Whaddaya think? Half decent moirallegiance?

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[23:26] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu would have stopped yourself once you entered the hospital and saw their conditions.
[23:27] <aimlessCanine> I don't believe that for a minute; you don't give yourself enough credit.
[23:28] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu give me too much, all I Did was throw myself before you like a fool.
[23:29] <aimlessCanine> Yeah, but that takes a mile o' guts to stand up for what you believe in.
[23:30] <aimlessCanine> You were scared and sad, and you did it anyway, Levi.
[23:32] <arthurianNoblesse> I Didn't feel like I Was doing anything all that impressive, especially as I Eventually simply broke down and cried into your duster.
[23:34] <arthurianNoblesse> ANd as a result of all that nonsense, I Alienated everyone, and went back on what I Said anyways in the hopes of peace, the terms of which I Couldn't even fulfill.
[23:35] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu and LIly summed up my strength eloquently within that conversation, I Am not strong enough bear a place near either of you physically or emotionally.
[23:36] <aimlessCanine> There's no shame in catharsis, Levi.
[23:36] <aimlessCanine> You do what you need to.
[23:37] <aimlessCanine> You have what it takes, Levi.
[23:38] <arthurianNoblesse> NO, I Don't.
[23:39] <arthurianNoblesse> I Don't have what it takes for anything.
[23:40] <aimlessCanine> Yeah, but I don't believe that. I saw how you fought against Purson.
[23:40] <aimlessCanine> That said, I would advise against such low blows in the future. Kinda made me wince.
[23:41] <arthurianNoblesse> PUrson was different.
[23:41] <arthurianNoblesse> I Was so angry at him, after he perverted my sister's memory in such a manner.
[23:42] <aimlessCanine> But it shows you have drive, and you have skill, regardless.
[23:42] <aimlessCanine> Your prowess with a blade is equal to mine with a gun.
[23:43] <aimlessCanine> ((Mechanically, you know this to be true; +5 mods))
[23:43] <arthurianNoblesse> PErhaps, you may be correct in regards to my physical skill, though I Harbor my doubts, but I Don't have drive, not as you do.
[23:43] <arthurianNoblesse> ((Lel))
[23:44] <aimlessCanine> Even the best of us falter at certain points in our path.
[23:45] <aimlessCanine> We may weep, pull our hair, and gnash our teeth
[23:45] <aimlessCanine> But it makes little difference to Skaia.
[23:47] <arthurianNoblesse> OH to hell with it, ROland, there's something I Need to tell you.
[23:47] <aimlessCanine> Fire away. My ears are yours.
[23:48] <arthurianNoblesse> LAst night, or I Believe it was last night, you said that I Had taken a vow that I Would never use my sword to harm innocents.
[23:49] <arthurianNoblesse> WHile that is not untrue, that's not why I Have such difficulty harming people.
[23:51] <aimlessCanine> Why is that?
[23:52] <arthurianNoblesse> IT's EVerytime I Hurt someone, it feels as though I"m just cutting through my sister again. ANd I"M NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THAT>
[23:52] <arthurianNoblesse> WHEN I WAS EXECUTING THAT IMP AT THE HOSPITAL< TRYING IN VAIN TO CREATE THAT PEACE< I SAW MY SISTER INSTEAD< AND I STABBED HER OVER AND OVER AGAIN>
[23:53] <aimlessCanine> Hm. But perhaps... Tell me the story.
[23:53] <aimlessCanine> Tell me of your sister. Please.
[23:53] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu mean, when I Hurt her?
[23:54] <aimlessCanine> Aye, for our Father's sake.
[23:56] <arthurianNoblesse> I Can try, but I Don't know, before I Began this game, I Tried so hard to block it out, and it just kept surfacing, I Could barely even spar with her.
[23:57] <arthurianNoblesse> WHenever I"d start remembering it, I"d go back to it, like I Was living it again.
[23:58] <arthurianNoblesse> I"d, I Don't know, come to somewhere, curled up on the ground, my cheeks wet with tears.
[23:58] <aimlessCanine> Please, don't push it.
