Rikimaru: Let me ask you something Dev.
Rikimaru: Do your family members tell you they love you?
Rikimaru: Have your brother(s) ever said that?
[War]CrypticX: And Shawn is like an older brother to me. He's always been. He reminds me so much of my older brother. I know what Shawn has been through, I know all the pain he's suffered. And I've been there for him. Scared and worrying about him. I always defend Shawn against anyone. He's like my older brother but the only difference is, Shawn is always there for me...
[War]CrypticX: Only my dad
[War]CrypticX: And brother
[War]CrypticX: Never my mom
Rikimaru: At least you have them, dev. I never had a sister. My brothers all told me that I was garbage. Never thought of me as anything, except their annoying half blood brother who they would pick on and beat in front of their friends because they thought it was fun. Shawn is my best friend, but he's also like my brother. I'm not sure if he knows that. My grandpa doesn't think of me as his grandkid by any means. Doesn't think of me as family either. He wants to kick me out asap. My mom is the only person who has ever shown me love. My father was an asshole who beat my mom in front of me several times. Both parents are drinkers. My brothers do drugs, get sent to jail, go to court. I do nothing wrong. I'm the good one.
Rikimaru: I try to do good things. I try. what do I ever get? Nothing. I only lose things. Friends. never really had family there for me. I know pain dev. I live it every single day of my life. the internet is my only escape from this hell that I'm used to.
Rikimaru: You might be going through things, but I've lived it my entire life. I've had the social bullshit. I've had to balance my life between gaming and my school friends. and you know what? I found out quickly that most of them didn't give a single fuck about me.
Rikimaru: You know, I always thought of you and charlene as sisters. I never said anything because I've always been reject by my family, so why would anyone else accept me as their own?
[War]CrypticX: I hate to say it Zahvone but that's not me. I have tons of friends at school I don't want to lose. I don't want to lose you guys either but I'm different. Way different. I live in a wealthy city with popular people and social statuses and I don't want to spend my whole life gaming which is what would happen if I didn't do what I have to do. And I don't want to depend on internet friends my whole life.
Rikimaru: I, I stay up to late, Dev. To escape. because when I sleep, I dream about the end. I do. I'm not happy with how my life turned out to be. I've never been happy. Talking to people and playing video games is how I deal with it for the most part.
[War]CrypticX: I never said you couldn't do that
[War]CrypticX: So i don't see why you're putting that all on me
[War]CrypticX: You say I'm letting people control my life when you're trying to control my life which I don't like.
Rikimaru: Because I wanted to see if you would accept me as family. Because that's what family do..they talk about things..right?
Rikimaru: but I guess it doesn't matter to you. I guess I am in the wrong to think you would