Nick thinks Faerzen died, Faerzen opens up, & makeouts ensue

[21:06]  * solemnSketcher began pestering VisceralVanguard
[21:06] <solemnSketcher> FAERZEN
[21:06] <solemnSketcher> FAERZEN FAERZEN FAERZEN
[21:06] <solemnSketcher> ARE YOU OKAY?
[21:06] <solemnSketcher> FAERZEN?
[21:09] <solemnSketcher_> FAERZEN PLEASE ANSWER THIS AS SOON AS YOU CAN
[21:10] <Faerzen_Norstov> <there's no immediate answer>
[21:11] <solemnSketcher_> oh god...
[21:13] <solemnSketcher_> ...i guess... you are really gone now... aren't you...
[21:13] <solemnSketcher_> well... i guess... i should... say something...
[21:13] <Faerzen_Norstov> <about a minute has passed>
[21:14] <solemnSketcher_> <about a minute? i'd say it's around 10>
[21:14] <solemnSketcher_> well... first of all... ill miss you
[21:14] <solemnSketcher_> ill... ill miss you so fucking much its ridiculous
[21:15] <solemnSketcher_> if i was presented the choice of bringing you back... even if it meant my death... i would... you... you helped me so fucking much...
[21:16] <solemnSketcher_> you were the... first person... to actually show interest in me... and i dont mean romantic interest... i just mean... that you were the first person to actually care about me...
[21:16] <solemnSketcher_> and that made me care about you..
[21:17] <solemnSketcher_> even if... even if it wasn't for that exact reason...
[21:18] <solemnSketcher_> even if i first was just another acquaintance at first... you always were there from the beginning... did you feel the same for me at first?...
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> i.... i dont want to know now.... i... i just want you to be okay...
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> because without you...
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> im... im afraid
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> ...faerzen
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> please be okay
[21:20] <visceralVanguard> Nick?
[21:20] <visceralVanguard> How are you able to contact me?
[21:20] <solemnSketcher_> <no response at first>
[21:20] <visceralVanguard> OH GOD
[21:20] <visceralVanguard> I just read what you wrote
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> I'm not dead
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> holy jurgen fuck I'm so sorry
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> ...
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> I would have replied sooner if I'd realized this was what was wrong!
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> are... are my eyes decieving me
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> Oh god I feel so awful
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> FAERZEN?
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> No!
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> ...FAERZEN
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> It's me, in the flesh.
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> WHERE ARE YOU
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> ARE YOU OKAY?
[21:21] <visceralVanguard> Somehow I got teleported off of Prospit.
[21:22] <visceralVanguard> I've been quite tangled in some..... unpleasant matters.
[21:22] <visceralVanguard> I am on what I presume to be Lyra's land.
[21:22] <visceralVanguard> Oh god.
[21:22] <solemnSketcher_> give... give me a second okay?... i... i think im cryimg again.
[21:22] <visceralVanguard> I'm so sorry
[21:22] <visceralVanguard> Nobody should ever have to go through that.
[21:22] <solemnSketcher_> fuck... why wont the fucking tears stop...
[21:23] <solemnSketcher_> im so glad you are okay
[21:23] <solemnSketcher_> wait....
[21:23] <solemnSketcher_> did... did you say lyra's planet?
[21:25] <visceralVanguard> Yes, I did
[21:25] <visceralVanguard> I do not know for sure, but judging her land is where she just was previously
[21:25] <solemnSketcher_> well... call me a pidgeon and fucking paint me bright pink
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> im there
[21:26] <visceralVanguard> Now I am here as well, it seems logical that is where I am
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> faerzen
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> where.
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> i must know.
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> now
[21:26] <visceralVanguard> Calm down, Nick.
[21:26] <visceralVanguard> Though I feel terrible saying that.
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> sorry sorry...
[21:26] <solemnSketcher_> im... im still freaking out
[21:26] <visceralVanguard> No, I shouldn't have even mentioned it.
[21:26] <visceralVanguard> Rightfully so.
[21:26] <visceralVanguard> I was basically a complete ass for making you think that.
[21:27] <solemnSketcher_> ...
[21:28] <solemnSketcher_> why.... why do you say so?
[21:28] <visceralVanguard> I should have sent you a message in the hopes that you would eventually find a communication device to read it.
[21:28] <solemnSketcher_> ...oh.
[21:28] <visceralVanguard> Because I got distracted.
[21:28] <visceralVanguard> I shouldn't have put this joke of a mess ahead of trying to make sure you were okay.
[21:29] <visceralVanguard> I'm.... I'm sorry.
[21:29] <solemnSketcher_> can you just tell me where you are so i can hug you already?
[21:30] <visceralVanguard> Well, Lyra was in her house, and then she walked about half a mile away along a clifftop, and then she descended into a cave, and then she came back out.
[21:30] <visceralVanguard> So I would estimate she is about half a mile from her house, so start looking there.
