Depressing hipster Altair AU

me
me and my friend Inez planned an Altair like this out before

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 02 PM But he'd be more...socially normal? Or something? I dunno, he'd be on drugs and in therapy

me
8 : 03 PM he was a super skinny high school hipster
like super awkward and socially inept and just scared of everything
with a really bad homelife
he cut and was on like a million different pills
and went to therapy

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 03 PM Oh, Altair...

me
8 : 03 PM and a giant nerd and was bullied and shit
8 : 04 PM and Malik was like... the star football player
it was kinda role reversal
Altair was a shy nerd
and Malik was the outgoing jock

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 04 PM which is the opposite of how it goes
usually

me
8 : 04 PM and they got stuck being tutor buddies cause Malik is an idiot and Altair was super smart
8 : 05 PM and Malik starts to really really like Altair
but neither of them can come out
cause Altair would literally get beat and thrown out if he was gay
and Malik's family is just really conservative and would be really disapproving

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 05 PM D: Altair's life sucks, man!

me
8 : 05 PM yeah
it was basically Altair's life sux
and he had Ezio as a friend
and Abbas was a friend
8 : 06 PM like best childhood friend
they were super close
and then in middle school Abbas started doing drugs
and like Altair did a bit
but stopped
cause he didn't like how they made him act
but Abbas did worse and worse
like by high school he is doing HARD drugs
and drinking
8 : 07 PM and they were still kinda friends
cause Altair didn't have any beyond Ezio and Desmond (this was before AC3))
and eventually they graduate

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 07 PM D: oh, Altair...

me
8 : 07 PM and Malik joins the Marines
and Altair gets a full ride scholarship to some college
and Abbas ends up ODing and dying
and it /really/ fucks with Altair
8 : 08 PM cause Abbas was one of his best friends for suuuuch a long time

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 08 PM Even if things went sour, they were still friends.

me
8 : 08 PM and his boyfriend isn't around and his school friends from high school aren't there
and he doesn't have any real friends in college

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 08 PM Oh, altair...D: jfc this is making me sad.

me
8 : 08 PM he checks himself into an institute mainly
8 : 09 PM I dunno the proper term
cause he becomes suicidal after Abbas ODs

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 09 PM I know what you're talking bout, yeah. The institute of living.

me
8 : 09 PM okay if that's what it's called
XD

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 09 PM I think it is...
that's what it is in this state xD

me
8 : 09 PM he's on suicide watch and on more and new different meds
8 : 10 PM and when Malik is on leave he visits Altair
and Malik feels /really/ bad

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 10 PM D:

me
8 : 10 PM but at the same time is super freaked out
like he leaves and his boyfriend is fine
and he comes back from tour
and he's in a mental institution

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 10 PM and he's a wreck

me
8 : 10 PM with a bunch of crazies
like he wants to dump Altair
8 : 11 PM but knows that is exactly what he SHOULDN'T do
but he feels bad because he doesn't wanna stay with Altair out of pity either

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 12 PM It's a bad spot to be.

me
8 : 12 PM yeah
and like
he still likes Altair
he's just scared

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 12 PM So its a REALLY bad spot to be.

me
8 : 12 PM cause he's 20 yrs old
fresh out of the military and about to go to school
8 : 13 PM and his boyfriend who's stuck with him through all the /shit/ he had to deal with while in the military
is in a bad way and he doesn't know if Altair will ever like... get better
cause Altair's parents died when he was young and was raised by his grandpa after being in an orphanage for a bit before he was tracked down

8 : 14 PM and his grandpa
was abusive

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 14 PM So his life is really, really awful

me
8 : 14 PM beat him, left him alone, yelled at him etc to ad nausium
yeah
and Malik is scared
8 : 15 PM but he's also scared about what'll happen if he tells Altair they should break up

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 15 PM what ends up happening?

me
8 : 16 PM 'Altair. I need to talk about something really serious with you.'
'Okay. What is it?'
'... I don't want you to freak out or stress. I just want to be honest with you okay?'
'...Okay.'
'I'm really scared for you. And, like, I'm really worried about you and really hope you get better. I just want you to know though that...'
'That?'
'I might leave.'

and I don't know what happens

me and Inez never got to the end

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 16 PM Oh.

8 : 17 PM Do you think the end would be good or bad?

me
8 : 17 PM I dunno

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 17 PM Well you know me. I like my dumb happy endings.

me
8 : 17 PM I do too!
8 : 18 PM 'I don't want you to be unhappy Malik. If you don't want to stay with me-
8 : 19 PM 'That isn't what I mean okay! I just... I'm scared okay? But I don't want to leave you either. You were there for me while I was on tour and it's I don't wanna be that guy who can't be there for you when you're in the suck.'
'But?'
'But I don't know what to do, okay? I just... don't know. I see you and I hope you get better, I hope you can come home with me.'
'But what if I can't?'
8 : 20 PM 'Exactly, what if you can't. I mean, I like you Altair. I really do. But... I don't think I can wait forever for you.'

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 20 PM So it could be bittersweet.

me
8 : 22 PM yeah
or it could end with Altair going into a tailspin

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 22 PM Who knows

me
8 : 22 PM not me

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 22 PM Me neither

me
8 : 22 PM or
8 : 23 PM Altair could pull himself out of his terrible depression enough to function in society
but it wouldn't be one of those bullshit things
like he loves Malik so much
and cause of his love he's better
no
it'd be hard

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 23 PM Being better taes time.

me
8 : 23 PM ad it'd always be hard
he wouldn't magically be okay

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 23 PM Nop.
It's hard.

me
8 : 24 PM and he'd have really bad days
but what happened because of Abbas would be behind him
and he'd just be... normal depressed
instead of institutionalized depressed
or suicidal

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 24 PM He'd have good days and bad. he'd be on pills and go to therapy

me
8 : 25 PM but he'd always be on medication
and Malik would have to watch him on his bad days
but he might be able to function
on the other side
he could stay bad
never get better
Malik would leave him
which would just make everything worse
and he'd stay there
and never leave
and never get better

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 26 PM It could go either way.

me
8 : 26 PM cause like he /tries/ for Malik
and success determines if it's a good ending or a bad ending
and it could be either

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 26 PM Just like in real life! :D

me
8 : 26 PM exactly!

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 26 PM So it turns out while I've been gone in school, mom and zac decided that they like Vikings. They got way into it.

me
8 : 26 PM there is no love conquers all ending

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 27 PM Nope
real life doesn't have those.

me
8 : 27 PM there is no magical healing because your boyfriend loves you so much
there is no love so true and pure that Malik just... sticks around

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 27 PM Those endings are lame anyway.

me
8 : 27 PM yeah
and like they're both so young

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 27 PM young love changes a lot anyway

me
8 : 28 PM and only really were together for a year or two in high school and then Malik is /gone/ for basically two years
except for leave when he sometimes comes home

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 28 PM yep

me
8 : 28 PM I like both endings though
8 : 29 PM if Altair can pull himself out of his depression enough to try
or if he can't

Sarah Zaccardi
8 : 29 PM Multiple choice endings! :D

me
8 : 29 PM XD
choose your own adventure!