Betanon [Chapter 1]

>You grinded your teeth slightly
>You hate, hate, HATE that pretentious little prick
>”Hey Anon, are you even listening to me?”
>A voice called out from the other room
“Sorry Twily, I kinda zoned out”
>”I said that Flash and I are going out for a date tonight, can you please mind the library for me? I don’t trust Spike at the moment. He’s a been a little rebellous lately, I think he might be going through a phase or something like that”
“Of course I will”
>A goofy grin spread across your face
>Anything for Twilight, after all
>”Thank you so much Anon, by the way how do I look?”
>Twilight began to walk down the stairs from her bedroom
>She always looked good to you, but she looked stunning in the dress she was wearing
“I-I, uh…”
>In response to your stammering she shot you a confused gaze
“You look simply wonderful”
>You managed to spit out after another couple of seconds
>This time you were met by a look of disbelief
“H-Honest, I was just taken aback by how amazing you look, is all”
>She seemed satisfied with this response and you sighed softly
>Thankfully she did not hear that
>”I’ll try to be back by ten Anon and thank you again, this really means a lot to me”
>A slight blush spread across your face but not enough to be too alarming to Twilight
“Yeah, of course. What are friends for if they don’t help out?”
>Twilight smiled at this before looking at the clock and looking alarmed
>”I really must go, I’m almost tardy!”
>She didn’t even use the door, as she teleported out of the library

>You looked at the spot she disappeared from with a sad sigh
>You loved her, you were afraid to confess it to anyone and sometimes to even admit it to yourself, but it was true
>It hurt seeing her dating someone else, but you felt her happiness was much more important than you getting it off of your chest
>Besides, seeing her happy was the greatest rush in the world
>Just seeing her smile because of something you did to help her was enough to keep you content
>You looked about the place
>Spike was still out on some errand Twilight had him running
>Sometimes you thought he was overworked by Twilight and you often offered to do some of the errands he was assigned
>Not out of empathy for Spike, to be perfectly frank you were sometimes jealous of him, but just because you enjoyed helping Twily out
>You sat down on a chair and dozed off

>”Hey, wake up!”
>You awoke with a start
>Spike was tugging on your pants
>You groaned slightly
“You just get back, little buddy?”
>Spike nodded his response
>”So, uh, Twilight has gone out on her little date already, right Anon?”
“Yeeep”
>”So we can have some fun right, just us guys?"
“Sure, just so long as we respect the library and keep the place clean enough”
>Spike grinned slightly
>”Cooool, because I got something fun in store for us”
>The little fellow shot off and you grinned
>You stretched, wondering howl ong you’d been asleep
>Spike returned, with a bottle of alcohol
>Not the weak stuff either, as far as pony drinks go
>”Are you su-“
“I’m old enough in dragon years, Anon. ‘Sides this is pony drink, barely affects Dragons.”
>You weren’t sure about this but you figured so long as you stayed sober it would be fine
“Alright, I believe you buddy. We had better still be careful how much we drink, don’t want Twilight to be too worried about you”
>He eagerly slammed down two shot glasses so hard you were surprised they didn’t break
>You undid the lid and poured out the two glasses before downing yours in one
>Slight burn but nothing like the booze at home
>Spike coughed after downing his
>You raised an eyebrow
“Not quite used to this yet, Spike?”
>”As if, some just went down the wrong way”
>He was young afterall, even if he was maturing he obviously hadn’t drank much before, or maybe at all
>You poured another without thinking, you could drink a lot more of this weak pony brew before it affected you
>Spike looked a little apprehensive at his second glass
>Your eyes brushed past the clock
>There was an hour before Twilight would return
>You must have slept longer than you initially though
>The little dragon picked up his glass sheepishly while you downed yours and already poured another one
>You sighed as you looked out the window, wondering what Twilight was doing
>The sound of glass on the table punctured your thoughts
>”Fill it up Anon, this is nothing”
>He did seem fine, you thought, pouring him his third
>There was still plenty of the bottle left anyway
“Lets make this our last, we don’t want Twilight to smell it on your breath in the morning”
>Spike groaned and drank the shot
>”Just one more, c’mon, I promise I’m not even feeling this yet”
“Well, okay, but just the one”
>To be truthful you weren’t either
>You passed him the bottle
“You can do the honors”
>He seemed ecstatic as he poured out the two spots right to the brim
>You raised your glass in a mock toast that Spike seemed to pick up on as he raised his too
>You adopted a silly formal sounding voice and said,
“Ahem. I would like to dedicate this drink to Miss Twilight Sparkle, whose date made this alcohol consumption possible”
>Before downing the shot, also watching as the dragon downed his too
>He was a pretty cool little drinking buddy, you would have to do this more often as he got older
>The bottle still had plenty left as you put the lid back on it
“Another time when Twilight feels a little less worried about you, huh?”
>The purple dragon grumbled slightly
>”Yeah, okay Anon. Thanks for trusting me. Twilight is a little suffocating sometimes”
“Y’know, it honestly is just because she cares about you”
>Spike didn’t respond and the two of you sit in silence while you waited for Twilight to return

