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  1. Anyways uh. This is.. about lune. I'm just gonna say the full story it's super long but yeah. You know him..the best I think? out of people I know so I just need help, advice, and really I just need to vent this out because I'm really afraid. (I'll try to keep my cool typing this but I apologize if I don't I get really freaked out;;;;;;;;)
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  3. At the beginning of December like I met lune and we occasionally did stuff and interacted on twitter, it was nice.. One day I was kinda havin a bad day and made it a little obvious on twitter, so lune came to me and just asked "what's wrong :<" It actually meant a lot because generallt people don't? really care and it's the first time anyone in months had actually approached me so I was just happy lol it meant a lot to me... After that idk we just started talking a lot more. LIke legitimately just texting all day and soon we started doing rabbits and there was one day we were in a rabbit until 4 am after like an entire day too of it, it was..so nice I don't have anyone I really talk to often and. I was just..super super happy because I was having so much fun.
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  5. I started to uh develop a crush because we just kept getting closer and closer and more affectionate too and it really felt..special andi just felt happiness that I haven't felt probably ever. LIKE idk... It felt like he liked me too, he said things to me that...like the nicest things anyone has ever said to me probably even though people have loved me before meit was. god. I could guSH FOR A REALLY LONG TIME LLOL sorry but yeah it was so nice.
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  7. Anyways things were going super well, if honestly a little fast..but I didn't mind I was so happy. So I decide to ask lune out on Christmas I thought it would be..kinda special and sweet and things were going super well,,, so I do that. and he says yes and he loves me too and would love to be in a relationship w me, but just wants to take a bit before we make it "official" since yeah we still were new. Really I just said it to get it off my chest and clear up whether he actually liked me back, and god I was so happy I was beaming and in such agreat mood the rest of the day. That night too we were talking and sTUFF and I was so certain it was going to last and be good.
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  9. The next day though..he randomly seems to be having a kinda breakdown-kinda not and I see stuff on his personal like "im happy being single" and "im happier with what my closest friends give me" etc. etc.. so I just kinda approach him like ? and he says he doesn't have that interest in me anymore. I was..uh. really heartbroken but..well I still respected it and figured..he really truly did have an interest in me and it was just weird emotions, I'll do anything to work through this with him anyway.. so Im kinda upset for a bit but eventually I just try to go back to conversation but he doesn't really reply for the rest of the day, despite me sending a few questions. I eventually say "good night" and he immediately replies with good night, ignoring the rest so I was like "ok.."
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  11. The next few days is basically the same. I send a text, no response, wait hours and send another, still nothing. I was intensely afraid at this point... He also softblocks me with his personal and unfollows/softblocks mine, causing me to be even more freaked out and become legitimately scared. I message him like 3 days after this first happened, asking why I was being ignored etc. and he says he needs time away from me, that there's no specific reason for why he's ignoring me. Before he would...llol keep me up later by texting me and stuff and now it was gone and I at this point am intensely afraid of losing the friendship...
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  13. That's basically. Where I stand now. It's almost been 2 weeks now and it's been really really hard for me. Things are..getting a little better I guess. He's acknowledging me (occasionally, at least) on twitter. But..if I try to initiate conversations on skype, it's kinda bad.. Like all responses feel cold and distant. He doesn't truly acknowledge me in the text chat, and he kinda talks to me in calls but isn't really..nice. JUst kinda there. Not what you would expect when we were that close llol... The other day I messaged him asking if he'd like to ahng out just alittle bit at some point, and he responded with just "ugh" after we had had a small conversation. it made me feel so terrible.. Like he's told me that he "wants to ease back into talking with you kj" but I'm so afraid half the time it feels like he hates me.
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  15. I'm just scared and don't know what to do... I want my friend back I really really genuinely enjoyed talking to him just as he said he enjoyed talking with me too. I don't understand how that can go away like that. I still would like a relationship too at some point but, I'm mostly just worried our friendship is worried forever and it's just so bad. I don't know what to do. Most people are saying "just wait" but it feels like every day I "just wait" for him to say somehting to me I just drift further and further away and he doesn't care about me. I need.. help. maybe. or advice. i dont know.
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