 --> 01:20:23,791
- I don't know.
- 1406
- 01:20:24,666 --> 01:20:26,041
- Uh, I guess.
- 1407
- 01:20:26,458 --> 01:20:28,083
- Yeah. It seems hopeless.
- 1408
- 01:20:31,208 --> 01:20:32,125
- What does?
- 1409
- 01:20:34,875 --> 01:20:37,041
- All of it. Uh, everything.
- 1410
- 01:20:37,125 --> 01:20:38,583
- Like feeling old,
- 1411
- 01:20:38,666 --> 01:20:42,541
- like your body is going,
- your hearing, your sight.
- 1412
- 01:20:43,833 --> 01:20:46,666
- You can't see, and you're invisible.
- 1413
- 01:20:48,083 --> 01:20:51,708
- And you've made so many wrong turns.
- 1414
- 01:20:53,875 --> 01:20:54,833
- The lie of it all.
- 1415
- 01:20:54,916 --> 01:20:57,375
- - What is the lie of it all?
- - I don't know! That...
- 1416
- 01:20:58,000 --> 01:21:00,166
- it's going to get better,
- that it's never too late,
- 1417
- 01:21:00,250 --> 01:21:01,458
- that...
- 1418
- 01:21:01,541 --> 01:21:02,958
- God has a plan for you.
- 1419
- 01:21:03,041 --> 01:21:05,333
- - That age is just a number.
- - Shut up.
- 1420
- 01:21:05,416 --> 01:21:06,250
- That...
- 1421
- 01:21:07,375 --> 01:21:09,833
- It's always darkest
- before the dawn. Thatâ¦
- 1422
- 01:21:11,041 --> 01:21:14,083
- Every cloud has a fucking silver lining!
- 1423
- 01:21:17,125 --> 01:21:18,041
- That there's...
- 1424
- 01:21:19,625 --> 01:21:21,958
- That there's someone for everyone.
- 1425
- 01:21:22,291 --> 01:21:23,583
- Platitudes all.
- 1426
- 01:21:27,041 --> 01:21:30,041
- Shut up, Mabel! Sit down, Mabel!
- 1427
- 01:21:38,000 --> 01:21:40,291
- And God never gives us
- more than we can bear.
- 1428
- 01:21:40,958 --> 01:21:42,416
- God's a good egg that way.
- 1429
- 01:21:45,333 --> 01:21:47,000
- Hey, do you want something sweet?
- 1430
- 01:21:47,375 --> 01:21:48,291
- What do you mean?
- 1431
- 01:21:48,375 --> 01:21:51,375
- - Dessert.
- - Didn't we have dessert at your mom's?
- 1432
- 01:21:51,458 --> 01:21:54,541
- I feel like there was
- this huge cake thing, or...
- 1433
- 01:21:56,000 --> 01:21:56,833
- True.
- 1434
- 01:21:56,916 --> 01:21:59,166
- I guess I'm a sugar junkie!
- 1435
- 01:22:00,500 --> 01:22:01,333
- I don't know.
- 1436
- 01:22:04,833 --> 01:22:07,250
- It might help me stay awake.
- 1437
- 01:22:07,333 --> 01:22:09,125
- Then definitely!
- 1438
- 01:22:10,250 --> 01:22:13,041
- We need Jake awake for a bit.
- This is all so treacherous.
- 1439
- 01:22:13,458 --> 01:22:16,500
- There's a Tulsey Town
- just at the turn-off up ahead.
- 1440
- 01:22:16,833 --> 01:22:18,041
- A Tulsey Town?
- 1441
- 01:22:19,541 --> 01:22:22,166
- Open now? In this? It's freezing.
- 1442
- 01:22:22,625 --> 01:22:26,791
- It is perfect weather for a Brrr.
- 1443
- 01:22:28,208 --> 01:22:29,333
- Don't you think?
- 1444
- 01:22:29,416 --> 01:22:30,541
- Yeah, I guess it is.
- 1445
- 01:22:40,833 --> 01:22:42,083
- Tulsey Town.
- 1446
- 01:22:42,625 --> 01:22:43,666
- Huh.
- 1447
- 01:22:45,125 --> 01:22:47,583
- Jesus, I never thought of that before.
- 1448
- 01:22:50,041 --> 01:22:52,125
- What do you suppose Tulsey Town is?
- 1449
- 01:22:52,208 --> 01:22:53,333
- Based on the clown...
- 1450
- 01:22:54,666 --> 01:22:56,541
- I'd say it's a circus town.
- 1451
- 01:22:57,250 --> 01:22:59,000
- Maybe like that place...
- 1452
- 01:23:00,208 --> 01:23:03,791
- uh, where the sideshow folks go
- during off season.
- 1453
- 01:23:03,875 --> 01:23:06,166
- - Ruled by the clown lady?
- - Ah.
- 1454
- 01:23:06,541 --> 01:23:08,500
- Well, yes, she wears a crown.
- 1455
- 01:23:08,583 --> 01:23:09,500
- She has a...
- 1456
- 01:23:10,041 --> 01:23:11,791
- clown crown?
- 1457
- 01:23:11,875 --> 01:23:16,833
- A benevolent and tolerant
- ice cream clown queen.
- 1458
- 01:23:16,916 --> 01:23:19,208
- Made entirely of lactose.
- 1459
- 01:23:19,291 --> 01:23:21,458
- She is lactose tolerant!
- 1460
- 01:23:21,541 --> 01:23:23,208
- She's sweet but cold.
- 1461
- 01:23:23,291 --> 01:23:24,583
- Like your mum.
- 1462
- 01:23:29,958 --> 01:23:30,791
- What do you mean?
- 1463
- 01:23:30,875 --> 01:23:33,125
- Nothing. I don't know why I said that.
- That just came out.
- 1464
- 01:23:33,208 --> 01:23:35,458
- - Did you think of my mother as cold?
- - No.
- 1465
- 01:23:35,541 --> 01:23:38,208
- Uh, she was lovely, she really was.
- 1466
- 01:23:38,291 --> 01:23:39,166
- 'Cause I don't...
- 1467
- 01:23:39,750 --> 01:23:41,083
- subscribe to that,
- 1468
- 01:23:41,166 --> 01:23:44,666
- the mother is the cause
- of all psychological problems crap.
- 1469
- 01:23:44,750 --> 01:23:48,125
- That's misogynistic claptrap.
- Freudian bullshit.
- 1470
- 01:23:48,208 --> 01:23:49,416
- It is tempting...
- 1471
- 01:23:50,166 --> 01:23:52,708
- to have someone to pin it on, though.
- 1472
- 01:23:52,791 --> 01:23:53,750
- Pin what on?
- 1473
- 01:23:55,208 --> 01:23:59,250
- All of it. Why you feel a certain way,
- why you are a certain way.
- 1474
- 01:24:01,166 --> 01:24:04,208
- That's misogynistic claptrap.
- Freudian bullshit.
- 1475
- 01:24:05,125 --> 01:24:08,125
- A person, an adult, has to,
- at one point or another,
- 1476
- 01:24:08,583 --> 01:24:11,333
- take responsibility for who they are.
- 1477
- 01:24:13,625 --> 01:24:14,500
- Don't you think?
- 1478
- 01:24:15,416 --> 01:24:16,250
- - Yeah.
- - Yes.