>It was almost eleven o’clock when you broke the silence
“Fuck it, we’re doing this”
>You uncapped the bottle and poured two more shots
>”Really? Sweet!”
>A smile crept across your face, the first since the silence had set in
>You were worried about Twilight but just assumed she had lost track of time because she was having a good date
>Spike’s excitement took your mind off of that though
>”Hey Anon, lemme jus-“
>His tail swipped the drink from your side of the table while you were listening to him and he did both shots back-to-back
“Hey now, you never take booze from a man without asking properly first”
>You said, but in a playful, not harsh, tone
“Besides I’m not impressed by that, wait here”
>You went to the kitchen area and got a larger glass
>Four shots fit into this glass, as you demonstrated to Spike by pouring them into the shot glass then transfering it
>You drank it down in one then tipped the glass upside down to show off to him
>Of course this wasn’t an impressive feat to you, considering the weakness of the drink, however Spike was visibly impressed
“When you can do that, I’ll be impressed”
>You doubted he could, being new to this and it seemed to affect him more as a novice
>He poured it out while you watched with a cheeky grin
>Then he picked it up and began to drain it
>One fifth down
>Two fifths
>Three fifths
>Was he actually going to manage it?
>Four fifths
>Five fi-
>He seemed to gag and some of the fluid returned to the cup as he took it down from his mouth
>You examined it, he still had managed at least 3 shots worth
“Hey, I’m honestly impressed you managed that much”
>He seemed a little dejected at failing, but the praise perked him back up a little
>You watched him finish what was left
“Go clean that cup and put it where it belongs, Spike. We don’t want Twilight to know, do we?”
>As Spike did as he was told, you noticed he seemed a little tipsy
>Was this his limit?
>You poured and drank another while you pondered if enough was enough
>You drank a few more while you waited for Spike to finish cleaning up the glass
>Spike returned after a short while
>You felt were starting to get a little tipsy
“Y’know what is rough, buddy? When you have, you know, THOSE feelings for your best friend and you can’t really express it because you’re too much of a pussy when you are sober”
>Spike just looked at you a moment
>”A-are you coming on to me, Anon?”
>You blushed furiously
“NO, I’M TALKING ABOUT TWILIGH-“
>YOU DUN GOOFD
>There was an awkward silence before you broke it
“Off to bed now little guy, I think we might have had a little too much for tonight”
>He was shocked but he obeyed, heading off to bed
>You decided to have another sleep in the comfortable chair whilst awaiting Twilight’s return, hoping Spike wouldn’t blurt anything out in the near future
>Hopefully he’d just forget about it altogether

