[2:00:53 AM] *** Call from Tristan ***
[2:02:43 AM] *** Call ended, duration 01:47 ***
[2:03:26 AM] Cam (Krow): kay
[2:03:28 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm clearly awful
[2:03:34 AM] Cam (Krow): cuz I don't want to hear you yelling and screaming at me
[2:03:36 AM] Cam (Krow): when I'm tired
[2:03:42 AM] Cam (Krow): for literally no reasonable reason
[2:05:11 AM] Tristan: Kay, you're just gonna keep that up, wasn't even yelling, but you know, okay, apparently I was yelling. And you don't know why I freaked out before. you literally never take time to check in on me, oh hey, why have you stopped talking, why are you so fucking quiet. Blah blah, but no, you don't give a fuck, it's just I say something or you don't care.
[2:05:17 AM] Cam (Krow): you were yelling
[2:05:26 AM] Tristan: Oh, wow.
[2:05:30 AM] Tristan: That's all that matters.
[2:05:30 AM] Cam (Krow): I don't 'take time' to check in on you
[2:05:32 AM] Cam (Krow): because when I do
[2:05:35 AM] Cam (Krow): you yell at me liek that
[2:05:39 AM] Cam (Krow): or sound like you don't care
[2:05:41 AM] Cam (Krow): or you're not interested
[2:05:42 AM] Cam (Krow): it's always
[2:05:44 AM] Cam (Krow): 'fuck you cam'
[2:05:46 AM] Cam (Krow): 'all your fault cam'
[2:05:48 AM] Cam (Krow): and I really
[2:05:52 AM] Cam (Krow): don't need any more negativity right now
[2:05:58 AM] Cam (Krow): seeing how fucking horribly depressed I am
[2:05:59 AM] Cam (Krow): but
[2:06:01 AM] Cam (Krow): whatever
[2:06:11 AM] Tristan: Okay, now you're making assumptions now. I had something happy to say, but then you weren't picking up.
[2:06:14 AM] Tristan: And why so depressed.
[2:06:19 AM] Tristan: Never told me you were depressed.
[2:06:21 AM] Cam (Krow): Because you wanted to fucking leave me?
[2:06:26 AM] Tristan: UGH!
[2:06:28 AM] Tristan: I said.
[2:06:28 AM] Tristan: Before.
[2:06:29 AM] Tristan: That no,
[2:06:33 AM] Tristan: That wasn't even it.
[2:06:36 AM] Tristan: I was freaking out.
[2:06:36 AM] Tristan: Whatever.
[2:06:40 AM] Tristan: Now you're just dwelling on it.
[2:06:42 AM] Tristan: So kay.
[2:06:45 AM] Cam (Krow): Why wouldn't I?
[2:06:51 AM] Cam (Krow): The thought went through your mind
[2:06:54 AM] Cam (Krow): "I want to leave him"
[2:07:00 AM] Cam (Krow): why wouldn't that bother me?
[2:07:07 AM] Cam (Krow): You don't want me
[2:07:10 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm not good enough
[2:07:12 AM] Tristan: Who said I wanted to.
[2:07:14 AM] Cam (Krow): Why would that
[2:07:15 AM] Cam (Krow): bother me?
[2:07:19 AM] Cam (Krow): YOU said you wanted to
[2:07:25 AM] Tristan: Ever heard of people saying shit without thinking.
[2:07:29 AM] Cam (Krow): I've been sitting here for 3 days
[2:07:37 AM] Cam (Krow): thinking about how garbage I am
[2:07:41 AM] Cam (Krow): how low I am
[2:07:50 AM] Cam (Krow): because I'm not good enough
[2:07:54 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm so obviously not good enough
[2:07:59 AM] Cam (Krow): because if I was good enough
[2:08:02 AM] Cam (Krow): you wouldn't think that
[2:08:04 AM] Cam (Krow): you wouldn't say that
[2:08:07 AM] Tristan: No, said i wasn't thinking, but okay, I said shit without thinking, I SAID I FREAKED OUT.
[2:08:12 AM] Tristan: Fucking stop with that shit, asshole.
[2:08:26 AM] Cam (Krow): Well
[2:08:38 AM] Cam (Krow): This is the result of you not thinking I guess.
[2:08:47 AM] Cam (Krow): and I don't know how to make it better
[2:08:51 AM] Cam (Krow): because I'm really fucking hurt
[2:08:55 AM] Cam (Krow): and really fucked up
[2:09:01 AM] Tristan: Well excuse me, I'd love to sit here and keep saying sorry, but I already did that, and you kept saying it's fine, you kept saying it's fine, and then you acted happy.
[2:09:04 AM] Tristan: But okay, you lied to me.
[2:09:05 AM] Tristan: I get it.
