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- To my love, my life, the goddess my wife
- Unbelievable as it sounds, the goddess of my life
- I treated you bad, I damaged your spirit
- But I miss you so much, i need you to hear it
- I know we can't go back, I'd love to go forward
- But my love for you is unmesuarable it cannot be bordered
- I know that you're hurt, I know you're hesitant
- But the way I feel now sets a whole new precedent
- I hope you come back, I hope you can trust
- I hope you still care, something tells me you must
- I'm sorry for everything, the pain that I've caused
- I love you too much, my love hasn't paused
- I swear that it won't, no matter the terms
- I swear that it won't, unless I'm in an urn
- Please do not fear me, please do not hesitate
- Please open your heart and allow these words to resonate
- Ill never hurt you again, ill never again make a threat
- Ill never treat you the same, wish I could forget
- But I never can its the biggest mistake I ever made
- Your beautiful face your warm soul, that I had caused pain
- I love you more then ever, the memories so deep
- I cannot escape you even when im asleep
- I miss everything about you, from the smell of your hair
- To the times that you've smiled, everything we've shared
- Our beautiful boys, your angelic voice
- Your fun sense of humor, gives me no choice
- I can't help but miss you, I can't help but to cry
- But not because I'm mad, but how hard I tried
- I should have been more, I should have done less
- If I can I will change that, with every last breath
- Please don't feel judged, hope you can look at me
- I'm not the one to judge, you deserve to throw the book at me
- I've caused so much hurt, I didn't know at the time
- But it was right in my face, wish I could have seen the lines
- Ill be there when you need me, I'm here for you now
- No matter the circumstance, I won't let you down
- Ill do anything you want, anything allowed
- Ill make sure the sun shines, ill vacuum the clouds
- Ill treat you like I should have, gods greatest gift
- I mean it when I say that, I vow not to drift
- You cross my mind at least 500 times, and that's just in a day, you run through my mind
- Wish I could see you, smile and wave
- Wish we could talk, I constantly pray
- I hope you know that in my soul
- I love you so much I miss you Nicole
- They say that god listens, that he grants prayers that's a vow
- He's heard me a thousand times he's probably tired of me now
- But I cannot give up no matter the signs
- How can I give up, 500 times in my mind
- I know you're still there, I hope you still care,
- Please know im not lying, my souls been stripped bare
- I don't want to argue I don't want to fight
- I don't want you upset, no more want to be right
- I just want to be there, for you and the kids
- I just want to show you the things I've undid
- I don't want to drink, because it makes me think
- I'm tired of suicide, I don't want to blink
- I'd love to be with you, just to hold your hand
- Through the good times well have, and help during the bad
- I know it's not too late, this hasn't sealed my fate
- You're the only reason to live, with you life is great
- Without you it's terrible, bitter and sour
- The seconds are minutes, the minutes are hours
- Whenever I can with whatever I have
- I swear to make it better, to walk a fine path
- As stupid as it sounds, I say in every letter
- That even after all this we can be better then ever
- You truly have my attention ill never cross you again
- I swear on Connors soul ill be your best friend
- This doesn't have to be where it ends it can be where we rebegin
- For our sons and eachother, no more unforgivable sin
- And no matter the price, whatever I have to pay
- Whatever sacrifice you want from me
- I'm just waiting for the day
- When we can go back, erasing the black
- Moving forward together on the right track
- I miss them so much, it would truly be an honor
- To help Rubin refocus and to be there for Connor
- Please know I'm not angry, ill never question
- What has happened lately, won't make a suggestion
- You're all I want you've been all I need
- You're the reason I function the reason I'd bleed
- Just wish you believed me just wish you could see me
- For what I really feel, just wish you could be me
- Just so you knew how much I have changed
- Just so you could see what goes thru my brain
- It's nothing but love, regret and hope
- It's only the thought of you that helps me cope
- I know you're still out there, wherever you are
- Please know that I'm here, no matter how far
- To Rubin my friend, the best in the world
- I'm sorry for everything, the way things unfurled
- I should have been better, should have told you everyday
- That I love you so much in every possible way
- I wish I was there I know you wish the same
- So we could walk to bk, so we could play games
- Please know your dads different, I know things have changed
- But ill always love you, sunshine or rain
- That's forever plus 1000 sorry for the pain
- That I have caused you, sorry for the threats
- Sorry for ever saying that, still haven't yet
- I'm still holding on, to hope by my teeth
- I keep lying to myself, ill be back next week
- But I know you love me, I know you haven't forgotten
- All we've been thru, the ripe and the rotten
- Ill do anything for you too, not just your mom
- Ill fly to the moon, ill swallow a bomb
- Anything I could just to make you happy
- Ill let you shoot me again, I'd even let you slap me
