Zen - Today at 12:45 PM
What's going on
What happened that has you upset about the server?
Anne - Today at 12:47 PM
i dont like the support channels.. every1 knows me now and nobody replies to me so i stopped using them
tried to reach out subtly in main and other channels
just get ignored
Zen - Today at 12:47 PM
oh i see
Anne - Today at 12:48 PM
i try to chat and join conversations, get ignored
Zen - Today at 12:48 PM
sometimes it's really hard to jump in, i know what you mean
Anne - Today at 12:48 PM
im invisible except when i get pissed off aparently
Zen - Today at 12:48 PM
you're not invisible to me
i always say hi when i see you about
Anne - Today at 12:48 PM
well you're busy and i dont want to bother you
Zen - Today at 12:48 PM
you're never a bother
i'm not that busy
but this is something i can talk to people about
and hopefully effect some change
Anne - Today at 12:50 PM
like last night.. channel was quiet and i started ranting a but cuz i was feeling like shit
Zen - Today at 12:50 PM
lounge?
Anne - Today at 12:50 PM
and every1 suddently came out and attacked me
yeah
Zen - Today at 12:50 PM
urgh
people are overzealous about that shit]
bothers me
i try to tone it down when i'm there but ppl rarely listen
Anne - Today at 12:51 PM
calmed down a bit, tried to converse normally and then just got snippy remarks and whatnot
Zen - Today at 12:51 PM
oof, i'm sorry about that, they were being dicks
Anne - Today at 12:51 PM
it was between 1am and 2am i think
Zen - Today at 12:51 PM
that's a weird hour here
idk why
but i'm going to make an announcement i think bc this has been bothering me
getting people to chill out and respect one another a little more
did a mod tell you to tone it down?
Anne - Today at 12:52 PM
well i wasnt chill myself either
i was upset
Zen - Today at 12:52 PM
that's fair
Anne - Today at 12:52 PM
im trying to find the timeframe 1 sec
Zen - Today at 12:52 PM
kk
Anne - Today at 12:53 PM
12:55 to 1:45 in lounge
Zen - Today at 12:54 PM
est?
Anne - Today at 12:54 PM
central
well.. oklahoma time
Zen - Today at 12:54 PM
ok so that's... an hour later
got it
lemme go look
Anne - Today at 12:55 PM
and then 10:00 to now on off topic .. just tried to reach out and got ignored while other conversed
the constant channel redirection and shit.. like omg.. its pretty obvious i feel like shit.. dont cast me away, try to talk to me
nobody is gonna burst into flame if we take 5 mins to talk about something on the lounge
Zen - Today at 12:57 PM
yeah, that's something i should address
to be a little more lax with discussion
pent was rude as always
shawn is new so he is learning
which isn't an excuse just an explanation
this is a good time to teach the mods how to interact instead of redirect
i don't want this to happen to you again
i can't really fix the people not paying attn
but the other stuff i can work on
what i would recommend tho
Zen - Today at 1:00 PM
is try to engage in the subject that's already up and ongoing if there is one before you interject something, and then segway into it
once yo uhave people's attn
Anne - Today at 1:00 PM
ive been doing that for weeks
Zen - Today at 1:00 PM
no work?
h mm
Anne - Today at 1:01 PM
try to say stuff thats on-topic.. add a comment thats related to discussion, a personal experience anything
Zen - Today at 1:01 PM
ok well if you're willing to wait it out a bit, i can see what i can do behind the scenes to make stuff more inclusive
Anne - Today at 1:01 PM
it feels like ppl pretend i dont exist
Zen - Today at 1:01 PM
i literally just had this convo with all my mods
you do exist
i think people just don't always relate or aren't ready to
and i am sorry that it's working out this way
Anne - Today at 1:02 PM
right now im the one who's sorry .. everything is going to shit right now and i just overreacted last night i guess
Zen - Today at 1:03 PM
you didn't overreact, you reacted, and that's ok
what's going on that's going to shit?
Anne - Today at 1:04 PM
i didnt renew my contract with the district at the end of the school year so now i dont have a job.. applied to 25 other schools .. only got 2 interviews .. 1 of closed the position.. the other is unlikely to pick me
im doing everything im supposed to do and am not getting a break
Zen - Today at 1:05 PM
well fuck
Anne - Today at 1:05 PM
wife is stressed out
Zen - Today at 1:05 PM
that sucks...
yeah
Anne - Today at 1:05 PM
and shes stressed out because i dont have a job, which means im stressed out about it
and i feel like im walking on eggs around her all the time to now upset her
and im just failing her and everybody else
so i cant talk to her about how ive been feeling to add more stress
so im lonely.. and then here im lonely too
Zen - Today at 1:06 PM
you're not failing, you're struggling
Anne - Today at 1:06 PM
i should have just stayed in the job i hate.. thats what i get to try and be happy
Zen - Today at 1:06 PM
there's a big difference
one sec
sorry
had a phone call didn't want to double talk
but
staying int he job you hate isn't going to get your anywhere either
Anne - Today at 1:09 PM
making money i guess
Zen - Today at 1:09 PM
have you tried getting like an online tutoring job in the meantime
chegg and tutor.com and such seem to always be hiring
Anne - Today at 1:10 PM
yeah i mean ill figure something out.. as always
its just hard when im in that headspace
Zen - Today at 1:11 PM
yeah absolutely
you can always ping me
if you need to rant or whatever
i'm around most of the time
Anne - Today at 1:12 PM
hugs thank you
Zen - Today at 1:12 PM
of course hon
:heart:
Anne - Today at 1:13 PM
did you delete my rant in venting?
Zen - Today at 1:14 PM
yes simply because we don't allow disparaging messages about the team
Anne - Today at 1:14 PM
alright
Zen - Today at 1:14 PM
it can  lead to weird vibes from people and we get a LOT of dms
that's all
we heard you tho
and i'm going to talk to people about lounge, about including folks,a nd... what was the other one
hmm it'll come to me
Anne - Today at 1:15 PM
well its written in here somewhere ;p
Zen - Today at 1:15 PM
fair point :smile:
lulz
ok
what's your plan for the rest of the day
Anne - Today at 1:17 PM
clean up a bit.. look for jobs and hang on.. as well as hang out here still
Zen - Today at 1:17 PM
for real tho look into the tutoring stuff
Anne - Today at 1:17 PM
i will
Zen - Today at 1:17 PM
and if I'm not around for some reason, you can always drop rants or whatever in my DMs
and i'll respond when i get back to them
Anne - Today at 1:18 PM
thank you
Zen - Today at 1:18 PM
yw
i consider you a friend, and i don't let friends go lonely
Anne - Today at 1:19 PM
:sunglasses:
Zen - Today at 1:19 PM
alright i'll leave you alone, lemme know if you need anything
Anne - Today at 1:19 PM
will do , have a great day
Zen - Today at 1:19 PM
you too hon, good luck