[2:09:07 AM] Cam (Krow): and every time we talk
[2:09:12 AM] Cam (Krow): I try so hard to be happy
[2:09:15 AM] Cam (Krow): and all you do is yell at me
[2:09:19 AM] Cam (Krow): and tell me shit's my fault
[2:09:20 AM] Cam (Krow): and
[2:09:25 AM] Cam (Krow): all this shit that just doesn't fucking help me
[2:09:46 AM] Tristan: What's your fault, how I said something was your fault when I'm playing a game, but I'm being silly? Can you not fucking tell what a joke is? What the fuck is wrong with you.
[2:09:52 AM] Tristan: All this shit that doesn't help you.
[2:09:56 AM] Cam (Krow): I told you what was wrong with me
[2:09:57 AM] Tristan: BECAUSE YOU DON'T ASK FOR HELp.
[2:10:02 AM] Tristan: STOP INTERRUPTING ME.
[2:12:03 AM] Tristan: You don't ask for fucking help you act fucking happy, so how the fuck would I know when you're a fucking wreck, asshole? You piss me off when you just tell me I'm not helping I do a bunch of shit that doesn't help, when you're not even signalling your distress, I've had it, I'm done, I'm done being told I've basically been useless, when there was basically nothing I could have done because I had no glimpse of the fucking problem. Now you're just doing this, you just come out of nowhere again, with this fucking shit, and it's like, where was this three days ago then moron, it would have fucking helped me understand, so I could help you, I want to help you, but if you're just going to do this bullshit, then forget it.
[2:13:01 AM] Tristan: I act silly, say these stupid things when I'm playing a game compulsively, it doesn't even mean anything and you get mad/defensive about it, like, whatever.
[2:13:20 AM] Tristan: You get pissed off because it isn't helping you, well sorry, you didn't seem upset until you fucking snapped at me.
[2:14:01 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm sorry. You didn't know anything was wrong and you're right.
[2:14:12 AM] Cam (Krow): I just... didn't want you to feel like you were the cause, or didn't want you to bring me down with you.
[2:14:17 AM] Cam (Krow): So I didn't tell you.
[2:14:24 AM] Cam (Krow): err
[2:14:26 AM] Cam (Krow): bring you down with me
[2:15:02 AM] Tristan: I wouldn't act a certain way, if I just knew, because then I know what a god damn limit is, and pff, you're sorry, just now, you realize this, okay.
[2:15:26 AM] Cam (Krow): I don't need that fucking attitude
[2:15:27 AM] Cam (Krow): jesus
[2:15:38 AM] Tristan: There you go again.
[2:15:43 AM | Edited 2:15:44 AM] Cam (Krow): Because you keep doing that shit
[2:15:48 AM] Cam (Krow): now you know how I feel
[2:15:50 AM] Tristan: You know what no.
[2:15:54 AM] Cam (Krow): you said you wanna help
[2:16:01 AM] Cam (Krow): do you?
[2:17:12 AM] Tristan: Don't even talk to me like that, I've had just about enough, it's just gonna keep happening the same way, I reinvoke what I said when I freaked out, that is how it's gonna be, it's over, until you can get your shit together, because it sure as hell isn't making it any easier for me when I try.
[2:20:15 AM] Cam (Krow): Sorry for ruining your night.
[2:20:41 AM] Tristan: Maybe.. You didn't pay attention to what I just said.
[2:21:11 AM] Cam (Krow): I did I just understand what you're saying.
[2:21:38 AM] Tristan: I don't think you do.
[2:22:51 AM] Cam (Krow): At least, way I see it, you're probably dumping me.
[2:23:17 AM] Tristan: Nevermind, you do get it..
[2:23:31 AM] Cam (Krow): I just don't get why
[2:23:33 AM] Cam (Krow): but
[2:23:35 AM] Cam (Krow): whatever
[2:23:40 AM] Tristan: I said why...
[2:23:48 AM] Cam (Krow): no it's fine
[2:23:53 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm sorry I wasn't good enough after all
[2:25:12 AM] Cam (Krow): are you serious?
[2:25:13 AM] Cam (Krow): It's over?
[2:25:20 AM] Cam (Krow): just like that
[2:25:30 AM] Tristan: What is your issue now...
[2:25:46 AM] Cam (Krow): you're seriously ending it just like that?
[2:25:50 AM] Cam (Krow): like...
[2:25:54 AM] Cam (Krow): that's it?
[2:26:11 AM] Tristan: that is how it's gonna be, it's over, until you can get your shit together, because it sure as hell isn't making it any easier for me when I try.
