I'm going to orientation for my job at comic con tomorrow
[12:00:01 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I'm so excited
[12:00:17 AM] Anthony Beckman: cool
[12:04:14 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Lol
[12:04:19 AM] HelloSkitty HH: It's gonna be awesome
[12:04:21 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I'm staff
[12:04:26 AM] Anthony Beckman: I figured
[12:04:27 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:04:28 AM] HelloSkitty HH: So I get to meet all the famous people
[12:04:34 AM] Anthony Beckman: ah
[12:04:34 AM] HelloSkitty HH: And not wait in line
[12:04:37 AM] HelloSkitty HH: And I get paid
[12:04:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: And free passes every day of the con lol
[12:04:46 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:04:58 AM] Anthony Beckman: watch Leah arrive and see you and leave
[12:05:09 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Which it's normally like $165 to go
[12:05:16 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Yea she is soooo pissed
[12:07:13 AM] HelloSkitty HH: She hates me so much
[12:07:17 AM] HelloSkitty HH: And I get it totally
[12:07:23 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I get why she would be mad about this
[12:07:27 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Cons are her thing
[12:08:02 AM] HelloSkitty HH: They have never been by thing
[12:08:23 AM] HelloSkitty HH: My*
[12:08:37 AM] HelloSkitty HH: And she has been trying to get on the staff for ndk and comic con for years
[12:08:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: And I just got it given to me
[12:08:49 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I get why she's mad
[12:09:22 AM] Anthony Beckman: It makes sense why she doesn't like you in general
[12:09:38 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Yea
[12:09:41 AM] HelloSkitty HH: It really does
[12:10:18 AM] HelloSkitty HH: But
[12:10:22 AM] HelloSkitty HH: It's not my fault
[12:11:15 AM] Anthony Beckman: Real Life 101
[12:11:29 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Like idk what to do about it
[12:11:39 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I can't give her my spot
[12:11:43 AM] HelloSkitty HH: It doesn't work that way
[12:11:50 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I offered her free tickets
[12:11:57 AM] HelloSkitty HH: That made her more mad
[12:12:02 AM | Edited 12:12:06 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:12:24 AM] Anthony Beckman: In her perspective
[12:12:47 AM] Anthony Beckman: you get things without having to try because you have boobs
[12:13:13 AM] HelloSkitty HH: But this isn't the modeling thing
[12:13:16 AM] Anthony Beckman: I know
[12:13:18 AM] Anthony Beckman: but
[12:13:22 AM] Anthony Beckman: Just think about it
[12:13:43 AM] Anthony Beckman: She is someone who probably tries to do things through hard work
[12:13:43 AM] HelloSkitty HH: This one I got cause they said I was nice and would do well working a booth at comic con
[12:13:46 AM] Anthony Beckman: and just doesn't get them
[12:14:01 AM] Anthony Beckman: and then she sees that you get things because you have boobs
[12:14:09 AM] Anthony Beckman: even if it's not always actually because boobs
[12:14:16 AM] Anthony Beckman: Confirmation bias is a thing
[12:14:29 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Yea
[12:14:32 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I know
[12:14:36 AM] Anthony Beckman: She probably thinks that you get everything without trying
[12:14:41 AM] Anthony Beckman: and that's actually why she doesn't like you
[12:14:45 AM] HelloSkitty HH: But that's just not fair
[12:15:02 AM] Anthony Beckman: she would refuse the tickets because she thinks you did not earn them
[12:15:07 AM] Anthony Beckman: sort of like the Sayaka thing
[12:15:17 AM] Anthony Beckman: Sayaka refuses to eat Kyoko's apples
[12:15:26 AM] Anthony Beckman: because Kyoko didn't actually work for them
[12:15:37 AM] Anthony Beckman: she just got them with magic
[12:15:48 AM] Anthony Beckman: so the offer felt empty and meaningless
[12:16:19 AM] Anthony Beckman: Same with the poster
[12:16:32 AM] Anthony Beckman: Waru said your boobs got you a poster when nobody else could get any
[12:16:51 AM] Anthony Beckman: she didn't want it anymore because you didn't actually have to try for it like she would have
[12:17:23 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:17:30 AM] Anthony Beckman: btw I'm not actually saying you never have to try for anything
[12:17:38 AM] Anthony Beckman: I'm just saying that's probably what makes her mad
[12:17:52 AM] HelloSkitty HH: no i know and i get it now
[12:17:54 AM] Anthony Beckman: You have to admit though
[12:18:04 AM] HelloSkitty HH: at first when i thought it was because she thought i used people and like i was a mean person
[12:18:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i didnt get it
[12:18:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but now i get it
[12:18:17 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and yes i totally see how i get things handed to me
[12:18:34 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i work very hard to get some things i have but yes some things are just easy for me
