Breakfast - Shattered ice

>You are Shimmer Light.
>The week of storms is over.
>None of your other journeys required saving, thank goodness.
>The winds weren't nearly as horrendous as... that day...
>You made a smoothie.
>The same smoothie she made for you.
>... Yours didn't hold a light to hers.
>You did everything the same way she did.
>Yours just didn't taste good.
>Once again, she's bested you.
>You're starting to lose faith in yourself.
>... You don't understand.
>You're the only one you've ever trusted.
>You're the only one you've ever cared about.
>You're the only one...
>You...
>...
>Hexferry is walking next to you.
>She seems to be talking, but you can't hear her.
>You aren't actively trying to ignore her, you're just too lost in thought.
>That's the only good thing to come out of this.
>You're ignoring her without even trying.
>It serves her right; she's the one who did this to you.
>... How could you let her do this?
>She's destroyed you.
>She's the one who made you lose yourself.
>You've lost who you are.
>... You doubt she even cares.
>She's having fun killing you.
>... You wonder how long you have bottle yourself up in your home before you fade from the living.
>No, you aren't giving up. You just... have to find who you are.
>Once you do, you'll be back to your usual self.
>... Whoever that is...
>...
>You feel a hoof on your back.
>Well, through all of your jackets.
>It's probably Hexferry.
>You try to keep moving forward, but the hoof pulls you back.
>... Are you really this weak?
>"Shimmer, what's wrong with you?!"
>Wrong? There's nothing right with you at the moment.
>You struggle against her grip.
>... Pathetic...
>She probably isn't even putting up a valiant effort.
>You can't get away.
>"You passed your house."
>... Did you?
>Sure enough, when you turn to look, your home is behind you now.
>You adjust yourself and head toward your home.
>... Hexferry stands in your way.

>Once again, she wears that same concerned look on her stupid, ugly face.
"M-move..."
>Is that your voice?!
>That sounded like a stray who got kicked too many times trying to stand up for itself.
>You need to get away.
>Now.
>... She noticed too.
>"Shimmer, what's wrong with you?"
>Her tone drips with pity.
>... No more.
>You've had far too much of this.
>You do your best to glare straight into her eyes.
>Give her the pain she's given you.
"You are!"
>Hexferry recoils back.
"I don't want friendship, I want solitude. I don't care about your stupid stories, I don't care about anything you do, and I don't care about yo-"
>You choke.
>... What?
>What?!
>You weren't even finished with your tirade!
>... It feels like something is caught in your throat.
>Like you're trying to swallow something but there's nothing there.
>You look down.
>She can't see you struggle.
>You cough a couple of times.
>"Shimmer!"
>Come on! You were so close, but she still won't leave you alone...
>... Your eyes feel... weird.
>Your vision is blurry, but not the same blurry you get when you think of the cold.
>The blurring moves with your trembling body.
>... You're trembling?!
>You feel the need to blink.
>Hexferry puts her hoof under your head and slowly lifts it to make you look at her.
>The blurring moved with gravity.
>Now, only the bottom of your vision is blurry.
>Very blurry.
>She has tears in her eyes.
>... Even through what you said, she still looks concerned.
>You try to start your last sentence again, but you can't even get a sound out.
>Your glare is almost nonexistent now.
>... Your face feels weird...
>It feels contorted.
>You can't control it.
>Luckily, your scarves are covering most of it.
>But...
>... You blink.
>Suddenly, the blurriness is gone, but you feel something stream from your eyes.
>It's not raining.
>... Your eyes widen.
>Your heart beats harder.
>It hurts.
>... You're crying.
>You... never cry.
>Hexferry isn't even fully crying!

>She only has tears in her eyes!
>You're...
>Hexferry moves your head to her chest.
>Her fur is so soft...
>It's unfortunate you're staining it with your tears.
>... You're the worst.
>You put a hoof on her back to try lifting yourself away from her.
>Instead, you hang on to her.
>... You're using her for support.
>You are a wreck.
>... You are weak...
>Hexferry puts her head on yours.
>She seems to be pulling you somewhere.
>Your legs blindly follow her lead.
>You hear some sounds, but you can't pinpoint what they are.
>If you were in a better state of mind, you could.
>...
>You feel your leg bump into something soft.
>"Shimmer, lay down here."
>... You don't take orders from...
>You slowly pull away from her chest.
>That's your couch.
>Probably.
>Your sight is still very blurry.
>You can only imaging how soaked her fur is...
>Hexferry helps you onto the couch.
>... You bury your face in a pillow.
>Never in your life have you felt this...
>Useless.
>Pathetic.
>... Hurt...
>Hexferry gently grabs one of your hooves.
>You slowly look up from your pillow.
>She looks the same as before... but also hurt.
>Your words did get to her.
>... Unfortunately, they don't have much weight behind them by now.
>You're just a crying mess.
>... You turn back to the pillow.
>At least it doesn't pity you.
>It doesn't think your a sniveling pile of filth.
>It doesn't...
>...
>Eventually, your crying stops.
>You inhale deeply.
>... Then let it out.
>Slowly...
>You take off your layers of clothing one by one.
>Every sock, scarf, hat, jacket...
>Everything.
>You just toss them to the floor next to Hexferry.
>... You assume.
>Your face is still in the pillow, so you obviously can't see.
>She must have let go at some point, because you don't feel her anymore.
>You look up.
>... She's gone.
>You close your eyes and sigh.
>So badly... you just want to die.