Rinshan's Story

I mentioned that I was going to work on a ship since I can't find a job in my city/country. After 2 months of cancelled flights because of bad weather and a lot of stress I finally made it there. I was supposed to work for 6 months there but I only lasted 20 days. The conditions were terrible.

I shared a very small cabin with 4 people, our toilet was constantly clogged, I worked 15 hours a day, my feet were bleeding. The food was terrible, I was constantly getting harassed and mobbed at work. They sent me to do things that were out of my job description. I was employed in service but they sent me to carry heavy things all day and sort out trash. My ship was cruising in the orient. There were people from the ship constantly getting arrested in Muscat etc. because of trivial things like taking selfies. Guess what? There was a woman in the background on his selfie so he went to prison. Scary place, so I couldn't even leave the ship. I couldn't sleep at night because my roommates would constantly come in and out through the night or talk with their families all night long on their phones. After 20 days or so I couldn't take it and wanted to jump off the ship while it was at high seas, because I didn't want to go back home and disappoint everyone that supported me and lent me money etc. But there was this girl from Germany which I befriended and she convinced me to go home and that everything will be alright. I told her about my situation and she said "If you can't work out anything home, wait until I get off the ship and we can marry so you can live in Germany.".

With those words I went home, paid all my bills and filled the fridge with the little money I earned. Everyone was mad at me for lasting so little, friends told me to not contact them until I can pay them back their money. I looked for a job for a few days, remembered why I wanted to jump off the ship. At the same time I was staying in contact with this girl. After 5 days I told her that I can't work out anything here and asked her for help. Suddenly she couldn't help me out. Wow. I got drunk and wrote her terrible things since I felt betrayed. So I don't have that contact anymore. Maybe for the better, she would just make me false hopes and play with my feelings. She just can't understand my situation since she comes from a functioning country.

After a week of suicidal thoughts I decided I might sell my PC and buy a one-way ticket to Germany and seek asylum. Kinda hard right now with the Syrian crisis but I got nothing to lose. There's nothing for me here. If I get rejected though I get a 5 year ban from Europe, so it's pretty risky. In the meanwhile I translated Kirinji and that brought my spirits back a bit. It's therapeutic. While I was translating I thought to myself, why not put a donation button on the blog? There's no pride left in me when I can't even feed myself. And yes, I'm serious, no theatrics, I'm really facing hunger, since in my "beautiful" country there is no social help, no welfare, no public kitchens, I'm not even insured, it's like living in a jungle. Rinji, Kaiji and co. at least have welfare.
Everyone here survives by having family in wealthy countries that send them chicken feed so they can survive. I don't have family.

So yeah, that's the story. If anyone wants to donate this hobo it would be deeply appreciated! It would go towards food and my bills. Anything I get would help my mental state and that would get you faster releases!

If you really want to donate and can't for some reason, it's because my country can't even get donations on PayPal, but direct sending of money is fine so contact me on zijad.duran@gmail.com and I will give you my PayPal address!