[23:58] <aimlessCanine> If it's something you need to confide to me in person, I'd be more than happy to wait.
[23:59] <arthurianNoblesse> NO.
[23:59] <arthurianNoblesse> MAybe, the computer helps.
[23:59] <arthurianNoblesse> I Can distance myself, I Don't know if I Could have even begun to say this in person.
[00:00] <arthurianNoblesse> ALright, I Suppose I"ll begin telling it then.
[00:01] <aimlessCanine> ((My b; I'm back for good))
[00:01] <arthurianNoblesse> ((aight))
[00:01] <aimlessCanine> Tell away. Take your time.
[00:02] <arthurianNoblesse> IT was after she had been away on business.
[00:03] <arthurianNoblesse> SHe always used to spend a day in her room, recuperating, I Suppose, though she never told me from what.
[00:04] <arthurianNoblesse> THis time, I Believe she did not feel the need to, she began to act as normal from the moment she returned.
[00:05] <arthurianNoblesse> IN retrospect, I Ought to have noticed something was amiss, I Ought to have suggested that we not spar that day, or some other method of preventing what occurred.
[00:06] <aimlessCanine> Go on. I know this is difficult for you, so take your time.
[00:07] <arthurianNoblesse> I Think, instead of noticing anything wrong, I Was just glad that she was willing to spend time with me after having been away.
[00:08] <arthurianNoblesse> REgardless, we took up our usual positions in *THE DOJO*>
[00:09] <arthurianNoblesse> I Should have asked that we stop the match the moment I WItnessed her behaving oddly.
[00:10] <arthurianNoblesse> I Know not why I Failed to, I Suppose I Simply did not think to question her, after so long spent training me without any mishaps.
[00:11] <arthurianNoblesse> HEr movements, her coordination, everything, was off.
[00:12] <arthurianNoblesse> IT was all wrong, different from how I"d seen her, that was the only time I Believe I Had something resembling an advantage in one of our matches.
[00:12] <arthurianNoblesse> I Pushed it, as she had taught me.
[00:14] <arthurianNoblesse> ANd then, I Don't know how exactly I Ought to describe it, but she seemed to lose control.
[00:14] <aimlessCanine> She fought with unusual ferocity?
[00:15] <arthurianNoblesse> ONe could phrase it that way, but I Am unsure as to whether it would do it justice.
[00:16] <arthurianNoblesse> I Was terrified, but instead of asking for a cessation then, I Just tried to defend.
[00:16] <aimlessCanine> What the... So she seemed to be... Trying to actually hurt you?
[00:17] <arthurianNoblesse> I Don't know, she should have been more than skilled enough to have been able to do so if she wished, but nonetheless behind her blows, I Could feel something.
[00:19] <arthurianNoblesse> WHatever it was, I Finally managed to create a space between us.
[00:20] <arthurianNoblesse> FOr a moment, we both stood still, I Attempting to catch my breath, and her, simply standing.
[00:21] <arthurianNoblesse> AFter that, it is a blur.
[00:22] <arthurianNoblesse> SHe was standing, and then she moved, and I Moved, and then I Was standing, and I Heard her fall behind me.
[00:22] <arthurianNoblesse> I Still remember it so well, the sound of her body hitting the floor, the blood dripping off my sword, the panic as I Turned around and saw what I"d wrought.
[00:23] <arthurianNoblesse> I Ran over to her, and tried my best to staunch the bleeding.
[00:24] <arthurianNoblesse> GOd, there was so much blood.
[00:24] <aimlessCanine> Did she... Did she die?
[00:25] <arthurianNoblesse> NO, she survived.
[00:25] <aimlessCanine> Praise God for the small blessings.
[00:26] <arthurianNoblesse> I Must have called some paramedics, but all I Remember is kneeling next to her, praying that she would be alright.
[00:27] <arthurianNoblesse> I Awoke in a hospital later, I Think I Was in shock, so they were monitoring me.
[00:28] <aimlessCanine> Shock is a dangerous thing. And what of your sister?