[12:18:46 AM] Anthony Beckman: In her perspective there's probably no way to tell
[12:19:01 AM] Anthony Beckman: if she doesn't want to believe you work for things then she doesn't have to notice it
[12:19:29 AM] Anthony Beckman: It would also explain why a lot of girls that get to be around you for awhile also start to not like you
[12:19:44 AM] HelloSkitty HH: well at lollicup i can see this. She never has to notice me work hard for anything cause at lollicup i truly dont work super duper hard
[12:19:51 AM] HelloSkitty HH: im a good employee but even that stupid raise
[12:19:52 AM] HelloSkitty HH: omg
[12:19:56 AM] HelloSkitty HH: everyone hates me cause i got the raise
[12:20:27 AM] Anthony Beckman: Lollicup hires based on appearance
[12:20:27 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and people are mad cause i get to model at NDK and i guess thats a big deal and i guess being staff at comic con is a big deal and then the poster thing
[12:20:40 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i get why girls dont like me
[12:20:44 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but its not my fault
[12:20:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: what should i do
[12:20:48 AM] Anthony Beckman: they should know that there will be drama just based on jealousy
[12:20:55 AM] HelloSkitty HH: oh they know lol
[12:21:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I almost think they gave me the rasie.....just so everyone would not like me
[12:21:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: bc ching would do that
[12:21:17 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Naomi
[12:21:21 AM] HelloSkitty HH: made it very clear today
[12:21:26 AM] HelloSkitty HH: that i should not be the one who got that
[12:21:39 AM] Anthony Beckman: nah
[12:21:43 AM] Anthony Beckman: she made it clear that that's what she believed
[12:21:45 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and mahsa was like "WTF you! How the hell do you deserve to be the only girl to get a rise! thats fucked up alex"
[12:22:02 AM] HelloSkitty HH: raise*
[12:22:10 AM] Anthony Beckman: they should be blaming management for that
[12:22:25 AM | Edited 12:22:47 AM] HelloSkitty HH: well then comic con should be blamed on becca
[12:22:29 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and ndk should be warus fault
[12:22:34 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and th poster is the ticket guys fault
[12:22:43 AM] Anthony Beckman: well
[12:22:51 AM] Anthony Beckman: boobs = ndk
[12:22:53 AM] Anthony Beckman: and prob poster
[12:23:07 AM] Anthony Beckman: idk about comic con actually you never told me about that being a thing
[12:23:10 AM] Anthony Beckman: and for work
[12:23:19 AM] Anthony Beckman: it's easy to believe that boobs = 100% customer satisfaction
[12:23:35 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but she didnt just ask men
[12:23:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: you have watched me at work
[12:23:47 AM] Anthony Beckman: probably helps
[12:23:48 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:23:53 AM] HelloSkitty HH: im friends with every single person who walks in that place
[12:24:05 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i make an effort to be nice to every single customer
[12:24:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: its not my fault everyone else is a bitch
[12:24:15 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i know that sounds cocky and mean
[12:24:19 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i dont mean to be mean
[12:24:19 AM] Anthony Beckman: nah it's true
[12:24:38 AM] Anthony Beckman: you engage with the customers
[12:24:47 AM | Edited 12:24:49 AM] Anthony Beckman: usually the others just take your order and serve
[12:25:04 AM] HelloSkitty HH: yea
[12:25:42 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and comic con Becca really said "you do a great job of smiling and acting excited for 9 hours a day at work. You would be great at a huge convention where everything is fast paced and stressfull but you still look like your having fun"
[12:26:05 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i get that i have boobs
[12:26:08 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and ugh
[12:26:11 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:26:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thats just not fair
[12:26:18 AM] Anthony Beckman: see that sounds like a good reason
[12:26:29 AM] Anthony Beckman: Leah gets tired easily
[12:26:38 AM] Anthony Beckman: so I can see why she wouldn't have been given the offer
[12:27:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i think what also makes her mad is that i dont care. I am excited about it and happy but its not something i have worked for
[12:27:15 AM] HelloSkitty HH: its not something i have cared about for years and tried to get into for years
[12:27:22 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i couldnt even name one famous person who is gonna be there
[12:27:29 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:27:31 AM] Anthony Beckman: well
[12:27:35 AM] Anthony Beckman: She wants to be an animator right?
