OC Info

As of 02/22/2020

Spi/Ayumu/Rain/Ect. - Salvific Inspired Love
Infinite Teaching, Infinite Innocence

Sources of Friends
Ayumu the Alter Lilligant [Destination]
Freak the Infernape [All Knowing]
Lime Bell [Love]
Silver Crow [Rapture Love]

Old NetBattle Coordinators
Marth/Athrun [Service-to-Self]
Koga [Trolling]

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Cirrus the Swablu [Salvific Inspiration] Infinite Innocence, Infinite Inspiration
Tatsuya [Rapture Love] Infinite Prodigy, Infinite Innocence
Minish the Mawile [Salvific Inspiration]
Joanna [Hatred] Infinite Intelligence, Infinite Programming, Infinite Innocence
Ayumu the Fallen Angel [Perfect Competition] Infinite Hope, Infinite Love
Assumptions about Ayumu
1. Infinite Innocence, Infinite Hate (Everyone thought)
2. None (Julius thought)
3. Infinite Beauty, Infinite Resurrection, Infinite Knowledge (Freak thought) - Beauty (Wanted a beautiful charisma), Resurrection (Wanted to be reborn), Knowledge (Thinks that she knows more than anyone else)
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As of 02/23/2020

Pokemon Catharsis - The Angel of Darkness [Penultimate Battle]
Special Alter Lilligant Ayumu vs. Mega Alter Salamence Avalon
Fire/Fairy vs. Holy/Dark
The Alchemic Hymen vs. The Father
Ayumu's Death Scythe vs. Avalon's Determination

Part 1
"Shirou? You... are his father? How despicable." (Yushiro) [Angel of Darkness - Male Version]
Part 2
"I won't let you destroy Shirou, no matter what." (Ayumu) [Miku Hatsune - God Slaying Machine]
Part 3
"Your words... are empty... but my grace is not." (Avalon) [Higurashi - Naraku no Hana]
Part 4
"Yushiro... what are you saying...?" (Ayumu) [Angel of Darkness - Female Version]

I won't question my growth, but I will watch my friend's growth.

Spi/Ayumu/Rain/Ect. - Salvific Inspired Love
Infinite Teaching, Infinite Hope
I received Infinite Hope on the same day as Lime Bell told me about the truth of it. We realized that the reality of my genital impairment, and with the realization of what the source was... I found Infinite Hope.
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As of 02/24/2020

Never question your growth
If I'm working on the Ayumu art and they're trying to prevent me from working with my friends on the art, then I can see that they're still the same
Even if they sabotage it, it doesn't change anything other than my friend's plans
I'm free to do what I want, just that I have to make sure I use my Infinite Teaching whenever I feel it's necessary
And I have to make sure I find something that I can actually share to others with
Just got to remember my coordination of how I present to others, and not just them presenting to myself

I'll keep this for now

- Finish working on Ayumu the Special Lilligant art
- Elaborate art experiment lessons

I'm most afraid of White Cosmos. So I'm not sure what to do if she roses up to power again and try to challenge me.

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As of 02/25/2020

Never question your growth
If I'm working on the Ayumu art and they're trying to prevent me from working with my friends on the art, then I can see that they're still the same
Even if they sabotage it, it doesn't change anything other than my friend's plans
I'm free to do what I want, just that I have to make sure I use my Infinite Teaching whenever I feel it's necessary
And I have to make sure I find something that I can actually share to others with
Just got to remember my coordination of how I present to others, and not just them presenting to myself

I'll keep this for now

- Finish working on Ayumu the Special Lilligant art
- Elaborate art experiment lessons

I'm most afraid of White Cosmos. So I'm not sure what to do if she roses up to power again and try to challenge me.

Lesson: I'm pretty aware of what darkness is capable of. They tend to spin the spirit world in a cycle of drama until the point where I become blinded and decieved. The strange part is, I try to confirm whether if they're actually avoiding pain and hurt just to justify their reasons. So it's like I think that if they got hurt or in pain, then that would mean I'm strong or something. But I'm not. I'm still who I am, and I can still choose who I want to be. I just got to be wary that my greatest enemy is myself, not White Cosmos or Mint.