[21:30] <visceralVanguard> We are currently near the edge of one of the cliffs.
[21:30] <solemnSketcher_> oh.
[21:30] <visceralVanguard> Nick.
[21:30] <solemnSketcher_> yes faerzen?
[21:30] <visceralVanguard> I know this is going to come off oddly.
[21:31] <visceralVanguard> And it probably isn't what you want to hear right now.
[21:31] <visceralVanguard> But I'm not sure it would be the best for you to come here right now.
[21:31] <visceralVanguard> There are all ready too many people here, and Lyra is making a right mess of everything.
[21:31] <visceralVanguard> I am afraid she will try and drag you into it too
[21:31] <visceralVanguard> That is why I am here.
[21:31] <solemnSketcher_> please tell me this isn't related to the abyss bullshit
[21:32] <visceralVanguard> I cannot refute that assertion.
[21:32] <solemnSketcher_> can you promise me two things?
[21:32] <solemnSketcher_> just two things
[21:33] <visceralVanguard> I would like to, but I'm afraid it depends on what they are.
[21:33] <visceralVanguard> I'm really sorry, Nick.
[21:33] <visceralVanguard> That doesn't even do justice to it though, does it!
[21:33] <visceralVanguard> I don't even know what to say other than that, though.
[21:33] <solemnSketcher_> ...they are just really small things
[21:33] <solemnSketcher_> dont worry, im sure you can keep your word
[21:33] <solemnSketcher_> first of all... i want you to be safe
[21:33] <solemnSketcher_> stay out of harm's way.
[21:34] <visceralVanguard> I will do everything in my power to maintain my safety.
[21:34] <solemnSketcher_> second... you owe me the best hug and kiss you have had in your entire life
[21:34] <visceralVanguard> :)
[21:34] <solemnSketcher_> the huggiest fucking hug ever
[21:34] <solemnSketcher_> promise?
[21:35] <visceralVanguard> I can do that :)
[21:35] <visceralVanguard> Also
[21:35] <visceralVanguard> Hmmm
[21:35] <visceralVanguard> I promise :)
[21:35] <solemnSketcher_> :)
[21:35] <solemnSketcher_> that's... that's so much better.... GOD i was worried...
[21:36] <visceralVanguard> I'm glad you contacted me when you did
[21:36] <visceralVanguard> I feel awful.....
[21:36] <solemnSketcher_> ...im still crying though. this is ridiculous
[21:36] <solemnSketcher_> awful?
[21:36] <visceralVanguard> No, it's not
[21:37] <visceralVanguard> I miss you. :(
[21:37] <visceralVanguard> I wish I could be back on Prospit with you and not tangled up in all of this.
[21:37] <visceralVanguard> I am legitimately sick to my stomach right now.
[21:37] <visceralVanguard> Of course I feel awful!
[21:37] <solemnSketcher_> :/
[21:37] <visceralVanguard> I do not mean to belittle your feelings, Nick, but I know. I understand.
[21:38] <visceralVanguard> I know what it feels like to have someone you love taken away right in front of your eyes only to find out later they were okay all along.
[21:38] <visceralVanguard> It's not pretty. At all.
[21:38] <visceralVanguard> And I did that to you.
[21:38] <visceralVanguard> I even specifically told myself I didn't want anyone else to have to go through that.
[21:39] <solemnSketcher_> but... it isn't your fault!
[21:39] <visceralVanguard> And here I am, the culprit myself.
[21:39] <solemnSketcher_> just... bullshit reasons of... whatever the fuck happened
[21:39] <visceralVanguard> I dare say you are handling this better than I did.
[21:39] <solemnSketcher_> im really not
[21:40] <solemnSketcher_> im somehow still crying my eyes out.
[21:40] <visceralVanguard> Me disappearing was apparently unavoidable, unfortunately, but I could have contacted you immediately so you would not worry.
[21:41] <solemnSketcher_> you could have... but... you were busy.
[21:41] <solemnSketcher_> important business
[21:49] <visceralVanguard> That sounds familiar.
[21:49] <visceralVanguard> I know I already have said this many times, but I'm sorry.
[21:50] <visceralVanguard> More like unfortunately dramatic and crucial folly"
[21:51] <solemnSketcher> isn't everything a bunch of dramatic and stupid bullshit all the time?
[21:51] <solemnSketcher> i... i really need a shower.
[21:51] <visceralVanguard> Well, when it involves Lyra, usually, yes.
[21:52] <visceralVanguard> Where are you?
[21:52] <visceralVanguard> Are you at home?
[21:52] <solemnSketcher> im at a "gas station"
[21:52] <solemnSketcher> or atleast that's what lyra said it was
[21:53] <solemnSketcher> ...i smell like sweat, old blood... my clothes are ragged and my wings just wont stop shaking
[21:53] <visceralVanguard> What happened to your clothes?
