[7:07:14 PM] Alexandru: Y'know what sucks ? That the one leg hurts like bad
[7:16:33 PM] Andrea: o.o the leg you hurt a while back that you told me about on cam?
[7:16:44 PM] Alexandru: Yes..
[7:16:45 PM] Andrea: Aww D: that does suck
[7:17:48 PM] Andrea: Did you go to the gym today?
[7:18:07 PM] Alexandru: To get the membership becuz I didn't have much time
[7:18:19 PM] Andrea: Also, putting heat on your leg may help
[7:18:45 PM] Alexandru: I'm not sure
[7:18:59 PM] Alexandru: It's ot like I bumped it into something
[7:19:05 PM] Alexandru: it's like in between the knee and the ankle
[7:19:15 PM] Alexandru: Whenever I flex my leg, it hurts
[7:19:21 PM] Alexandru: Or when I take the step, it hurts
[7:19:40 PM] Andrea: I know, that's why the heat will help. If you had hit it youd need cold on it
[7:20:22 PM] Alexandru: I'll try it out and see what it does
[7:21:38 PM] Andrea: Okay good (cat)
[7:21:47 PM] Alexandru: yeha
[7:21:53 PM] Andrea: Not too hot, just like really warm
[7:21:58 PM] Alexandru: Ok
[7:22:00 PM] Andrea: How are you doing today?
[8:08:22 PM] Alexandru: sorry for not seeing your answer
[8:08:30 PM] Alexandru: I'm still not fine
[9:09:34 PM] Andrea: Its okay and, I'm sorry to hear
[9:09:45 PM] Alexandru: No, not that
[9:09:45 PM] Andrea: -tilts head-
[9:09:47 PM] Alexandru: well still
[9:09:48 PM] Alexandru: it's just
[9:14:24 PM] Alexandru: idk ... maybe I should just keep it to myself ...
[9:15:23 PM] Andrea: You can open yourself up to me, caim.
[9:17:56 PM] Alexandru: I knew it would feel like this again
[9:18:04 PM] Alexandru: I first began to bike around
[9:18:16 PM] Alexandru: After working in the stables
[9:18:20 PM] Alexandru: going to the gym and then back
[9:18:28 PM] Alexandru: And when I wanted to come back, I wanted to bike around a bit
[9:18:41 PM] Alexandru: Without even consciously knowing that I retriggered
[9:18:48 PM] Alexandru: Like this sudden speed thing
[9:18:56 PM] Alexandru: with the low part of my own heartbeat
[9:18:57 PM] Alexandru: I mean
[9:18:58 PM] Alexandru: I was biking fast
[9:19:05 PM] Alexandru: and I was like breathing normal to it
[9:19:13 PM] Alexandru: Like something I did daily
[9:19:20 PM] Alexandru: And I remember not doing anything like biking
[9:19:30 PM] Alexandru: until the last two weeks
[9:19:49 PM] Andrea: Uh huh o.o I see
[9:20:03 PM] Alexandru: Problem is that it's like my dreams
[9:20:10 PM] Alexandru: I do things which seem fast
[9:20:14 PM] Alexandru: but I act normal to it
[9:20:24 PM] Alexandru: and then in my dream, afterwards I become viciously angry
[9:20:31 PM] Alexandru: this one excitement running through me
[9:20:53 PM] Alexandru: And then comes the one thing that keeps on triggering
[9:21:00 PM] Alexandru: it's the screaming
[9:21:07 PM] Alexandru: like some sort of outburst of power
[9:21:10 PM] Alexandru: of more pleasure
[9:21:27 PM] Alexandru: like some exctasy
[9:21:45 PM] Alexandru: This feeling was so extraordinary
[9:21:57 PM] Alexandru: I begin snarling, growling, roaring
[9:22:24 PM] Alexandru: while running I just couldn't stop thinking of one thing that kept me triggered
[9:22:49 PM] Alexandru: I wanted to stop running but instead I became so unbearable angry
[9:23:05 PM] Alexandru: His words still running through my head
[9:23:18 PM] Alexandru: So then I started screaming angrily
[9:23:40 PM] Andrea: In the dream?
