Sam and Shula: Akram's worries

[14:37]	Sam	Febuary 15th, 1:32pm. Pilot Housing
[14:37]	Sam	heads to his and Shula's room, hopeing to catch Shula within.
[14:39]	Shula	is there, currently lying on her back and mouthing words to herself as she tries to read on her pda
[14:39]	Sam	sits down next to her. "Hey, you mind if I interupt you for a bit here?"
[14:44]	Shula	"No, I don't mind, was just trying to read better"
[14:45]	Shula	smiles at him and puts the pda away
[14:45]	Sam	"I'm proud of that as well." Sam lays back with a sigh. "Can I ask you something?"
[14:46]	Shula	"I am not stopping you"
[14:49]	Sam	"What is so important, to you, about being married?"
[14:51]	Shula	"I.. it is hard to say I.. I think it is in part. I.. fear something childish it .I want it for me because. I.. never thought I would have it"
[14:51]	Sam	"Is that the only reason?"
[14:52]	Sam	"I just. . I know my reasons, and I think I know some of yours, but I want to make sure I know them here."
[14:53]	Shula	"I.. . It is hard to find words for them its.."
[14:54]	Sam	"It's alright, take your time. [Speak as best can, so not say wrong, if help.]"
[14:55]	Shula	[It.. in a way it is also to show it to the world, to us , to good its.. argh.. I can't say it right]
[14:56]	Shula	grumbles and and hits the pillow with her fist
[15:02]	Shula	"It is about.. having you.. in a different way. We.. I want it because it is more, because the thought ofbeing your wife makes me feel.. save.."
[15:04]	Sam	"That what we have now, isn't enough for us, is it? I mean, it is, but we want more than that, and we can take it. We want more, we've lived on enough for too long, haven't we?"
[15:10]	Shula	"Yes.. the other.. It.. feels as if they have dreams that it will get more and better and.. The dream more beautifull then I do"
[15:11]	Sam	"Hope. You think that this will be a good thing, it will make things better for us, don't you?" Sam nods "There's a diffrence between being engaged and us being married for the two of us as well. It. . it means something more."
[15:12]	Shula	"Yesss"
[15:12]	Shula	nods
[15:13]	Sam	"So why now? Why not wait intill things are safe and secure for us?"
[15:16]	Shula	"I... "
[15:17]	Shula	"Because I want to, Because I am greedy and stupid in that regard?"
[15:19]	Sam	nods "Not greedy, nor stupid I think. I have the same reason as well here. We want to do this. Sometimes that's reason enough."
[15:23]	Shula	"Because it is ours.."
[15:24]	Sam	"Yes, this is our choice to make. *If* this is a mistake, then it is ours to make." Sam pulls Shula into a hug "Thank you for answering that Shula."
[15:25]	Shula	"I.. am not sure if I did good"
[15:27]	Sam	"I don't think your reasons are wrong love." Sam pats Shula's back. "Akram talked to me this morning, about the marriage. He asked me the same questions I asked you. He thinks we are making a mistake, and he told me why. His concerns are valid Shula, but it's funny. Some of the reasons he gave for us to wait, for why this is a mistake, in his mind, are some of the same reasons I think we...
[15:27]	Sam	...shouldn't wait."
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[15:29]	Shula	"My brother is like Irune sometimes a bit.. Silly with there concerns and fears, she .. feared that we are not having a life without us "
[15:30]	Sam	"Well Irune was right, at least on my end of things. Not now, not anymore, but she was."
[15:34]	Shula	"But.. why does it matter as we where there before we had each other"
[15:35]	Sam	"Look, I'm just trying to say that your brother's concerns are not unfounded. Many of the reasons why he thinks we shouldn't are reasons why I think we should. He's just seeing the same thing from a different angle than we are, and so he is getting a different answer from it then we are."
[15:45]	Shula	"I,, it yes.."
[15:45]	Shula	rolls against him
[15:46]	Sam	"He . . he was pretty upset actually. He couldn't convince me to wait, and he is convinced we are making a grave mistake, and that he failed to stop it. I think that hurt him, because he does care about us." Sam puts his arms around her.
[16:00]	Shula	wimpers and hugs him
[16:03]	Sam	"I don't know if he plans on talking to you or not, or if you are thinking of talking to him. A part of me wants to forbid it, because I'm afraid he's too convincing. . . But I won't. If you think you should talk to him, if you wish to, then do so. I will only warn you that it may hurt for him because he will feel as though he failed."
[16:08]	Shula	"I..."
[16:08]	Shula	nods