[21:53] <visceralVanguard> I thought we just cleaned those!
[21:54] <solemnSketcher> it didn't help much for all the past tears... and.... i ripped one of my sleeves to bandage alex up
[21:54] <visceralVanguard> Oh that's right, I forgot about Alex.
[21:54] <visceralVanguard> Thank you for taking care of him.
[21:04] <solemnSketcher_> ill help in any way i can, be sure of it
[21:04] <solemnSketcher_> or any way i must if the situation required
[21:05] <@visceralVanguard> I am sure you will :)
[21:05] <solemnSketcher_> so... faerzen... can you see me trough your whatever you are using right now?
[21:06] <@visceralVanguard> Hmmmmm
[21:06] <@visceralVanguard> I can pull up SABATH here, yes.
[21:07] <@visceralVanguard> I rather forgot that was an application running on my glasses.
[21:07] <@visceralVanguard> Rather ironic, given everything we have been doing, is it not? ;)
[21:07] <solemnSketcher_> hmm... would you not for the next hour or so?
[21:07] <solemnSketcher_> :o
[21:08] <@visceralVanguard> Is something wrong?
[21:08] <@visceralVanguard> I see you right now. You do not appear that run down!
[21:08] <solemnSketcher_> ((yep, itshappening.jpg))
[21:09] <solemnSketcher_> well... i need to get this blood out of myself... the dirt out my boots and...
[21:09] <@visceralVanguard> Oh, that is perfectly reasonable!
[21:09] <@visceralVanguard> I will not bother you while you shower.
[21:09] <solemnSketcher_> ...cool down... yeah. im still somewhat freaking out
[21:09] <solemnSketcher_> shower? i dont think there are showers here
[21:10] <@visceralVanguard> You can quickly make the rounds through the gates perhaps and meet me at my house?
[21:10] <@visceralVanguard> I know you have painful memories of my shower, but I assure you my house is more than hospitable. :)
[21:10] <solemnSketcher_> ...sounds like a nice idea :)
[21:11] <solemnSketcher_> but... ehhh... just dont watch sabath for a time
[21:12] <@visceralVanguard> I am certain I will be preoccupied with other things, regardless.
[21:12] <@visceralVanguard> Do not worry about it.
[21:13] <@visceralVanguard> Just meet me at my house. :)
[21:13] <solemnSketcher_> ill see you there, bring yourself trough a few gates yourself if you have the chance
[21:14] <solemnSketcher_> :)
[21:14] <solemnSketcher_> i cant wait to see you smile.. wouldn't miss it for the world.
[21:14] <@visceralVanguard> Anything that would not involve leaving my dream self here does sound like a plan.
[21:15] <@visceralVanguard> I feel so exposed here.
[21:16] <solemnSketcher_> perhaps you would like to visit my home? it may not be anything remotely special in comparison to yours... but... it would be nice right?
[21:16] <@visceralVanguard> No offense, but I have seen your home and I would much prefer the security of my own house at the present.
[21:17] <solemnSketcher_> i promised i would teach you to forge didnt i?
[21:17] <@visceralVanguard> Yes, but I'm afraid now isn't the time. :)
[21:17] <solemnSketcher_> well... something to take our minds off from everything would be nice
[21:18] <solemnSketcher_> unless you have other ideas on how to spend that possibly free time?
[21:18] <@visceralVanguard> I still haven't properly shown you around my house!
[21:18] <@visceralVanguard> I would much prefer to stay in a place I know like the back of my hand that is secure and comforting at the moment.
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> that makes sense
[21:19] <@visceralVanguard> Thank you :)
[21:19] <solemnSketcher_> :)
[21:19] <@visceralVanguard> Lyra is currently occupying my mother's bedroom, and I mine
[21:20] <solemnSketcher_> oh.
[21:20] <@visceralVanguard> If Lyra is gone by the time you get there, feel free to resume your previous occupancy :)
[21:20] <@visceralVanguard> Otherwise feel free to use my bedroom for the time being.
[21:20] <solemnSketcher_> :)
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> perhaps you wouldn't mind... well, this will be weird
[21:21] <solemnSketcher_> perhaps you wouldnt mind if we slept in proximity to each other next time we have the chance?
[21:22] <@visceralVanguard> Well we did on Prospit that one time :)
[21:22] <@visceralVanguard> I would like that, yes
[21:23] <solemnSketcher_> :)
[21:23] <@visceralVanguard> I.....
[21:23] <@visceralVanguard> Hmmm
[21:24] <@visceralVanguard> I don't really know how to say this.
[21:24] <@visceralVanguard> I am simply going to forge forwards and I apologize in advance for any offensive or confusing statements I make
[21:24] <@visceralVanguard> But I can't keep doing this, Nick
[21:24] <@visceralVanguard> I don't mean to kill the mood, but I have something else I feel like I should say.