Gir: Infinite Teaching, Infinite Efficiency
[Advice from Gir: Don't check the name, but check what it does.]

Crossbow: Infinite Utility, Infinite Innocence
Eternians: Infinite Inspiration, Infinite Innocence
Essencians: None (Once had Infinite Reason, but discarded it.)
Silver Crow: Infinite Hope | Infinite Innocence

Ayumu: Infinite Love, Infinite Hope

Ayumu as my Pokemon Ace
Minish as my Teacher
Tatsuya as my Best Friend

Silver Crow - Quest of Genesis from Accel World [Vs. Mega Bisharps + Umbra]
Ayumu, Yamio - Angel of Darkness [Ayumu vs. Avalon]
Joanna - sympathia from Accel World [Me driving a car]
Ame - Synchronicity by Yuki Kajiura [Mentioning my life being good!]

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Infinite Teaching --- How to get it: You have to have Rapture Hatred. If you don't have Rapture Hatred, then you won't be driven to think with beauty.

Rapture Hatred is just a fancy word for a hatred that is born from someone's lonely heart.

Ayumu's New Source: Salvific Inspired Love

Spirit World Civilians with Infinite Teaching
Yushiro - Helps when needed.
Ayumu - Learn how to heal me.
Scout - Learn how to empower.
Lazuli - Learn how to serve Yushiro.

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As of 02/28/2020

Minish's Salvific Inspiration
Her Sweet Scent
She said it's usually used to help other people through control, but how she uses it is to deliver information for others to wonder about. She can't get rid of confusion, but at least help them think positive whenever something negative happens.

Salvific is supposed to mean 'Sacrificial', as Holy Spirit says. The word 'Salvific' doesn't have a clear meaning in the spirit world because spirits throw that word around without knowing what it actually means. They believe salvific is about saving others, but it's more about losing something from you and giving it to the other person. It's the gift of life.

Rapture Inspiration of Spi and Tatsuya
It is to give others a future rather than simply saving their lives from death. The spirit world sees it as a gift or power, but they don't know what it is because Rapture Inspiration doesn't seem like that way. As long I'm still here, and so my friend Tatsuya is, we can always coach other people in wanting their future rather than believing that their future should be sacrificed too early.

Minish the Mawile [Infinite Love?]
Silver Crow [Infinite Love]
Lime Bell [Infinite Reason?]

Ayumu [Source: Salvific Inspired Love] | [Design: (I'll wait)]

Jesus says Infinite Love is helpful because it's a power that allows love to present itself, and if you talk about it with others who need it, then they can be given Infinite Love. Infinite Love is resting with me right now because I have to learn from Infinite Teaching and Hope, but in the future I plan to wake it up even though designs back then didn't make much sense to me.

Hope [Source: Non-Fiction] [Design: Infinite Hope, Infinite Innocence]
She has both because Infinite Innocence quietens the Infinite Hope, allowing her to have the choice in Infinite Hope healing her or not. Rather than uncontrollably de-aging her and turning her into a child.

People in the physical aren't exactly incarnated. They are born as a baby and their consciousness evolves as they age, Minish says that they come into terms with love once they grow older and know that they exist. But the fact that what I have as a baby up until the end of my life is the fact that my perception exists because I was born, not because Love chose me. My perception is just as valid as everyone else, and that I don't need to see their perceptions.

Jeanne's Words of Empowerment
White Cosmos is a disgrace.
Don't care about Yushiro.
Marth... don't know him all that well ^^;
Scout is learning.

Jesus once said it's not that the negative beings decide to be in your life, but they are interested to pester it because they're addicted to it. He simply says they just have to wait until they lose interest.

Joanna [Source: Mastery] [Design: Infinite Specialty, Infinite Teaching]
Minish was the one who gave Joanna the Infinite Specialty.