- 1479
- 01:24:16,333 --> 01:24:18,375
- Mother's are people
- with their own pain,
- 1480
- 01:24:18,458 --> 01:24:20,666
- their own history of neglect and abuse.
- 1481
- 01:24:21,625 --> 01:24:23,708
- Yet, at one time or another,
- 1482
- 01:24:23,791 --> 01:24:27,458
- during the 20th century, every fucking
- childhood trait was blamed on them:
- 1483
- 01:24:27,541 --> 01:24:30,666
- schizophrenia, autism,
- narcissism, homosexuality.
- 1484
- 01:24:30,750 --> 01:24:34,750
- Not that homosexuality is akin
- to any of those other things.
- 1485
- 01:24:34,833 --> 01:24:36,958
- - Uh, yeah. Of course not.
- - Obviously.
- 1486
- 01:24:37,041 --> 01:24:39,791
- Saying that a mother is to blame
- for her child's homosexuality
- 1487
- 01:24:39,875 --> 01:24:42,916
- is to imply that homosexuality
- is somehow negative.
- 1488
- 01:24:43,000 --> 01:24:47,916
- I was just saying that when homosexuality
- was considered a pathology
- 1489
- 01:24:48,000 --> 01:24:50,583
- in the DSM before 1973,
- 1490
- 01:24:51,250 --> 01:24:53,416
- a coddling mother
- 1491
- 01:24:54,916 --> 01:24:57,166
- - was often seen as the culprit.
- - Right.
- 1492
- 01:25:01,166 --> 01:25:05,958
- It's despicable how we label people
- and categorize them and dismiss them.
- 1493
- 01:25:06,916 --> 01:25:09,208
- I look at the kids
- 1494
- 01:25:09,291 --> 01:25:11,625
- I see at school every day.
- 1495
- 01:25:13,416 --> 01:25:15,791
- I see the ones who are ostracized.
- They're...
- 1496
- 01:25:16,416 --> 01:25:18,166
- different. They're out of step.
- 1497
- 01:25:18,250 --> 01:25:21,166
- And I see the lives they'll have
- because of that.
- 1498
- 01:25:21,500 --> 01:25:26,625
- Sometimes I see them years later,
- in town, at the supermarket.
- 1499
- 01:25:32,291 --> 01:25:34,708
- I see,
- 1500
- 01:25:34,791 --> 01:25:38,208
- I can tell that they still carry
- that stuff around with them.
- 1501
- 01:25:39,333 --> 01:25:40,250
- Like a...
- 1502
- 01:25:41,208 --> 01:25:42,916
- black aura.
- 1503
- 01:25:44,583 --> 01:25:46,250
- Like a millstone.
- 1504
- 01:25:48,625 --> 01:25:50,208
- Like an oozing wound.
- 1505
- 01:25:52,875 --> 01:25:53,708
- Jake.
- 1506
- 01:25:55,166 --> 01:25:57,000
- - I'm thinking...
- - Here! Ta-da!
- 1507
- 01:26:00,708 --> 01:26:02,791
- Oh. Man, that's brutal.
- 1508
- 01:26:04,083 --> 01:26:06,500
- Brutal place, the land of Tulsey Town.
- 1509
- 01:26:09,916 --> 01:26:11,208
- Climate change here too.
- 1510
- 01:26:11,708 --> 01:26:12,833
- Have you read the novel Ice?
- 1511
- 01:26:12,916 --> 01:26:15,458
- - I don't think so.
- - By Anna Kavan?
- 1512
- 01:26:15,541 --> 01:26:16,416
- I don't think so.
- 1513
- 01:26:17,166 --> 01:26:20,166
- 1967, it's a fable of sorts,
- about...
- 1514
- 01:26:20,250 --> 01:26:22,250
- Let's just get the ice cream and go,
- it's freezing.
- 1515
- 01:26:22,333 --> 01:26:25,041
- Wait a minute.
- I just want to see who's on tonight first.
- 1516
- 01:26:25,125 --> 01:26:26,958
- You know the people
- who work here?
- 1517
- 01:26:27,541 --> 01:26:28,458
- Some of them.
- 1518
- 01:26:29,250 --> 01:26:32,458
- Well, I stop sometimes
- after visiting my parents.
- 1519
- 01:26:32,833 --> 01:26:35,916
- I don't like some of the girls
- that work here, so I just wanna make sure.
- 1520
- 01:26:36,000 --> 01:26:38,875
- - What's wrong with them?
- - I don't know. People...
- 1521
- 01:26:39,458 --> 01:26:40,708
- can be cold to me.
- 1522
- 01:26:40,791 --> 01:26:43,208
- - Uh, I'm gonna wait in the car.
- - No, no! Say hello.
- 1523
- 01:26:43,291 --> 01:26:45,750
- They won't come if they know it's me.
- 1524
- 01:26:53,166 --> 01:26:55,375
- - Hello, anybody here?
- - In a minute!
- 1525
- 01:26:55,458 --> 01:26:57,666
- So, Ice takes place...
- 1526
- 01:26:57,750 --> 01:26:58,708
- during, uh...
- 1527
- 01:26:59,125 --> 01:27:01,833
- an environmental cataclysm,
- causing the world to become
- 1528
- 01:27:01,916 --> 01:27:04,541
- a frozen wasteland.
- 1529
- 01:27:04,625 --> 01:27:05,541
- And the main...
- 1530
- 01:27:06,875 --> 01:27:07,916
- Hi!
- 1531
- 01:27:09,375 --> 01:27:10,250
- Hi.
- 1532
- 01:27:16,000 --> 01:27:17,083
- Can I help you, sir?
- 1533
- 01:27:22,625 --> 01:27:23,458
- Uh...
- 1534
- 01:27:25,625 --> 01:27:27,625
- So, yeah, uh, I'll have, uh...
- 1535
- 01:27:28,041 --> 01:27:29,083
- Oreo Brr.
- 1536
- 01:27:29,166 --> 01:27:30,333
- And he'll have...
- 1537
- 01:27:31,583 --> 01:27:32,458
- Same.
- 1538
- 01:27:32,541 --> 01:27:33,916
- Uh, two of those, please.
- 1539
- 01:27:35,708 --> 01:27:36,833
- Two "sames."
- 1540
- 01:27:42,125 --> 01:27:44,458
- Uh, sorry, uh, we need to get back
- on the road.
- 1541
- 01:27:44,541 --> 01:27:47,666
- So can we get them as quick
- as... as... as possible?
- 1542
- 01:27:50,291 --> 01:27:52,041
- Uh, sorry, hi.
- 1543
- 01:27:52,125 --> 01:27:55,000
- Sorry about the smell, they're doing some
- varnishing in the back.
- 1544
- 01:27:55,791 --> 01:27:56,625
- Varnishing?
- 1545
- 01:27:57,833 --> 01:27:58,708
- Shelves.
- 1546
- 01:27:59,416 --> 01:28:00,958
- Oh. No problem.
- 1547
- 01:28:03,708 --> 01:28:05,833
- I know this girl.
- I've seen her somewhere.
- 1548
- 01:28:05,916 --> 01:28:07,916
- I've seen her before, her... her face.
- 1549
- 01:28:08,000 --> 01:28:10,625
- Her rash, I know her.
- It's on the tip of my tongue.
- 1550
- 01:28:10,708 --> 01:28:12,833
- Tip of my brain, as Jake says.
- 1551
- 01:28:12,916 --> 01:28:14,666
- She's someone. She's from somewhere.
