[M4F] How does that make you feel? [patient/therapist]

(Confident, professional voice)Hello there, come on in. Have a seat. How have you been since last time? Are you sleeping better? ...Good, good. The medication will definitely help with that.

Ok, so last time we talked about your recent progress, which has been good; you’re putting into place the techniques we’ve talked about to help you manage your anxiety, you’re starting to be able to really question the validity of those negative thoughts, and generally you felt that you’ve been coping a lot better with everything, yes? Yes, definitely encouraging progress. But I remember towards the end of our last session, you touched on some things that are still...bothering you somewhat. Some feelings of guilt, and shame, with regard to certain...thoughts and...urges that seem to really plague you...do you remember? Yes, we didn’t really have a lot of time left to discuss it, but I got the distinct impression that there is quite a lot that you’re...repressing...so I thought that we could explore that a little further today, what do you think? You’re ok with that? OK, excellent, let’s move over to the couch...

That’s it, lie back, get comfortable. Close your eyes. Remember the technique we practised...I want you to slow that breathing down. Really use your lung capacity, fill them right up, that’s it, slowly in...and out. And again...keep going, slow it riiiight down, we want you nice and relaxed now. Clear your mind of everything that’s happened today, I need you to focus completely on my voice. Trust me to guide you now...you know this is a safe place to be yourself.

(Voice becoming lower and slower) Now...I want you to call to mind one of those...thoughts you hinted at before. You don’t have to describe it to me right now. (reassuring, as though she has panicked a little at this) No, keep your eyes closed...Just relax...you’re bound to feel a little awkward at first, but this is something we should really work through...No, I’m not going to hypnotise you today. Everything you do now will be of your own free will...

(voice still low, slow but commanding) Are you thinking about it? You don’t have to speak, just nod. OK, good. I can see that you’re blushing, you’re uncomfortable, but don’t shy away from it. Hold the thought, really zero in on it. Let it play out in your mind’s eye. Remember that only you can see it, nobody else can look at it or judge it. Ask yourself, is it really that shameful? Why shouldn’t you think that? Or be excited by that? You are a grown woman, with needs and desires. Your sexuality has emerged and developed over the course of your life, but you’re fighting it, keeping it tightly bound, and I am telling you now that you don’t have to any more...It's not wrong, it’s perfectly natural to want...Your fantasies are yours, and you are free to explore them however you wish...

No, no, don’t stop your hand! Let it go where it wants to go. You don’t have to feel any shame here. Keep your eyes closed and let your mind wander...I can see your whole body starting to relax, to give in to it, and that is absolutely fine...let go, let it take over...

Now, keep that hand where it is, but bring the other up, to your blouse. I want you to get a little more comfortable...undo those buttons. (responding to her uncertainty) Keep your eyes CLOSED. You trust me, don’t you? You want to be free of all that guilt, yes? Then be free. Take off your blouse.  Let the air touch your skin, feel the goose-bumps rise across it...you know that it feels good. Now, get rid of the bra too. You hate wearing it, it makes you feel even more repressed, take it off. Allow your breasts to fall free...Mmm, yes, perfect.

That’s it, lie back again. Feel the leather against your shoulder blades.  Feel its smoothness against yours. You are a beautiful, desirable creature. You have a right to sexual satisfaction. You don’t need to doubt that any more.

I can see your hand is happy there, between your legs, but it would feel better without those jeans. Pull them down...Much less hesitation this time, excellent! (satisfied laugh) I can see how much you enjoy praise. Go on, kick them off, let them fall. You are completely free. Don’t worry about looking graceful, you’re not on stage, you can open those legs as wide as you wish.  Let your hands run wild...your body is yours to touch, don’t be afraid of it. Enjoy your nudity...it’s liberating, isn’t it?

(encouraging but still authoritative voice) Now, describe to me what you’re picturing. Keep touching yourself, and tell me, what does your body want? What does it need?...(pausing as if she’s talking) Yes...mm-hmm...yes... (breathing slightly heavier) Don’t stop, tell me more. I can see you’re enjoying this. Use the words that come naturally, you don’t have to be polite here. You can say “cock”. Go on, say it. Say it! You won’t be punished...Mmm, good girl, I’m very proud of you. You’ve come so far...Continue... (heavy breathing again for a bit, sounds of being turned on by her words).

You’ve held this in for such a long time, doesn’t it feel soooo good to let it out? To finally admit how badly you want it? You’ve been so afraid to ask for it, but it’s actually quite common. Many women enjoy being dominated, being taken and used like a...(pronounced very deliberately) slut...oh, that word, you like it, don’t you? You want so badly for someone to call you that. Tell me you want it. Say it. Louder.  No more holding back...Good girl! Such a good little slut (dirty laugh). Yes, you like being a good little slut. You want to be a good little slut for ME, don’t you?

Come here. Get on your knees. (zipper sound) Open that slut mouth. Mmm, you love being told what to do. You whore. Suck my cock, whore. No more prissy little bitch now. You’re a cock-sucking whore and you love it. (improv, sounds of pleasure until orgasm). Look at you, so greedy for that cum. So hungry for so long and now...mmm.

(suddenly composing yourself, sounding professional/normal again) Oh, looks like we’re about out of time. You’d better get dressed. And wipe your mouth...(zipping up/belt noises).  (short pause for her to dress) Good work today - we can definitely build on that next week...