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- 10:08 PM - Perfect.: there is nothing i want to do
- 10:08 PM - Perfect.: its the end
- 10:08 PM - TheBurningBanana: Was cleaning keyboard sorry about that
- 10:09 PM - Perfect.: after this year everything is over
- 10:08 PM - TheBurningBanana: Why after this year
- 10:09 PM - Perfect.: no more school
- 10:09 PM - Perfect.: school is as far as i feel like i can go
- 10:09 PM - TheBurningBanana: How fit are you
- 10:09 PM - TheBurningBanana: Not mentally
- 10:09 PM - TheBurningBanana: Physically
- 10:10 PM - Perfect.: i used to be fit
- 10:10 PM - Perfect.: but probably not anymore
- 10:10 PM - Perfect.: i look it, but whether i am is debatable
- 10:10 PM - TheBurningBanana: And how did you do in year 10 maths and english
- 10:11 PM - Perfect.: ive failed
- 10:11 PM - Perfect.: everything
- 10:11 PM - Perfect.: between year 8
- 10:11 PM - Perfect.: and 12
- 10:11 PM - TheBurningBanana: Was that because of distractions, depression, anxiety
- 10:11 PM - Perfect.: mostly
- 10:12 PM - Perfect.: more recent years were due to depression
- 10:12 PM - Perfect.: the earlier years was because i was stupid (this is when i was with my mum still)
- 10:12 PM - TheBurningBanana: You know, you were in good physical health, which should be easily recoverable
- 10:13 PM - TheBurningBanana: The military is always an option
- 10:13 PM - TheBurningBanana: All you gotta do is the year 10 equivalency test
- 10:13 PM - TheBurningBanana: Pass that then you gotta do the aptitude test
- 10:14 PM - Perfect.: >implying im not going to die after the end of this year
- 10:14 PM - TheBurningBanana: End of the year huh
- 10:14 PM - TheBurningBanana: that gives me little less than 11 months
- 10:16 PM - TheBurningBanana: Taken the fact that I dont go for the army before than
- 10:21 PM - Perfect.: its going to take a miracle to change my view on everything
- 10:21 PM - TheBurningBanana: Then it is a miracle i will ask for
- 10:21 PM - TheBurningBanana: But for now
- 10:21 PM - TheBurningBanana: Baby steps
- 10:22 PM - Perfect.: there is nothing for me after this year
- 10:22 PM - TheBurningBanana: What about your gf
- 10:23 PM - Perfect.: thats not a future is it
- 10:23 PM - Perfect.: i mean
- 10:23 PM - Perfect.: thats not going to last forever
- 10:23 PM - TheBurningBanana: Well you dont start off with marriage
- 10:23 PM - TheBurningBanana: You gotta start somewhere
- 10:24 PM - Perfect.: i fuck up everything
- 10:26 PM - TheBurningBanana: Now you listen here mister
- 10:26 PM - TheBurningBanana: You are one of the strongest people I know
- 10:26 PM - TheBurningBanana: Don't you argue just yet
- 10:27 PM - TheBurningBanana: You are also one of the nicest people I know
- 10:27 PM - TheBurningBanana: Sure you've had your ups and downs with friends
- 10:27 PM - Perfect.: nah man im weak af
- 10:27 PM - TheBurningBanana: But you still have them
- 10:28 PM - Perfect.: as for niceness, i have no comment other than i dont really know
- 10:27 PM - TheBurningBanana: How are you weak
- 10:28 PM - Perfect.: gullible and manipulative
- 10:28 PM - TheBurningBanana: That aint weak
- 10:28 PM - TheBurningBanana: Thats just cunts exploiting you
- 10:28 PM - TheBurningBanana: Fuck em
- 10:28 PM - TheBurningBanana: They're a bunch of cunts
- 10:29 PM - TheBurningBanana: As for me next point you are flawed, everyone has they're flaws, me, i just talk shit to people and not expect them to be hurt
- 10:29 PM - TheBurningBanana: As for your flaw
- 10:29 PM - TheBurningBanana: Gullible and Manipulative
- 10:30 PM - TheBurningBanana: Like you said
- 10:30 PM - TheBurningBanana: And when people find that out, depending if they are as previously stated, a cunt, they will try to exploit those flaws
- 10:30 PM - TheBurningBanana: So nah, you arent weak
- 10:30 PM - TheBurningBanana: Your human
- 10:31 PM - Perfect.: i should of just like kept to myself
- 10:31 PM - Perfect.: never make friends
- 10:31 PM - TheBurningBanana: lol am i annoying now
- 10:32 PM - TheBurningBanana: But lets take a look at what would have happened if you never made friends
- 10:32 PM - TheBurningBanana: You said you stopped someone from cutting
- 10:32 PM - TheBurningBanana: Where would they be
- 10:33 PM - Perfect.: idk
- 10:33 PM - TheBurningBanana: I doubt it would be a good place
- 10:33 PM - TheBurningBanana: Root said you have helped him on many personal problems