- 1552
- 01:28:15,291 --> 01:28:16,375
- I'm certain of it.
- 1553
- 01:28:18,791 --> 01:28:20,500
- It's a fucking blizzard out there.
- 1554
- 01:28:21,458 --> 01:28:23,166
- Surprised you were open
- on a night like this.
- 1555
- 01:28:23,250 --> 01:28:25,791
- It's a fucking blizzard out there,
- fucking Brrr in here.
- 1556
- 01:28:26,125 --> 01:28:27,250
- Yeah, I-I...
- 1557
- 01:28:27,333 --> 01:28:29,166
- I was thinking the exact same thing.
- 1558
- 01:28:32,500 --> 01:28:33,500
- You're kind.
- 1559
- 01:28:33,583 --> 01:28:35,541
- You're not like them.
- 1560
- 01:28:36,291 --> 01:28:39,458
- Vapid and mean and pretty.
- 1561
- 01:28:40,875 --> 01:28:41,708
- Thanks a lot.
- 1562
- 01:28:42,833 --> 01:28:44,208
- I didn't mean it like that.
- 1563
- 01:28:46,125 --> 01:28:47,333
- I love the way you look.
- 1564
- 01:28:47,416 --> 01:28:50,166
- You... you have a kindness,
- and of course you're very attractive.
- 1565
- 01:28:50,250 --> 01:28:52,916
- - I didn't mean it like that.
- - It's OK. I understand.
- 1566
- 01:28:54,000 --> 01:28:54,833
- It's, uh...
- 1567
- 01:28:55,541 --> 01:28:56,750
- It's just, there seem...
- 1568
- 01:28:57,250 --> 01:28:58,166
- seems to be a...
- 1569
- 01:28:58,708 --> 01:29:02,041
- certain hardness that comes
- with a certain kind of pretty.
- 1570
- 01:29:02,125 --> 01:29:03,000
- You don't have that.
- 1571
- 01:29:03,541 --> 01:29:06,625
- Maybe they suffer too, the pretty ones.
- I don't know, maybe...
- 1572
- 01:29:07,375 --> 01:29:09,666
- maybe their prettiness
- causes them suffering.
- 1573
- 01:29:10,791 --> 01:29:12,166
- I'm not a psychiatrist.
- 1574
- 01:29:12,666 --> 01:29:16,458
- What an odd thing to say.
- Of course she's not a psychiatrist.
- 1575
- 01:29:16,541 --> 01:29:18,083
- She can't be more than 15.
- 1576
- 01:29:18,166 --> 01:29:20,333
- Made them extra high,
- since you're so nice.
- 1577
- 01:29:21,000 --> 01:29:21,875
- Thanks.
- 1578
- 01:29:22,375 --> 01:29:24,083
- It'll be eight dollars, please?
- 1579
- 01:29:24,791 --> 01:29:25,791
- Jake?
- 1580
- 01:29:36,291 --> 01:29:37,125
- Keep the change.
- 1581
- 01:29:38,291 --> 01:29:40,291
- - Thank you.
- - You're welcome. Thanks.
- 1582
- 01:29:40,375 --> 01:29:41,208
- I'm worried.
- 1583
- 01:29:43,500 --> 01:29:44,333
- Excuse me?
- 1584
- 01:29:44,750 --> 01:29:46,083
- I shouldn't be saying this.
- 1585
- 01:29:46,166 --> 01:29:48,416
- You OK? Do you need me to call for help?
- 1586
- 01:29:48,500 --> 01:29:49,833
- It's not varnish.
- 1587
- 01:29:51,750 --> 01:29:53,750
- That's not why it smells.
- You should know that.
- 1588
- 01:29:53,833 --> 01:29:54,666
- What do you mean?
- 1589
- 01:29:55,208 --> 01:29:57,458
- - You don't have to go.
- - I don't have to go where?
- 1590
- 01:29:57,916 --> 01:30:00,333
- Forward, in time. You...
- 1591
- 01:30:01,458 --> 01:30:02,541
- you can stay here.
- 1592
- 01:30:05,083 --> 01:30:06,083
- I'm very scared.
- 1593
- 01:30:06,166 --> 01:30:08,041
- About what? What are you scared about?
- 1594
- 01:30:08,125 --> 01:30:10,000
- - I'm scared for you.
- - Thank you.
- 1595
- 01:30:12,375 --> 01:30:14,708
- Have a good night. Be careful.
- The roads are treacherous.
- 1596
- 01:30:40,750 --> 01:30:42,458
- You notice that girl's arms?
- 1597
- 01:30:42,541 --> 01:30:44,583
- - Which girl?
- - In the Tulsey Town.
- 1598
- 01:30:45,916 --> 01:30:48,416
- Which girl? There were... several.
- 1599
- 01:30:48,500 --> 01:30:50,541
- Several? There were three.
- 1600
- 01:30:50,625 --> 01:30:52,791
- Several is anything more than two.
- 1601
- 01:30:52,875 --> 01:30:53,750
- Really?
- 1602
- 01:30:53,833 --> 01:30:55,250
- Mm-hmm. Look it up.
- 1603
- 01:30:55,333 --> 01:30:57,375
- Look it up?
- Can you stop saying that?
- 1604
- 01:30:59,166 --> 01:31:02,125
- Anyway, the one... the one with the rash
- all over her arms.
- 1605
- 01:31:02,208 --> 01:31:03,416
- I didn't notice.
- 1606
- 01:31:03,500 --> 01:31:05,000
- You're being willfully obtuse.
- 1607
- 01:31:06,958 --> 01:31:08,250
- Not my intention.
- 1608
- 01:31:08,333 --> 01:31:09,958
- "Not my intention."
- 1609
- 01:31:11,541 --> 01:31:12,375
- Anyway.
- 1610
- 01:31:17,916 --> 01:31:19,666
- How's the Brrr?
- 1611
- 01:31:20,208 --> 01:31:21,833
- - Too sweet?
- - Yeah, it's sweet.
- 1612
- 01:31:21,916 --> 01:31:23,833
- I always forget how sweet these are.
- 1613
- 01:31:23,916 --> 01:31:26,125
- A little goes a long way.
- 1614
- 01:31:27,500 --> 01:31:29,500
- I don't think I can eat anymore of mine.
- 1615
- 01:31:29,958 --> 01:31:31,166
- You barely touched it.
- 1616
- 01:31:32,333 --> 01:31:34,625
- It's very sweet.
- 1617
- 01:31:35,625 --> 01:31:36,458
- Yeah.
- 1618
- 01:31:37,375 --> 01:31:38,291
- It is a lot.
- 1619
- 01:31:42,625 --> 01:31:45,250
- - Cold?
- - Yeah. The ice cream, I guess.
- 1620
- 01:31:48,666 --> 01:31:51,000
- We're in the middle of a snow storm.
- 1621
- 01:31:52,291 --> 01:31:55,833
- Whose idea was it to go to Tulsey Town
- in the middle of all this, anyway?
- 1622
- 01:31:55,916 --> 01:31:58,125
- I am not saying a word.
- 1623
- 01:32:03,333 --> 01:32:04,500
- How odd.
- 1624
- 01:32:05,041 --> 01:32:08,166
- This is probably the last time
- I'll ever be in a car with Jake.
- 1625
- 01:32:08,750 --> 01:32:10,708
- Soon this'll all be a distant memory.
