Stuff from Skype

I want to say something. I'm going to spend the next few days choosing my words. I'd much prefer you get into a Skype call and let me say it to you directly, but I don't think you will. I just hope this is the right thing to say, because I just want to be able to talk to you again.

This is all so extremely hard, but NOTHING would be as hard as losing you. If you've been reading what I've been sending you, you know how I'm feeling. But.. I'm going to do my best and push those feelings aside, and to just be calm and positive.

The truth is I'm hurting very badly, a lot of the time I just want to say goodbye, block you, and "go away" because things seem hopeless, but I can't do that. You haven't said you want me gone, so I'm praying I can get one last shot. I don't want to see you go.

To be completely honest I don't know what the fuck to do or say. I DON'T. I'm not going to give up though. All of this hurts like hell. I WAS COMING TO NEW ZEALAND, but things went south and now that might not happen. Life has been beating me down and it's taken so much from me, but I'm drawing the fucking line. I can't let it take you. I can't lose you.

Catherine do I need to spell it out?
I L-O-V-E Y-O-U.
That's why I'm fighting so hard for you, because
I L-O-V-E Y-O-U. I have ever since the first month of knowing you. I wish you would speak to me.

(screenshot for proof it's pretty much the same thing: http://prntscr.com/bxqsoe yes I added more but skype was shortened)
(also, I've been meaning to buy you pool party MF or maybe project ashe now that it's out(I think). The thing is though you'd have to add me, and we'd have to be friends for a day before I could gift, so I haven't brought it up.)
(side note: I still remember that one time league bugged and there was a huge MF on your League, that was a pretty funny day.)
(an aram on OCE would be nice though. I just.. need a break. Just send me an add or invite on OCE. You don't have to talk.)