I just don't like it anymore. This forum is just reminding me off old times and makes me feel terrible and not even cared for. I feel as thou I am nothing I try my hardest to reach out for ponies and make them feel happy about themselves I open my heart up and ponies just love to abuse it and just laugh at me. "What's that your tulpa is gone well stop crying and bucking get over it" that's perfectly fine to say apparently in chat but when I give my opinion on something it's "WAIT WAIT WAIT NO YOU CANT DO THAT SORRY YOUR GETTING KICKED" and no I am not giving a opinion on saying something like "Hitler was great" it was a opinion on a game. And then you apologize and you are just ignored and not even cared for. I go through all this loneliness and have such limited real friends that actually care about me who actually come up to me and say "hey how you doing" instead of "If seek my attention then you must go on such quests and then you shall speak to me" So I can't stand being here anymore I have so many things I want to post here and I think to myself does the forum really deserve it. If a user can tell me to buck off and I am meant to go "yep my tulpa is now gone THANK YOU SO MUCH HYPNOPONIES FOR YOUR HELP" no it's not going like that and I can't stand ponies thinking "Oh it's just skyheart who cares" "She is not that important". I try to reach out but ponies just forget about me as if I was nothing so if you want to forget about me go ahead i'm obviously not that important to anypony here. Don't worry you will forget why you are typing a reply when your half way through.