- 1626
- 01:32:11,500 --> 01:32:13,958
- We'll both be in different places,
- 1627
- 01:32:14,041 --> 01:32:15,458
- remembering this moment.
- 1628
- 01:32:16,333 --> 01:32:17,625
- This shared laugh.
- 1629
- 01:32:18,125 --> 01:32:19,708
- And maybe there'll be regret.
- 1630
- 01:32:23,750 --> 01:32:26,166
- Maybe time will soften
- the harder edges, and...
- 1631
- 01:32:26,791 --> 01:32:29,958
- we'll both think that was sort of nice.
- 1632
- 01:32:31,625 --> 01:32:34,708
- Why did it have to end?
- And there's no way back at that point.
- 1633
- 01:32:35,666 --> 01:32:37,833
- There's never a way back.
- 1634
- 01:32:37,916 --> 01:32:41,125
- - You got quiet all of a sudden.
- - Just watching the storm.
- 1635
- 01:32:42,291 --> 01:32:45,458
- If you can't even tell the other person
- what you're thinking,
- 1636
- 01:32:45,541 --> 01:32:48,000
- - that doesn't bode well.
- - Looks like you're done with it.
- 1637
- 01:32:49,125 --> 01:32:49,958
- What do you mean?
- 1638
- 01:32:54,041 --> 01:32:56,291
- Bit of a wasted stop.
- 1639
- 01:32:56,375 --> 01:33:00,000
- At least I can say I've been
- to Tulsey Town in the middle of the night,
- 1640
- 01:33:00,083 --> 01:33:02,791
- in the middle of nowhere,
- in the middle of a snowstorm.
- 1641
- 01:33:34,875 --> 01:33:37,041
- That's something I'll never do again.
- 1642
- 01:33:37,125 --> 01:33:39,375
- A supposedly fun thing
- you'll never do again.
- 1643
- 01:33:39,458 --> 01:33:41,416
- - Yes.
- - Have you... have you read that?
- 1644
- 01:33:41,500 --> 01:33:42,375
- Read what?
- 1645
- 01:33:43,541 --> 01:33:45,916
- It's a book of essays
- by David Foster Wallace.
- 1646
- 01:33:47,416 --> 01:33:48,875
- Nope. I have not.
- 1647
- 01:33:50,791 --> 01:33:52,791
- It's a book... a book of essays.
- 1648
- 01:33:52,875 --> 01:33:54,541
- Ah. No, I haven't read it.
- 1649
- 01:33:58,000 --> 01:34:00,583
- We should... we should find some place
- to dump these.
- 1650
- 01:34:00,666 --> 01:34:04,083
- They're going to melt
- and get the cup holders all sticky.
- 1651
- 01:34:04,166 --> 01:34:05,083
- Hmm.
- 1652
- 01:34:05,541 --> 01:34:06,375
- OK.
- 1653
- 01:34:08,916 --> 01:34:09,750
- Hmm.
- 1654
- 01:34:10,791 --> 01:34:13,500
- He's got this essay in it
- about television.
- 1655
- 01:34:14,958 --> 01:34:16,708
- Pretty people tend to appeal...
- 1656
- 01:34:21,083 --> 01:34:25,000
- Pretty people tend to be
- more pleasing to look at
- 1657
- 01:34:25,708 --> 01:34:27,041
- than non-pretty people.
- 1658
- 01:34:27,125 --> 01:34:28,916
- But when we're talking about television,
- 1659
- 01:34:29,000 --> 01:34:32,625
- the combination of sheer audience size
- and quiet psychic intercourse
- 1660
- 01:34:32,708 --> 01:34:34,208
- between images and oglers
- 1661
- 01:34:34,291 --> 01:34:37,750
- starts a cycle that both enhances
- pretty images' appeal
- 1662
- 01:34:37,833 --> 01:34:40,833
- and erodes us viewers'
- own sense of security
- 1663
- 01:34:40,916 --> 01:34:42,833
- in the face of gazes.
- 1664
- 01:34:44,750 --> 01:34:47,333
- That... that's from the essay.
- 1665
- 01:34:48,416 --> 01:34:49,250
- That's...
- 1666
- 01:34:49,583 --> 01:34:50,625
- that's interesting.
- 1667
- 01:34:51,291 --> 01:34:52,125
- He killed himself.
- 1668
- 01:34:52,916 --> 01:34:55,000
- Yeah. Yeah, I-I think I knew that.
- 1669
- 01:34:55,083 --> 01:34:56,708
- Yeah, everybody knows it.
- 1670
- 01:34:56,791 --> 01:35:00,250
- Even people who know nothing else
- about David Foster Wallace,
- 1671
- 01:35:00,333 --> 01:35:02,000
- never read a word of his writing.
- 1672
- 01:35:02,916 --> 01:35:05,666
- Suicide becomes the story.
- 1673
- 01:35:06,708 --> 01:35:07,833
- The mythology.
- 1674
- 01:35:08,916 --> 01:35:12,000
- The cautionary tale. It's obnoxious.
- 1675
- 01:35:13,458 --> 01:35:14,750
- It's obnoxious.
- 1676
- 01:35:15,375 --> 01:35:18,583
- I don't think we know how
- to be human anymore.
- 1677
- 01:35:19,291 --> 01:35:20,125
- Who doesn't?
- 1678
- 01:35:20,208 --> 01:35:23,333
- Our society, our culture, people.
- 1679
- 01:35:24,666 --> 01:35:27,333
- Whatever all this is.
- 1680
- 01:35:28,291 --> 01:35:29,250
- Any of us.
- 1681
- 01:35:32,041 --> 01:35:34,708
- Well, have you ever read
- any Guy Debord?
- 1682
- 01:35:37,166 --> 01:35:39,875
- - The Society of the Spectacle?
- - Exactly. Yes.
- 1683
- 01:35:40,375 --> 01:35:41,750
- Yes. Of course.
- 1684
- 01:35:42,625 --> 01:35:43,750
- Debord says...
- 1685
- 01:35:44,958 --> 01:35:48,250
- "The spectacle cannot be understood
- as a mere visual deception
- 1686
- 01:35:48,666 --> 01:35:50,791
- produced by mass media technologies.
- 1687
- 01:35:52,166 --> 01:35:54,250
- It is a worldview
- that has actually been materialized."
- 1688
- 01:35:54,333 --> 01:35:57,708
- Watch the world through this glass,
- 1689
- 01:35:58,250 --> 01:35:59,875
- pre-interpreted for us.
- 1690
- 01:35:59,958 --> 01:36:03,000
- And it infects our brains. We become it.
- 1691
- 01:36:03,833 --> 01:36:05,125
- Like a virus.
- 1692
- 01:36:13,208 --> 01:36:17,666
- Listen, these... these melting things
- are... are driving me crazy.
- 1693
- 01:36:17,750 --> 01:36:20,583
- They're going to get
- everything all sticky.
- 1694
- 01:36:20,666 --> 01:36:23,208
- Well, have you got a plastic bag
- or something?
- 1695
- 01:36:23,291 --> 01:36:25,208
- - No, no, nothing like that.
- - A napkin maybe?
- 1696
- 01:36:25,291 --> 01:36:27,333
- I want to find a place to dump them.
- 1697
- 01:36:27,875 --> 01:36:30,291
- Well, there doesn't seem
- to be anything around here.