[9:23:50 PM] Alexandru: And irl
[9:24:15 PM] Andrea: huh o.o
[9:24:27 PM] Andrea: I see. -nods- At least you're letting your anger out
[9:24:33 PM] Alexandru: [Tuesday, July 29, 2014 3:46 AM] toketsuyuki:

<<< Alex. Listen. You need to stop this. You are hurting her. You are making her come to tears and frankly, it isn't right. If you do love her as you claim, you will be a damn adult and respect her decision.
[9:25:20 PM] Alexandru: And the fact she let him talk to me like that ...
[9:26:10 PM] Alexandru: In the very moment when I was so devastated ...
[9:26:16 PM] Alexandru: It just makes me so angry ...
[9:28:12 PM] Andrea: -tilts head- that's what he said?
[9:28:44 PM] Alexandru: ... Yes.
[9:31:20 PM] Andrea: I'm sorry but you made it seem like he insulted you. I mean, yeah he should butt out of it but I don't really see anything necessarily "bad" abut what he said. did he say anything else?
[9:31:45 PM] Alexandru: It's the fact she let him talk this way to me
[9:32:02 PM] Andrea: Do you thinks he might've vened to him and he came to you on his own?
[9:32:03 PM] Alexandru: That what he says is so much like he thinks he has control over me
[9:32:12 PM] Alexandru: She let him say this as if he had any regards for it to do so
[9:32:22 PM] Alexandru: While he had no part in what's was going on between me nadh er
[9:32:35 PM] Alexandru: No, she brought him in
[9:32:40 PM] Alexandru: And he wanted to talk to me
[9:32:44 PM] Andrea: -sigh- okay. How long have you and natalie been ON/OFF?
[9:32:53 PM] Alexandru: On off ?
[9:33:08 PM] Andrea: yeah. you guys haven't been together this ENTIRE time.
[9:33:23 PM] Alexandru: Since somewhere around the end of June...
[9:33:37 PM] Andrea: I meant altogether.
[9:33:39 PM] Andrea: like
[9:33:41 PM] Andrea: throught these years.
[9:33:44 PM] Andrea: through out*
[9:33:45 PM] Alexandru: Almost for two years
[9:33:49 PM] Andrea: Exactly.
[9:34:09 PM] Andrea: If you guys were meant to be together, you would have stayed together those two whole years, not constantly on and off.
[9:34:22 PM] Andrea: I'm going to give it to you straight
[9:34:24 PM] Alexandru: So what you're saying is we're not meant to be together ?
[9:34:28 PM] Andrea: You  have been through way worse than this.
[9:34:33 PM] Andrea: WAY worse.
[9:34:41 PM] Andrea: Just look at your entire life.
[9:35:24 PM] Andrea: And through all that, you made it this far, and you're going to let some girl who you probably aren't meant to be with, get you so down that you probably hardly eat, hardly sleep, and you're letting some ass face, that while he makes a valid point should keep out of it, get to you.
[9:35:54 PM] Alexandru: Wait, what ? A valid point ?!!
[9:36:11 PM] Andrea: Well yeah. you SHOULD stop. you're hurting yourself
[9:36:13 PM] Alexandru: That what he says is a valid point ?
[9:36:22 PM] Andrea: the stopping part, yeah.
[9:36:23 PM] Alexandru: He's saying this about Natalie ...
[9:36:23 PM] Andrea: o-o
[9:36:34 PM] Andrea: I don't care about natalie, im talking about you.
[9:36:41 PM] Alexandru: I don't want his point !!
[9:36:49 PM] Andrea: i know that.
[9:36:54 PM] Andrea: im not saying he's right
[9:37:04 PM] Andrea: but his stopping idea might be good for you.
[9:37:15 PM] Andrea: Look how you've been lately. :c this isn't healthy.
[9:37:16 PM] Alexandru: -Glares.- ...
[9:37:52 PM] Andrea: Glare at me all you want. I told you I will give it to you straight. That's what friends are for.
[9:38:09 PM] Alexandru: We're done here...
[9:38:11 PM] Andrea: if you want, forget what he said
[9:38:18 PM] Andrea: ~_~'
[9:38:20 PM] Alexandru: This only fueld my anger...
[9:38:25 PM] Andrea: fine alex. good night.