- You're my best friend bud, that can't be replaced
- I swear to be everything, no time to waste
- Ill take you out shopping, well go to the store
- We can go play basketball, we can even go to war
- Anything it takes, no matter the stakes
- Ill prove I have changed, no timeouts or breaks
- We can still be a family, I can still be your dad
- I know I'm not like mine, he's one I wish I'd never had
- We can still do this just need a chance to prove it
- As long as the sun comes up as long as the moons lit
- I just cannot go on without you guys in my life
- I will for as long as I can but on most of these nights
- I say that I won't, I say that I shouldn't
- Just picturing you guys is the reason I wouldn't
- I know it's not over, this is just a nightmarish pause
- Life will go back to normal, I constantly beg god
- I'm sorry for hurting you with thoughts of suicide
- It's all I can tell myself when I go and hide
- In a bathroom or on a couch, counting my blessings
- Crying and squirming, constantly stressing
- I know you guys are safe, but I know you know I'm not
- Everytime you think of us just know thats what blocks the thought
- But I need you so bad, not the life that I had
- But now that I'm different, the life we can have
- Every day the thoughts of you grow larger and larger
- Hope I'm back with you soon so we can watch the chargers
- Hope I'm back with you soon so we can change the course
- This dreaded life that we've been living
- Ill no longer be the source
- Until then friend this isn't the end my love can't break it cant even bend so later tonight before you go to bed please say a prayer for our family and remember what I've said
- Connor you're awesome, I cannot describe
- How many nights I've laid here and cried
- Thinking about you, all of our moments,you have been a blast
- But please slow down my little man you are growing way too fast
- Can't wait to see you can't wait to hold you I want to see you walk
- You've gotten so big I can only pray that I'm there when you talk
- I promise you everything, not that I need to you're already learning for yourself
- It's amazing to know you and to watch you grow too, you filled my soul with wealth
- I know you're too young to understand what I'm even saying
- But i love you too, gods watching over you everytime I'm praying
- I miss you so much your beautiful smile
- Singing to you holding you god I'd run miles
- Just to have you back in my life I'm sure that you miss me
- I can see it in your precious face, even the dad don't kiss me
- I love you so much I wish you knew how much you'd changed my heart
- And not just me you've brought us all glee, your family's loved you from the start
- Ill never forget the first time we saw you the first time I saw you yawn
- I immediately melted, all of us did
- To you I was immediately drawn
- We all love you so much, me your brother your mom
- You are the definition of special you gave us all hope, you made our hearts go calm
- I love you so much I miss you too much
- Cannot wait to see you again
- You bring me hope, all of us really, can't wait to be your best friend
- Me and your mom both agree, you are going to be something special
- Anything you want to be, you'll take it to a new level
- I cannot wait for the day, that your mom forgives me and we turn the page
- So I can be there to watch you grow, so I can pick you up so you'll always know that I'm your dad and I love you so much
- Until that day you'll continue to touch, my old soul, all of ours, no more missing you no more emotional scars I love you son please know that you better and never forget the I love you forever, song I used to sing to you when you were down you always knew that we were there and we always will until then my friend you are perfect.
- I love you Connor and I miss you. I'm crying while typing this my friend. Ill try anything to see you again. God I love you.
- So family of mine it's about that time that I rest my head and battle my mind
- Well be a family again that's all I can hope please forgive me Nicole please read what I've wrote, ill never consider our family broken, as long as I'm around the words that I've spoken are as true as anything I've ever said I love you guys forever I'd rather be dead then to miss another day with you unfortunately that feeling is true so when ever you're ready please give me a call you guys are everything you guys are my all.
- I love you Nicole. Please give our family one chance. Ill do anything for you. I've learned my lesson and will never hurt you again in any way. We don't have to talk about what has happened. It's a nightmare I don't want to think about ever again. I love you all too much to think well never be a family again. Please forgive me for all of us. Ill never question you, I don't want any type of apology or explanation. I would just like for you to hear mine. This truly is torture Nicole and I'm trying so hard to hold on. I love you eternally no matter what. Please don't be afraid of me. I'm a different me I swear to you. I've lost it all and will do anything if I get the chance. I can't describe how bad this is. I understand you. I need you guys. You are my oxygen. Please text me I won't text you back. I assume you don't trust me but please know that, just like you, our family is my life. I know you can relate to that. Ill never do ANYTHING to lose them again. Father's Day is a few weeks away. Please give me the greatest gift a father can possibly have. I love you.
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