Hurting

You know I can tell when someone is playing me and when someone is lying to me. And to be honest you... have just broken me. Saying that you are on your phone and busy. You think I am stupid it seems. I didn't think it was going to effect us when I made the decision to give up Xander. And it has because now I have to wait... again on you. And honestly my heart is broken. Because once again I feel myself pushed to the back burner. You know how that feels you have had it happen to you a lot of times and all I ever did was make time for you. This is no longer jealousy talking. It is complete and total sadness. I don't want shit to happen but yesterday yes I was gone and it seemed you really didn't want to talk to me. It seemed that you just didn't care and today... same thing. Since Xander is back with Rose, it seems that is where you wish to be now. I am not going to wait all day just to rp with you late night when I am tired and have been waiting on you. I thought that you were going to change and I thought that everything was going to be alright. And it isn't. I am done. All you had to do was tell me the truth. Thats it. But I don't get that. So I hope you're happy. Because the one person that cared doesn't have a heart anymore to care with. Thanks for the rps. I hope you find happiness.