Subaru&Satella-Arc3

It was a strange sensation, like drifting inside a deep sea, running through his body.

A dark, dark world with no end.
There was no light source anywhere, making it impossible to orientate oneself. There was no sensation that something could be touching his body either. In the first place, he didn't even feel any of the functions of his extremities or eyes or ears.

His consciousness was too vague and he couldn't really think straight.
“What is this place? What am I? Why did I end up like this?" where the only faint questions that popped in his mind.

『―ve you.』

Suddenly, someone's voice reached him from the middle of the abyss.
It wasn't a sound what had reached him, because he didn't have ears with eardrums on it to ear it. It was a consciousness. After hearing the words that had enough impact to shock his entire soul, he attempts to expand his own consciousness in search of the origin of the voice.


『―love you.』

It was a fleeting noise that could squeeze the heart of anyone who heard it and fill it with a suffocating pain.
Thus, his heart who had also heard this sound was painfully and agonizingly being crushed. However, that sensation somehow also filled him with a nostalgic sense of relief, stimulating a torrent of dear memories swirling inside of him.

If I had my fingers, I'd want to reach out to the girl’s voice.
If I had my mouth, I'd want to call out her name.
If I had my arms, I'd want to embrace her.
If I had my legs, I'd want to runs towards her.
If I had my body, I'd simply just not let go of her forever.

He was not allowed any of those privileges in this place, and that was incredibly sad, irritating, painful and annoying. It only filled his chest with irritation.

『―I love you.』

He felt the same.
The firmly formed words this time shake his entire emotions, causing his intense feelings to burst out of his nonexistent mouth.
He felt the same. No, I felt even more than that. No matter how much he were to count the warmth that was given to him, it probably would still not make up for the love he felt towards that person.
Even if the other person felt the same, this love was still bigger than hers.

The competing affection only increased inside him, but the person to express these feelings was nowhere to be seen.
The swelling emotions, the overflowing affection only made unstoppable sins start arising to the surface.

――The Sloth, of not being able to wipe her tears.
――The Lust, of wanting to melt together and become one.
――The Gluttony, of wanting to devour and snatch away at everything around her.
――The Greed, of wanting to love, demand and obtain everything.
――The Pride, of wanting to mock everything other than her.
――And the Wrath, towards the world that would not allow him that.

The space painted in dark started was being overwritten by an enormous love.
His heart shivered. His soul screamed. The existence itself that had lost its shape continued wishing for her.
He wanted to give up everything, say everything, as long as he could disappear along with her in that dark space. If only he could do that―

『Are you sure?』

Suddenly, the voice that changed its presence once again squeezes his heart.
Words that were questioning his resolution. Words asking if he truly wanted to give form to his feelings right here and right now.

"Of course. Obviously, what is there to hesitate?" is what he felt.
That's what he felt, but something was wrong. There was something else. Something had clouded his heart.
It was confusion. It was hesitation. It was bewilderment. What in the world could cause such a―?

『Are you going to let it end like this?』

――Of course, not.

Somehow, he had immediately answered to the question.
The beginning and the end, the things he seek to accomplish and the things he used to see, he didn't remember any of those.
He didn't understand anything. Everything was filled with things he didn't comprehend, but somehow his inner emotions had refused to accept staying that way.

It won't end here. It can't end here. Nothing is over yet. I won't let it end.

『What do you want to do?』

I want to do something. I will do something. Doing something was―

"What I had to do."

His voice flowed out.
He realized his feet were on the ground. The sensation of his extremities were back, as he finally understands who he was.
He still couldn’t remember the things he left behind. However, he finally remembered he had to continue running, that he had a place he had to run to.

『We can't meet yet.』

"I know."

He didn't understand anything, but that one thing.
The boy starts running after turning his back to the voice in the shadows and holding the impulse of wanting to reach out to her.
An overwhelming regret would probably stop him forever if he were to stop just once. That's why he doesn't turn back. He doesn't point his consciousness towards that direction. He now leaves her, he now leaves her behind, going far away, far away――but one day, he would definitely hold her hand once again.

『I love you.』

The voice grows distant and the dark world starts collapsing as if being teared off.
In front of him, a bright light dot in the pitch-dark world, the end of the interminable abyss becomes visible.

Running, running, running and approaching it. Finally, after having reached that place―

『Subaru-kun.』

At last, Natsuki Subaru feels the lovely voice call his name―





-TLd by spfag/Naka.stray