OK this is now my diary.

Dear diary,
This is my first entry on the I can't sleep aid. Y is it that I can't trust him. I have never lied to him. Even when we went our separate ways. But he still hides/ tries to. Tonite watching something he did want me to see. And wants to be angry/annoyed cause I asked about it. U no the one still hiding. This is taking a toll. I have been talking to someone lately. They keep asking y r we still together. I can even think of one thing. Not even the kids. This mess is really hurting us. But he still puts us through it anyway. We talked alil the other day. I asked him how he would feel if I would b with someone else again. He doesn't care. I can't understand that. Every time I can remember how bad I felt being with Tony. But there were no lies. He loved his life I lived mine. We didn't try to make the situations something they weren't. Henry says I love u I want u. But he doesn't need my love support. Basically me in Hus life. So y won't he find something more suited to his life n stop hurting me all the time. I feel so worthless. How can someone u say I love go on to try to be with someone else n ur OK with it. Well I guess punishment  is more important to him then having someone even if its not me to love him.