[3:14 PM] Athulis: I think I want to re-roll Athulis so I can take a break.
[3:18 PM] Eshea: ok.
[3:19 PM] Eshea: i told stroud a bit about what was going on so he'd have some sort of heads up even if we're not talking to the rest of the FC.
[3:19 PM] Athulis: He's already aware of how I've been talking abouit this kind of stuff.
[3:19 PM] Eshea: yeah
[3:20 PM] Eshea: he said.
[3:23 PM] Eshea: reroll as in... make a -new- Athulis?
[3:24 PM] Eshea: or just make a new character to fuck around on for a bit and say he went away
[3:24 PM] Athulis: No, fantasia to something else for a bit and say that Athulis left for an important mission or something.
[3:24 PM] Eshea: ok.
[3:25 PM] Athulis: I'm thinking about it.
[3:25 PM] Athulis: Part of me wants to adventure out with said concept without having to re-roll completely. The other part knows that I'd piss people off and leave a schism that'll need to be flled in the FC.
[3:25 PM] Eshea: I mean.  Can reroll him and just write stories about what he's doing or something.
[3:26 PM] Eshea: and Stroud already said he'll help me out if you really do go completely dark for a bit.
[3:26 PM] Eshea: shrugs.  The FC is covered you do what you wanna do.
[3:27 PM] Eshea: Just.  ... if he leaves and shit happens while he's gone that's what happens.  Just want to make sure you're ok with that.
[3:28 PM] Athulis: I mean, to be honest: since we've left the FC nobody approaches me for stuff anymore unless they need something, people seem generally upset with the more stark, businessy side of athulis
[3:28 PM] Athulis: so I imagine someone else would be promoted or stroud will take over
[3:29 PM] Eshea: well there also haven't been any jobs that you've given anyone since you've been in your funk.  So.  ... there's not much to approach him about.
[3:29 PM] Athulis: I mean I literally used to tend bar and talk to people 24/7 lol, that's a huge difference
[3:30 PM] Eshea: ok.  Just making sure you are aware of all that.  I was going to make it so no one knew and you could resume, but if you want him to actually go somewhere that works too.  ... makes it almost easier tbh than covering for it.  and the fact you're thinking that once I cut this tie makes me think I made the right choice.
[3:31 PM] Eshea: when i'm home from work stroud wanted to have a little pow wow talking session about who is going to do what.
[3:31 PM] Athulis: I've been discussing this situation with my friends and asking their opinions, one of them mentioned a character concept I'd discussed with them prior and showed interest in re-kindling it
[3:31 PM] Athulis: That's really about all there is to it
[3:32 PM] Eshea: that's fine, go for it.  lol like i said we have things covered :smiley:
[3:32 PM] Athulis: I feel like everybody says that now and then a month down the line everybody will be cursing my name, if not a week
[3:33 PM] Eshea: I mean, ... yeah people followed Athulis out of coven, but we can survive without him.  Shea was leaving either way and I have the bar set up, Stroud has the work.  ... It seems like it'll suck and I hate to be so blunt about it- I'm upset because I enjoyed their relationship but it's not the end of the world.
[3:34 PM] Eshea: Everyone will be fine.
[3:35 PM] Eshea: and that isn't saying he was useless or anything, but we'll have it covered.  If you don't want to do this, then please just... don't.
[3:35 PM] Eshea: It's more stressful to worry about you not enjoying this than to move forward and continue without you.
[3:39 PM] Athulis: Then I guess Athulis will go on a specific mission for Stroud and i'll give the crew occasional tidbits wthrough shortstories and otherwise. This gives me freedom of time constraint, this solves issues ICly, and it lets me play around in a way to test out something new.
[3:41 PM] Athulis: I
[3:41 PM] Athulis: actually just thought
[3:41 PM] Athulis: of hte perfect IC and OOC reason
[3:41 PM] Athulis: not even bullshitting
[3:41 PM] Athulis: Athulis leaves to find his sister.
[3:41 PM] Athulis: Claims he doesn't want to marry until she's there to see it
[3:41 PM] Athulis: that way everything is intact and we can still RP it as we go
[3:42 PM] Athulis: fair?
[3:42 PM] Eshea: ... he would stop their wedding for -that?-
[3:42 PM] Eshea: seems... weak.
[3:42 PM] Athulis: well okay then
[3:42 PM] Eshea: i mean.   idk.
[3:42 PM] Eshea: it's your character it's up to you.
[3:42 PM] Athulis: yeah forget about it
[3:43 PM] Eshea: he's never even mentioned his sister to shea.
[3:44 PM] Eshea: I feel like the fact they've talked about how she thinks his warrior side isn't something she can fufill in his life is something closer to what i was thinking
[3:44 PM] Eshea: since it WAS a legitimate concern of hers.
[3:45 PM] Eshea: and something we've RP'd prior to this OOC issue.
[3:47 PM] Eshea: can say that they were at a stalemate and he had to go 'find himself' or some shit before actually settling down.  and if he comes back, then we'll go from there.
[3:50 PM] Athulis: I'm like 100 percent certain he's mentioned her prior, but that's fine
[3:52 PM] Eshea: it's your character you can say what you like.  Shea will just... idk.  cry about it whatever it is lol.
[3:53 PM] Athulis: I mean I wouldn't be doing this IC or OOC to try and hurt feelings - you're unhappy with my consistency, I want to find a way to revitalize myself because what I've been proposing so far hasn't motivated me
[3:53 PM] Athulis: etc etc
[3:54 PM] Eshea: I know you're not.  I don't think you're trying to hurt my/shea's feelings lol
[3:54 PM] Eshea: i'm SETTING YOU FREE to let you go do what you want to do without worrying about me.  I tried, but there is nothing that i can do to make you get into this.
[3:55 PM] Athulis: I mean I'm still into it, but not at the level that you want.
[3:55 PM] Eshea: Ath.  Friend.
[3:55 PM] Eshea: You have been complaining about all this.  Since day 1.
[3:55 PM] Athulis: I'm a habitual complainer, it's what I do
[3:55 PM] Athulis: I internalize shit that's good and vomit out the bad
[3:56 PM] Eshea: And I am not going to sit around anymore and listen to you complain and constantly doubt you want anything to do with this.  I'm sorry but I can't function at that level.  The way you make it sound, you hate everything about this.
[3:57 PM] Eshea: I'm not going to 'hold you hostage.'  People want shit to get done. You don't want to do shit.
[3:57 PM] Eshea: It's simple, really.
[3:57 PM] Eshea: Maybe if you hadn't been complaining since the DAY WE MADE THE FC I would feel different, but seriously am I supposed to sit here in constant doubt?
[3:57 PM] Eshea: GO FORTH
[3:57 PM] Eshea: FIND WHAT BRINGS YOU JOY
[3:57 PM] Eshea: This does not bring you joy.
[3:59 PM] Eshea: BE FREEEEEE as a bird.  and go cast fireballs and not be constrained by marriage and FC's and whatever brings you down.  ... I'm upset, yes- but seriously I'm not going to keep worrying about this.