thanks Al

[11:44] <Flora> hey Al
[11:44] <Al_Dente> hey you :v
[11:44] <Flora> you up?
[11:44] <Al_Dente> I am woke up less than an hour ago whats good
[11:45] <Flora> are you in the mood to help me on a emotional level
[11:45] <Al_Dente> Of course Flora always
[11:45] <Al_Dente> You did for me
[11:45] <Flora> ;i dont want to ruin your morning
[11:45] <Flora> with my stuff'
[11:45]  * Al_Dente sits on couch and offers Flora a seat. "If it will help you, it couldn't ruin my morning."
[11:46] <Al_Dente> sounds like me
[11:46] <Al_Dente> Please Flora
[11:46] <Flora> thanks Al
[11:46] <Al_Dente> Tell me
[11:46] <Flora> jeez im already crying like a bitch
[11:47] <Flora> can you lloojk at the inn for a second
[11:47]  * Al_Dente hugs Flora and gently pats her back. "Tell me, please I know it hurts to let your emotions out. But it feels good after, trust me, like a burden is lifted."
[11:47] <Flora> the inn
[11:47] <Al_Dente> Ahhh yes
[11:47] <Al_Dente> Unify
[11:47] <Flora> just look at it
[11:48] <Flora> yes but the stuff under it
[11:48] <Al_Dente> Who are we really Flora
[11:48] <Flora> ?///////////
[11:48] <Flora> ?
[11:48] <Al_Dente> No no
[11:48] <Al_Dente> you said you would rather be a horse
[11:48] <Al_Dente> but that doesnt change who we really are
[11:49] <Al_Dente> What makes us who we are? Are who we pretend or play to be, or who is deep down. Thes feelings that get smmoned out of now where
[11:49] <Al_Dente> are they foreign or are they really part of us, ive never been one to try and get emotional but
[11:49] <Al_Dente> well it is natural we all need to get it out
[11:49] <Al_Dente> im here Flora if it will help I am all ears.
[11:50] <Flora> Al i play this game like if i was really there
[11:50] <Flora> that horse i play as
[11:50] <Al_Dente> I am my OC
[11:50] <Al_Dente> I know Flora
[11:50] <Al_Dente> I couldnt play a character because who I am is all I know
[11:50] <Al_Dente> But I play it the best ... We play it the best we can
[11:50] <Flora> that's what i am
[11:51] <Flora> i am Flora
[11:51] <Al_Dente> But we are still only people, we can show strenght but we all need to... We all need that support
[11:51] <Al_Dente> We are here for you Flora together, I, Reshepsh, others, for you and vice versa
[11:51] <Al_Dente> We are in this togethe.
[11:51] <Flora> and i am Flora
[11:51] <Al_Dente> An I am Al
[11:51]  * Al_Dente hugs Flora. "What can I do to help?
[11:52] <Flora> Al im nit like this irl
[11:52] <Flora> i dont do this
[11:53] <Flora> im a unfeeling brick of flesh
[11:53] <Al_Dente> Please Flora
[11:53] <Al_Dente> I am too
[11:53] <Al_Dente> We seem to be the same
[11:53] <Al_Dente> >wearing feelings on the shoulder
[11:53] <Al_Dente> I never was one for doing
[11:53] <Al_Dente> but taking things, slowly internalizing them they arent good
[11:53] <Flora> i mean i feel alittle but its only when i fuck up and do something bad
[11:53] <Al_Dente> We are human, I suppose... Well we need to feel, I... Ehhh curi looked thru mine 1 sec getting words of wisdom
[11:55] <Al_Dente> so key words of wisdom from that feels yesterdat
[11:55] <Flora> i dont know who i am in the real world Al
[11:55] <Flora> im nothing
[11:56] <Al_Dente> "Everybody is boring until they try to be fun, then they discover that being fun is nothing else than opening yourself to people"
[11:56] <Flora> nothing yet anyways
[11:56] <Al_Dente> please i know that feel :<
[11:56] <Al_Dente> Flora you say these things and you are 16
[11:56] <Al_Dente> But it isnt true, you maybe un sure but things are different for me
[11:56] <Al_Dente> I am 21
[11:56] <Al_Dente> but we feel the same
[11:56] <Flora> how do you kknow my age
[11:56] <Al_Dente> you mentioned yesterday :b
[11:56] <Al_Dente> your sister
[11:57] <Flora> oh
[11:57] <Al_Dente> Look you skimmed my logs with Curi right
[11:57] <Flora> just a little
[11:57] <Al_Dente> I know that... Gahhh. I suppose we are used to feeling hurt and pain so growing up we pushed emotions and people away. Soo from there we simply try no to feel soo much, avoid what we know can hurt us and such
[11:58] <Al_Dente> Flora
[11:58] <Al_Dente> I wont lie
[11:58] <Al_Dente> if you go thru 1 sec
[11:58] <Al_Dente> http://pastebin.com/hKWwbP3U
[11:58] <Al_Dente> its the private one
[11:58] <Al_Dente> It would seem we are feeling parallels
[11:59] <Al_Dente> Its hard to know that you arent invincible, don't let yourself get in your way, please. Get to know that you have to fall sometimes, life works like that.
