[8:51:45 PM] Kyle Dawg: Hey hon, are you mad at me?
[9:09:51 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: no why
[9:11:08 PM] Kyle Dawg: I was just wondering.
[9:11:20 PM] Kyle Dawg: We hardly talk anymore, but I know you're tired after work.
[9:11:59 PM] Kyle Dawg: I get yelled at by Mom every day, and I'm emotionally and mentally worn out... I wasn't sure if I had accidentally come off as rude or distant towards you at some point.
[9:13:34 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: no Im just tired every day. its inventory, im getting overtime because physically we cant do everything they want in the span of time we're given, yet were pressed to go faster and harder.
[9:14:10 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: the vice president of wal mart was here the other day. he fired Rita, one of our members on the cap 1 team
[9:14:31 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: for one small mistake. wanna talk stress? lets talk.
[9:14:57 PM] Kyle Dawg: I know that you're going through shit, but that's why I get in fights with Mom constantly.
[9:15:29 PM] Kyle Dawg: She keeps asking me about you and I keep telling her what I know for a fact is the reason why you do what you do. And she comes at me calling me an idiot, and I'm stupid, and I must be insane.
[9:15:43 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: like what
[9:16:00 PM] Kyle Dawg: I honestly cannot take it from her anymore... I almost lashed out today, and I just started agreeing with everything she called me. Which pissed her off even more.
[9:16:41 PM] Kyle Dawg: Like, why you don't come inside to go pee. Why you don't do the dishes every day. Why you don't offer to cook food, or buy food for the family. Why you "neglect" your dog, or why don't you pick up poop every single day.
[9:17:09 PM] Kyle Dawg: I know why. I've lived with you for eight months and I've known you for four years. I know what retail is like, I've worked five years of retail.
[9:17:57 PM] Kyle Dawg: But nothing I tell her is good enough. Nothing I say is a good enough reason, or a valid answer, and everything I tell her must be a lie because otherwise her house and backyard would be spotless and we would all be the Brady Bunch.
[9:18:15 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: don't have to pee that much, usually use it at work. don't dirty the dishes, why do them if I don't? same with food. mostly want to be left alone. do and have offered to buy food so idk wtf
[9:18:55 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: neglect my dog how? by not throwing him in here with me 24/7? ltting him rn around instead because he hates it in here?
[9:18:59 PM] Kyle Dawg: It's because she doesn't see any of this and she doesn't bother asking you to your face any of this.
[9:19:03 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: yeah, real neglect
[9:19:28 PM] Kyle Dawg: I've become the mediator, translator, and keeper for you in my mother's eyes.
[9:20:19 PM] Kyle Dawg: I told her that Maverick doesn't like being cooped up, he doesn't sit still unless he's sleeping or tired/bored, and that you don't neglect him/mistreat him.
[9:20:48 PM] Kyle Dawg: I also told Mom not to feed Honey any of Sophie's expensive wet natural food because once she gets a taste that's all she'll want to eat and I can't afford that.
[9:20:57 PM] Kyle Dawg: She got PISSED at me for telling her what to feed MY dog.
[9:21:17 PM] Kyle Dawg: She cannot legally do anything to our dogs, they belong to us.
[9:21:33 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: mhm
[9:21:33 PM] Kyle Dawg: She can tell us to leave, but she cannot do anything to our dogs without our permission.
[9:21:46 PM] Kyle Dawg: I'm just...
[9:21:47 PM] Kyle Dawg: Sick.
[9:21:51 PM] Kyle Dawg: Of all her shit.
[9:22:36 PM] Kyle Dawg: She called me stupid today, and I just had it. I went into automatic defense mode and said "Okay, cool. Whatever you say."
[9:22:42 PM] Kyle Dawg: "Yep, I'm stupid. Must be true."
[9:23:02 PM] Kyle Dawg: "Everything you say is absolute so why argue otherwise?"