[2:26:25 AM] Cam (Krow): I appologized
[2:26:28 AM] Cam (Krow): I asked for help
[2:26:33 AM] Cam (Krow): I don't know what more you want from me
[2:26:42 AM] Cam (Krow): I don't know
[2:26:47 AM] Cam (Krow): how I can be any fucking better than that
[2:27:20 AM | Edited 2:27:22 AM] Cam (Krow): tell me
[2:27:45 AM] Cam (Krow): because I don't do 'breaks'
[2:27:48 AM] Cam (Krow): and you want to help
[2:27:49 AM] Cam (Krow): so help.
[2:27:52 AM] Tristan: it's just gonna keep happening the same way,
[2:28:00 AM] Cam (Krow): It's not going to keep happening
[2:28:02 AM] Cam (Krow): Help me.
[2:28:06 AM] Cam (Krow): Don't make it worse.
[2:28:10 AM] Cam (Krow): You said you wanna help, then help.
[2:28:43 AM] Tristan: But then you so talked to me that way so I've had enough. Nope, until you can get your shit together.
[2:28:54 AM] Cam (Krow): and pff, you're sorry, just now, you realize this, okay.
[2:28:58 AM] Cam (Krow): This is why I said it that way
[2:29:01 AM] Cam (Krow): because you talked to me that way
[2:29:04 AM] Cam (Krow): like what I said didn't matter
[2:29:09 AM] Cam (Krow): like my apology didn't matter
[2:29:11 AM] Cam (Krow): like I don't fucking matter
[2:29:21 AM] Cam (Krow): which clearly I don't, since you're ready to just throw me away that easily
[2:29:28 AM] Cam (Krow): I asked for help
[2:29:32 AM] Cam (Krow): and this is what you say
[2:29:32 AM] Cam (Krow): and pff, you're sorry, just now, you realize this, okay.
[2:29:40 AM] Tristan: N' talking to me that way now, I see.
[2:29:52 AM] Cam (Krow): I give up
[2:30:34 AM] Cam (Krow): I just want things to be okay
[2:30:36 AM] Cam (Krow): and you just
[2:30:38 AM] Cam (Krow): won't let them
[2:30:43 AM] Cam (Krow): I just want to not cry
[2:30:47 AM] Cam (Krow): for one day this week
[2:31:16 AM] Tristan: Okay, talking to me like that now, okay, apparently I'm evil, and wont let things be okay, the more you talk to me like this, no, s'not changing.
[2:31:26 AM] Cam (Krow): You're not evl
[2:31:33 AM] Cam (Krow): You're just the one breaking up with me over this shit
[2:32:05 AM] Cam (Krow): I said sorry
[2:32:12 AM] Cam (Krow): Tell me what you want
[2:32:16 AM] Cam (Krow): because you havn't done that yet
[2:32:22 AM] Cam (Krow): tell me how to make it better
[2:32:23 AM] Tristan: I've tried to fucking argue before that you're being stupid, and I'm trying to help, and then you just say sorry, and keep doing you're mask shit, so until you can change/get your shit together. No.
[2:32:34 AM] Cam (Krow): I
[2:32:35 AM] Cam (Krow): cant
[2:32:35 AM] Cam (Krow): do
[2:32:36 AM] Cam (Krow): it
[2:32:37 AM] Cam (Krow): alone
[2:33:01 AM] Cam (Krow): but if you really want it to be over that bad
[2:33:02 AM] Cam (Krow): fine
[2:33:13 AM] Cam (Krow): you obviously really mean it
[2:33:24 AM] Cam (Krow): sorry my love was such a problem.
[2:34:28 AM] Tristan: See, you're doing it again, proves my point, stop staring the situation in the face like it's a nightmare that will be over, I did that too many times.
[2:34:32 AM] Cam (Krow): Tristan
[2:34:39 AM] Cam (Krow): You don't seem to understand what you're saying to me.
[2:34:54 AM] Cam (Krow): I don't ask for help, I hide it all, bottle it all in, and I'm in the wrong.
[2:35:04 AM] Cam (Krow): I put it out there, ask for you to help, beg for you to help, I'm in the wrong.
[2:35:10 AM] Cam (Krow): Please tell me what the fuck I'm suppose to do.
[2:35:26 AM] Tristan: I do understand because I know what it is, don`t speak to me like I'm a child. And no.
[2:35:54 AM] Cam (Krow): If you're breaking up with me over this, this is just a last straw type deal isn't it...
[2:36:08 AM] Cam (Krow): I can't have a moment of weakness?
[2:36:12 AM] Cam (Krow): Didn't you just have one a few days ago?
[2:36:18 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm not allowed to be upset.
[2:36:31 AM] Cam (Krow): I even asked for help
[2:36:44 AM] Cam (Krow): I'm done begging, fuck it
[2:36:55 AM] Cam (Krow): I'll take my tears somewhere else I guess, say whatever you gotta say.
[2:37:08 AM] Cam (Krow): You clearly don't care.