[11:59] <Flora> Al can i looj through those later i need help now
[11:59] <Al_Dente> But it is how you are feeling
[11:59] <Al_Dente> I dont know who I am
[12:00] <Al_Dente> I put off this front being strong cold, emotionless and just repress how I feel
[12:00] <Al_Dente> But i feel and things hurt, but over time it just cuts into you
[12:00] <Al_Dente> and makes you sorta bitter
[12:00] <Al_Dente> jaded
[12:00] <Flora> it hurts
[12:00] <Al_Dente> but we all can feel, and well... I suppose maybe who we are stems from how we feel
[12:00] <Flora> i dont like being a rock
[12:00] <Al_Dente> I swear to god flora
[12:00] <Al_Dente> Read that pastebin
[12:00] <Al_Dente> Please
[12:00] <Al_Dente> Do it for me.
[12:00] <Al_Dente> It will help you
[12:01] <Al_Dente> I promise
[12:01] <Flora> ok
[12:01] <Flora> Al
[12:02] <Flora> can i ask you something serious
[12:02] <Al_Dente> yes
[12:02] <Al_Dente> anything Flora
[12:02] <Flora> have you ever thoight about suiside
[12:03] <Al_Dente> Please no flora
[12:03] <Al_Dente> But yes... Yes I have before :<
[12:03] <Flora> Al let me tell you a story
[12:03] <Al_Dente> I am here to listen Flora
[12:06] <Flora> so i get into one of the usual stoupid arguments with my stepdad but i dont care for him to much because he fucked over really any chance for me accepting him as anything. but soon my mom joins in it and i would straight die for my mom at any given notice. well after getting bitched at for 2 hours and takeing it like a bitch i go to my room
[12:07] <Al_Dente> Go on
[12:07] <Flora> my mom tells my aunt  and i go for a walk to clear my head i call my aunt to tell her my side of the story and when i try to open up to her she shuts me down and tells me to watch the body language and such
[12:08] <Flora> as i walk around i feel worse and worse  and i start crying some but i hold it back
[12:08] <Flora> it's dark out at this point and i wear a black coat and the street has no sidewalks
[12:09] <Al_Dente> :<
[12:09] <Al_Dente> Please I know where this is going
[12:09] <Al_Dente> Flora
[12:09] <Al_Dente> I... Well....
[12:09] <Al_Dente> When I was around your age I tried killing myself
[12:09] <Flora> and i got the reoccuring thought of just throwing myself infront of the cars that zoomed past and just dying  dhit with even a small hope of just going to 4c i just want to be there instead of here
[12:10] <Al_Dente> It is a way out but it isnt the right one
[12:10] <Flora> but the only reason why i didnt is because i just cant leave my family and be selfish to them it wouldn't be right
[12:10] <Al_Dente> people will miss you, we will miss you, there will be hurt. But the darker thing is that if you go out like that people wont want to remember I ate god I cant remember how many pills
[12:10] <Al_Dente> and drank soo much
[12:10] <Al_Dente> because it is >suicide is selfish
[12:11] <Al_Dente> We have soo much more to live for
[12:11] <Al_Dente> Just than ourselves
[12:11] <Al_Dente> We have our friends, family, but soo much more that we cannot even perceive in the future
[12:12] <Flora> and look at me now im crying like a girl to some guy on the computer eho dosent even knoe mee
[12:12] <Al_Dente> I did that yesterday to Curiosity
[12:12] <Al_Dente> I felt weak, like nothing else but beleive me Flora
[12:12]  * Al_Dente hugs Flora, hushing her and brushing her mane.
