Such a funny mistake.

	When people are in love with someone, and I mean in love for real, they would do ANYTHING for that person. But you know what they say? The people who love their boyfriend/girlfriend more are the rug. Their boyfriend/girlfriend is basically the boss of them. I never really believed in that before, honestly. But it's sad because I believe it in now. Have you ever been so faithful to someone? Meaning, you stopped talking to any friends and stopped talking to basically anyone so you can stay devoted to your loved one? I regret doing that. Why? Because for nearly two years I stayed faithful and devoted to someone, but at the same time this person gave their attention and heart to other people. Isn't it funny how at that moment, your loved one isn't even thinking about you. They didn't bother to think about your love for them. All they cared about was themselves. At that moment you'll begin to wonder "Why did this happen to me? I tried so hard." But how come I was so stupid enough to be the best I could be for someone who constantly complained about me? How come I tried so hard to change myself so I could keep this person in my life? How could this person even complain about me when I didn't break such promises? Whoever you are, if you're reading this then you must know what I'm talking about if you've loved someone so much that you would do such crazy things for them. This person that I loved so much, they didn't need me at certain points. They had other friends and other people to talk to and to flirt with. I was completely worthless to this person. Heh, I nearly gave up on this person. But did I? Nope. This person told me their self "I don't want to be with you anymore." and trust me I did cry. I cried so much. Yet I let this person know that I still loved them and needed them. I typed a huge paragraph to this person. I cried so much. I don't mean to type so much here. I just don't know what else to do anymore. Because for almost 2 years I had to deal with my emotions by myself. Maybe spoke to a few close friends. But mostly had to bear with it alone. Can you believe that I gave so much to this person, that they didn't do the same back? People say "Relationships are about giving and taking." I did too much giving. I was nearly such a pushover for this person. How come I had to be the one to step up so much? How come I had to be the one to type so much to you? How come I was still able to know why I loved you so much? You yelled at me constantly, you always complained to me, you always pointed out my flaws. Sometimes I never forget the times I had to disobey my own mother just to please this person. In the end I got a bloody nose and a few bruises. I would go through that just for this person I loved. But hey looks like it did nothing! Why do faithful people always lose? How come we have to deal with so much heartbreak? Why do I even deserve this? I did something that I wasn't supposed to. I gave myself a little reminder, on my arm. Something to remind myself to never come back to this. Something to remind me that I shouldn't make the same mistake in my life. And I'm definitely not talking about this reminder on my arm. I'm talking about the pathetic and miserable time I had to go through from 2013-2014. Things weren't always this way. There was a time where everything was perfect and fine. But it seems like I was the only one who kept their heart in the same place. What are you supposed to do when this person you loved tells you that they're bored? What are you supposed to do when this person constantly leaves after they hurt you? Why is it I had to always come back and fix it, yet you never did the same? I always kept my heart in the same place because I loved you so much. I waited patiently for the day you'll realize that you need to step up. I've waited for the day you see what I went through. Because of this reminder on my arm, you suddenly feel bad. But that's all it took? I won't let you back in my heart, I won't keep you in my memories anymore, I'll hug my pillow and think of someone else soon, I'll shred every last piece of love I had for you. Because I waited too long for a miracle. Instead of a fair relationship, all I got was bullshit. I was the best girlfriend you ever had. I not once ever broke your trust so badly, nor did I ever leave you after I made a mistake. I always came back to you. I always cherished every little-to-big memory in my heart and mind, I always knew why I loved you, I always gave in to you, I always expressed my inch of my heart to you. I tried so hard and dealt with your flaws. I accepted you even through the heartbreaking things you've done. You had me wrapped around your finger. Then you threw me away. I did what I had to do. Now you're going to remember what you've done. Farewell, to you. Thank you for the painful memories. Thank you for letting me know I wasted my effort for nearly 2 years. I will no longer think of you from this moment. You'll be far than just an ex, you'll be non-existent. The pain of the relationship will remain on my arm until it fades.
Goodbye.