Hey. I guess. Both of us are really tired of each other. I mean. I don deny that you are too. I realise, no matter how hard i'm trying to change myself to save this r/s i've with you be it whether dating or whatever, i cant seems to save it. You've a lot of options. You know what i mean. But i don. Why. To me, i just want to 好好的爱你. Thats why i choose to close my doors up. But i believe that, this 好好的爱你，爱的很累。爱的很不自然. Thats not i want. I'm not blaming you for anything. In fact, i want to thanks you. For giving me a very memorable 2mths time. You can treat me as a coward, useless guy or whatever you can think of. I'm really scare. Weird isnt it. To bring myself to the extend of saying this. I got to admit, once i really went crazy because of us. Don be pressure, i just want to tell you before its too late or before i don have the chance. Find someone that love you more then you love that person. I thought i could be the one. I don mind i'm the one loving you more then you loving me one day. Because i felt that i should be the one protecting you from any harm. Days goes by, i realise, i'm not the only one that can do it. In fact, a lot ppl are queuing up to be that person. And also, those ppl that are queuing up, they are really making you enjoying their presence unlike me. I'm always making you frustrated, making you angry. I don know why i cant when i always thinking to make you smile yet things always happen the way opposite. I'm sorry Celestene. Maybe if i din come to your life, you will be much happier then now. I wonder, how long can we really make it. To be frank, i thought we could last. But sadly to say, i have no confident at all now. I really want to hold on. But i think if i really did, you wont be really happy. Which this is one thing that i really hate. For the past weeks, beside quarrel, arguing, we both really don have any normal conversation at all. I really tried my best to turn it back like how we use to be. But since we have come to this stage, its really hard for us to turn back. Remember i told you before, the moment you meet joey, i lose. Indeed i'm right didn't i. I'm not good with my words so if i did say anything that i offend you, i apologize first. I din mean it if i did. I gave you a promise before. If you could remember it. I told you, if you want to play still, by all means but please, when you're ready, please look back at me and let me know. Remember? I give away my last 男人的尊严 for you. Just to let you know that there's really a silly guy loving you whole heartedly. I'm not sure if others are the same but for me, its true from me. Okay lah. Telling you how i felt really makes me more comfortable. I'm not mindfucking myself so don think that way if you did. All i ask for, is you really take good care of yourself. I cant do the job of taking care you but i hope someday, someone will. No matter how reluctant is it for me now, but i think i should leave. Leaving you will really make you more happy. Make you more easy, make you more comfortable. I'm sorry that i din manage to do it. To do whatever i've promise you before. In fact, i din have a chance to start. I leave, because i truly love you. I don wish to see you unhappy at all. And with me holding on stubbornly, i guess you are not. 对不起，我做不到你想要的男人。对不起，我放弃了. I really wish i wont. But somehow i know i should let you go. Last but not least, i really