[18:48:16] Shadow: Good evening, and congratulations.
[18:28:21] Squid: oh you already know i see
[18:28:37] Shadow: Yeah, I heard.
[18:28:43] Shadow: I'd guessed already, anyway.
[18:28:56] Squid: blade or moni?
[18:29:02] Shadow: Ben.
[18:29:13] Squid: oh ok
[18:29:39] Shadow: Hmm, also I'm told you hate me?
[18:29:50] Squid: you just figured that out?
[18:29:52] Shadow: Is this the same as a while ago, or different?
[18:30:16] Squid: its the fact i realised that you were an asshole the last couple of weeks
[18:30:20] Shadow: I remember you told me you hated me, but you also said you didn't hold grudges.
[18:30:30] Squid: people change
[18:30:32] Shadow: I entirely agree with you.
[18:30:37] Squid: including you
[18:30:52] Shadow: Though, if you hate me, you're incredibly civil about it.
[18:32:15] Shadow: Come to think of it, blade hasn't accepted my contact request... Probably ignoring me.
[18:32:30] Squid: he says youre becoming annoying
[18:32:40] Shadow: meh
[18:32:57] Shadow: Well, no-one is going to disagree soo...
[18:34:29] Shadow: Anyway, question, you noted people change, including me. Did I change into an asshole or was I an asshole to start with?
[18:34:55] Squid: i thought you were different..
[18:35:26] Shadow: I'm still human, as much as I despise that fact.
[18:36:45] Shadow: I hope ben is different for you.
[18:37:12] Squid: well he has explained why he liked me, and i died (in a good way)
[18:38:13] Shadow: Well, when you thing about it, the whole relationship thing is quite selfish.
[18:38:35] Shadow: Sure, you can make the other person happy, but the end result is it makes you happy
[18:38:58] Squid: both people are happy together
[18:39:01] Squid: thats the point
[18:39:23] Shadow: Still, each party is satisfying their own desires.
[18:39:41] Shadow: Ugh, I hate this species, and society.
[18:42:18] Squid: THEN FUCKING LEAVE IT, EVERYONE WOULDBE BETTER OFF!
[18:42:50] Shadow: I'm inclined to agree with you. However, I cannot hate if I am dead.
[18:43:23] Squid: everyone will hate for you instead, there are plenty of trollz that cana take ur place
[18:45:37] Shadow: I'm selfish though. I admire those people that do take their own lives, as they're selfless enough to realise how their existance is continuing this terrible species. I'm not capible of that though. I haven't done all I want to do. I still have stuff I want to do. I have stuff to look forward to. I have stuff to hate. I have people around me that actually give a shit. I have stuff I don't want to leave behind. Besides, I wouldn't want to put my mum through me dying.