LeftHandThinking

Here we are back again on monday.

Today has been a day.  Been a rough 2 weeks for me.  I can't really say more than that at this point and hopefully it will get better.

I started playing osu again, which is a huge mistake.  I reinstalled it like a month ago because at least one person i played with reinstalled as well.  Now im spiraling back into hating myself and playing osu for hours at a time.  Today my hand started to feel like it was broken again which is a really bad thing because i stopped playing osu in the first place because my fingers and wrist were suffering.  also my mentality regarding the game is really bad.  its just not a good thing.  I keep telling myself that if i can "just get one score" ill have closure and stop, but that's probably not true.  I've come really close to breaking my tablet in half, both out of frustration and because i know it will actually get me to stop.

On a positive note, I've been playing dead by daylight with RibbedKilla and Sumi and crew and its been really really fun, even if the queue times are literally twice as long as the games.  If you want to play dbd with me please let me know I will definitely play.

Work is going fine.  I still feel the same indifference toward my job, but I dont wake up dreading every morning.

The potential job search for something different had a bit of a pause but hopefully it will resume soon.

I'm happy for all my friends who are moving into a new phase of their life.  Speedhouses own.  These few months that mpg has been here have been really amazing.

I guess thats all for now.  See you next monday.

Heres a song for you:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z87qpUpplYw