[21:24] <solemnSketcher_> <you see the nick in the sabath screen standing up from the ground and stretching his wings, then setting down again to the computer>
[21:24] <@visceralVanguard> I can't keep going like this without you knowing
[21:25] <solemnSketcher_> ...
[21:25] <@visceralVanguard> I'm sorry, I'm thinking
[21:25] <@visceralVanguard> I cannot figure out a way I like to say this.
[21:25] <@visceralVanguard> So I am going to be blunt
[21:26] <@visceralVanguard> You may think I am being harsh on myself or on you
[21:26] <@visceralVanguard> But for now, please bear with me
[21:26] <@visceralVanguard> I think what I have to say is deserved because it is true
[21:26] <@visceralVanguard> You said all of these wonderful things to me.
[21:26] <@visceralVanguard> How I've changed your life
[21:27] <@visceralVanguard> How I've been the only person to actually care about you
[21:28] <solemnSketcher> ...
[21:28] <@visceralVanguard> While those statements may be true, I think you think too highly of me
[21:28] <@visceralVanguard> I definitely haven't been lying to you, but I haven't been forthcoming with everything either.
[21:28] <solemnSketcher> i think i do...
[21:29] <@visceralVanguard> I just can't stand it anymore
[21:29] <@visceralVanguard> I feel like I'm hiding from you
[21:29] <solemnSketcher> just say it
[21:29] <@visceralVanguard> and after everything you said, I feel even worse
[21:29] <@visceralVanguard> You have been very generous in all of your doting, affections, and compliements
[21:30] <@visceralVanguard> Part of it is simply my personality, but you may have noticed I have been rather stingy in reciprocating
[21:30] <@visceralVanguard> When I started spending time with you
[21:30] <solemnSketcher> wait a second
[21:30] <@visceralVanguard> You were kind, and you cared deeply about the well-being of those around you
[21:31] <@visceralVanguard> Yes?
[21:31] <@visceralVanguard> Please don't tell me I haven't been stingy in reciprocating on our relationship.
[21:31] <@visceralVanguard> I am me, and I know that statement to be true.
[21:32] <solemnSketcher> please. i see what you mean, you... you didnt really love me at first did you?
[21:32] <@visceralVanguard> That is a gentle way of putting it
[21:32] <@visceralVanguard> To put it completely bluntly
[21:32] <@visceralVanguard> Out of selfish fear I used and manipulated you
[21:32] <solemnSketcher> murderous bad nick did bad stuff... lets keep him calmed down
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> I know he did!
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> I.... I know.
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> But he isn't you
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> We've been over this.
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> I treated you like him though.
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> Like you were a problem to be fixed.
[21:33] <@visceralVanguard> Another cog in the great machine that I needed to oil to keep everything running smoothly
[21:34] <@visceralVanguard> A piece of the puzzle I needed to fix lest everything come crumbling down around me
[21:34] <@visceralVanguard> Yes, you were kind and passionate
[21:34] <@visceralVanguard> But that was more of a little bonus
[21:34] <@visceralVanguard> I honestly didn't really give a damn
[21:34] <@visceralVanguard> All of the time we've been spending together
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> At the beginning, it was just me trying to be the person I could be to stabilize you
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> Not because I cared about you per se
[21:35] <solemnSketcher> ...
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> But because I feared for myself
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> You were a problem to be fixed
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> An enigma to unravel and solve
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> A puzzle for me to conquer
[21:35] <solemnSketcher> at my beginning... i was just kind because i feared beong him
[21:35] <@visceralVanguard> At first, when we started spending time together
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> You began lavishing praises on me
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> I knew they weren't true
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> But I let them happen anyways
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> To help you. To continue being the person I was trying to make myself out to be
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> I noticed you improving
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> You have changed so much!
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> That made me happy
[21:36] <solemnSketcher> did... our first kiss mean nothing for you?
[21:36] <@visceralVanguard> Partly because you were blossoming and beginning to truly enjoy yourself and the world around you
[21:37] <@visceralVanguard> But also partly because it meant I was winning
[21:37] <@visceralVanguard> No, it did.
[21:37] <@visceralVanguard> It meant a lot.
[21:37] <@visceralVanguard> I have only romantically kissed one other person like that.
[21:37] <@visceralVanguard> But I had so many ulterior motives, sometimes I question how genuine it was
[21:37] <@visceralVanguard> Now I see how far we've come
[21:37] <solemnSketcher> ...
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> You've labeled me as your saviour
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> A shining angel and a beacon of light
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> While it may be true that I am largely responsible for you being the person you have been today
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> I am not perfect
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> I am not a hero
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> I am not someone to be idolized
[21:38] <solemnSketcher> ...a character needs to be flawed anyways
[21:38] <@visceralVanguard> You keep shrugging off my faults as unimportant
[21:39] <@visceralVanguard> But I don't think you can just keep doing that!
[21:39] <@visceralVanguard> Look how many holes I've gotten myself into!