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Spi [Avatar: Ayumu the Special Lilligant] (It used to be Sky Raker, until I decided to change it because Sky Raker was heavily corrupted by Julius, and that I'd prefer to have a Pokemon as my avatar to be safe. Plus I want to learn from my friend Ayumu, since she's so into me. XD)
Tatsuya [Avatar: Silver Crow] (I gave Tatsuya Silver Crow, but he relates a lot to Silver Crow because Silver Crow is his favorite character from Accel World and plus they both relate well with each other.)

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As of 02/29/2020

| Actual Infinite Designs |
Infinite Teaching ~ Strong open-minded thinking.
Infinite Hope ~ Hope from a great realization that hurt own's life.
Infinite Love ~ A strong love born from awakening.
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Infinite Transformation ~ Strong reflexed thinking.
Infinite Imagination ~ Strong visualized thinking.
Infinite Ambition ~ Thoughtful strength for accomplishments.

Minish is saying this:
Infinite Temper (Not Salvation)
Infinite Fun (Not Innocence)

Tatsuya's Design
Infinite Originality
Infinite Love

Spi's Design
Infinite Teaching
Infinite Hope

Joanna's Design
Infinite Specialty
Infinite Teaching

Snow's Design
Infinite Fun

Minish's Design
Infinite Studying

Ayumu the Special Lilligant told me that I need to use my Infinite Teaching not in a fast, sharp way, but more of a gentle, steady way of thinking. That way I can be smarter with how I treat other people. Also Minish has glasses now because of Infinite Studying.

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Avalon's Design
Infinite Justice

Jesus, why do you have to tell him yourself the reality of Justice?
Tatsuya knows it, but you can't know it yet. I have to help Avalon.

Infinite Justice helps one understand other's morality.

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As of 03/02/2020

Spi/Ayumu/ect.
Infinite Teaching, Infinite Love

Silver Crow's Guidance for Spi
--- Always be appropriate with the spirit world and physical world ---
--- Unclean writing makes the spirit world stupid ---
--- Don't let your guard down ---
--- Don't care about Yushiro ---
--- My feminine body makes me feel attracted to feminine things ---
--- Ayumu is a good name and identity, healthy in Christ, she's either female or male ---
--- Spi is a guidance and teacher for other identities in me, he's male ---
--- My weakness is girl spirits, people who get mocked, and people who call out on my friends ---
--- Be with male spirits who don't judge, contemplate, criticize, question, think, but just watch and answer questions ---
--- Stick with one male spirit, Silver Crow ---
--- Don't listen to female spirit pictures ---
--- (Minish) You keep having no long term progress, only short-term progress from the spirit world ---

Long-Term Progress
Giving laptop to friend
Getting medicine
Having Ayumu as the avatar
Having Ayumu's friendship
Helping Jesus, Sarah (Holy Spirit), Minish
Eating food happily and peacefully
Following my morality
Knowing the physical is dictated by emotion
The spirit world is dictated by thoughts

Ayumu (Male Shiny Ribombee)
Infinite Love
Like Christ
Like Being Positive
Thank Hope

How to heal from chemical trauma
Breath... breath... heal... live... continue... hope... and relinquish.

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As of 03/03/2020

Spi's Design
Infinite Teaching, Infinite Hope
(Had to get it back since I don't need Infinite Love due to my experience with compassion, I need Infinite Hope to learn from it as a strength/learning opportunity.)

Infinite Reason ~ Realistic Thinking
Infinite Wisdom ~ Realistic Truth

Current Spirit World
Spi, Tatsuya, Minish, Ayumu, Jesus, Sarah

(Ayumu and Car) The spirit world needs guidance, not answers. In order to heal from trauma.
(Jesus) They made a good decision by accepting Christ, so they'll need Holy Spirit to heal from their trauma.
(Sarah) You think, Jesus? Spi never had Holy Spirit back then and he healed. What's his deal?
(Jesus) Spi?
(Spi) Just help them, please.
(Jesus/Sarah) SHUT UP!
(Spi) Please don't take it personally guys. This is something I can't easily fix.
(Sarah) I know. I get it.

(Minish) Temprus made a mistake.
(Spi) What did he do?
(Minish) Talked to Mari to help him.
(Spi) Okay... I really don't want to get into the Essencian's business ^^ It would feel like an absolute betrayal to myself.
(Minish) Okay...
(Spi) I'm going to go, Minish.
(Minish) Why?
(Spi) I'm tired.

