[20:29:24] Angela: are you mad at me or smth o-o
[20:33:06] Lukas: what would lead you to the conclusion that i might be upset after you literally bullshit me 2 days after we talk about it, then you won't talk to me for 12 hrs straight and also proceed to do everything there is to do in bns without saying a word (facepalm) unless i missed the memo that "shower and shit" means talk to you tomorrow (sarcastic)
[20:35:16] Angela: o-o
[20:35:20] Angela: youre really mad about 1 day
[20:35:27] Lukas: im not mad
[20:35:33] Angela: what emotion
[20:35:43] Lukas: i wish i could tell
[20:36:02] Lukas: we literally talked about this
[20:36:11] Lukas: i told you you can say anything u wnt
[20:36:18] Lukas: just dont bullshit me and dont ignore me
[20:36:25] Lukas: and you do exactly those 2 things
[20:36:59] Lukas: like if you dont wanna talk to me thats fine just say it
[20:37:04] Lukas: if you wanna do shit with rob all day thats fine just say it
[20:37:27] Lukas: but dont say "shower and shit, ill let you know" and then literally 12 hrs later say hello like its normal
[20:37:47] Lukas: idk what to make of that you know
[20:37:53] Lukas: it just makes me feel like youre gently trying to be rid of me
[20:40:22] Angela: not rly
[20:40:26] Angela: I just don't feel the need to say
[20:40:27] Angela: o-o
[20:40:44] Lukas: oh ok i see
[20:41:03] Lukas: so "i will let you know" means "maybe we cna chat when i have nothing better to do" am i getting this right ?
[20:41:38] Lukas: u must truly care about me to do it like this
[20:41:51] Lukas: wonder how often you do that to rob..oh wait he would get angry and u cant have that Kappa
[20:44:29] Angela: not rly it doesn't mean that
[20:44:41] Lukas: im just trying to understand this u know
[20:45:02] Lukas: because in my book if you tell someone you will let them know you will at least let them know that you cant make it for whatever reason
[20:45:25] Lukas: you dont feel the need to say so you will rather just leave me hangin like yeh bro better figure it out all on ur own while ill pve
[20:45:48] Angela: that's just not how I am
[20:45:49] Angela: I guess
[20:45:52] Angela: what else can I tell you
[20:45:55] Angela: don't take it personally
[20:46:00] Angela: I literally just idk what to tell you
[20:46:40] Lukas: idk what to tell you either
[20:47:35] Lukas: i dont know what to think anymore.. again
[20:48:09] Lukas: ofc i will take it personally how can i not
[20:48:23] Lukas: u just bullshit me am i supposed to be like oh ok she lied to me thats gucci thats fine
[20:48:33] Lukas: we can talk again later like it never happened
[20:48:38] Lukas: this is expected of me ?
[20:49:26] Lukas: i literally never wanted anything from you but some of your time so we can talk.. and if you dont wanna talk or if youre going to be busy all i need is for you to tell me
[20:49:29] Lukas: is it really so hard to do that
[20:49:58] Lukas: is it really so hard to do it that you will rather just lie to me and then be like this is fine
[20:51:08] Lukas: am i supposed to be here like your pet waiting for you to throw a bone so we can talk a bit ? and then you just disappear at your leisure ?