[12:27:37 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but leah spent all her money just to wait in line for 3 hours to see them
[12:27:41 AM] HelloSkitty HH: yea she does
[12:27:45 AM] Anthony Beckman: well
[12:27:47 AM] Anthony Beckman: it is within her grasp
[12:27:54 AM] Anthony Beckman: It is doable right now
[12:28:02 AM] Anthony Beckman: no training no expensive software to save up for
[12:28:21 AM] Anthony Beckman: If she wants to get in to these things she can get in using her passion
[12:28:31 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thats the thing
[12:28:34 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she doesnt try
[12:28:49 AM] HelloSkitty HH: everyone is mad at me because im that person who will go and do things that i have no idea about. I will just try
[12:28:54 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and that makes her mad
[12:29:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i told her to go try to find an internship i told her to go try to do things with her passion but she doesnt
[12:29:15 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she even brought up the server
[12:29:40 AM] HelloSkitty HH: "you dont know how that shit even works alex! but somehow you run a gaming server!? and everyone listens to you even though you dont know what your talking about"
[12:29:53 AM] Anthony Beckman: to be fair
[12:29:57 AM] Anthony Beckman: the server cannot see your boobs
[12:30:01 AM] Anthony Beckman: :P
[12:30:06 AM] HelloSkitty HH: ^^^^
[12:30:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[12:30:16 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i know being a girl helped with that
[12:30:21 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol but
[12:30:37 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and everyone says "oh everyone likes skitty cause she is a girl"
[12:30:49 AM] Anthony Beckman: You do something great that the other girls dont' see because they're jealous
[12:31:03 AM] HelloSkitty HH: its not fair! Why when they get something awesome and good things happened to them its cause they worked for it. but when i do something awesome its cause boobs
[12:31:14 AM] Anthony Beckman: You do things even when you aren't entirely sure about it
[12:31:55 AM] HelloSkitty HH: even when i talk about traveling
[12:31:57 AM] HelloSkitty HH: oh she cheated
[12:32:01 AM] Anthony Beckman: Also
[12:32:05 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she took out a student loan and went to europe
[12:32:28 AM] Anthony Beckman: It's not really fair to say you run a game server
[12:32:34 AM] Anthony Beckman: She has to know that you don't do that alone.
[12:32:42 AM] HelloSkitty HH: nothing i do is awesome cause i must have not worked for it at all it must have just been handed to me
[12:32:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: haha and no its not
[12:32:49 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but they dont get it
[12:32:52 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and explaining is pointless
[12:33:06 AM] Anthony Beckman: my internet keeps going in and out
[12:33:31 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol yea i see that
[12:33:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and yes leah knows i dont do that alone i have tried to explain that
[12:33:52 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and that its not that everyone listenes to me
[12:33:55 AM] HelloSkitty HH: just cause im a girl
[12:34:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: that took work and effort
[12:34:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: also
[12:34:14 AM] HelloSkitty HH: people dont even listen to me
[12:34:32 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol its not like i run the world of pokemon lol its a small little server and i happen to run some things on it
[12:34:44 AM] HelloSkitty HH: why cant that be awesome?
[12:35:01 AM] HelloSkitty HH: why does it have to be something that was given to me without me trying?
[12:35:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol why does everything have to be like that
[12:35:15 AM] HelloSkitty HH: doesnt it count as trying to be an excited outgoing human
[12:35:37 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol ugh!!!!!!!!
[12:36:38 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:42:02 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol i mean.....
