I am burned out while still in learning phase. I am in need

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I am a guy in early 20s who is in trouble because of stress and burnout  and wants help from anyone has gone through my situation and recovered, or anyone with experience with their close ones. I love HN, and I am in need of some love back now. I "was" a wannable entrepreneur in software and internet marketing, one time Global runner-up in Hack4Good (Team Donate4Good, Kathmandu, Oct. 2013) event, and a life-time learner. Like you, I also have "world changing" ideas to make people's lives easier and healthier, which are now dyimg inside me- slowly making my life hard to live and make progress.

Here's what I want to share with HN community-

I dropped out of CS, moved to another city nearby and started to live and hack to build things I always wanted to, all in isolation for 2 months. After that point I found myself getting quite unproductive, eventually leading to physical symptoms of depression and stress.

Within the period I failed to start a startup, couldn't build even a MVP of a "world-changing" idea I had, was judged useless idea holder in a Startup Weekend and got commented by close friends about dropping out, that led to compulsion to get detatched from them. More than that I repeatedly had to tell lie to family and girlfriend about my college- that I am still going classes. I was taking a lot coffee to stay productive day-night. Had no one to talk, and one day suddenly I realized something is wrong with me.

I also seeked medical help but got disappointed by suggestions like "sleep a lot and eat well". That helps but not in the long run; neither can prevent this situation from happening in future.

Emotional symptoms I have is that I have started not to care my close ones, includes family and friends, as much as I did, as I had to care myself more, and everyone else fell to 2nd priority. But still I feel like I MUST be cared by them, else I am all alone here! That really disappoints my close ones.

Physical symptoms include occasional eye strain, sweating of palm and feet, too much stomach irritation, heatrbeat rise, and that uneasy feeling on throat as if I want to but cannot cry! Dizziness and "I should sleep" feelings are quite often. I cannotgo outdoors because loud noise irritates me a LOT.

Mental symptoms include memory lapse, unable to concentrate on anything in the beginning but once I get into it (esp. writing code) I don't know when time passes. When I am with someone I can hardly even have long conversation. I am afraid to talk, and that mostly happens when I am outdoors or in bright light. I think of myself from a different perspective and feel like I don't make any difference here.. I can't simply have normal thoughts. I feel like lost in nowhere- only the past that I cannot change, and no more dreams and ambitions in life.

My background, that I would focus on computers-

I bought a PC 5 years back with obsession to create cartoons, but I had to.learn to use a computer properly first. One year later I was good enough in many of the Adobe Creative Suite apps, countless utility apps and specially 3DS Max (2008). I had no internet till then- thanks to tutorials and help files. I never actually heard properly about programming.

Then I joined CS in 2010 where I got to  know about programming- starting from #include<stdio.h>.

I also got to know about Open source, and switched to Linux, deleting entire data of my PC because I had no experience installing Ubuntu. Then after Ialmost ditched MS  Windows and started learning to program- Allegro, then TCL for NS2, then web technologies- from HTML to relational databases (because PHP and MySQL). Learned more than handful of languages but never thought of mastering in any. I always stayed as a learner, just assimilated folders and folders of tiny projects  which only I knew they exist. I was like a monkey left in a jungle who would taste every fruit it finds. I learned about CSS hacks to weird shell commands to TCP/IP to Crypto to Machine Learning to anything I come to know about. I know everyone who's enthusiastic about tech, esp. software understands it.

I read countless blogs from entrepreneurs to university professors to startups to everything! I was such a happy person because I felt like I knew so many things.

Ater 2 years of joining CS that's two years ago, I started working on few web and android projects, dropped out and re-joined because I felt like I was not ready yet. I  worked on oDesk for next few months and six months ago I again dropped out- that means my classmates from first year are now getting ready for internship, and I am here- just rejoined college again in 2nd year! By this time I have known how to sell yourself in market, how software is built and how to start from garage
and win billion hearts of customers; at least I felt like I knew.  I "tried to" start a startup after being announced Global third team on Geeklist's Hack4Good event (October, 2013). I was so motivated and enthusiastic at that time. Suddenly, everything fell apart with my current situation! I lost every hope and desire- thats when exactly I had worked in isolation, and the Startup Weekend happened.


After experiencing burnout I decided to tell everyone including my parents about it, and told them on my 22nd birthday. It helped temporarily to feel relieved but now its the same, and getting worse.

I have moved back to the town where my college is, became vegeterian and stopped putting efforts on hacking few hours at night just because one bug is unresolved. I stayed at home for 14 days, stareted talking to those friends who were detatched and tring my best.

I share my thoughts and situation with everyone who cares. I have a mentor who says this is normal and he has also burned out many times. He's a renowned person in FOSS Community of Nepal, and supports me.My friends, family and everyone seems to be caring me but I cant help myself from feeling lost and being unable to live normally!

I have stopped learning things because I cannot take in anything. Even the concept of Prolog seems hard for me to understand.

Please help!