(5/5/2012 12:51:37 AM) Seian Verian: So, something incredible I've realized that also helps put some light on all my knowledge-obsessed characters
(12:51:45 AM) Genshuku: You're away
(12:51:45 AM) Seian Verian: Everything meaningful in my childhood came from books
(12:52:01 AM) Genshuku: :V
(12:52:08 AM) Genshuku: Go on~
(12:52:35 AM) Seian Verian: The stories my father read to me, little Charlie Brown Cyclopedia things and other books that just held... Little tidbits of information, really
(12:52:56 AM) Seian Verian: (Er, the stories weren't the books with little bits of information xP)
(12:53:21 AM) Seian Verian: My interest in fantasy, my creativity... My affinity for knowledge and learning
(12:53:27 AM) Seian Verian: I can trace it all back to that
(12:53:41 AM) Seian Verian: And also say that I took NOTHING else positive from my childhood besides those traits
(12:54:01 AM) Seian Verian: Kindness? Hell no, I was a spoiled, selfish brat who didn't think about others at all
(12:54:19 AM) Seian Verian: It's amazing
(12:54:26 AM) Seian Verian: It might be funny if it weren't... Amazingly sad
(12:54:37 AM) Seian Verian: Because that was EVERYTHING
(12:55:34 AM) Seian Verian: The interactions I had with others were meaningless, shallow, and childish. Everything around me was some twisted facade of peace and happiness to keep me attached to my mother, if I wasn't at school where I cared absolutely nothing about ANYTHING
(12:55:52 AM) Seian Verian: And that facade was broken
(12:55:55 AM) Seian Verian: Repeatedly
(12:55:58 AM) Seian Verian: Yet still blinded me
(12:56:58 AM) Seian Verian: Wrapped me in oblivion, blissful ignorance... Kept me from growing as a person. Left me so that the only things of meaning I had were things I didn't even appreciate at the time
(12:58:03 AM) Seian Verian: It's just an amazingly hard-hitting realization, that ALL I have from my early life is so litte
(12:58:05 AM) Seian Verian: *little
(12:58:16 AM) Seian Verian: Except for the scars