- 1698
- 01:36:31,291 --> 01:36:35,208
- There's a small road
- up ahead of us that I know of.
- 1699
- 01:36:36,208 --> 01:36:38,750
- - There'll... there'll be a garbage can.
- - I don't know.
- 1700
- 01:36:38,833 --> 01:36:40,833
- May... maybe we should just head home.
- 1701
- 01:36:43,791 --> 01:36:44,666
- To the farm?
- 1702
- 01:36:44,750 --> 01:36:46,500
- No. To the city.
- 1703
- 01:36:47,208 --> 01:36:48,916
- I'm worried
- we're gonna get stuck out here.
- 1704
- 01:36:49,000 --> 01:36:51,833
- If we turn off the main road
- and get stuck, no one's gonna find us.
- 1705
- 01:36:51,916 --> 01:36:53,125
- It's not...
- 1706
- 01:36:53,208 --> 01:36:56,041
- I'm not going to feel right if I don't
- 1707
- 01:36:56,125 --> 01:36:58,416
- get rid of these. It'll prey on my mind.
- 1708
- 01:36:58,500 --> 01:36:59,833
- OK? Shit.
- 1709
- 01:37:00,333 --> 01:37:01,166
- Shit.
- 1710
- 01:37:01,625 --> 01:37:04,541
- Hey, hey! It's not... it's... it's not...
- 1711
- 01:37:04,625 --> 01:37:05,458
- it's...
- 1712
- 01:37:05,791 --> 01:37:07,125
- it's not a big deal.
- 1713
- 01:37:07,625 --> 01:37:08,458
- Really.
- 1714
- 01:37:10,166 --> 01:37:12,208
- I know that, Ames.
- 1715
- 01:37:12,916 --> 01:37:14,583
- - Ames?
- - I know that.
- 1716
- 01:37:15,458 --> 01:37:17,291
- Is that short for Amy?
- 1717
- 01:37:18,125 --> 01:37:19,375
- That doesn't sound right.
- 1718
- 01:37:20,208 --> 01:37:21,791
- That doesn't seem like my name.
- 1719
- 01:37:22,250 --> 01:37:23,375
- Or my nickname.
- 1720
- 01:37:23,458 --> 01:37:25,000
- Let's go here, real quick.
- 1721
- 01:37:28,333 --> 01:37:29,958
- And I'll get to show you my high school.
- 1722
- 01:37:30,833 --> 01:37:31,666
- This...
- 1723
- 01:37:32,083 --> 01:37:33,333
- this goes to a high school?
- 1724
- 01:37:33,416 --> 01:37:37,541
- My high school,
- where I spent every tortured day.
- 1725
- 01:37:37,625 --> 01:37:38,875
- For so long.
- 1726
- 01:37:39,375 --> 01:37:42,416
- For so goddamn... long.
- 1727
- 01:37:42,500 --> 01:37:45,458
- Can we just turn around?
- This doesn't feel right.
- 1728
- 01:37:46,083 --> 01:37:48,208
- I don't understand.
- It's just a... a high school.
- 1729
- 01:37:48,291 --> 01:37:50,291
- - It feels wrong.
- - I can't turn around.
- 1730
- 01:37:50,375 --> 01:37:51,541
- The road is too narrow.
- 1731
- 01:37:52,083 --> 01:37:57,083
- I'll just get to the school,
- we'll dump the cups, and we'll leave.
- 1732
- 01:37:57,166 --> 01:37:58,625
- -OK-No, I-I-I don't...
- 1733
- 01:37:58,708 --> 01:38:00,333
- I don't know what this is.
- 1734
- 01:38:00,416 --> 01:38:03,916
- It doesn't make any sense to me.
- How do school buses get down here?
- 1735
- 01:38:04,000 --> 01:38:05,791
- It's a rural high school.
- 1736
- 01:38:05,875 --> 01:38:08,833
- Yeah, I went... I grew up on a farm.
- I went to a rural high school.
- 1737
- 01:38:08,916 --> 01:38:10,916
- We... There was a... there was a...
- 1738
- 01:38:11,000 --> 01:38:14,375
- ...a normal entrance
- with a paved fucking road.
- 1739
- 01:38:14,458 --> 01:38:17,041
- It's fine. Everything is tinged.
- 1740
- 01:38:17,958 --> 01:38:21,333
- OK? That's the thing
- you have to realize.
- 1741
- 01:38:21,416 --> 01:38:24,833
- - It's tinged?
- - Colored by mood, by emotion,
- 1742
- 01:38:24,916 --> 01:38:26,416
- by past experience.
- 1743
- 01:38:26,500 --> 01:38:29,750
- There is no objective reality.
- 1744
- 01:38:30,333 --> 01:38:33,291
- You know there's no color
- in the universe, right?
- 1745
- 01:38:33,375 --> 01:38:36,041
- Only in the brain.
- 1746
- 01:38:36,125 --> 01:38:39,375
- Just electromagnetic frequencies,
- the brain tinges them.
- 1747
- 01:38:39,458 --> 01:38:42,250
- Yes, I am a physicist.
- I know what color is.
- 1748
- 01:38:42,333 --> 01:38:44,000
- Yes, yes. Yes, you are.
- 1749
- 01:38:45,250 --> 01:38:46,166
- You do.
- 1750
- 01:38:46,250 --> 01:38:47,958
- Color is the deeds of light.
- 1751
- 01:38:50,375 --> 01:38:52,125
- It's the deeds and suffering.
- 1752
- 01:38:54,083 --> 01:38:55,125
- That's beautiful.
- 1753
- 01:38:58,666 --> 01:39:00,958
- It's not physicist talk,
- 1754
- 01:39:02,375 --> 01:39:04,958
- but eminently poetic.
- 1755
- 01:39:05,291 --> 01:39:07,625
- Yeah, well, I am a poet after all.
- 1756
- 01:39:07,708 --> 01:39:09,375
- You are. It's beautiful.
- 1757
- 01:39:09,458 --> 01:39:12,416
- - This road seems excessively long.
- - Seems.
- 1758
- 01:39:12,500 --> 01:39:13,916
- That's the operative word.
- 1759
- 01:39:14,000 --> 01:39:16,916
- Time is another thing
- that exists only in the brain.
- 1760
- 01:39:17,000 --> 01:39:20,083
- - And yet we get older.
- - Older and older, older and older.
- 1761
- 01:39:20,791 --> 01:39:23,166
- Or so it seems.
- 1762
- 01:39:23,625 --> 01:39:24,833
- Sometimes I feel...
- 1763
- 01:39:25,666 --> 01:39:27,625
- I'm much younger
- 1764
- 01:39:28,291 --> 01:39:31,166
- than I actually am,
- like still a kid inside,
- 1765
- 01:39:31,250 --> 01:39:33,291
- until I pass a mirror.
- 1766
- 01:39:33,375 --> 01:39:35,625
- - Is younger better?
- - Yes.
- 1767
- 01:39:36,208 --> 01:39:39,375
- I think so. It's admirable.
- 1768
- 01:39:40,250 --> 01:39:41,916
- Youth is admirable?
- 1769
- 01:39:44,041 --> 01:39:46,458
- How can you admire a person for their age?
- 1770
- 01:39:46,833 --> 01:39:49,583
- It's like admiring a certain point
- in a stream.