[12:12] <Flora> but the fworst thing is that i've had these thoughts before
[12:12] <Al_Dente> But people care. there are people here who can hold you when you are week
[12:12] <Al_Dente> Weak*
[12:12] <Al_Dente> 1 moment getting wisdom
[12:13] <Al_Dente> you aren't being strong now, but I'm here to hold you, people who care about you will be there to hold you when you can't be strong
[12:13] <Al_Dente> >curi
[12:13] <Al_Dente> i want to be strong
[12:13] <Al_Dente> I feel I am weak when I get emotional
[12:13] <Flora> i am weal\k
[12:13] <Al_Dente> but I want to feel, I want to be emotional but now at 21 it hurts feeling liek I just dont dont know how or could learn
[12:13] <Al_Dente> you arent Flora
[12:13] <Al_Dente> We cant be strong all the time
[12:13] <Al_Dente> But people who care are there for you
[12:13] <Al_Dente> and will help you work thru it and we grow from it
[12:13] <Al_Dente> and get stronger
[12:13] <Flora> i really try to be strong
[12:13] <Al_Dente> we learn and live
[12:14] <Al_Dente> We all do Flora
[12:14] <Flora> ic and ooc
[12:14] <Al_Dente> But we need to feel
[12:14] <Al_Dente> It just just what we do as humans
[12:14] <Al_Dente> It isnt weak or bad to feel
[12:14] <Al_Dente> As hard as it is to write the opposite in our minds
[12:15] <Flora> it dosent hurt to feel
[12:15] <Flora> it's just hard
[12:15] <Flora> very very very hard
[12:15]  * Al_Dente hugs Flora. "I know, but we will learn as we slowly go."
[12:15] <Flora> Al
[12:16] <Flora> will you hold my internet hand?
[12:17] <Al_Dente> Will always hold it Flora
[12:17] <Al_Dente> Ill hug you
[12:17] <Al_Dente> I care
[12:18] <Al_Dente> You know
[12:18] <Al_Dente> I made it a point to Curi and Weather that ill try to IC try and you know.... Feel more
[12:18] <Al_Dente> You could maybe do that with me IC too, we could maybe try and grow
[12:18] <Al_Dente> Some serious character development
[12:19] <Al_Dente> But also because
[12:19] <Al_Dente> I dont.... Well I am not the most social person, my family is ehhh. I dont exactly want to do that, but here well we could actually
[12:19] <Al_Dente> Together you know
[12:19] <Flora> i would like that Al
[12:20] <Flora> wee like 2 sides of the same coin
[12:20] <Al_Dente> it would seem so
[12:20] <Al_Dente> it would seem so Flora
[12:21] <Al_Dente> you know Flora
[12:21] <Al_Dente> that is what makes us strong, doing things that arent easy
[12:21] <Al_Dente> and stuff like that for people like us
[12:21] <Al_Dente> is the hardest thing we can do
[12:21] <Flora> i still want to be in magic pony land Al
[12:23] <Flora> i really do
[12:27] <Flora> thanks Al
[12:27] <Flora> i think
[12:27] <Flora> i think ill be ok
[12:31] <Al_Dente> ok
[12:31] <Al_Dente> Flora
[12:31] <Al_Dente> That time will come, but there is no need to cheat yourself out of the life that earth has to offer you
[12:31] <Al_Dente> but just promise me
[12:31] <Al_Dente> promise
[12:31] <Al_Dente> you wont let it  come to that
[12:33] <Flora> i'll try Al
[12:33] <Flora> i really will
[12:33] <Al_Dente> Promise me :<
[12:33] <Flora> Al
[12:34] <Flora> i'm not sure i can just yet
[12:36] <Al_Dente> Im here for you whenever
[12:38] <Flora> thanks Al
[12:38] <Flora> and the same goes for you
[12:40] <Flora> you know i think ive felt more times in this game then i have in life
[12:42] <Al_Dente> Ok
[12:42] <Al_Dente> I was glad to help
[12:42] <Al_Dente> I hope I can help more :3
[12:43] <Flora> i think you will
[12:44] <Flora> im going to go now but im going to leave this box open if you have anything else you want to say
[12:44] <Al_Dente> Well i might later so lets make this a thing :b
[12:44] <Flora> :3
[12:49] <Al_Dente> indded