Friday- 2nd December 2016

Friday- 2nd December 2016

Today was ok. I still retreat some of my habits since I lost my challenge. And I'm sad again. Caused by the fear of future. I dont wanna move forward- I'm not ready yet. There are still too much problems, but according to my father, I have to work NOW. Everything hurts when I think about my future, and my ordinary life has begun to start being bad again. There is literally no day when I am unable to think about my future, because I've get asked every day...
Tomorrow I'm going to visit fathers boss, but I already made a decision. But he doesnt understand that I already said NO.
Please, please let this problems disappear. I though my life would be alright, but then these problems occurred. And tbh, I'm as sad as I was years ago...