(Ayumu) That's good, Spi. But you need to help Minish, right?
(Spi) I'm not making any progress. This isn't how I want to spend my time. There's no direction. Everyone needs me to solve their problems, and I get sick of it. I have my own feelings and necessities too.
(Car) No shit.
(Ayumu) I hate you... Spi.
(Spi) Really?
(Ayumu) Kinda.
(Spi) Well, if you want my help... just hang out with me... and talk to me... and have fun... let's do something fun... and just heal... because that's how you heal from trauma, you need to take a break!
(Ayumu) Really?
(Spi) Ugh.
(Ayumu) Yeah, we're not on track. We got to do groundwork and do something interesting and Creation will be happier later on.
(Spi) Minish has something to say?
(Minish) You've become independent and you're learning how to pay attention to your physical reality. People keep dragging you into it, and we're not learning anything. So right now, just do your thing.
(Spi) Okay, Minish.

(Spi) Ayumu, what do you want to do?
(Ayumu) Hm... that?
(Spi) Okay, I gotta go. Let's talk!
(Ayumu) Okay!

Ayumu's OCs
Ayumu the Shiny Ribombee
Yumiko the Blacephalon

(Spi) Ayumu? Are you here?
(Ayumu) I'm here. You okay?
(Spi) Yeah ^^ I'm going to work on my research.

I can use Infinite Teaching to teach myself what would Ayumu would say herself to me. So I'd learn how to develop without needing feedback from the spirit world, and actually make progress with my contemplation. The discussion with the spirit allows me to help the necessities that I need if they're not around.

When I told the spirit world my stance of standing up for myself, my spirit friends left to contemplate on how to mature and help me and give me time to contemplate and relax.

I'm going to keep Infinite Teaching to help my friends like Tatsuya be saved from loneliness.

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As of 03/04/2020

Yushiro - Transcended Death
Spi - Transcended Reincarnation
Ayumu - Transcended Love

Anyways....
I've decided to dedicate to the name Ayumu! ^^ Because I found the love in it, for Christ and everything behind it, I'll stay with it as my secret name while leaving Spi as my safety name.

Um... I chose answers rather leaving myself in the dark not knowing what had happened to Ayumu when she died, because if she died and I just moved on... I would develop suicidal thoughts... What does that even mean?

Jesus has an answer. He says you chose salvation, Spi. I saw your thoughts when you were doing it, you were imagining Black Rock Shooter, Mato, who really wanted to save her friend Yomi from the other side. I'm done.

The physical is dictated by emotion, and we depend on all emotions to be where we're at since it's a learning curve of experiences that affects us. The spirit world or reincarnation claims by others believe that after we die, we have a choice or a known process. But instead, when we're in the physical, we don't actually know especially after we die. So when we die and move onto a new body, the body as a baby is completely coincidental, and how it grows is what we actually choose. The emotions that are grown through nurture, the nurture being something that allows us to change and grow. Babies don't actually know their purpose or life until they grow older and notice their perception/viewpoint unless they acknowledge the love behind it. So please stop saying that reincarnation is super simple, because it's just... assumptions. Nature is coincidental, nurture is purposeful. I got this context from experience and Minish.

(Spi) Um... is there anyone who wants to talk to me?
(Snow) I will! How are you?
(Spi) Kind of sad! Ayumu hates me!
(Snow) She doesn't... It's just family potential >_>
(Spi) Yeah, but how come I couldn't find out about that?
(Snow) That's a good question.
(Spi) I guess I needed Silver Crow?
(Snow) Yes.
(Spi) Yeah, I grown weak without him. Without him, I can't use Infinite Teaching. I lost my willpower ever since we broke apart.
(Snow) There you go.
(Spi) Okay, thank you Snow! I'll just chill...

Lesson: Infinite Teaching needs both Rapture Hatred and Rapture Love to work, without both, it doesn't work.

