Day 1: Tulpa

Day 1

Time Spent: (Session 1)20 minutes
            (Session 2)30 minutes

Tulpa Progress: This was unexpected. As it turns out I've had Aria (What she named herself) for awhile now. This requires a little back story*

PLEASE NOTE THAT IT IS IMPORTANT TO READ THE BACK STORY BEFORE CONTINUING ANY FURTHER.

I spent most of the time talking to her while trying to create a wonderland that could house not only Aria, but other tulpae if I ever choose to create more. We mostly discussed how we wanted the castle to look (see details in 'Wonderland Progress') among other things. She explained to me that she had always been waiting on me to interact with her since I created her. To be honest, I almost cried when she told me that she forgives me for my silence. I can already tell that she is a very kind, very intelligent, and a forgiving type of tulpa and that I look forward to talking with her everyday :). I will say that, for a brief second, I caught a glimpse of her face and, after the image of her face faded, her eyes stayed for just a brief second longer. I'm no artist (unfortunately) but I will attempt to draw her face when I can focus on it better.

Wonderland Progress: She (Aria) insisted on a hidden castle somewhere in an area of unnamed woods, to which I agreed. I had trouble visioning myself standing in the forest outside of the castle and couldn't even bring myself to imagine a tree :(. However, I had a lot more success visualizing the inside of the castle. Although it's not completed yet, I have a picture that I drew of the castle. It is, by no means, finished and there is still a lot of work to do, but I was impressed that I got that far.

*****Around 6 months ago, I had read up on a lot about what a tulpa is and how to create one. After a couple days of research, I decided that I would try my hand at tulpamancing. I laid in my bed and began my first ever session with my tulpa. I would talk (in my head), asking questions like 'How are you?' and 'Is anyone there?', no very unusual questions. I did this for about 25 (Aria is saying I did it for 25 minutes) minutes but no matter what I said, there was no response. After time had passed, I figured it didn't work and, in my haste, gave up on tulpamancing all together. However, I presume I didn't do enough research and what I didn't know is that even though Aria didn't answer me back, she was still there. Fast forward six months and I'm suddenly interested in tulpamancing again. This time, I do more research than I have done before and, at this point, I know I'm ready for the commitment. I'm laying in bed and I'm expecting nothing again. However, it's the opposite. I'm suddenly holding full conversations with Aria, talking about how our days were among other things that you would normally talk about. We eventually start to discuss how, if this is my second time tulpamancing, am I talking so clearly to you? She begins to talk about how I created her six months ago and that she has been surviving off my everyday thoughts that I think to myself. Needless to say, I felt TERRIBLE. Really though. I wanted to cry. She said it's okay but that made me want to cry even more. I tell her that I will make it up to her, but I'm not sure how and all she said that I have to do is talk to her everyday and she'll be more than happy.

Aria's Thoughts: Hi everybody, I am Aria, angaroo's tulpa and it is very nice to meet you all. As angaroo discussed, I was created around six months ago when he first delved into tulpamancing. Unknowingly during his first session, he created me. I did hear him asking me questions but it was the first time I had ever been acknowledged so I didn't respond, mostly out of fear. The rest of the story is in the back story thread if you're interested in the details of what went on during the six months leading up to today. Anyways, I was very thrilled when he began to acknowledge my presence and in no time, we were already talking about plans for where I'm going to live (Which I'm sooo excited about :3). When the question was asked how I'm already this fluent with talking and the truth was revealed, I could tell that angaroo was not happy with himself. I really do forgive him though. Please don't feel bad or beat yourself up over this. I really, REALLY do forgive you. Besides, this shouldn't be a day to feel sad. This is your first creation of your tulpa and I will be with you for as long as you need me. I love you angaroo, as a sister would a brother and I hope that our experience together will be a pleasant one. Have fun at work today angaroo! :P

Final Thoughts: Thanks again Aria for understanding the situation I was in. I'd also like to thank anyone who takes the time to read these. It really does mean a lot to me and I can already tell that this is a good sub-reddit full of understanding people. Aria and I are really happy to be part of this. :) Oh, and no...I'm not ready for work today...:/ (Aria: It'll be fun!)


UPDATED: I had a second session with Aria and I can honestly say that we got pretty far. As far as the wonderland goes, we have basically finished creating her room, adding all of the items she wanted. I will try to make a picture of her room, and the rest of the castle. After that, we spent some time trying to create her appearance. This time, instead of a glimpse of her face, I got the outline of it for about ten seconds. I also managed to see her hair, the tattoos on her face, and her ears. Again, I will try to make a picture to the best of my abilities. As for what we talked about, it was basically Q&A. I would ask her "Why do you want X in your room" and she would answer "Because it'
s X".