[21:39] <solemnSketcher> i idolized you because i wanted to chip down your... cover
[21:39] <@visceralVanguard> You have been
[21:39] <@visceralVanguard> Honestly, you are the only person that I feel like I can be more of myself around
[21:39] <solemnSketcher> remember what i said? i want to be with the REAL faerzen
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> No mechanical facades, no aloof pretenses
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> just me and Nick
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> And I'm afraid that I'm going to have to say it again
[21:40] <solemnSketcher> thqnks for being honest... this is quite something to take
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> This is him
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> This is the real Faerzen
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> I do need to say something else though Nick
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> I'm not done
[21:40] <solemnSketcher> but... how honest are you being with yourself?
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> My story does not end there.
[21:40] <@visceralVanguard> What do you mean?
[21:41] <solemnSketcher> how many things have you done that you are not sure you want to?
[21:41] <@visceralVanguard> When I actually stop and think about it?
[21:41] <@visceralVanguard> Quite a lot.
[21:41] <@visceralVanguard> There is a reason I hate myself, Nick.
[21:41] <@visceralVanguard> For reasons precisely like this.
[21:42] <solemnSketcher> lets deal with that part later... in person
[21:42] <@visceralVanguard> I agree, but I am still not finished
[21:42] <solemnSketcher> face to face, shall we?
[21:42] <@visceralVanguard> I can't stop now that I've gotten rolling.
[21:42] <@visceralVanguard> I need to at least get this off of my chest
[21:42] <solemnSketcher> then go ahead
[21:43] <@visceralVanguard> At the beginning, I was living as though you were a project, not a person
[21:43] <@visceralVanguard> Something I needed to cultivate and nurture to grow into what I wanted it to
[21:43] <@visceralVanguard> And as I spent more time with you
[21:43] <@visceralVanguard> And I saw you grow
[21:43] <@visceralVanguard> And saw you changing into the wonderful, full, passionate, caring, driven person that you are
[21:44] <@visceralVanguard> I began to feel myself losing my detatchment
[21:44] <@visceralVanguard> Yes, I wanted to spend time with you to fix you
[21:44] <@visceralVanguard> But I also just loved spending time with you
[21:44] <@visceralVanguard> Because of YOU
[21:44] <@visceralVanguard> I tried to dismiss my emotions as just another variable I didn't want to deal with in my plans
[21:44] <@visceralVanguard> But that didn't work
[21:45] <@visceralVanguard> Over and over again, you showed me how strong of a human being you are
[21:45] <@visceralVanguard> I've constantly been torn between my actual feelings for you and my original intentions and fears
[21:45] <@visceralVanguard> And I can't live like this anymore without you knowing
[21:45] <@visceralVanguard> Especially after today
[21:46] <@visceralVanguard> What if something actually had happened to me?
[21:46] <@visceralVanguard> What if Lyra had been taken over by Abyss?
[21:46] <@visceralVanguard> What if Derse had intervened in Prospit?
[21:46] <@visceralVanguard> Who knows what could have happened!
[21:46] <@visceralVanguard> I don't know what the future will hold
[21:46] <@visceralVanguard> But I do know that I don't want it to hold what I'm doing right now
[21:47] <@visceralVanguard> This manipulative, aloof, project, fix-it side of us?
[21:47] <@visceralVanguard> Right now, I am not only revealing its existence to you
[21:47] <solemnSketcher> ...
[21:47] <@visceralVanguard> But I also want to put a stake in the ground and say that I want to end it
[21:47] <@visceralVanguard> I can't do this anymore and I hate it
[21:47] <@visceralVanguard> I want to be with you because of you
[21:48] <@visceralVanguard> And holy jurgen fuck are YOU a good reason to be with you
[21:48] <@visceralVanguard> That's enough for me
[21:48] <@visceralVanguard> I don't know if you've noticed, but I've never said to you what I'm about to say to you.
[21:49] <@visceralVanguard> Well, now you know the reason why I haven't before.
[21:49] <@visceralVanguard> But I can't wait any longer, so here it comes.
[21:49] <solemnSketcher> ((holy shit... this is actually feelsy))
[21:49] <@visceralVanguard> Nick.
[21:49] <@visceralVanguard> I love you.
[21:49] <@visceralVanguard> And I'm sorry for everything I've done up until now
[21:49] <@visceralVanguard> But I want to change that.
[21:50] <@visceralVanguard> And there's nobody else I want to work through with that besides you.
[21:50] <@visceralVanguard> I know I just dumped a lot on your plate right now, but can you give me a second chance?
[21:50] <solemnSketcher> ((would saying that im actually crying right now make that weird))
[21:50] <solemnSketcher> ...