[12:42:16 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I am not a mean person
[12:42:27 AM] Anthony Beckman: I don't think that's the problem
[12:42:43 AM] HelloSkitty HH: some things are given to me cause of whatever, boobs, or outgoing personality or friendly or whatever
[12:43:08 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but.... im not cocky about it
[12:43:15 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i gave the poster to a 13 year old little boy
[12:43:24 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i gave away my free comic con tickets
[12:43:34 AM] Anthony Beckman: Still
[12:43:35 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i dont try to make people mad
[12:43:47 AM] Anthony Beckman: jealousy can be stupid
[12:44:11 AM] Anthony Beckman: If they think you didn't have to earn it, they won't accept it when you give it away
[12:44:33 AM] Anthony Beckman: that's one reason why regifting is frowned upon
[12:44:42 AM] Anthony Beckman: You're giving away something that was given to you
[12:44:50 AM] Anthony Beckman: which is different from giving something you worked for
[12:44:58 AM] Anthony Beckman: it's a lot less personal
[12:45:11 AM] Anthony Beckman: Once or twice it can be easy to say "Yay!"
[12:45:25 AM | Edited 12:45:26 AM] Anthony Beckman: but when it becomes a pattern it's hard to be happy about it
[12:45:35 AM] HelloSkitty HH: well yes but then what should i do
[12:45:38 AM] HelloSkitty HH: just keep it all
[12:45:43 AM] Anthony Beckman: nah
[12:45:52 AM | Edited 12:45:54 AM] Anthony Beckman: you should be you
[12:46:38 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but people dont like me
[12:46:39 AM] HelloSkitty HH: well
[12:46:41 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[12:46:50 AM] HelloSkitty HH: people like me but people hate that people like me
[12:46:54 AM] HelloSkitty HH: so then they get to know me and dont like me
[12:46:55 AM] HelloSkitty HH: haha
[12:47:23 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i dont like the drama at work
[12:47:39 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i would give up the fucking stupid staff jobs and the stupid shit that everyone seems to hate me for
[12:47:51 AM] HelloSkitty HH: just to not have everyone at work talk shit about me
[12:48:00 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but that doesnt work
[12:48:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: cause then im the selfish bitch who got offered the job and said no
[12:48:25 AM] HelloSkitty HH: even the girls at synergy hate me
[12:48:49 AM] HelloSkitty HH: cause they are all grad students getting their certifications and they are like 30
[12:48:58 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and i dont even have a BA
[12:49:06 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but thats not my fault!
[12:51:55 AM] Anthony Beckman: Just think about it this way
[12:52:33 AM] Anthony Beckman: If someone else was the one getting everything without having to work for it
[12:52:37 AM] Anthony Beckman: they'd be getting all the shit
[12:52:52 AM] Anthony Beckman: and then you'd feel bad and try to make them feel better
[12:54:29 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[12:55:08 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thanks todd =)
[12:55:17 AM] HelloSkitty HH: im so happy i have such an awesome best friend
[12:55:23 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[12:57:08 AM] HelloSkitty HH: "Im under and over it"
[12:57:09 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[12:58:03 AM] Anthony Beckman: nah
[12:58:04 AM] Anthony Beckman: you're Aang
[12:58:21 AM] Anthony Beckman: and everyone else is Kotara
[12:58:59 AM] HelloSkitty HH: haha
[12:59:24 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but also....everyone doesnt see that i did work to be where i am now. I really really did
[12:59:48 AM] HelloSkitty HH: it wasnt easy to become this alex
[12:59:50 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[1:00:00 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but pshhhh it sucks that i have to feel bad for being happy
[1:00:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i shoudlnt have to feel bad cause good things are happening to me
[1:00:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thats just not cool
[1:01:21 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[1:01:50 AM] Anthony Beckman: Aang had to sit in a giant airball surrounded by ice for a hundred years
[1:01:56 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[1:02:05 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but everyone blamed him for that
[1:02:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and said he just walked out on everyone
[1:04:11 AM] Anthony Beckman: and this analogy does not work why?
[1:04:42 AM] HelloSkitty HH: haha no the analogy totally works
[1:04:59 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but also i wish leah could see that this wasnt always alex
[1:05:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she sees what happened within like the last 2 years
[1:05:44 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i am happy lol and im liking being happy and im enjoying that good things get to happen to me. But she says all the time "you will never get what its like to be an out cast that no one likes or pays attention to"
[1:05:58 AM] Anthony Beckman: I can relate to that too
[1:06:12 AM] Anthony Beckman: I know where she's coming from
[1:06:12 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and no thats just not fucking true! I know what its like I just did everything in the world....including things that neither of you would be willing to do to make that not the case
[1:06:25 AM] Anthony Beckman: I'm not saying it's true
[1:06:40 AM] Anthony Beckman: but I know what she means
[1:06:52 AM] HelloSkitty HH: you guys arent willing to do anything to fit in and be liked
[1:06:55 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and i love that about you
[1:07:03 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but its not fair to blame me because i was
[1:07:38 AM] Anthony Beckman: I think I understand Leah better now
[1:07:43 AM] Anthony Beckman: from talking with you today
[1:07:52 AM] Anthony Beckman: it didn't really seem like her to just randomly hate you
[1:07:58 AM] HelloSkitty HH: yea i know i understand leah better from taling to her today too
[1:08:41 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but she never saw the alex who was picked on and had no friends and who was a nerd who no one wanted to be friends with.
