Girl: You're the one who can ignore me for days, you can go away for weeks and not care, I can't and it makes me look pathetic
Girl: I can't even ignore your phone calls...I've tried
Girl: I can't ignore you wanting to talk
Girl: I can't tell you not to come see me
Girl: I feel so out of control with you
Girl: I hate it
Girl: You hold all the cards
Girl: But I still call wanting to say I don't want to go on my date tomorrow
Girl: I hate almost everything about you
Girl: Yet I still tell you I want you
Girl: Can't hang up the phone, can't not answer
Girl: I resent the Hell out of you, I hate you traveling around, I hate your siblings, I hate your friends...but I'm calling you at work asking you to tell me not to go on my date [that I planned with someone else tomorrow]
Girl: How does that make sense?
Girl: I see you and I want to hit you as much as I want to cuddle
Girl: I want to yell and scream as much as apologize and try to be better
Girl: I keep wanting to see you hurt over me
Girl: But all you do is travel and flirt with other girls
Girl: But I don't want to go on my date
Girl: I want you to show up at my door
Girl: And I want it to be like a bad movie where suddenly it's ok cuz you showed up said you were sorry and begged for me, where you changed and we can be together
Girl: I'm sick of being happier when I don't talk to you for days
Girl: But I never have gotten what I wanted/needed out of this relationship, and I don't expect it to change
Girl: I just have a compulsive need to ask you back
Girl: And call you up in hopes you'll say something I've been dying to hear
Girl: It's dumb
Girl: And won't work
Girl: And what is even worse, I was doing ok before [day Boy didn't show up]
Girl: Then you show up
Girl: And I've been destroyed all week