[21:51] <Terese_Tibalt> < Man, Tragedy is better >
[21:51] <Terese_Tibalt> < jk jk >
[21:51] <@visceralVanguard> ((the feels))
[21:51] <@visceralVanguard> You don't even need to say anything right now
[21:51] <@visceralVanguard> I just gave you a whole heck of a lot to think about
[21:52] <@visceralVanguard> We can talk more when we see each other in person
[21:52] <solemnSketcher> just... give me a small moment
[21:52] <@visceralVanguard> But I don't think you deserve to keep living like this, with me like this
[21:52] <@visceralVanguard> So I wanted to tell you
[21:52] <solemnSketcher> dont leave
[21:52] <solemnSketcher> just a minute
[21:53]  * solemnSketcher has stopped espering visceralVanguard
[21:53] <solemnSketcher> <a minute passes>
[21:53] <@visceralVanguard> What?
[21:53]  * visceralVanguard watches Nick on SABATH
[21:53]  * solemnSketcher is now espering visceralVanguard
[21:53] <Terese_Tibalt> < He isn't sabstrubating, is he? >
[21:53] <Terese_Tibalt> *sad
[21:53] <@visceralVanguard> ((i hope not))
[21:54] <@visceralVanguard> ((otherwise faerzen would close that so fast))
[21:54] <solemnSketcher> hello, i think that you are my server player? my name is nickolai, you can call me nick :)
[21:54] <solemnSketcher> ((tears are the best lube))
[21:54]  * visceralVanguard looks at her screen in shock, all color draining from her face
[21:54] <@visceralVanguard> No, no not you too!
[21:54] <@visceralVanguard> Oh god.
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> I did it again.
[21:55] <solemnSketcher> ...this is your second chance
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> Oh.
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> Oh wow
[21:55] <solemnSketcher> did i do something wrong?
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> I'm.... uh.... sorry
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> no, you're fine
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> we can talk about it later
[21:55] <Terese_Tibalt> < Somebody fucked up >
[21:55] <@visceralVanguard> Nice to meet you, Nick!
[21:56] <Archive> ((That broken quirk))
[21:56] <@visceralVanguard> My name is Faerzen. :)
[21:56] <Terese_Tibalt> < Dissociative amnesia is a real bitch >
[21:56] <@visceralVanguard> Thank you, Nick.
[21:56] <solemnSketcher> hello faerzen! you sound like a great person... want to meet up some day?
[21:57] <@visceralVanguard> That sounds like an excellent plan. :)
[21:57] <@visceralVanguard> You know, I think my house is right through the gate above your house!
[21:57] <@visceralVanguard> Do you want to meet up there?
[21:57] <@visceralVanguard> Hahaha, I'm afraid I'm a tad busy now, but I can be there soon!
[21:58] <solemnSketcher> of course! i'd love to! we have so much to talk about... just message me up when you are free!
[21:58] <@visceralVanguard> Will do. :)
[21:58] <solemnSketcher> i'll warn you though... im somewhat weird :o
[21:59] <solemnSketcher> i hope you wont mind that?
[21:59] <@visceralVanguard> I'm sure you're not that bad :P
[21:59] <@visceralVanguard> Everyone is a little strange sometimes!
[21:59] <solemnSketcher> indeed we are...
[22:00] <@visceralVanguard> That sounds like a date then! I look forward to seeing you in person :)
[22:00] <@visceralVanguard> Nick?
[22:00] <solemnSketcher> it does! see you there
[22:00] <solemnSketcher> yes faerzen?
[22:00] <@visceralVanguard> Thank you.
[22:01] <solemnSketcher> :)
[22:01] <@visceralVanguard> I.... don't even really know what to say
[22:01] <@visceralVanguard> Just like before when I was saying sorry, I don't feel as though "thank you" even remotely does justice to what I'm feeling right now
[22:02] <@visceralVanguard> I am actually sitting on the ground away from the others balling my eyes out at the moment.
[22:02] <solemnSketcher> i think we should save that for when we meet in person
[22:02] <@visceralVanguard> It makes it really hard to see these stupid glasses. :)
[22:02] <@visceralVanguard> So
[22:02] <@visceralVanguard> Thank you
[22:02] <solemnSketcher> to be fair, im crying again too :)
[22:03] <solemnSketcher> anytime faerzen...
[22:03] <solemnSketcher> anytime
[22:03] <@visceralVanguard> Holy jurgen fuck, nope I can't do this.
[22:03] <@visceralVanguard> Where is your stupid gas station
[22:03] <solemnSketcher> you know... thanks for telling me that
[22:03] <@visceralVanguard> I'm coming to find you
[22:03] <solemnSketcher> uhhh...
[22:03] <@visceralVanguard> I need to give you that hug right now
[22:03] <@visceralVanguard> before you leave
[22:03] <solemnSketcher> somewhere somewhere plains?
[22:03] <solemnSketcher> sigh... give me a moment
[22:04] <@visceralVanguard> It can't be too far from here since you and Alex got there from Lyra's house.