[9:23:13 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: lol
[9:23:24 PM] Kyle Dawg: That pissed her off even more than arguing with her.
[9:23:46 PM] Kyle Dawg: I just don't know what she expects from me anymore. Or from you.
[9:24:01 PM] Kyle Dawg: She says we are using her, disrespecting her, lying to her, and ruining her life.
[9:24:25 PM] Kyle Dawg: I was two seconds from saying "If we didn't have to be here, believe me, we wouldn't be."
[9:24:35 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: yet she wants me in there pissing more often and is concerned about my habits
[9:24:54 PM] Kyle Dawg: She thinks you don't care about anything.
[9:25:02 PM] Kyle Dawg: About yourself, the dog, this family.
[9:25:14 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: why
[9:25:22 PM] Kyle Dawg: Because you aren't exactly like her.
[9:25:36 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: I get up and go to work every day. of course im not.
[9:25:52 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: last time I was at wal mart I asked if they wanted anything
[9:26:01 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: so idk what pipe shes smoking so
[9:26:07 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: set that shit down
[9:26:26 PM] Kyle Dawg: I'm just saying... She says the same thing to me every day and the only explination I can come up with is we aren't built in her image exactly and do things the way she wants them to be done to a T.
[9:26:38 PM] Kyle Dawg: So obviously, that means we are irresponsible and don't care about anything.
[9:27:26 PM] Kyle Dawg: Despite me constantly looking for jobs, suffering with adjusting to these medications, I went and got FOOD STAMPS to buy my own fucking food so that's one less thing for her to complain about, I take care of my dog, your dog while you're at work, do the dishes, the laundry...
[9:27:40 PM] Kyle Dawg: EVERYTHING that my mother should not HAVE to do because it is not her responsibility to do it.
[9:28:20 PM] Kyle Dawg: Yet, we've ruined her life - I'VE ruined her life - because we don't live the way she wants us to.
[9:29:10 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: idk wj
[9:29:17 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: what way that is
[9:29:29 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: but that's not my problem.
[9:30:51 PM] Kyle Dawg: No. It's not. I am just saying that I listen to this every day. It's grating on my patience and my tolerance towards her.
[9:31:05 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: I never agreed to do anything but clean up after myself and my animal. and ive been doing that to the best of my ability.
[9:33:18 PM] Kyle Dawg: I spent all day vacuuming the entire house and am washing all the blankets from my room - including the one Maverick slept on every morning.
[9:33:34 PM] Kyle Dawg: Not as stressful as your job, not even close.
[9:35:47 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: well I already deal with a company who is telling me (all of us) that no matter how hard we work, we're not fast or good enough so yeah
[9:37:03 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: but they're paying me and giving me benefits. I never said I wouldn't help out. I have helped out. I bought a ton of stuff for people when they couldn't afford it and continue to. I do dishes when I dirty them to th best of my ability. even when I've only dirtied one dish and there's a sinkful
[9:37:14 PM] Kyle Dawg: What do they want you to do, become Quicksilver and replace your bones with robot limbs?
[9:37:16 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: i think im allowed one or two times of not doing it
[9:37:20 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: lol
[9:37:44 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: at work? idk. they just want things done but the tasks are too many for the time we have.
[9:37:58 PM] Kyle Dawg: No kidding... I think it was yesterday that I didn't want to interact with any form of humanity at all.
[9:38:06 PM] Kyle Dawg: And just stayed in my room, sitting on my bed with Honey.
[9:38:35 PM] Kyle Dawg: Mom finally got fed up with me and called, broke my solitude, threatened me that if I continued to take my medication I could not live here.
[9:38:42 PM] Kyle Dawg: And I've just been livid ever since.
[9:38:47 PM] ♔ Atreyu [Lazarus/Jaran]: wow
[9:39:21 PM] Kyle Dawg: I've never not wanted to talk to people.
[9:39:33 PM] Kyle Dawg: But, that's exactly what I wanted yesterday.