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- I'm sorry I acted so wrong toward you. You might have done things, but it was up to me how i responded
- and i want you to know that i really really am extremely sorry. you dont deserve to get called names,
- or have me swear at you, and im not going to make excuses, im an angry person, and i have a really
- bad temper, and i let it get out of hand a lot, but i do love you, and i shouldnt have that happen,
- especially to you. I'm sorry i made your life so difficult, i truly, honestly, 100% believe youre a
- really smart, gorgeous person, and i love you, and i know im never going to find anyone i love more than
- you, and im just, so, full of regret that i just cant control my anger. Nothing you ever did was worthy of
- me calling you a bitch, or a dumbass, or a stupid bitch. In all honesty youre smart than me, by a lot,
- and i think the reason why its my reaction to go to those things is because im so insecure about them and
- i know how much it hurts to have someone call you those things. I'm extremely proud of you, as a person, and
- and as your boyfriend, because even if i dont seem like i recognize it, you have changed a lot since we met.
- You're a lot more compassionate, and youre a lot nicer to me, and the flirting really has gone down so much.
- I think thats why i get so angry, I think in my head youre just still that person that did all those things,
- but you arent, and i just cant get past it, im stupid, and im insecure, and i have really bad anger issues,
- and that works out great when im pitted against guys, or my father, or my family because i can be mean to them,
- and i can fight them, but i cant fight you, and i shouldnt try, you dont deserve to be screamed at, or called
- those ugly names, and i just feel so awful, every time, but i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me, that
- when i get angry i just think its okay to say those things, and i know its wrong, because the second im done
- being angry i look at what i said and i just feel disgusted with myself. I'm a bad person. Whatever you did,
- or could've done, is not worth that, and i wish you hadnt stuck with me for so long, because ive only gotten
- meaner as time went on, and its my fault. If i could go back in time and pull the henry that did nothing all
- day but sit in his underwear and compliment you for 24 hours i would, because you deserve him. Not me. I had
- Jennie tell me a few days ago, and i didnt tell you this because it really hurt me, because its true, but i
- think its fair now. She told me that if a guy existed, that looked like me, and was as tall as me but just
- wasnt such an asshole, that he would be perfect. She said it in a funny way, but i just cant stop thinking
- about how true it is. I wish i had stayed that anorexic, shorter, goofy looking kid with the bowl hair for
- you forever, because i was a lot nicer before now. I'm sorry for everything, and you deserve someone that
- doesnt swear, doesnt have a temper, and can appreciate a girlfriend that does so many things for him, and
- gives him space when he needs it. my life has been hard lately, i just found out i lost my other grandfather
- but im not going to use it as an excuse. A man should be able to control his emotions, regardless of whats
- going on around him, and i just show myself everyday that im not capable of being a man, and i shouldnt
- even have someone like you around me, dragging you down to my level. I'm just a stupid kid, who dropped out,
- and cant divide fractions or multiply them who gets angry and hits things and fights people and curses people
- out, and you dont deserve that. I love you. I have no doubt the next person you meet is going to love how
- you are, and the way you act, and im truly sorry that you got this way to try to make me happy, and i havent
- appreciated it. also, fuck, hella.
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