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Tougane: What do you need to talk about?
xMaliceReturnsx: Let me rant without interruption.
Tougane: Sure.
xMaliceReturnsx: You know my feelings for you are still incredibly fucking strong to the point I am angry at myself for continuing to have such feelings after everything we've talked about.
xMaliceReturnsx: I hate how I can't move on from this fucking feeling
xMaliceReturnsx: I hate it
xMaliceReturnsx: I despise it
xMaliceReturnsx: I want to rip out my heart and throw it in the ocean
xMaliceReturnsx: I don't know how one can fall head over fucking heels with someone over the internet
xMaliceReturnsx: I dont
xMaliceReturnsx: But it happened.
xMaliceReturnsx: Now
xMaliceReturnsx: Due to what happened, Micheala has been struggling incredibly hard
xMaliceReturnsx: She's been receiving bitchings from Chris about being replaced
xMaliceReturnsx: Dealing with his usperiority
xMaliceReturnsx: Superiority*
xMaliceReturnsx: " "
xMaliceReturnsx: She's tired of hearing people go behind the backs of people she cares most for.
xMaliceReturnsx: She's tired of it all
xMaliceReturnsx: I can tell she's giving the fuck up
xMaliceReturnsx: She's slowly giving up
xMaliceReturnsx: And like we both stated last night, I'm fully fucking tired of that
xMaliceReturnsx: Know that my love for you will NEVER falter nor go away. I will always love you.
xMaliceReturnsx: But I'm locking that shit away
xMaliceReturnsx: All of it
xMaliceReturnsx: The only feeling I have will be for our daughter
xMaliceReturnsx: I WILL be a caring, loving mother
xMaliceReturnsx: I will step up to the fucking plate
xMaliceReturnsx: I'm tired of my baby being hurt by, not only my drama, but others
xMaliceReturnsx: So.
xMaliceReturnsx: You and I are GOING to get along
xMaliceReturnsx: We are GOING to be there for her
xMaliceReturnsx: She needs us
xMaliceReturnsx: And frankly?
xMaliceReturnsx: And I'm throwing your words back at you
xMaliceReturnsx: We need her too
xMaliceReturnsx: Yes, I am being a bitch
Tougane: Not really.
xMaliceReturnsx: Interruption. *marks it on her notepad*
Tougane: Okay?
xMaliceReturnsx: I am TIRED
xMaliceReturnsx: Of being
Tougane: I already told you to get your shit together.
xMaliceReturnsx: In the dark of everything.
Tougane: So do it.
xMaliceReturnsx: Oi
xMaliceReturnsx: You
xMaliceReturnsx: Are interrupting
Tougane: Keep going, then.
xMaliceReturnsx: I find everything out last.
xMaliceReturnsx: LAst.
xMaliceReturnsx: By Micheala
xMaliceReturnsx: Some things I found out? I despise. I hate.
xMaliceReturnsx: They broke me.
xMaliceReturnsx: But I will not be viewed as the pathetic cheating girl anymore.
xMaliceReturnsx: I've already established what I did was wrong.
xMaliceReturnsx: Call me the cheating girl.
xMaliceReturnsx: But I am taking back my pride
xMaliceReturnsx: I will be that girl you first met in the Hunter's Guild
xMaliceReturnsx: And I will be that girl who overcomes the darkness. Again.
Tougane: From what I heard, you'd already been cheating with others before I even met you.
Tougane: It's not taking your pride back.
Tougane: It's growing up.
Tougane: If you change back in to the girl I met, you're ultimately the same.
xMaliceReturnsx: When the hell did I cheat on others?
Tougane: Michaela hates how addicted you are to your own sexual desires.
Tougane: They get the best of you.
Tougane: Chris or whoever... Somebody you supposed lied about while dating one of them.
xMaliceReturnsx: Lol, nope. Never cheated on or with him
Tougane: Okay, well, it was somebody. I just can't remember their name.
Tougane: Point is, you've had a bad record.
Tougane: So, work on growing up.
Tougane: If you really wanted to settle with me, you would've done so and been adult about it.
Tougane: Leaving that Chase boy.
Tougane: So, if that's what you want now, don't fool around.
xMaliceReturnsx: "if that's what you want now" Pardon my small hope and ability to get easily confused, but settle in general, or settle with you? Cause I thought that would never happen.
Tougane: I can't trust you as you are now, so make a change, and maybe someday.
xMaliceReturnsx: So there /is/ hope?
Tougane: Not yet.
Tougane: Doesn't mean their can't be.
xMaliceReturnsx: *she shrugs* Fair enough.
Tougane: there*
xMaliceReturnsx: Thought that looked whacky.
Tougane: Mm.
xMaliceReturnsx: *Grammar Nazi*
Tougane: That's annoying.
xMaliceReturnsx: Sue me.
xMaliceReturnsx: So. Can you lock away the feelings?
xMaliceReturnsx: So we can coexist
Tougane: I already have.
xMaliceReturnsx: Perfect. *she extends her hand in front of him* To coexisting.
Tougane: Eh, I don't want to shake your hand.
xMaliceReturnsx: Don't want to touch me? Mmk.
Tougane: No, it's just you're being pedantic.
xMaliceReturnsx: What's so wrong about that?
Tougane: I'm not in a mood for bullshit. If we have to be particular about just being friends, then it's unnatural and we shouldn't waste our time.
xMaliceReturnsx: How is me ventin everything out to you then wanting to shake your hand a waste of time in your eyes? How is it bullshit?
Tougane: Because it seems we have a chore of being friends.
xMaliceReturnsx: It's not a chore.
xMaliceReturnsx: I needed to say what I did so it wouldnt be bottled up. So you knew.
xMaliceReturnsx: Instead of just saying
xMaliceReturnsx: "Hey. Let's be friends. I got this down"
Tougane: We're not friends if we just sit around uncomfortable and awkward.
xMaliceReturnsx: Are you going to be awkward?
xMaliceReturnsx: Or uncomfortable?
xMaliceReturnsx: Cause I'm not. Now that I got all that stuff above off my chest.
Tougane: No, I won't.
xMaliceReturnsx: So we're friends then, yes?
Tougane: If you feel that's what's best, but I need to see this growth. So far, I don't like this new Jackie.
Tougane: But I'll bite my tongue.
xMaliceReturnsx: I'm currently in a more relaxed stage of my bitch rage mode.
xMaliceReturnsx: People have pissed me off today.
xMaliceReturnsx: So there is adrenaline
xMaliceReturnsx: You'll see change. Don't worry.
Tougane: I busted open my hand on a car motor and then tore open the wound smashing my fist on a heavy bag.
Tougane: Don't worry, I know the pissiness.