[00:29] <arthurianNoblesse> SHe wasn't with me, I Ran to find her as fast as I Could, faster actually.
[00:31] <arthurianNoblesse> WHen I Found her, I Wasn't sure what to do.
[00:32] <arthurianNoblesse> I Remember feeling so many emotions, but she just reached out to me.
[00:33] <arthurianNoblesse> I just started sobbing, and hugged her.
[00:34] <arthurianNoblesse> WE were discharged later, neither of us permanently damaged from the incident.
[00:34] <aimlessCanine> What happened after that?
[00:35] <arthurianNoblesse> I Blunted my sword, and made my vow, and tried to return to normalcy.
[00:36] <arthurianNoblesse> I Felt so guilty, it was hard to even meet her eyes afterwards.
[00:37] <aimlessCanine> Hm.
[00:37] <aimlessCanine> That gives me some thought.
[00:37] <arthurianNoblesse> ANd I Couldn't fight her, couldn't train seriously, could barely wield my sword, without being there.
[00:38] <arthurianNoblesse> ANd then, she told me we had to talk about it, and I Couldn't, so she left.
[00:38] <aimlessCanine> Let me ask: had that incident never happened, do you reckon you'd be playing this game differently?
[00:39] <arthurianNoblesse> OF course, if it hadn't happened, I Would not see her every time I fought.
[00:40] <arthurianNoblesse> EVery time I Tried to kill.
[00:40] <aimlessCanine> Don't say "tried", Levi; deaths are deaths, and they're still on our hands.
[00:41] <aimlessCanine> But, that aside...
[00:41] <aimlessCanine> I think... I think blunting your sword, it's a sign of lost faith.
[00:42] <aimlessCanine> You... Don't trust yourself, right? That's what I think it means.
[00:42] <aimlessCanine> But far be it from me to make assumptions.
[00:42] <aimlessCanine> Just give some thought.
[00:43] <arthurianNoblesse> WAit, you don't hate me?
[00:43] <aimlessCanine> No. Why would I hate you?
[00:44] <arthurianNoblesse> BEcause I Can't work past this, because I"m letting this thing which happened hold myself back so horribly, because I"m too weak to do what needs to be done.
[00:45] <arthurianNoblesse> I"m pathetically letting myself be crushed beneath this, when I Ought to be strong enough to continue onwards, and fight so that I Can protect my friends rather than be a burden.
[00:45] <aimlessCanine> The only weakness you have, in my view, which is slightly more mature than last time, is that you don't believe what you do, what you believe in, is the right thing.
[00:45] <aimlessCanine> Like I said: We're all doing what we THINK is right.
[00:45] <aimlessCanine> Sometimes, others get hurt in the path of our righteousness.
[00:46] <aimlessCanine> When you see that happen? Everything comes down to our choices. We alone can evaluate our own paradigms.
[00:46] <aimlessCanine> And my greatest failure to you was thinking I could influence yours.
[00:46] <aimlessCanine> Or thinking I had any right to.
[00:49] <arthurianNoblesse> THank you, ROland.
[00:50] <aimlessCanine> So, in the end, I leave the decision to fly to me up to you. I'd much sooner have you at my side, though.
[00:50] <arthurianNoblesse> I"ll think on it, I Still must find my way out of my third gate, and I Believe LIly is attempting to contact me.
[00:51] <aimlessCanine> I must speak with her, as well.
[00:51] <aimlessCanine> Did you see her memo?
[00:51] <aimlessCanine> I suppose she aims to tier.
[00:51] <aimlessCanine> Make no mistake, I'm slightly jealous.
[00:52] <arthurianNoblesse> I"m worried, I Dislike the idea of her killing herself, even if it is not permanent.
[00:53] <aimlessCanine> I'll probably end up doing so myself.
[00:53] <arthurianNoblesse> I Suppose it does not mean a great deal that I Am worried, I"ve been assured by quite a large quantity I Do it too much.
[00:53] <aimlessCanine> One of my driving forces is keeping up with her.