- 1771
- 01:39:51,000 --> 01:39:52,458
- It's healthier,
- 1772
- 01:39:53,083 --> 01:39:54,208
- it's brighter,
- 1773
- 01:39:55,250 --> 01:39:56,583
- it's more fun.
- 1774
- 01:39:57,333 --> 01:39:59,166
- More attractive, hopeful.
- 1775
- 01:40:00,125 --> 01:40:01,708
- Like a Coca-Cola commercial.
- 1776
- 01:40:01,791 --> 01:40:03,875
- Almost all groundbreaking work
- 1777
- 01:40:04,833 --> 01:40:07,791
- in science and the arts
- is done by young people.
- 1778
- 01:40:07,875 --> 01:40:10,125
- Old people are the ash heap of youth.
- 1779
- 01:40:10,208 --> 01:40:12,375
- Listen, Jake,
- I-I'm thinking that we need to...
- 1780
- 01:40:12,458 --> 01:40:13,500
- Ta-da!
- 1781
- 01:40:15,500 --> 01:40:18,083
- Wow.
- I didn't expect anything so enormous.
- 1782
- 01:40:18,166 --> 01:40:20,500
- One hundred and thirty classrooms,
- 1783
- 01:40:20,583 --> 01:40:24,041
- a gymnasium, two locker rooms,
- boys, girls,
- 1784
- 01:40:24,125 --> 01:40:27,708
- auditorium, ten bathrooms,
- six administrative offices,
- 1785
- 01:40:28,375 --> 01:40:29,458
- teachers' lounge,
- 1786
- 01:40:30,291 --> 01:40:31,333
- counselor's center.
- 1787
- 01:40:31,416 --> 01:40:34,333
- It's regional, so 11 towns feed into it.
- 1788
- 01:40:35,125 --> 01:40:36,750
- Well, you certainly know your high school.
- 1789
- 01:40:36,833 --> 01:40:38,166
- Like the back of my hand.
- 1790
- 01:40:45,166 --> 01:40:47,375
- - There's someone here.
- - School maintenance?
- 1791
- 01:40:47,458 --> 01:40:48,958
- Janitor? Something.
- 1792
- 01:40:49,458 --> 01:40:50,291
- Ah.
- 1793
- 01:40:50,375 --> 01:40:51,416
- What?
- 1794
- 01:40:51,500 --> 01:40:52,333
- There.
- 1795
- 01:40:52,666 --> 01:40:54,833
- Trash can. I knew it. Be right back.
- 1796
- 01:41:24,958 --> 01:41:26,125
- Come on!
- 1797
- 01:41:26,833 --> 01:41:27,750
- Good. Yes, yes!
- 1798
- 01:41:31,000 --> 01:41:31,916
- Where were you?
- 1799
- 01:41:32,000 --> 01:41:35,750
- That bin was filled with road salt
- for the...
- 1800
- 01:41:36,500 --> 01:41:37,333
- ice.
- 1801
- 01:41:37,750 --> 01:41:39,000
- I remembered there's a...
- 1802
- 01:41:39,375 --> 01:41:42,083
- a dumpster on the other side
- near the loading docks.
- 1803
- 01:41:42,541 --> 01:41:44,250
- - Mission accomplished.
- - Let's go.
- 1804
- 01:41:44,333 --> 01:41:45,333
- It's humid in here.
- 1805
- 01:41:52,083 --> 01:41:53,083
- Kind of peaceful.
- 1806
- 01:41:53,166 --> 01:41:55,375
- More creepy than peaceful, I'd say.
- 1807
- 01:41:55,458 --> 01:41:56,958
- - I don't agree.
- - I want to go.
- 1808
- 01:41:57,041 --> 01:41:59,041
- - What's the rush all of a sudden?
- - All of the sudden?
- 1809
- 01:41:59,125 --> 01:42:03,083
- I've been like a broken record all night,
- telling you that I wanted to go home.
- 1810
- 01:42:03,166 --> 01:42:07,625
- I've given you like 40 reasons
- why I need to get back tonight.
- 1811
- 01:42:14,708 --> 01:42:16,416
- - I guess that's true.
- - You guess?
- 1812
- 01:42:19,166 --> 01:42:20,541
- I just thought...
- 1813
- 01:42:20,625 --> 01:42:21,500
- You know.
- 1814
- 01:42:23,875 --> 01:42:26,208
- It's peaceful and quiet here.
- 1815
- 01:42:29,750 --> 01:42:31,291
- Baby, it's cold outside.
- 1816
- 01:42:32,208 --> 01:42:33,041
- Really?
- 1817
- 01:42:35,541 --> 01:42:37,416
- You're gonna quote a rape song at me?
- 1818
- 01:42:39,166 --> 01:42:40,083
- It's not a...
- 1819
- 01:42:40,625 --> 01:42:41,750
- it's not a rape song.
- 1820
- 01:42:41,833 --> 01:42:44,375
- She keeps saying she wants to leave.
- He keeps ignoring her.
- 1821
- 01:42:44,458 --> 01:42:45,708
- What would you call that?
- 1822
- 01:42:47,583 --> 01:42:50,875
- She wants to stay. She's just afraid
- of what people will think.
- 1823
- 01:42:50,958 --> 01:42:53,833
- She asks him, "What have you put
- in my damn drink?"
- 1824
- 01:42:54,208 --> 01:42:57,875
- Jesus. The song was written in 1936.
- 1825
- 01:42:57,958 --> 01:43:00,166
- It's not about roofies!
- 1826
- 01:43:00,250 --> 01:43:03,416
- Roofies or not, he's trying to break down
- her defenses with strong liquor.
- 1827
- 01:43:03,500 --> 01:43:05,750
- And anyway, they had mickeys in the '30s.
- 1828
- 01:43:05,833 --> 01:43:07,291
- It's a song about coercion.
- 1829
- 01:43:09,666 --> 01:43:11,750
- I don't know why you're getting so angry.
- 1830
- 01:43:11,833 --> 01:43:12,875
- I just want to go home.
- 1831
- 01:43:12,958 --> 01:43:15,625
- - To the farmhouse?
- - Not to the fucking farmhouse,
- 1832
- 01:43:15,708 --> 01:43:16,875
- to my house!
- 1833
- 01:43:17,416 --> 01:43:18,916
- Jake, my house!
- 1834
- 01:43:19,000 --> 01:43:20,250
- OK.
- 1835
- 01:43:20,333 --> 01:43:22,208
- Thank you.
- 1836
- 01:43:22,291 --> 01:43:24,916
- And then... and then he says,
- "what's the point in hurting my pride,"
- 1837
- 01:43:25,000 --> 01:43:27,666
- like it's her job to make this guy
- feel sexually attractive.
- 1838
- 01:43:27,750 --> 01:43:29,666
- Regardless of her own desires,
- like that's...
- 1839
- 01:43:29,750 --> 01:43:31,291
- like that's her responsibility.
- 1840
- 01:43:31,375 --> 01:43:32,416
- I see that.
- 1841
- 01:43:34,541 --> 01:43:36,583
- You have convinced me. I'm sorry.
- 1842
- 01:43:48,958 --> 01:43:50,000
- I'm sorry.
- 1843
- 01:43:53,125 --> 01:43:54,041
- It's all right.
- 1844
- 01:44:14,250 --> 01:44:15,416
- Jesus.
- 1845
- 01:44:15,500 --> 01:44:16,708
- What? What?
- 1846
- 01:44:17,875 --> 01:44:19,333
- There was someone watching us.
