Royal Journal Chapter Three

    >You stare deeply into the screen of the of the rune stone.
    >The footage file had copious amounts of... "Shower Recordings."
    >Nearly vomiting at the sight of this, you manage to hold the bile back.
    >You don't know where to start.
    >"Shower Recordings?" Or "Masturbation footage?"
    >Not wanting to see a close up on your dick, you open the shower file marked; "Shower 001."
    >You see the footage open up.
    >You're in the shower washing away the shock of landing in an equine world.
    >It's saddening to see yourself like this.
    >The thoughts rush back to you.
    >Sadness from knowing you may never see your family again.
    >Weakness from knowing there is nothing you can do about it.
    >And hating yourself from letting it happen.
    >Seeing what a pitiful man you where is enough, you close the footage a little more than depressed.
    >Something scares you tho.
    >She's been doing this since day one?
    >It's a terrifying thing, what kind of creep is she?
    >You see another file, an old one marked "Comforting the lone human."
    >You scoff to think that you so easily fell for the false sense of security she gave.
    >Then again, you would like to see it for old times sake.
    >You open the file and begin viewing.
    >It shows you sitting on a bench looking at the crystal heart.
    >You watch for about a minute before Cadence comes into view.
    >She sits next to you.
    >"You know Anon, I find your sadness understandable."
    >You say nothing, you just stare.
    >"Anon, I know we know little of each other, but I would love hear what you have to say."
    >You know what's gonna happen next.
    >"...Why me? What did I do wrong?"
    >"You did nothing wrong Anon."
    >"Then why? I had a home, friends, and made the discovery of a lifetime. So why do I have to be taken in my prime?"
    >She just waits, she has no answer.
    >"Everyone worships this hunk of crystal like a god. But it only has brought me pain."
    >"Anon, the crystal has done much for the crystal ponies. Without it this place would be a slave empire without it."


>"That's what saddens me most of all princess. The fact that I can do nothing while the countrymen praise the hell that tortures me with its simple presence."
>"That's quite a pessimistic way of looking at it."
>"Oh it is, I know that. But what else can I do? I'm having to face terms with a completely new life. I have no real training for a job here and no one I know to turn to. My life might as well be over, I have nothing. Pessimism is the only real thing I have, no amount of fake happiness can fix that."
>"Anon, you do have people to turn to."
>"What makes you think that?"
>"...You have me."
>That was the one moment since you arrived that you felt happy.
>You begin to lean on the princess.
>"Thank you, princess."
>You've seen enough.
>That video was... emotional.
>It kinda made you think.
>Maybe she just likes you?
>The journal was private.
>And you have done worse things alone before.
>Just then a jingle rings from the stone.
>A message displays itself "It's two o'clock! Go visit Anon!"
>...Or maybe not.
>You look at more recent files a little bit regretful.
>You see one named "A great revelation" at the most recent file.
>Well, might as well start reading.
>"Dear diary, today I had a little time to be with Shining Armor. We were having dinner at his favorite restaurant. We had Idle chit chat before going home. After a little relaxing I went to see Anon. The conversation with him was a blast, as always. But something struck me that moment, I love him. Even stranger was that even with Shining in my life, he still doesn't have what Anon has. Me and him are made for each other, I just know it. Shining is second to me, Anon is twice the man he will ever be. Someday I will pronounce my love to him, and he will accept it, even if Shining is still here. One day he will be mine."
>God fucking damn it, what do you do?
>How could you break this to Shining?
>No, you can't tell him, ever.
>You'll have to shun Cadence until the emotions go away.