>You heard the door bang open and snapped to attention
>Twilight walked through, her mane a mess and her dress slightly crumpled
>”I’m so sorry but Flash invited me back to his house for a bit after our meal and I just lost track of time”
>She looked as though she had drank too much and passed out on the couch or something
>Twilight was kinda cute when she was all messy like that
>You got up out of the chair and straightened up her mane
>She was kinda smelly, you guess she needed a shower
“That’s okay, I don’t mind”
>You noticed her eyes travel over the bottle of alcohol and one of her eyebrows seemed to involuntarily raise
“Uh, I just had a little drink, no biggie”
>Then over the two shot glasses
“Well, you know this stuff is weak to me and I do like my shots”
>”Did Spike behave himself? Wasn’t too much of a handful?”
“You know how guys are, he was completely cool with me Twily”
>You yawned and stretched
“I think he’s still in bed, in fact”
>You watched as she headed for the bathroom
“So, if you don’t mind me asking, did you have a good date?”
>The sound of the shower started up
>“Yes, the dinner was lovely and Flash is just so perfect.”
>The glasses clinked as you picked them up and washed them out in the sink
“That’s great”
>You called out as you put them away
>After this you walked back out into the main area, about to sit back down on the chair
>”Um, Anon. I, uh, slept kinda funny last night and my back is really sore so I can’t reach some things. Do you think you could help me out and wash my back?”
>Were you hearing this right?
>Did she just fucking ask you to go in there, while she was washing?
>You walked over to the door
“Uhm, are you sure you’re okay with that? I mean, you are naked”
>Right after you said this, you realized how dumb it sounded
>Ponies were almost always naked, they only wore clothes on special occasions or to express themselves
>”Yeah, aaaand?”
“Sorry, human thing. You know, we are usually awkward without clothes. Kinda forgot”
>She laughed, obviously finding your awkwardness funny
>You entered the room but you couldn’t really see much through the steam
>You worked your way towards the shower, making sure you didn’t trip on or step on anything
>When you reached it you rolled back your sleeves and reached in
>”Anon, stop being silly, you can’t see anything like that, how are you going to help me? Just hop in already”
“But my clothes will get wet”
>”Just take them off, I know it’s awkward for you normally but we have been good friends for a while now and I promise I won’t make it strange at all. You need to get used to how things are around here anyway”
“Uhm, okay I guess”
>The steam felt odd against your skin as you removed your shirt, then pants and lastly boxers
>A blush spread across your face, even though no one could see you right now
>The heat was very welcoming as you slid the door open and entered the shower
>”Thanks, the soap is right there”
>The soap was already quite slippery when you picked it up, you could only guess she had already washed all the areas she could reach
>You gingerly began to rub her back down after lathering up your hands
>”That feels really good Anon, maybe you should try to get a job as a masseuser at the spa”
>Blush intensifies
>”A little lower too”
>Your hands cautiously go lower to her behind
>”You know, that’s probably a good idea, actually. Your hands are so much better suited to that kind of thing than hooves are”
>You literally had a handful of her ass by this point
“I can’t do this, I’m sorry I just can’t”
>”Wha-?“
>You got out of the shower, grabbing your clothes
>Twilight hopped out of the shower and stopped you before you got to the door
>”What’s wrong Anon? Why can’t we be close like that? We are friends, right? I-Is it that you don’t like me?”
>Fuck, you didn’t want her thinking that
“I just don’t want to ruin our friendship. I do like you, Twily. I like you a lot in fact.”
>She looked hurt still though, her eyes starting to well up and her eyes drooped down
“Well I, uh, I love you Twilight”
>Dead silence
>You couldn’t even hear the shower in that moment
>Thump. Thump. Thump.
>Your heart was beating so hard you could hear it piercing the silence
>Oh god, you’d really fucked up now
>Confessing your love to a pony who already had a special somepony, in the nude after just doing something very private
>Twilight just stared at you, her face displaying utter disbelief, in all your naked shame, your clothes under your arm
>”You love me?”
>There was danger in that voice
>You nodded very slightly, rubbing the back of your neck, sheepishly, with your free arm
>Her face seemed to be contorted in almost ugly ways you didn’t think possible
>Flared nostrils, furrowed brow and an odd almost-snarl but not quite adorning her mouth
>A rising tide of the little pony’s anger washed over you as you felt the heat in her voice and the fire in her eyes slowly build into a burning crescendo
>”You love me and you didn’t tell me when I told you about Flash and I having a date? You love me and you didn’t tell me when I came home, my mane a mess and smelling of sex? You love me and you didn’t tell me before climbing in the shower and rubbing down my body?!?!”
>Half way through her outburst her rather impressive wings flared open around you
>You had never felt smaller in all your life than when this little technicolour pony was shouting at you
>There was a wetness in your eyes
>Were you crying?
>”So let me get this straight”
>Her anger seemed to be gone, replaced by a much more frightening manic hysteria
>This change caused you to feel smaller still, as you felt your body back away, pressing against the wall
>"You, my best friend that I tell everything to and do everything with, didn't want to be honest with me and trust me too?!"
>You wanted to shout back that she was just wrong, that you did trust her and you were just scared
>But your voice just wasn't there when you tried
>After what felt like a thousand years of being unable to communicate, you found your voice
"I just didn't want to ruin our friendship or make things awkward. It wasn't that I didn't trust you, I was just afraid of ruining it all"
>The purple alicorn did not seem impressed with your answer and you felt her anger rise again
"Twily I'm sor-"
>"No! You don't get to call me that. Ever. Again. In fact I don't ever want to see you again!"
>So far you had felt crushed, broken and worthless as the object of all your affection
>But this sentence literally broke something in you
>You summoned the last of your strength and managed to push passed the wings that were flared around you and ran out of the room