- 1847
- 01:44:19,416 --> 01:44:21,541
- - I didn't see anyone.
- - Well, he was watching us.
- 1848
- 01:44:21,625 --> 01:44:23,083
- Like... like a goddamn pervert.
- 1849
- 01:44:23,166 --> 01:44:25,250
- - Let's go.
- - Believe me, I'm very familiar
- 1850
- 01:44:25,333 --> 01:44:26,708
- with that particular look.
- 1851
- 01:44:26,791 --> 01:44:29,458
- Jake, I just...
- What the hell does that mean?
- 1852
- 01:44:29,541 --> 01:44:31,166
- I'm going to give him a piece of my mind.
- 1853
- 01:44:31,250 --> 01:44:33,166
- - Jake, don't be ridiculous.
- - It's not acceptable.
- 1854
- 01:44:33,250 --> 01:44:35,041
- - Jake, let's just go.
- - No.
- 1855
- 01:44:35,125 --> 01:44:38,375
- - You don't...
- - I'll be right back. This...
- 1856
- 01:44:41,791 --> 01:44:42,625
- It...
- 1857
- 01:44:42,708 --> 01:44:44,875
- - It's unacceptable!
- - Let's go! Jake, let's just go!
- 1858
- 01:44:44,958 --> 01:44:47,625
- - I'll be right back.
- - Don't! Jake! Don't, please!
- 1859
- 01:44:50,166 --> 01:44:51,000
- Jake!
- 1860
- 01:44:53,083 --> 01:44:54,166
- Crap!
- 1861
- 01:44:57,791 --> 01:44:59,666
- Oh, I shouldn't have come.
- I shouldn't have come.
- 1862
- 01:45:02,375 --> 01:45:04,125
- Aah, fuck!
- 1863
- 01:45:10,208 --> 01:45:12,791
- It's hard to say no.
- I was never taught that.
- 1864
- 01:45:13,958 --> 01:45:15,625
- It's easier just to say yes.
- 1865
- 01:45:16,916 --> 01:45:18,708
- Anyway, sometimes
- you're just caught off guard.
- 1866
- 01:45:18,791 --> 01:45:20,958
- And the request comes,
- can I have your number?
- 1867
- 01:45:21,041 --> 01:45:22,916
- And the easiest way out of it
- is just to say yes,
- 1868
- 01:45:23,000 --> 01:45:25,916
- and then that yes turns into more yes,
- and then it's yes, yes, yes.
- 1869
- 01:45:39,625 --> 01:45:41,166
- He's not a monster, he...
- 1870
- 01:45:46,666 --> 01:45:47,500
- Jake?
- 1871
- 01:45:58,083 --> 01:45:59,250
- He doesn't beat you.
- 1872
- 01:46:00,208 --> 01:46:01,041
- Right?
- 1873
- 01:46:03,000 --> 01:46:04,875
- I'm certain the sex has been good.
- 1874
- 01:46:04,958 --> 01:46:06,333
- At least some of the time.
- 1875
- 01:46:06,791 --> 01:46:07,625
- Just...
- 1876
- 01:46:09,458 --> 01:46:11,750
- How long does it take to get hypothermia?
- 1877
- 01:46:12,958 --> 01:46:13,791
- Eh...
- 1878
- 01:46:15,291 --> 01:46:17,875
- Maybe it's not a bad way to go
- if I have to go.
- 1879
- 01:46:34,083 --> 01:46:34,916
- Jake?
- 1880
- 01:46:36,541 --> 01:46:37,375
- Jake?
- 1881
- 01:46:40,000 --> 01:46:41,166
- Jake!
- 1882
- 01:46:42,375 --> 01:46:45,333
- Shit, shit, shit!
- 1883
- 01:46:46,875 --> 01:46:48,083
- Oh, my God.
- 1884
- 01:46:49,500 --> 01:46:51,291
- Piece of shit! Shit!
- 1885
- 01:46:52,000 --> 01:46:53,416
- Shit, shit!
- 1886
- 01:46:59,458 --> 01:47:00,333
- Oh, God.
- 1887
- 01:48:21,625 --> 01:48:22,458
- Jake?
- 1888
- 01:48:26,750 --> 01:48:29,166
- Jake, I wanna go. Please?
- 1889
- 01:49:01,791 --> 01:49:02,791
- Ah.
- 1890
- 01:49:19,833 --> 01:49:20,666
- Oh...
- 1891
- 01:49:21,750 --> 01:49:22,583
- Hello.
- 1892
- 01:49:24,208 --> 01:49:25,083
- Hello.
- 1893
- 01:49:26,208 --> 01:49:28,041
- I'm sorry. M-My...
- 1894
- 01:49:28,125 --> 01:49:29,333
- My boyfriend came in here.
- 1895
- 01:49:29,416 --> 01:49:32,000
- I think he went to school here
- a while back.
- 1896
- 01:49:34,833 --> 01:49:36,791
- Maybe you know him, I.. I... I don't...
- 1897
- 01:49:36,875 --> 01:49:39,208
- I don't... I don't know
- if you were here when...
- 1898
- 01:49:39,291 --> 01:49:40,666
- when he was a student.
- 1899
- 01:49:40,750 --> 01:49:43,041
- I mean, how would I know? Anyway, I...
- 1900
- 01:49:43,500 --> 01:49:45,750
- You haven't seen anyone around here,
- have you?
- 1901
- 01:49:47,083 --> 01:49:49,166
- What does your boyfriend
- look like?
- 1902
- 01:49:53,916 --> 01:49:55,625
- It's hard to describe people.
- 1903
- 01:50:00,041 --> 01:50:02,583
- It was so long ago, I barely remember.
- 1904
- 01:50:03,791 --> 01:50:04,625
- I mean...
- 1905
- 01:50:07,833 --> 01:50:09,125
- We never even talked,
- 1906
- 01:50:09,666 --> 01:50:12,958
- is the truth. I'm not even sure
- I registered him. There's a lot of people.
- 1907
- 01:50:13,041 --> 01:50:14,708
- I was there with my girlfriend...
- 1908
- 01:50:15,208 --> 01:50:16,791
- We were celebrating our anniversary,
- 1909
- 01:50:16,875 --> 01:50:18,875
- stopped in for a drink,
- and then this guy
- 1910
- 01:50:19,208 --> 01:50:20,375
- kept looking at me.
- 1911
- 01:50:20,875 --> 01:50:22,125
- It's a nuisance.
- 1912
- 01:50:22,541 --> 01:50:25,000
- The occupational hazard of...
- of being a female.
- 1913
- 01:50:25,083 --> 01:50:27,416
- You can't even go for a drink.
- Always being looked at.
- 1914
- 01:50:27,500 --> 01:50:29,500
- He was a creeper! You know?
- 1915
- 01:50:31,541 --> 01:50:34,750
- And I remember thinking,
- I wish my boyfriend was here.
- 1916
- 01:50:35,416 --> 01:50:36,583
- Which is...
- 1917
- 01:50:36,666 --> 01:50:37,625
- That's sort of sad,
- 1918
- 01:50:37,708 --> 01:50:40,500
- that being a woman,
- the only way a guy leaves you alone
- 1919
- 01:50:40,583 --> 01:50:42,000
- is if you're with another guy.
- 1920
- 01:50:42,083 --> 01:50:43,083
- Like, if... like...