[1:08:45 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i decided to drink
[1:08:46 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and smoke
[1:08:48 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and do drugs
[1:08:50 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and have sex
[1:08:53 AM] HelloSkitty HH: you guys decided not to
[1:09:03 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[1:09:10 AM] Anthony Beckman: well she probably decided not to
[1:09:21 AM] Anthony Beckman: for me though
[1:09:25 AM] Anthony Beckman: I did not decide to
[1:11:16 AM] HelloSkitty HH: dont you decide not to....
[1:11:18 AM] HelloSkitty HH: like all the time
[1:11:28 AM] HelloSkitty HH: other then sex
[1:11:35 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[1:11:40 AM] HelloSkitty HH: you decided not to smoke and drink and do drugs
[1:11:47 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thats what got me friends
[1:11:50 AM] HelloSkitty HH: even at lollicup
[1:11:52 AM] Anthony Beckman: see
[1:11:56 AM] Anthony Beckman: same logic as with Leah
[1:12:12 AM] HelloSkitty HH: every girl hated me and made fun of me and called me fat and gross and ugly
[1:12:23 AM] Anthony Beckman: You've only seen me for 3 years
[1:12:45 AM] Anthony Beckman: I was indifferent about drugs
[1:12:56 AM] Anthony Beckman: and alcohol
[1:13:03 AM] Anthony Beckman: No one ever offered me either of those things until I met you
[1:13:17 AM] Anthony Beckman: and I never decided to pursue or avoid them
[1:13:40 AM] Anthony Beckman: When I made the observation that all drugs do is make you stupid
[1:13:53 AM] Anthony Beckman: I decided I did not want to be stupid
[1:15:03 AM] Anthony Beckman: also it was never a question of fitting in
[1:15:26 AM] Anthony Beckman: nothing I chose to do or not do was responsible for people not really wanting to be around me
[1:16:04 AM] Anthony Beckman: I just didn't decide things and people just naturally weren't friends with me because I wasn't friends with them
[1:16:39 AM] Anthony Beckman: as someone without magnets on my chest, if I leave people alone, they leave me alone
[1:17:24 AM] Anthony Beckman: It's never happened, but I'm sure if I was pressured to do things to fit in
[1:17:30 AM] Anthony Beckman: I would actively choose not to
[1:17:42 AM] Anthony Beckman: because there should be no reason why I should need to do things to be accepted
[1:18:05 AM] HelloSkitty HH: see what your saying sounds so much like leah
[1:18:16 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and like a lot of girls who i become friends with
[1:18:16 AM] Anthony Beckman: still
[1:18:25 AM] Anthony Beckman: I am glad I chose to write
[1:18:30 AM] Anthony Beckman: that was an impulsive decision
[1:18:36 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and i absolutely love that you guys chose different paths
[1:19:03 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i think its sooooo stupid that no one ever wanted to be your friend. Or that not many people did
[1:19:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: obviously bc when i met you i thought you were amazing
[1:19:15 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[1:19:19 AM] Anthony Beckman: even with Nathan
[1:19:34 AM | Edited 1:19:37 AM] Anthony Beckman: the reason we met was because I joined the school late
[1:19:40 AM] Anthony Beckman: and nobody joins Peak to Peak late
[1:19:57 AM] Anthony Beckman: they had me shadow a student because I was new there and there was no transition phase
[1:20:06 AM] Anthony Beckman: and that student was friends with Nathan
[1:20:56 AM] Anthony Beckman: the people I sat with at lunch were that way too
[1:21:11 AM] Anthony Beckman: a couple of guys I would run with at cross country
[1:21:15 AM] Anthony Beckman: (cross country was my dad's decision)
[1:21:23 AM] Anthony Beckman: they didn't really have friends either
[1:21:32 AM] Anthony Beckman: so they chose to sit with me as someone they were slightly acquainted with
[1:23:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thats how i was in middle school and elematary school. No one ever liked me and i sat alone and had no friends and just did gymnastics and taled to no one except Laura who was my friend from when we were babies. But she was popular and i wasnt
[1:23:28 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i chose to go walk into the smokers pit cause i was fucking done being outcasted