[22:04] <solemnSketcher> <you see nick carrying the laptop outside and flying up into the air>
[22:04] <solemnSketcher> you see anything familiar?
[22:05] <@visceralVanguard> Wait a moment, that looks like the area near where Lyra's house is
[22:05] <@visceralVanguard> Does she live in a gas station?
[22:05] <@visceralVanguard> Well, I know precisely where to head then.
[22:05] <solemnSketcher> nope, she was traveling when the game started
[22:05] <@visceralVanguard> Oh, I suppose that makes sense.
[22:05] <solemnSketcher> lets just... make this happen.
[22:05] <@visceralVanguard> I cannot be gone for long, but I can't wait any longer for this hug.
[22:06] <@visceralVanguard> I am on my way over.
[22:06]  * visceralVanguard floats swiftly towards the gas station
[22:06] <solemnSketcher> <you see nick landing on the roof of the station
[22:06] == solemnSketcher has changed nick to Nick_V
[22:06] <@visceralVanguard> <you soon see a gold and white speck floating towards you>
[22:06] <@visceralVanguard> I see you!
[22:06] <@visceralVanguard> Talk to you soon :)
[22:07]  * visceralVanguard bid farewell to solemnSketcher
[22:07] == visceralVanguard has changed nick to Faerzen_Norstov
[22:07]  * Nick_V answers in esperchum "see you in a moment :)"
[22:07]  * Faerzen_Norstov frantically waves at Nick
[22:07]  * Nick_V waves back and flies in faerzen's direction
[22:08]  * Faerzen_Norstov floats straight at Nick, arms out and wings tucked behind her to not get in the way, unused from dream self flight
[22:09]  * Nick_V flies straight at faerzen... wings flapping strongly, as he does need them
[22:10] <Nick_V> ((were makin this hapoen))
[22:10] <Nick_V> faerzen!
[22:10] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Nick!
[22:11]  * Faerzen_Norstov tackle-hugs Nick and soon after captures his mouth in a kiss before he has any time to respond
[22:11] <Nick_V> yo-- *muffled talking and then kissing back*
[22:12]  * Faerzen_Norstov embraces Nick as tight as he possibly can with his feeble arms
[22:12] <@Faerzen_Norstov> *her
[22:12]  * Nick_V embraces faerzen back and begins descending to the ground, still passionately kissing faerzen
[22:13] <Nick_V> ((dem feels))
[22:14]  * Nick_V touches down on the ground with faerzen, and now, not needing his wings, he wraps them around her
[22:16]  * Nick_V slowly breaks away from that really long kiss
[22:16]  * Faerzen_Norstov grins at Nick, tears still streaming down her face
[22:18]  * Nick_Varnegs grins at faerzen with a face stained by tears
[22:19]  * Nick_Varnegs slowly pulls faerzen into a really soft kiss
[22:20] <Nick_Varnegs> ((the makeouts pile doesn't stop from getting taller))
[22:21]  * Faerzen_Norstov slowly pulls away from the soft kiss
[22:21] <@Faerzen_Norstov> You know, Nick?
[22:21] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I'm never letting you go
[22:21] <@Faerzen_Norstov> And I'm not going to let myself tell me otherwise anymore
[22:21] <Nick_Varnegs> ...in that case...
[22:21] <Nick_Varnegs> neither i am
[22:21] <@Faerzen_Norstov> :)
[22:21] <Nick_Varnegs> :)
[22:21]  * Faerzen_Norstov pulls Nick into a tight embrace again
[22:22]  * Nick_Varnegs tightly hugs faerzen and spins around in place
[22:23] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Thank you, Nick :)
[22:24] <Nick_Varnegs> anytime :)
[22:24]  * Faerzen_Norstov sighs pleasantly
[22:24] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Ugh, I wish I didn't have to say this.
[22:25] <@Faerzen_Norstov> But unfortunately I think I need to get back to the rest of the group.
[22:25] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Who knows what will happen if I am gone too long.
[22:25]  * Nick_Varnegs lets out a breath of... well, its a breath
[22:26] <Nick_Varnegs> oh... well then... we should meet later if that's the case
[22:26] <@Faerzen_Norstov> You betcha :)
[22:26] <Nick_Varnegs> a last one for the road?
[22:26] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Yeah :)
[22:26] <Nick_Varnegs> :)
[22:27]  * Nick_Varnegs once again... kisses faerzen
[22:27]  * Faerzen_Norstov kisses back like there's no tomorrow
[22:28] <Nick_Varnegs> [S] sloppy makeouts
[22:28]  * Nick_Varnegs passionately kisses, as if it was his last day alive
[22:28] <@Faerzen_Norstov> [S] Requited
[22:29] <@Faerzen_Norstov> ((get it, because it's requited now?))