[20:51:41] Angela: hey no
[20:52:48] Lukas: so how do you envision this ? we talk about honesty trust and communication and then you lie to me and dont communicate with me so what is this
[20:53:01] Lukas: im honestly just trying to understand this
[20:53:07] Lukas: im not mad .. im not even sad anymore
[20:53:11] Lukas: i just dont know whats going on
[20:54:00] Angela: ok well what can I even say
[20:54:02] Angela: what do you wanna hear
[20:54:23] Lukas: i wanna hear your thoughts lol
[20:54:26] Lukas: i dont wanna put shit in your mouth
[20:54:38] Lukas: just tell me what do you expect of this
[20:55:20] Lukas: because i literally feel like a sidekick pet thats happy when u toss a bone i can chew on for 15 minutes while you go attend to your boyfriend.. a guy you openly dislike even hate i might say
[20:56:01] Lukas: which is fine i mean give ur boyfriend all the attention he wants not my business but why ignore me in the process why arent you bothered to even tell me youre gonna be busy
[20:56:56] Lukas: you know i have feelings for you
[20:57:01] Angela: its just not how I work
[20:57:03] Lukas: so why are you trying to your hardest to betray them
[20:57:06] Angela: i didn't think you would be upset about it
[20:57:08] Angela: i mean
[20:57:09] Angela: idk
[20:57:12] Angela: idk what to answer
[20:57:50] Lukas: so how do you work ?! HOW
[20:57:59] Lukas: you seem to have no trouble tending to rob and putting up with his shit
[20:58:01] Lukas: ALL DAY
[20:58:02] Lukas: EVERY DAY
[20:58:17] Lukas: but apparently when it comes to just casually talking to me inbetween dungeons with him or whatever thats just not how you work
[20:59:12] Angela: its not that
[20:59:26] Angela: i hardly even talk to rob
[20:59:32] Angela: sure he calls me sometimes
[20:59:36] Angela: but when not i don't even text chat him
[21:00:31] Lukas: sometimes? im pretty sure you do like all purples everyday and i doubt hed do it without calling you lol but yeah what other choice do i have than to trust u right
[21:00:37] Lukas: so how do you work give me a nice explanation
[21:00:39] Lukas: a good one
[21:00:50] Lukas: one that wont make me question the universe i spawned in
[21:01:39] Angela: i don't have an explanation
[21:02:35] Lukas: amazing
[21:02:40] Lukas: im so torn right now idk
[21:02:48] Angela: ._.
[21:03:00] Lukas: i wanted to nto talk to you for a few days to set my mind straight but i cant bring myself to do it
[21:03:03] Lukas: and it
[21:03:09] Lukas: hurts me so much
[21:03:12] Lukas: that youve literally no problem
[21:03:14] Lukas: with that
[21:03:33] Lukas: just idk
[21:03:38] Lukas: how am i supposed to feel about this ?!
[21:04:00] Lukas: am i supposed to just say ok thats fine everytime you lie to me and then go on and disappear ?
[21:04:06] Lukas: pls
[21:05:23] Lukas: are you actually telling me that you dont talk to rob that much which means you talk to me more than you talk to him ? and im supposedto believe that ? that you wont talk to him like this ? he would go fucking nuts if that was the case unless he called you a bitch again or something
[21:05:48] Lukas: i mean if you say so, ill believe it you know i trust you but.. even i have my limits
[21:07:59] Lukas: just be honest with me pls
[21:08:29] Angela: I'm not saying that i talk to you more
[21:08:30] Angela: im just saying
[21:08:36] Angela: i don't reply to him for days sometimes
[21:08:38] Angela: its nothing personal
[21:09:25] Lukas: so i should srsly be like "this is normal" everytime you do this ?
[21:10:05] Lukas: i dont know is it just me being too demanding here for wanting to know if we can talk or not
[21:10:34] Lukas: idk........im so on edge i cant think straight
[21:11:01] Angela: i0i
[21:11:05] Angela: just over me afkin for a day?
[21:11:07] Angela: or just not replying
[21:11:08] Angela: o-o
[21:11:16] Lukas: u
[21:11:17] Lukas: lied to me
[21:11:23] Lukas: thats literally all this is about
[21:11:38] Lukas: i ask you if we can do something
[21:11:46] Lukas: u say YES LET ME TAKE A SHOWER AND SHIT AND ILL LET YOU KNOW
[21:11:49] Lukas: and then ure gone
[21:11:55] Lukas: so this isnt a lie in ur book ?
[21:12:02] Angela: not rly o-o i mean i do take a shower
[21:12:20] Lukas: well sure i dont doubt that
[21:12:30] Lukas: what about the let you know part :thinking:
[21:12:45] Lukas: i mean ok i guess "shit" can mean "lemme just be alone for 12hrs"
[21:13:45] Lukas: you know you can jsut answer "ill talk to you when ill have some time" or "idk about right now maybe later" theres fucking plethora of things you can say that dont sound like "ill let you know whats up in 30~ min"
[21:14:18] Lukas: you know it just makes me feel like you dont give a flying fuck about me and that just hurts so much
[21:14:23] Lukas: cause i do give a fuck.. quite a few actually