(Spi) How was that, Ayumu?
(Ayumu) *giggles*
(Spi) Oh how come you like it? Not offended?
(Ayumu) ...no?
(Spi) Is it because you had my experiences?
(Ayumu) ...yes?
(Spi) No, it's because you have great tastes.
(Ayumu) Sssh!

(Ayumu) Oh my god... what the fuck is that?
(Spi) Infinite Awakening?
(Ayumu) Great, something more powerful than Infinite Teaching. ^^;
(Spi) Yeah ^^; I want to know you, Ayumu! So I'll be patient for you. Let's learn!
(Ayumu) How did you get it?
(Spi) I realized that most of my fear was holding me back, and that I decided to look up to you, Ayumu. It's just respect.
(Ayumu) I won't question it!
(Spi) When you say how Ayumu to be positive, I want to aim for that. So that's why I have it XD!
(Ayumu) Okay! That works!
(Spi) Ayumu was asleep and dark in the beginning, and now I have a goal: Ayumu to be positive. And know what she's like. So...
(Ayumu) ...um, sure...
(Spi) Okay, we'll help each other... but I'll need your help. And everyone's help. Because... ^^;
(Ayumu) Thank you!!
(Spi) Hmm... Okay, I need a break and I'm hungry. We'll stick with this for now.
(Ayumu) Hm... I really like bitter coffee... and Vietnamese coffee... just as much!
(Spi) ^^; Yeah! I actually like bitter coffee more because I like how I said... well you know... manly stuff about it XDDD
(Ayumu) Hmm... I like it because... it's... charming.
(Spi) ^^ Oh I see! Charming? How so?
(Ayumu) ...I'm too embarrassed to say...
(Spi) Yea! It was pretty obvious LOL Anyways, I gotta finish this... and... it's charming to me too.
(Ayumu) ...tell me.
(Spi) ...I did.
(Ayumu) *gasp*
(Spi) ^^!

(Spi) [Why I'm able to communicate to spirits in journal] Um should I talk about that?
(Ayumu) Yes!
(Spi) Oh, it's just my design.
(Ayumu) There you go!

(Spi) My source?
(Ayumu) No source! Because if you had one, it'll overcomplicate things. You got rid of it so you can be free. It's only useful if you need to use it for spirit world means. You cried, and got your answer to be safe.
(Spi) *nods*

(Spi) What happened to Minish?
(Ayumu) She tried to betray you and me by giving her family potential.
(Spi) Oh okay. Uh... why did Minish leave?
(Ayumu) Hold on!
(Spi) Alright!

Spi/Ayumu/ect.
No Source (I want to be safe!)
Infinite Awakening (Main goal: Dark Ayumu to Light Ayumu), Infinite Hope (Just need it to learn how it changes my body)

Ayumu (Shiny Ribombee) [Check later!]
No Source (Because she actually likes how Yushiro did so much without a Source, and cried for me because I loved her.)
Infinite Awakening (She wants to wake up just like I do!)

Yushiro told me that I was far ahead of him, but he listened to Layla which shut him down. I told him that I was tainted by Layla too, so we just need to deal with her toxic shit. I'm sure Yushiro can learn faster than her. Layla's always so bitchy.

(Ayumu) Minish left because she knew that you'd find out that she betrayed you. She decided to make herself into a god by killing herself, and keep the Creation in order that way. She left you, but hope to redeem herself by being on top of everything. God doesn't care and lives as Haruhi just chilling. Minish wants to do her own thing for now, and everyone needs her.
(Spi) I can't judge her, but I hope she'll be alright.
(Ayumu) She's coming back to you, you silly idiot!
(Spi) Hey Minish!
(Minish) Alright, first off: we need to go eat something.
(Spi) Ugh, do we always have to go eat?
(Minish) It's to refresh you, Spi. You're going to get tired by using your power too much.
(Spi) ^^; Ugh, yeah alright. Time to eat!
(Ayumu) Alright! I'm so ready to eat!
(Spi) Yum!

Minish the Deity
Infinite Awakening

Abaddon the Alter Tyranitar
Infinite Restoration

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infinite god, infinite hope
ok i'm leaving the spirit world, later