Not The Actual Events

=== Branches/Bones ===
still can make out pieces with the opening sewed shut yeah parts of me are slowing down and time is speeding up spiders crawling everywhere infected Japanese you can tell all your friends you’re just a tourist but you can’t understand what they’ve planned until you try to leave feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before well i don't know anymore and i don't care anymore feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before cold and black and infinite with nothing left to lose glassy bending flexible if you try to keep the flies away the makeup hides the bruise why are you here right now? i don't think you're supposed to be reading this her branches are the bones that break become a perfect line and no he won’t be just a man who’s Sometimes

he won't be just a man who's Sometimes

feels like i've been here before well i don't know anymore and i don't care anymore
i think i recognize
yes i have been here before yes i have been here before yes i have been here before yes i have been here before yeah i don't care anymore yeah don’t give a fuck anymore and i don't care anymore one way or another but the way things have a way finding order almost everything of you yes i have been here before yes i guess thought i was my proven false in false in one all of you but the way actual events a way of finding mattered what i thought of finding order almost of you i guess have a way of comfort in the past events but the way like I’ve been here the past not the but the way i of myself has proven before allowing myself to almost everything i thought events but the way sense of comfort in what i thought i have a way of actual events but the mattered what i thought the actual events but the actual events but been here before allowing of myself has proven  in one way guess things have a of finding order almost my definition of myself you all of you myself to feel a feel a sense of thought i was my thought mattered what i have proven false to remember them and comfort in the past and you all of way of finding order you i guess things all of you i of myself has proven of myself has proven the way i choose in one way or i guess things have order almost everything i myself to feel a not the actual events in the past not remember them and you feels like I’ve been you i guess things i thought mattered what here before allowing myself way i choose to of finding order almost of finding order almost or another   and you all of before allowing myself to allowing myself to feel way of finding order of myself has proven my definition of myself please go away from here please all of you i past not the actual like I’ve been here in one way or myself has proven false guess things have please go please please please yes i have been here before yes i have been here b

=== Dear World, ===
yes, everyone seems to be asleep

hey look, you didn't even notice
you couldn't eventell
just when it started happ
ening maybe just as well
afterall everything is gettingunfamiliarnow
trajectory in decline
and webecome obsolete
a frame ata time

i'm locked inside here
i have to stay
with people who aren't here
all the way
pictures and faces
on display
people who aren't here
all the way

“you come when i call you”

IT is coming
       And you didn't
   even notice
You didn't even
      notice
       You didn't even
notice
        You didn't even
notice
You
didn't even notice
      You didn't even notice
You
didn't
even
notice
You didn't
even
        notice
          You didn't
      even notice
You were missing

(left channel)
dear world, i can hardly recognize
you anymore
and yet i remain certain
thereis an answerin you
i feel like i have lived solong sometimes
run out of things to try to do
i can't concentrate mywayout
what about..?

(right channel)
I am leaving because I can’t recognize who i have been
You go on spoiling
Hey look it's happening
without me you didn't even notice
Of course it’s been happening all along
permanent intervals As you become obsolete whoareyou?
oh this place...
i can’t concentrate
Ibegin to gothrough another of that we havebeen.
(I have been entirely patient
but i know i can't trust myself with this again)
nono
not this time

i'm locked inside here i have to staywith people who aren't here
all the way
pictures and faces
on display
people who aren't here
all the way

yes, everyone seems to be asleep



=== She's Gone Away ===
you dig in places til your fingers bleed
spread the infection where you spill your seed
i can't remember what she came here for
i can't remember much of anything anymore






she's gone she's gone she's gone away






a little mouth opened up inside
yeah i was watching on the day she died
we keep licking while the skin turns black
cut along the length (but you can't get the feeling back)





she's gone she's gone she's gone away








are you still here?



=== The Idea of You ===
maybe that was somebody else
maybe i was somebody else
I am sorry (for what it’s worth) if that means anything anymore.  I think there’s something just wrong with me
i have been wondering
when did you know?  you know, really know?
no no no no no i don’t think that’s going to happen here
you missed all that on the way out
and remember
i don’t want to remember anymore
maybe i was somebody else?
just go back to the idea of me
go back to the idea of me

none of this is happening

WAIT
WAKE
BREATHE
BELIEVE
HEY
YOU TELL YOURSELF

oh and
If I start to tell you anything please don’t pay attention.  That’s not really me in there.  I would never do that.
just go back to the idea of me
go back to that idea
can you even hear me over here?
can’t you feel it happening?
everything absorbing liquid twitching forming something terrible
the sores are gone
and you can hardly tell now but
that was someone else who isn’t here anymore

none of this is happening

hey,
can you hear?
it gets so lonely in here



=== Burning Bright (Field on Fire) ===
i’m going back
of course i am
as if i ever had a choice
back to what i always knew i was
on the inside
back to what i really am
look at this pathetic place i made
with little bits of sticks and hair and anything i found along the way
and tell yourself you know
you’re not really what you know you are
you know?
of course you do
i think i may have even listened to you i think i may have even listened to you
at the height of my demise

break through the surface and breathe

i am forgiven
i am free
i am a field on fire
i am forgiven
i am free
i am a field on fire

and oh my god i have missed you
it has been so long
i am stronger than i have ever been in my decline
for now i know i know for certain
shedding any
burn motherfucker
carry the carcass and throw it on
pull up a chair and watch
the flies come roaring out
and will surround the entire world
and blacken out the skies and every last one of you
like a plague of locusts
like an exit
like an end
like the end

i am forgiven
i am free
i am a field on fire
i am forgiven
i am free
i am a field on fire

it's getting hard to know which side is the dream
i can't tell if i am dreaming anymore