[1:23:59 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i chose to pick up a cigarette i chose to go see how much sex and meth and coke and speed and acid and weed and liquor i could consumce
[1:24:03 AM] HelloSkitty HH: consume*
[1:24:06 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and i was good at it
[1:24:13 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and magically the whole school liked me
[1:25:11 AM] HelloSkitty HH: I noticed the girls at lollicup were into this convention stuff and i was hated by every girl. so i joined and did the convention thing
[1:25:24 AM] HelloSkitty HH: you and leah dont chose to just go with whatever people want you to do
[1:25:27 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and thats amazing
[1:25:34 AM] HelloSkitty HH: which is why i chose to be friends with you guys
[1:25:40 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but.....girls like you hate me
[1:25:47 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol people don't really want me to do drugs
[1:26:15 AM] Anthony Beckman: Nobody who would disapprove would care
[1:26:18 AM] Anthony Beckman: er
[1:26:22 AM] Anthony Beckman: nobody who wouldn't disapprove
[1:27:51 AM] HelloSkitty HH: yea it was different because you didnt go to a school where that could instantly mae you popular
[1:28:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: its just what i have done ever ince i was little "find out what everyone likes, do that and people will love you"
[1:28:26 AM] HelloSkitty HH: but i admire that you both dont do that
[1:28:39 AM] HelloSkitty HH: you were right when you told me that i was just one of those girls
[1:28:50 AM] HelloSkitty HH: thats why i got so offended a long time ago when you said that to me
[1:28:53 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol you were right
[1:29:19 AM] Anthony Beckman: lol
[1:29:41 AM] Anthony Beckman: I guess I don't hate you because I make an effort to understand people
[1:30:07 AM] Anthony Beckman: I like to think there's a good reason for things
[1:30:36 AM] Anthony Beckman: so I try not to make decisions until I think I understand what's really going on
[1:36:09 AM] HelloSkitty HH: yea and i love that you dont hate me.....and that you try to understand everything. Its the reason why i met you and wanted to talk to you every single day for three years
[1:36:12 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[1:36:30 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i kinda wish leah did start when i started though
[1:36:40 AM] HelloSkitty HH: i wish she knew lollicup alex at 16
[1:36:43 AM] HelloSkitty HH: or even at 20
[1:36:45 AM] HelloSkitty HH: when you met me
[1:36:53 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she wouldnt think what she thinks
[1:36:56 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she called me ching
[1:37:01 AM] HelloSkitty HH: she called me mini ching
[1:37:08 AM] HelloSkitty HH: and i was like.........wow
[1:37:10 AM] HelloSkitty HH: lol
[1:37:14 AM] HelloSkitty HH: what the fuck have i become
[1:38:25 AM] Anthony Beckman: The mother of a cute little girl apparently
[1:39:04 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Haha
[1:39:06 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Or Satan
[1:39:13 AM | Edited 1:39:15 AM] Anthony Beckman: nah
[1:39:49 AM] Anthony Beckman: You outdrank him
[1:39:52 AM] Anthony Beckman: and you partied with him
[1:40:21 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Haha
[1:41:02 AM] Anthony Beckman: I guess also the other line works
[1:41:07 AM] Anthony Beckman: if someone calls you satan
[1:41:09 AM] Anthony Beckman: you could just be like
[1:41:19 AM] Anthony Beckman: "He who makes a beast out of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man"
[1:41:40 AM] Anthony Beckman: and then skip away all hyper and happy
[1:42:07 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Haha yea I totally identified with that song for a long time
[1:42:29 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Hehe and yes that's what I'll do
[1:42:33 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Good plan
[1:43:18 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Your so awesome
[1:43:24 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Im so happy I met you
[1:43:25 AM] HelloSkitty HH: Lol
[1:44:12 AM] HelloSkitty HH: People were missing out by not talking to you
[1:44:44 AM] HelloSkitty HH: You know kelsy is gonna hate me soon too
[1:44:49 AM] HelloSkitty HH: She is a leah