[22:29] <Nick_Varnegs> ((it makes so much sense now))
[22:29] <Nick_Varnegs> ((dang))
[22:31]  * Nick_Varnegs slowly runs one of his hands trough faerzen's hair
[22:31]  * Faerzen_Norstov ruffles Nick's hair
[22:31]  * Faerzen_Norstov slowly pulls back
[22:31] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I know you might not, but I love it when your hair is messy :)
[22:32] <Nick_Varnegs> well... then its a good thing its always a mess... isn't it :)
[22:32]  * Faerzen_Norstov giggles
[22:32] <@Faerzen_Norstov> You betcha :P
[22:32]  * Faerzen_Norstov playfully pokes Nick's nose
[22:33]  * Nick_Varnegs gives a slight laught and slowly de-wraps his wings from around faerzen
[22:33]  * Faerzen_Norstov sighs happily
[22:33] <@Faerzen_Norstov> That was a good note to end on
[22:34] <@Faerzen_Norstov> For now, that is ;)
[22:34]  * Nick_Varnegs is surprised
[22:34] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I better see you soon at my house, okay?
[22:34] <Nick_Varnegs> okay
[22:34] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Yay! :D
[22:35]  * Nick_Varnegs slowly dewraps his arms from faerzen
[22:35] <Nick_Varnegs> oh right... something i have noticed...
[22:35] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Hmm?
[22:35] <Nick_Varnegs> you... always keep your wings at your back
[22:35] <Nick_Varnegs> here... let me
[22:36] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Well, when I am my dream self I don't need them to fly, do I?
[22:36] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I hold them there to stay out of the way :)
[22:36]  * Nick_Varnegs takes hold of faerzen's wing and slowly articulates them around herself
[22:36] <@Faerzen_Norstov> There we go. :)
[22:37] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I'll float back like this so it feels like you're still giving me a hug
[22:37] <Nick_Varnegs> they are surprisingly articulated... you could do a cloak with these!
[22:37] <Nick_Varnegs> :)
[22:37] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I will make a +3 Cloak of Nick Embraces
[22:37] <@Faerzen_Norstov> That sounds like a rather overpowered magic item right there
[22:37] <Nick_Varnegs> that's why i like wrapping mine around yours...
[22:38] <Nick_Varnegs> constant hugging? yup.
[22:38] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Well I will try and remember to reciprocate then. :)
[22:38] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I should be heading off now, but I'll see you soon!
[22:38] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Don't get attacked by too many showers while I am gone. :)
[22:38] <Nick_Varnegs> same!
[22:38] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Oh, and Nick?
[22:38] <Nick_Varnegs> ((tfw we cant say goodbye))
[22:38] <Nick_Varnegs> yes?
[22:38] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I would check through your sylladex to make sure you have everything
[22:39] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Lyra was rifling through your things earlier while you were asleep
[22:39] <Nick_Varnegs> ...
[22:39] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I didn't want to bother you with it while we were on Prospit, but now that you are awake now, you should know.
[22:39]  * Nick_Varnegs sighs
[22:39] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I didn't even know it was possibly to raid someone else's sylladex, but if anyone can bend the rules, it's Lyra.
[22:39] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Okay, that's all.
[22:40] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Toodles!
[22:40] <Nick_Varnegs> let me check... i still have the flower.... a bunch of miscellaneous items...
[22:40] <Nick_Varnegs> and... she has the mask right?
[22:40]  * Faerzen_Norstov
[22:40]  * Faerzen_Norstov sighs
[22:40]  * Nick_Varnegs lets out a long somewhat angry sigh
[22:40] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Yes, she does
[22:40] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I am afraid you aren't getting that back any time soon
[22:40] <@Faerzen_Norstov> She isn't wearing it at the moment.
[22:40] <Nick_Varnegs> just make sure she doesn't do anything stupid with it
[22:41] <@Faerzen_Norstov> It is too late for that.
[22:41] <@Faerzen_Norstov> But I will try and prevent further incidents. :)
[22:41] <Nick_Varnegs> ...
[22:41] <Nick_Varnegs> *eyetwitch* alright then... atleast... when she finishes using it... bring it to me
[22:42] <@Faerzen_Norstov> I will make sure it gets to you as soon as possible.
[22:42] <Nick_Varnegs> thanks faerzen :)
[22:42]  * Nick_Varnegs leans in and gives faerzen's neck a quick kiss
[22:43] <Nick_Varnegs> take care <3
[22:43] <@Faerzen_Norstov> Hopefully this nonsense will all be over soon.
[22:43] <Nick_Varnegs> ill be heading home now... see you later
[22:43] <@Faerzen_Norstov> You too!
[22:43] <Nick_Varnegs> maybe one day it'll be peaceful for once
[22:43]  * Faerzen_Norstov ruffles her hand through Nick's hair before turning and floating away wrapped in her wings
[22:43] <Nick_Varnegs> maybe one day...
[22:44]  * Nick_Varnegs smiles as he watches faerzen fly away wrapped in golden-white wings