- 10:33 PM - TheBurningBanana: As he has done for you
- 10:34 PM - TheBurningBanana: Where would you two be without your friendship
- 10:35 PM - Perfect.: if i didnt make friends id be dead or so close to it
- 10:36 PM - Perfect.: and rust look, im slowly losing them (trina and root at least)
- 10:36 PM - Perfect.: caca is like the only one im certain on that wont leavce me anytime soon
- 10:37 PM - Perfect.: just*
- 10:36 PM - TheBurningBanana: You see, your life choices, making friends with this person, helping this person, etc etc, have all led to this very point in time and sure you wish you could go back and change a few choices, everyone does, but the thing is, all those choices must have been damn well close to good because you got the support of so many people
- 10:38 PM - Perfect.: i should of just kept to myself man, i shouldnt have met caca, trina or root
- 10:38 PM - Perfect.: i should of just stuck to dr
- 10:38 PM - Perfect.: and stayed the loner that i should of been
- 10:38 PM - TheBurningBanana: Who determined that you would be a loner
- 10:39 PM - Perfect.: me
- 10:38 PM - TheBurningBanana: Then why did you make friends
- 10:39 PM - Perfect.: it was an accident
- 10:39 PM - TheBurningBanana: You cant help yourself but help someone else
- 10:39 PM - TheBurningBanana: Even if you are in equal/worse situations
- 10:40 PM - Perfect.: it was a mistake, like i am
- 10:39 PM - TheBurningBanana: Thats bloody strong if i've seen it
- 10:40 PM - Perfect.: i shouldnt have done it
- 10:40 PM - Perfect.: should of kept to myself
- 10:40 PM - TheBurningBanana: Stop lookin at the past because you cant fully live in the present if a bit of you is still in the past
- 10:41 PM - Perfect.: i regret caring about people
- 10:42 PM - Perfect.: i told myself i wouldnt let myself do that again
- 10:43 PM - Perfect.: now look ay, all i do is just hurt people, and get hurt back when they respond to it
- 10:43 PM - TheBurningBanana: Who have you hurt recently
- 10:44 PM - Perfect.: i hurt fucking everyone
- 10:44 PM - Perfect.: how recent are you talking
- 10:44 PM - Perfect.: last month recent?
- 10:44 PM - TheBurningBanana: Something like that
- 10:45 PM - Perfect.: yeah i hurt trina pretty bad iirc
- 10:45 PM - Perfect.: hurt caca
- 10:45 PM - Perfect.: im sure there are more i hurt
- 10:45 PM - Perfect.: just from being around them
- 10:45 PM - TheBurningBanana: Havent hurt me and we've been talking pretty regularly the past few days
- 10:46 PM - Perfect.: nah, not yet
- 10:46 PM - Perfect.: give it time, ill slip up
- 10:46 PM - Perfect.: honestly ive probably hurt danny a few times as well
- 10:46 PM - TheBurningBanana: Nah you arent gonna hurt me
- 10:47 PM - Perfect.: thats what trina and caca said
- 10:47 PM - Perfect.: yet i still managed it
- 10:46 PM - TheBurningBanana: I dont got much left to be hurt by
- 10:46 PM - TheBurningBanana: Been called a fucking retarted idiot by almost everyone my entire life
- 10:47 PM - TheBurningBanana: Used to be bullied by some diqhed named Brandon or something
- 10:48 PM - Perfect.: at least you werent the bully, its really hard
- 10:48 PM - TheBurningBanana: Yeah hes mum was a teacher so he had bloody diplomatic immunity
- 10:49 PM - Perfect.: but ill never get better, this is just how i am now
- 10:50 PM - Perfect.: until obviously that one day comes where i take too mny pills and then regret it and rip
- 10:53 PM - TheBurningBanana: Thats what im here for aint it
- 10:56 PM - TheBurningBanana: I have this weird feeling like im missing something
- 10:58 PM - TheBurningBanana: Your abusive parents made you feel extremely depressed and scared, starting all this, you go through school like a normal kid until things start getting worse and worse
- 10:58 PM - TheBurningBanana: But what made it get worse and worse
- 11:00 PM - Perfect.: i get hurt
- 11:00 PM - Perfect.: when i lose people i care about
- 11:00 PM - Perfect.: and i feel ive lost almost everyone
- 11:00 PM - Perfect.: even though i havent
- 11:00 PM - TheBurningBanana: Who havent you lost
- 11:01 PM - Perfect.: idk anymore
- 11:01 PM - TheBurningBanana: Well for starters you still got a gf
- 11:01 PM - TheBurningBanana: And you say you still got a solid relationship with Caca
- 11:01 PM - TheBurningBanana: so theres 2 already
- 11:01 PM - Perfect. is now playing Garry's Mod. Click here to join.
