Alice mk8g Panchito

[22:20:45] Alice: Um well where to begin...
[22:21:11] Alice: This is a sensitive subject
[22:21:20] Alice: And it's really hard to talk about
[22:21:46] Alice: Yes, and thank you, really I mean it
[22:23:02] Alice: Not having someone who I can trust to talk about this with is hard
[22:23:49] Alice: Okay then, go ahead
[22:25:07] Alice: Uh well he's been a big part of my life since we got to now each other last year
[22:25:34] Alice: We became friends, and then more than friends
[22:26:15 | Edited 22:26:30] Alice: Since the start of February things started to go badly
[22:27:00] Alice: He said that he didn't want me talking to anyone else from /mk8g/ outside of the thread
[22:27:31] Alice: So I started to cut down on how much I was talking to my friends
[22:28:52] Alice: He's been giving me timeframes of when I can or cannot play with my friends
[22:29:23] Alice: And it's a stupid way to say it but he's been holding me like some sort of prisoner online
[22:32:22] Alice: Oh
[22:32:41] Alice: What I mean by that is he's been blackmailing me
[22:34:52] Alice: We've shared personal things which can be used against me if I "step out of line" as he's worded it several times
[22:35:33] Alice: No, I've kept it all to myself until now because I've got myself in a very bad situation as you can probably tell
[22:36:21] Alice: I don't know how else to explain it but yes, I think you're right
[22:37:50] Alice: Well he made me feel happy about myself for once in my life
[22:38:33] Alice: I wouldn't say he's lured me in, but I did stop thinking straight
[22:38:59 | Edited 22:38:03] Alice: But yes this year I've become very attached to him and for the longest time he's been the only thing I care about in my life
[22:40:36] Alice: Maybe you're right
[22:40:58] Alice: Things have been very serious, yes
[22:41:30] Alice: Obviously I don't want that to happen and I'm trying to make sure that it doesn't
[22:42:02] Alice: It may seem petty from someone else's perspective but try to understand what it's been like for me this past month especially
[22:42:12] Alice: Back in a moment, I need to feed my cat
[22:45:06] Alice: Sorry about that, I'm here
[22:45:32] Alice: Thank you
[22:45:55] Alice: Okay, go ahead
[22:46:42] Alice: Um
[22:47:11] Alice: I'm not sure, I doubt that he cares about it to be honest, but yes I do care
[22:47:53] Alice: No, I only knew about it recently
[22:48:22] Alice: Well people have spoken about it before so I know some already knew
[22:49:00] Alice: How do you mean?
[22:49:34] Alice: Oh my bad (facepalm)
[22:49:39] Alice: Uh yes
[22:49:58] Alice: No, that wasn't me
[22:50:45] Alice: Well I did try talking to several other people before but it's really not easy to bring it up
[22:51:19] Alice: Ryan, Nips, KlicKlac and some others
[23:51:54] Alice: I tried to talk to Ryan about it before he deleted me but I didn't get to say much
[22:52:22] Alice: Yes, it was Nips who did that
[22:53:48] Alice: I really screwed up by trusting him
[22:53:21] Alice: Yes, that was a crap sitation for pretty much everyone
[22:53:57] Alice: Um yes
[22:55:09] Alice: I'm not sure about that
[22:55:41] Alice: Maybe it happened while I was sleeping or at school
[22:56:22] Alice: It's definitely not funny from my perspective
[22:59:20] Alice: Well I've been interested in it since it came out and I played it a lot but he did ask me post there and start to play yes
[23:00:42] Alice: It's not that much of a big deal but weird anyway
[23:01:02] Alice: Oh, I presume it's just because he doesn't care
[23:02:03] Alice: Yes, I've always wanted to play kart and especially recently
[23:02:45] Alice: Yes, I will
[23:03:22] Alice: It will probably seem stupid to you but I love him despite everything
[23:05:55] Alice: Please, you don't need to tell me that
[23:06:40] Alice: Okay
[23:06:56] Alice: Thank you
[23:07:45] Alice: I do appreciate your help
[23:08:26] Alice: Or well even just an open mind who can give their own look and thoughts on this situation helps me
[23:10:46] Alice: Okay...
[23:12:08] Alice: Pretty much if you can think of it then yes it's been shared
[23:13:00] Alice: Yes
[23:13:19] Alice: That too, and too many times
[22:14:07 | Edited 22:14:27] Alice: I can only guess, but I'd say yes
[23:15:12] Alice: Okay yes, I'll be here
[23:19:03] Alice: Welcome back
[23:19:45] Alice: Not good, thank you for asking though
[23:20:22] Alice: In further detail? Umm I can try
[23:20:51] Alice: Well to be honest, it's making me feel like the only way out is to kill myself
[23:21:17] Alice: Yes, of course i know it's a good way to be thinking but it's not easy
[23:21:45] Alice: It really is a bad sitation that I'm in, really bad
[23:22:02] Alice: I've felt the same in the past, but it's worse now and I don't see another option
[23:22:33] Alice: Yes, just related to my anorexia and stuff that I think I mentioned to you before
[23:23:12] Alice: I cry myself to sleep every night because I do care about him
[23:23:44] Alice: I don't let anyone hear me because this sitation could get a whole bunch worse if they find out
[23:24:30] Alice: I'm not sure where that came from
[23:25:04] Alice: Yep
[23:25:22] Alice: In the morning
[23:25:39] Alice: I understand
[23:25:53] Alice: Yes, only because you asked
[23:26:11] Alice: Okay then
[23:27:45] Alice: I do need to sleep, it's past 4am here and I have school in the morning
[23:28:01] Alice: Um if you want to, sure
[23:28:27] Alice: It makes sense anyway
[23:29:02] Alice: Yes, you can post if you're 100% sure that it won't backfire on me
[23:29:31] Alice: Thank you again, really
[23:29:35] Alice: You too
[23:30:12] Alice: Goodnight