memory is a bitch

I remember how alone I was in Humboldt. I remember
how sad I was always underneath. I remember how all
I could do was remember and wish you were with me.
Everywhere I went Everywhere I looked everything I
did I thought of you. I wished you were there I
wished you could smell I wished you had just seen
too. Everything I did.  I remember how I sank I
remember how I drank I remember how died and lived
all at once. I remember the pain off missing you. I
remember life without you and don't want to. I'm
living right now as I die, as I did. I don't want
to. I remember the fun. I remember the sun. I
remember the brooks I remember the sea. I know
how it looks and I know that you see. I remember
it with you in it. I remember you everywhere I
remember you in everyone because my heart is a
liar. My heart lies to me so I can survive alone
in this place where I live while I die.