- 11:02 PM - TheBurningBanana: Trina, Root, Darth, Snipe
- 11:02 PM - TheBurningBanana: Theres another 4
- 11:02 PM - TheBurningBanana: Danny
- 11:02 PM - TheBurningBanana: makes 7
- 11:03 PM - Perfect.: idk about trina, root or darth honestly
- 11:03 PM - TheBurningBanana: Why not
- 11:05 PM - Perfect.: i just dont know
- 11:05 PM - TheBurningBanana: 10:05 PM - Root: I care for perfect for so many reasons
- 10:06 PM - Root: the fact he's helped me through lots of problems
- 10:06 PM - Root: and just alot of more private reasons
- 11:05 PM - TheBurningBanana: 10:11 PM - Delta 4: he is a good friend
- 10:11 PM - Delta 4: one of the best
- 10:12 PM - Delta 4: imo he is the reason why I am here
- 10:12 PM - Delta 4: why I am in DF
- 10:12 PM - Delta 4: and why I play DR
- 11:06 PM - TheBurningBanana: Darth wasnt on when i was asking those around
- 11:07 PM - TheBurningBanana: Okay Root i can see i mean he was very broad with his answers so that either means
- 11:07 PM - TheBurningBanana: a) hes not all too close to you as you may suspect
- 11:07 PM - TheBurningBanana: b) he wants to keep the specifics private
- 11:11 PM - Perfect. is now playing Garry's Mod. Click here to join.
- 11:12 PM - Perfect.: idk anymore
- 11:13 PM - TheBurningBanana: So thats 4 on the definate list
- 11:13 PM - TheBurningBanana: And 3 on the maybe list
- 11:14 PM - Perfect.: idk about trina anymore
- 11:14 PM - TheBurningBanana: If you dont mind me asking what did you guys fight about
- 11:15 PM - Perfect.: who?
- 11:15 PM - TheBurningBanana: Trina, well how did you hurt Trina or what happened
- 11:16 PM - Perfect.: me just being me hurt them, me being the dicky person i am
- 11:16 PM - TheBurningBanana: Did you like insult Trina or something
- 11:18 PM - Perfect.: no
- 11:18 PM - Perfect.: i was just a cunt
- 11:18 PM - Perfect.: i treated them like crap
- 11:18 PM - Perfect.: i brought it on myself
- 11:19 PM - Perfect.: ive tried to change myself to prevent it happening
- 11:19 PM - TheBurningBanana: Hard isnt it
- 11:20 PM - Perfect.: they thought i was just accepting their help but didnt give a fuck about them
- 11:20 PM - Perfect.: which was the opposite but i didnt show that at all
- 11:33 PM - TheBurningBanana: Alright im finding it really hard to keep my eyes open at this point because swimming
- 11:34 PM - Perfect.: night
- 11:33 PM - TheBurningBanana: But i suggest talking to Trina and asking for all bullshit aside and ask where your relationship stands
- 11:34 PM - TheBurningBanana: Same with Root and Trina and everyone else you dont know about
- 11:34 PM - TheBurningBanana: Gnight
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