[00:55] <aimlessCanine> Evey once asked me what my greatest fear was. You'll probably scold me for telling you, but,
[00:55] <aimlessCanine> I'm terrified of having to fight a comrade.
[00:56] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu're afraid I Will scold you, because you fear that comrade will be LIly.
[00:57] <aimlessCanine> It could be anyone, but I've always suspected that it'd be Lily.
[00:57] <aimlessCanine> Hah! Here I am talking about belief in yourself, and I don't believe in her.
[00:58] <aimlessCanine> But it's why I put the kibosh on the kismessitude.
[00:59] <aimlessCanine> I didn't trust her-or myself, really-not to escalate it.
[01:00] <arthurianNoblesse> WEll, I Believe she will never put us in a position where fighting her is necessary, so perhaps I Ought to believe in her for you?
[01:00] <aimlessCanine> Hm. That doesn't mean I don't want to help her.
[01:00] <aimlessCanine> It also doesn't mean I'll abandon her.
[01:02] <arthurianNoblesse> I Did not believe you would, but, when you lack faith in her, is it the worst idea that I Assist? IS that not what moirails are for?
[01:02] <aimlessCanine> I am tempted to say that the only way I can assuage my fears is to keep up with or surpass her.
[01:03] <aimlessCanine> But that would merely become the escalation I spoke of earlier, wouldn't it?
[01:03] <aimlessCanine> The reason we better ourselves shouldn't be some garbage sense of competition or fear.
[01:04] <arthurianNoblesse> NO, it should not.
[01:05] <aimlessCanine> Did you see that selfie I uploaded with Evey? You know what I got for shaving my head?
[01:06] <aimlessCanine> "Remember what you're fighting for." Good grief, as if I don't think about it all the time.
[01:06] <arthurianNoblesse> I Had not actually checked that, I Have been in a bit of what one might describe as a "Funk"< recently.
[01:06] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu shaved your head for that?
[01:07] <aimlessCanine> Well, not for that. I got something else for it, too. That's less important, though.
[01:08] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, very well then.
[01:08] <arthurianNoblesse> GOOD LORD ROLAND< WHAT HAPPENED TO EVEY?
[01:08] <aimlessCanine> Haha, she became of flesh, and the surgeon withheld something very important from her.
[01:09] <aimlessCanine> She thirsts for blood-any blood will do-and no longer takes the organic comforts of sleep and food.
[01:09] <aimlessCanine> But, truly, the Lord remains with her, as he has with me.
[01:10] <aimlessCanine> She set off on her own.
[01:10] <aimlessCanine> I was to accompany her, but she tranq'd me.
[01:10] <aimlessCanine> I woke up at Lily's house. Maria was... Being Maria.
[01:10] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, yes she is wont to do that.
[01:11] <aimlessCanine> We spoke, and then I decided picking a fight was the best way to pass the time until her return.
[01:11] <arthurianNoblesse> YOu believe EVey will be well then? I Will not be false, the idea of her setting off into this game alone worries me.
[01:12] <aimlessCanine> She sent me an email. It deleted itself after 60 seconds.
[01:12] <aimlessCanine> It was a picture of her hand, holding a crudely drawn heart.
[01:13] <aimlessCanine> An intravenous needle was in her arm.
[01:13] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, I See.
[01:13] <arthurianNoblesse> OH>
[01:15] <aimlessCanine> I suppose she'll be well. She's always been one of skill.
[01:16] <arthurianNoblesse> WEll, if you believe so, I Shall trust your judgement, you know her best, after all.
[01:17] <aimlessCanine> Alright. I gotta go. My quarry stands before me, unaware of my presence.
[01:17] <arthurianNoblesse> I Suppose I Have taken enough of your time, ROland, and I Wish to speak with LIly before she GOd TIers.
[01:17] <aimlessCanine> Oh, great minds think alike, I suppose.
[01:17] <arthurianNoblesse> IT would seem that way.
[01:17] <aimlessCanine> Anyway, long days and pleasant nights, Levi.
[01:17] <arthurianNoblesse> AU revoire, Roland.
[01:18]  * aimlessCanine has gone to offline status!
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