- 1921
- 01:50:43,166 --> 01:50:45,541
- like you've been claimed.
- Like you're property, even then.
- 1922
- 01:50:45,625 --> 01:50:46,708
- Anyway, I can't...
- 1923
- 01:50:48,083 --> 01:50:50,125
- I can't remember what he looks like.
- 1924
- 01:50:52,000 --> 01:50:53,000
- Why would I?
- 1925
- 01:50:54,958 --> 01:50:56,125
- Nothing happened.
- 1926
- 01:50:58,208 --> 01:50:59,250
- Maybe it was just...
- 1927
- 01:51:00,958 --> 01:51:02,083
- I think it was just...
- 1928
- 01:51:02,458 --> 01:51:07,041
- Just one of thousands
- of such non-interactions in my life.
- 1929
- 01:51:15,500 --> 01:51:18,958
- It's like asking me to describe
- a mosquito that bit me
- 1930
- 01:51:19,041 --> 01:51:21,000
- on an evening 40 years ago.
- 1931
- 01:51:28,416 --> 01:51:31,625
- Well, you haven't seen anyone
- fitting that description, have you?
- 1932
- 01:51:31,708 --> 01:51:32,958
- I haven't seen anyone.
- 1933
- 01:51:35,291 --> 01:51:36,250
- OK.
- 1934
- 01:51:37,000 --> 01:51:37,833
- I mean...
- 1935
- 01:51:38,500 --> 01:51:40,041
- except you. I see you.
- 1936
- 01:51:50,375 --> 01:51:51,250
- I'm... I'm...
- 1937
- 01:51:52,666 --> 01:51:54,291
- I'm a little worried about him.
- 1938
- 01:51:55,833 --> 01:51:57,791
- I'm sure there's no need.
- 1939
- 01:51:59,583 --> 01:52:01,208
- He's safe if he's here.
- 1940
- 01:52:02,333 --> 01:52:03,541
- It's safe in here.
- 1941
- 01:52:04,583 --> 01:52:05,750
- It's quiet.
- 1942
- 01:52:26,708 --> 01:52:28,791
- Is it OK if I look around for him?
- 1943
- 01:52:33,791 --> 01:52:36,916
- Maybe take your wet shoes off.
- I've just cleaned the floors.
- 1944
- 01:52:44,541 --> 01:52:45,375
- No...
- 1945
- 01:52:46,666 --> 01:52:47,708
- They're yours.
- 1946
- 01:53:08,583 --> 01:53:09,416
- Bye.
- 1947
- 01:53:10,625 --> 01:53:11,458
- Yeah.
- 1948
- 01:53:12,333 --> 01:53:13,166
- Bye.
- 1949
- 01:53:30,416 --> 01:53:31,250
- Jake?
- 1950
- 01:53:34,708 --> 01:53:35,583
- Jake?
- 1951
- 01:53:37,333 --> 01:53:38,166
- Jake?
- 1952
- 02:00:36,875 --> 02:00:37,708
- Ah.
- 1953
- 02:01:41,958 --> 02:01:42,791
- Ah!
- 1954
- 02:01:50,916 --> 02:01:51,750
- Aah!
- 1955
- 02:02:53,583 --> 02:02:54,708
- - Oh.
- - Come.
- 1956
- 02:02:56,041 --> 02:02:56,875
- Join me.
- 1957
- 02:03:18,333 --> 02:03:20,833
- It's not bad once you stop
- feeling sorry for yourself
- 1958
- 02:03:20,916 --> 02:03:22,250
- because you're just a pig,
- 1959
- 02:03:22,666 --> 02:03:25,791
- or, even worse,
- a pig infested with maggots.
- 1960
- 02:03:25,875 --> 02:03:28,500
- Someone has to be
- a pig infested with maggots, right?
- 1961
- 02:03:29,166 --> 02:03:31,791
- It might as well be you.
- It's the luck of the draw.
- 1962
- 02:03:32,083 --> 02:03:35,791
- You play the hand you're dealt.
- You make lemonade. You... you move on.
- 1963
- 02:03:35,875 --> 02:03:37,208
- You don't worry about a thing.
- 1964
- 02:03:37,291 --> 02:03:40,500
- - That song has always made me cry.
- - I've always loved it.
- 1965
- 02:03:40,583 --> 02:03:44,375
- There is kindness in the world, you know?
- You have to search for it, but it's there.
- 1966
- 02:03:44,458 --> 02:03:46,625
- - You're kind.
- - Eh, I'm just evolving.
- 1967
- 02:03:46,708 --> 02:03:49,958
- Even now, even as a ghost, as a memory.
- 1968
- 02:03:50,041 --> 02:03:51,375
- As dust, as you will.
- 1969
- 02:03:51,458 --> 02:03:52,333
- We're the same.
- 1970
- 02:03:52,416 --> 02:03:54,875
- Everything is the same
- when you look close enough.
- 1971
- 02:03:55,208 --> 02:03:56,833
- As a physicist, you know that.
- 1972
- 02:03:56,916 --> 02:04:00,208
- You, me, ideas. We're all one thing.
- 1973
- 02:04:01,208 --> 02:04:02,333
- Let's get you dressed.
- 1974
- 02:04:12,916 --> 02:04:13,750
- Thank you.
- 1975
- 02:04:16,625 --> 02:04:17,458
- Thank you.
- 1976
- 02:04:25,333 --> 02:04:26,416
- I accept.
- 1977
- 02:04:29,000 --> 02:04:30,250
- I accept...
- 1978
- 02:04:32,666 --> 02:04:33,541
- it all.
- 1979
- 02:04:34,458 --> 02:04:36,583
- Accept your acknowledgment,
- 1980
- 02:04:37,125 --> 02:04:38,750
- this... award.
- 1981
- 02:04:39,166 --> 02:04:40,666
- I accept all...
- 1982
- 02:04:41,541 --> 02:04:42,791
- that it entails.
- 1983
- 02:04:44,041 --> 02:04:45,625
- That this award comes...
- 1984
- 02:04:46,750 --> 02:04:51,125
- near the end of a long, fruitful life,
- 1985
- 02:04:53,333 --> 02:04:55,583
- in acknowledgment for the work I did
- 1986
- 02:04:56,125 --> 02:04:57,458
- decades ago.
- 1987
- 02:04:58,083 --> 02:05:02,291
- My quest has taken me
- through the physical, the metaphysical,
- 1988
- 02:05:03,000 --> 02:05:03,958
- the delusional...
- 1989
- 02:05:05,416 --> 02:05:06,416
- And back.
- 1990
- 02:05:07,375 --> 02:05:10,000
- And I have made the most important...
- 1991
- 02:05:11,041 --> 02:05:13,958
- discovery of my career...
- 1992
- 02:05:15,000 --> 02:05:17,125
- The most important discovery
- of my life.
- 1993
- 02:05:21,000 --> 02:05:24,416
- It is only in the mysterious equations
- of love...
- 1994
- 02:05:28,208 --> 02:05:31,458
- That any logical reasons can be found.
- 1995
- 02:05:36,750 --> 02:05:38,750
- I am only here tonight because of you.
- 1996
- 02:05:42,708 --> 02:05:45,250
- You are the reason I am.
- 1997
- 02:05:53,083 --> 02:05:55,083
- You are all my reasons.
- 1998
- 02:05:59,250 --> 02:06:00,083
- Thank you.
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